how could I be such an idiot

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  • NY PJ1
    NY PJ1 Posts: 9,533
    GreenTeaDisease wrote:
    I go to bed at 9:30-10, in the past I've gone to bed at 9, but I've realized it actually doesn't make a difference because I just don't go to sleep. I'm not really sleeping most of the time in the morning, I'm just not GETTING UP. I hid the remote to my alarm clock on the other side of the house, I don't use it anymore to snooze. I wake up at the proper time, but then I just lie there and get anxious about going to the gym and dread going to work.


    honestly if this is all true

    i would go to a dr. and get some happy pills

    im not making a joke here neither , something has to change
    and if it means taking a pill here and there to help u cope with life i think its the move to make
  • GreenTeaDisease
    GreenTeaDisease Posts: 3,359
    Rygar wrote:
    Do you get up and turn your alarm clock off, or is it within reach of your bed?
    Put it somewhere that you have to get out of bed to deal with.

    well the room is tiny, so even though it's on the other side of the room, it's still within reach. but I get up to go to the bathroom, I get up for a while and pace sometimes, but I just go back to bed.
  • The Champ
    The Champ Posts: 4,063
    libragirl wrote:
    they do?

    Yes, they certainly do. Hmm, so to stay on topic..I'll agree with the original posters colorful description of herself :)..
    'I want to hurry home to you
    put on a slow, dumb show for you
    and crack you up
    so you can put a blue ribbon on my brain
    god I'm very, very frightening
    and I'll overdo it'
  • NY PJ1
    NY PJ1 Posts: 9,533
    libragirl wrote:
    :confused:


    nevermind
  • Rygar
    Rygar Posts: 8,711
    GreenTeaDisease wrote:
    I just starting going to one about a month ago when I started having anxiety attacks every day. I just had one before I wrote this, it's the first one I've had in several weeks.
    I didn't think they were supposed to yell at you.
  • GreenTeaDisease
    GreenTeaDisease Posts: 3,359
    NY PJ1 wrote:
    honestly if this is all true

    i would go to a dr. and get some happy pills

    im not making a joke here neither , something has to change
    and if it means taking a pill here and there to help u cope with life i think its the move to make

    I'm on "happy pills"
    I completely lost it about a month ago-having anxiety attacks everyday, etc. and I went to 4 doctors. This is the first day since then that I've felt like this again. I can't live in this little office doing nothing all day and I can't live with myself for destroying my life!

    It could just be some PMDD coming back. It is the last week of my cycle.
  • libragirl
    libragirl Posts: 4,632
    NY PJ1 wrote:
    nevermind

    okay....


    Don't feel bad GTD. At least you weren't a idiot for a 4 years straight like I was. :)
    These cuts are leaving creases. Trace the scars to fit the pieces, to tell the story, you don't need to say a word.
  • The Champ
    The Champ Posts: 4,063
    NY PJ1 wrote:
    honestly if this is all true

    i would go to a dr. and get some happy pills

    im not making a joke here neither , something has to change
    and if it means taking a pill here and there to help u cope with life i think its the move to make

    I think she mentioned she's already on pills for multiple reasons..
    'I want to hurry home to you
    put on a slow, dumb show for you
    and crack you up
    so you can put a blue ribbon on my brain
    god I'm very, very frightening
    and I'll overdo it'
  • GreenTeaDisease
    GreenTeaDisease Posts: 3,359
    Rygar wrote:
    I didn't think they were supposed to yell at you.

    she doesn't yell, but she gets mad and scolds me and tells me how important it is and how I have to do and how it's easy and I should just do it. I know already!!!
  • The Champ
    The Champ Posts: 4,063
    GreenTeaDisease wrote:
    she doesn't yell, but she gets mad and scolds me and tells me how important it is and how I have to do and how it's easy and I should just do it. I know already!!!

    If I were her, I'd fire you :)..
    'I want to hurry home to you
    put on a slow, dumb show for you
    and crack you up
    so you can put a blue ribbon on my brain
    god I'm very, very frightening
    and I'll overdo it'
  • Rygar
    Rygar Posts: 8,711
    The Champ wrote:
    If I were her, I'd fire you :)..
    This is a good candidate for signature.
  • GreenTeaDisease
    GreenTeaDisease Posts: 3,359
    god, I just hate myself so much. I can't even take care of myself properly. it's thursday and I've only worked out once this week. Now I'm going to have to go tonight, but it since it's night it will be too crowded to lift, so I'll have to do more cardio, and I *NEED* lift!!! what the fuck was I thinking???
  • The Champ
    The Champ Posts: 4,063
    Rygar wrote:
    This is a good candidate for signature.

    Yeah, but it's kind of weak out of context and it'll get lost on people without the GTD reference/background info..
    'I want to hurry home to you
    put on a slow, dumb show for you
    and crack you up
    so you can put a blue ribbon on my brain
    god I'm very, very frightening
    and I'll overdo it'
  • urbanhippie
    urbanhippie Posts: 3,007
    GreenTeaDisease wrote:
    god, I just hate myself so much. I can't even take care of myself properly. it's thursday and I've only worked out once this week. Now I'm going to have to go tonight, but it since it's night it will be too crowded to lift, so I'll have to do more cardio, and I *NEED* lift!!! what the fuck was I thinking???
    You need more help than you're getting.
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  • edvedder913
    edvedder913 Posts: 1,810
    sound slike you may need a new therapist...
    and perhaps some anti depressants.

    you cannot blame yourself for chemical imbalances which is probably the cause for you feeling the way you do.

    unfortunately most therapists suck - hard to find a good one.
  • Rygar
    Rygar Posts: 8,711
    The Champ wrote:
    Yeah, but it's kind of weak out of context and it'll get lost on people without the GTD reference/background info..
    True...
  • The Champ
    The Champ Posts: 4,063
    GreenTeaDisease wrote:
    god, I just hate myself so much. I can't even take care of myself properly. it's thursday and I've only worked out once this week. Now I'm going to have to go tonight, but it since it's night it will be too crowded to lift, so I'll have to do more cardio, and I *NEED* lift!!! what the fuck was I thinking???

    What's your shrink's number? Seriously, pm me and I'll call him/her because you are losing it more than usual..Wow....
    'I want to hurry home to you
    put on a slow, dumb show for you
    and crack you up
    so you can put a blue ribbon on my brain
    god I'm very, very frightening
    and I'll overdo it'
  • The Champ
    The Champ Posts: 4,063
    GreenTeaDisease wrote:
    an excuse? I'm not making an excuse. this is my fault, I hate myself for it.

    Please reread everything you have ever written on this message board. All you do is make excuses for everything. You have to be kidding me with the above comment..
    'I want to hurry home to you
    put on a slow, dumb show for you
    and crack you up
    so you can put a blue ribbon on my brain
    god I'm very, very frightening
    and I'll overdo it'
  • GreenTeaDisease
    GreenTeaDisease Posts: 3,359
    The Champ wrote:
    Please reread everything you have ever written on this message board. All you do is make excuses for everything. You have to be kidding me with the above comment..

    I'm not making an excuse. *I* cannot get my ass up in the morning. it is *my* fault. there is *no* reason for it.
  • decides2dream
    decides2dream Posts: 14,977
    edvedder913 wrote:
    sounds like you may need a new therapist...
    and perhaps some anti depressants.

    you cannot blame yourself for chemical imbalances which is probably the cause for you feeling the way you do.

    .



    agreed.
    :)


    i also know this will follow with a list of reasons *why* this is not doable, etc. i feel for ya GTD i really do......but you've got to do SOMEthing.


    as to most of the posts in here.....sweet bejeebus! sure, a couple were funny :p....but honestly, way to kick someone when they're down. i think we ALL *know* GTD's MO pretty well, so if you really can't stand her threads, her complaints, her outlook.......why come in here and bash her? move on to something else. and yea, she may start a lot of threads, she may be quite the downer, definite downer outlook - i would LOVE to read a few truly HAPPY threads/posts by her - but damn....if you can't be constructive....don't be mean.
    Stay with me...
    Let's just breathe...


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