Am i depressed?

Fifthelement

Thoughts_Arrive wrote:

We all know she does, she has all my life.
Got worse when family members died (her mum, nephew, sister in law, brother, dad).
What can you do.

Nothing! :x Can't help someone who won't help themselves. My mom has suffered from depression most of her life as well, but she refuses to treat it :? I think that she thinks it's weak :roll: Personally, I think she likes to wallow in her misery half the time. Ah, whatever! I'm taking care of myself 'cos I don't want to be like her (depression wise) in another 20 years.

Thoughts_Arrive

My mum isn't educated in that respect to know much about mental illness, she's an old fashioned immigrant.
I don't think she knows she has it.
She just labels people with problems as mental or sick.

Fifthelement

Ah well . . . it is what it is :(

Heineken Helen

mdigenakis wrote:

This all sounds very familiar. I made her cry last night when i explained what was going on in my head. That made me feel even worse about myself. I will get better, i have to, if not for my sake, then for hers. I want to be the man she thinks i am. The guy she wants to marry.

are you ON any medication for anything at the mo? This sounds exactly what I went through before... I came off the pill and gradually got better and within a couple of weeks i was back to normal. It's scary when those thoughts come into your head... especially when you know there are people who love you and who care but you don't know what's wrong. I was lucky that I was able to figure it out myself... but if i didn't god knows how it would have ended up. Please just go and see a doc.

Heineken Helen

also other people mentioned things like going to a social worker or calling a crisis line (the samaritans?). That's free... so don't use money as an excuse... just pick up the phone and call. There are plenty of other professions who are trained to help at times like this... priests are one... just off the top of my head.

kenny olav

Someone very close to me has gone through the same kind of depression you're describing. This person was able to get help from the state and is doing much better now. You might be surprised what kind of services are offered by your state. Medication might be what you need to get your head in order. I used to be skeptical of meds but I've seen them work. It's good that you are talking with us about it, but I think that's also proof that you need to do more. I think you are lucky to have the girlfriend you have, that she help you with your depression, but you need more help. That's my opinion, but seek many opinions, especially professional opinions.

covered in bliss

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vedderfan10

There is a line from a song that I find gets truer and truer every time I hear it...

"The sorrow grows bigger when the sorrow's denied..."

Very very true, dat....

yellowled24

mdigenakis wrote:

Their are moments when if i had a gun in my hands i would blow my brains across the wall.

Years ago when I wasnt being treated sufficiently for my depression - I was asked this question by a counsellor, "If I gave you a gun and left the room would you use it?"

I said, without hesitating, "Absloutely". And I 100% wouldve too.

Sometimes feeling like you are being forced to feel a certain way makes it worse. If you feel like you SHOULD be happy, it kinda puts an even bigger downer on the fact that you are obviously in need of some help.
Both meds and counselling are great together, just dont try and do one thing or the other...it needs to be both...

Dunno what anyone else has written here, just felt like I should reply asap to your post.

Depression is a shit of an illness/disease and it has the power to absolutely destroy your life...but it IS a battle that can be won, please keep trying.

PM if you need

yellowled24

Heineken Helen wrote:

also other people mentioned things like going to a social worker or calling a crisis line (the samaritans?). That's free... so don't use money as an excuse... just pick up the phone and call. There are plenty of other professions who are trained to help at times like this... priests are one... just off the top of my head.

I have a friend who was having an extremely hard time a few months ago...she had this incessant need to go to an old church with stained glass windows and pray....

She ended up finding some random church in a town and left the car running with her two girls in there, rushed in, and proceeded to cry and swear infront of the Priest....then she grabbed his bible, and flicked thru it trying to find a Psalm to help her, and she started smacking it, over and over, saying, "I cant find it!!"

Then she reaslied she was smacking the bible :shock: