focusing on boring things

GreenTeaDisease

does it bother anyone else as much as it bothers me? Seriously it's like a gut reaction for me to resist putting my head on things I am not interested in. it sort of makes me head tingle and I feel slightly nauseous.

I need to go to school again...I wish I had the money. work makes me want to gauge my eyeballs out.

PJPixie

GreenTeaDisease wrote:

does it bother anyone else as much as it bothers me? Seriously it's like a gut reaction for me to resist putting my head on things I am not interested in. it sort of makes me head tingle and I feel slightly nauseous.

I need to go to school again...I wish I had the money. work makes me want to gauge my eyeballs out.

You need a hobby.

LeilaMoonTurtle

o my
I know exactly what you mean

and yep it forced me to go back to school

get a loan

GreenTeaDisease wrote:

does it bother anyone else as much as it bothers me? Seriously it's like a gut reaction for me to resist putting my head on things I am not interested in. it sort of makes me head tingle and I feel slightly nauseous.

I need to go to school again...I wish I had the money. work makes me want to gauge my eyeballs out.

GreenTeaDisease

PJPixie wrote:

You need a hobby.

a hobby doesn't get me through work...and my hobbies always fall through because when I get home from work it's time to go to bed!

JOEJOEJOE

GreenTeaDisease wrote:

does it bother anyone else as much as it bothers me? Seriously it's like a gut reaction for me to resist putting my head on things I am not interested in. it sort of makes me head tingle and I feel slightly nauseous.

I need to go to school again...I wish I had the money. work makes me want to gauge my eyeballs out.

does ANYTHING at all make you happy?

GreenTeaDisease

LeilaMoonTurtle wrote:

o my
I know exactly what you mean

and yep it forced me to go back to school

get a loan

well I already went to grad school, and I'll be paying off those loans until long after I'm dead ($80,000!). My payments are $700/month now...if I went to school again, when I got out I'd be paying like $1400/month!

GreenTeaDisease

JOEJOEJOE wrote:

does ANYTHING at all make you happy?

yes, school. I LOVE being in school.

and many, many other things that I can't do because I have to spend my life behind this freaking desk wanting to gauge my eyeballs out because I'm manipulating data on electric transmission lines for 12 hours a day.

LeilaMoonTurtle

but u will have eyes


hmm so y data entry

GreenTeaDisease wrote:

well I already went to grad school, and I'll be paying off those loans until long after I'm dead ($80,000!). My payments are $700/month now...if I went to school again, when I got out I'd be paying like $1400/month!

chiquimonkey

*gouge

LeilaMoonTurtle

hey
sometimes grad school and data entry causes typos/misspellings

chiquimonkey wrote:

*gouge

Lizard

chiquimonkey wrote:

*gouge

*plop

GreenTeaDisease

chiquimonkey wrote:

*gouge

sorry that's true. I have no brain capacity at this point.

but seriously, does anyone have such a huge aversion like this? like it I don't WANT to concentrate on a particular thing, it's almost physically impossible for me to do so.

chiquimonkey

i've been reviewing account stuff and job descriptions for the past hour. hard to focus on it, so i just had a cup of coffee, that helped. it's not my favorite part of my job but it's what they pay me to do.

pineapplesandwaves

Going back to school doesn't mean you have to quit work and enrol as a full-time student, racking up even more debt and degrees you don't need.

If you love school, take a course or class of interest at your local community college.
.

GreenTeaDisease

chiquimonkey wrote:

i've been reviewing account stuff and job descriptions for the past hour. hard to focus on it, so i just had a cup of coffee, that helped. it's not my favorite part of my job but it's what they pay me to do.

I think I get paid for mental anguish...
it really physically hurts me. I don't get it, I love school and hardly ever get bored with it and do fantastically at it and I definitely do not have a problem with hard work, but in every job I've had I've literally just preferred wacking my head against things to doing my work. it just brings down my whole life!

chiquimonkey

GreenTeaDisease wrote:

I think I get paid for mental anguish...
it really physically hurts me. I don't get it, I love school and hardly ever get bored with it and do fantastically at it and I definitely do not have a problem with hard work, but in every job I've had I've literally just preferred wacking my head against things to doing my work. it just brings down my whole life!

okay, i'll bite...are you working in a field that you studied for in school?

GreenTeaDisease

pineapplesandwaves wrote:

Going back to school doesn't mean you have to quit work and enrol as a full-time student, racking up even more debt and degrees you don't need.

If you love school, take a course or class of interest at your local community college.
.

yeah I looked for courses this semester but there wasn't anything I could justify taking. but even if I were taking a class (I have taken them at night after work in the past) it still wouldn't get me to be able to focus on my job work.

GreenTeaDisease

chiquimonkey wrote:

okay, i'll bite...are you working in a field that you studied for in school?

sort of, sort of not. nominally it is, in practice it isn't.

chiquimonkey

GreenTeaDisease wrote:

sort of, sort of not. nominally it is, in practice it isn't.

well maybe find something that interests you more that is in the same field? that way you're using the education/experience you already have, but doing something that holds your interest more?

LeilaMoonTurtle

quit job go to school full time
or
go to school pt and continue working
or
take some vacation time interview at other places and change job
or
stay at job save a chunk of money, travel for a week come back and start at top of list
or
don't be vague about ur degrees and what u want to work in and maybe we can give helpful suggestions, rather thna giving u suggestions and u saying yea but

the wolf

GreenTeaDisease wrote:

sort of, sort of not. nominally it is, in practice it isn't.

Complicated. as with all your threads, and as it would seem, your life. : )

GreenTeaDisease

chiquimonkey wrote:

well maybe find something that interests you more that is in the same field? that way you're using the education/experience you already have, but doing something that holds your interest more?

well obviously that is goal, I mean I that was the goal when I took THIS job, and every other job I've had.

but I haven't been here for a year yet, so if I were to leave, I'd have to pay them $8000. and even when the year is up, I'm honestly not sure where to look. I've been starting trying to search for ideas and whatnot (I think I have it with consulting altogether, it hasn't worked out for me after 6 years) but I'm still kind of lost. I could possibly work in industry, but I don't think I'd like it. Therefore the only thing left would be the federal government, but I really don't want to move to DC anytime soon. I also just fear that I'm really not going to like ANY job, because it will never occupy my thoughts in the same way that school does. (and you'll always be forced to sit in an office all day)

but in the mean time, every day is like a challenge not to throw my computer or myself out the window. my brain just doesn't like it, no matter how hard I try to focus! (and yes, I did try to go to "therapy" for this- I feared it would happen again so I tried to be proactive and look into while I was in school. I went to a psychiatrist and a psychologist. they just looked at me like I was nuts and had no idea what to suggest).

PJPixie

GreenTeaDisease wrote:

well obviously that is goal, I mean I that was the goal when I took THIS job, and every other job I've had.

but I haven't been here for a year yet, so if I were to leave, I'd have to pay them $8000. and even when the year is up, I'm honestly not sure where to look. I've been starting trying to search for ideas and whatnot (I think I have it with consulting altogether, it hasn't worked out for me after 6 years) but I'm still kind of lost. I could possibly work in industry, but I don't think I'd like it. Therefore the only thing left would be the federal government, but I really don't want to move to DC anytime soon. I also just fear that I'm really not going to like ANY job, because it will never occupy my thoughts in the same way that school does. (and you'll always be forced to sit in an office all day)

but in the mean time, every day is like a challenge not to throw my computer or myself out the window. my brain just doesn't like it, no matter how hard I try to focus! (and yes, I did try to go to "therapy" for this- I feared it would happen again so I tried to be proactive and look into while I was in school. I went to a psychiatrist and a psychologist. they just looked at me like I was nuts and had no idea what to suggest).

Teach..........you love school so much, try teaching. Kids are amazing....maybe they could be your hobby and YOU could learn something from them EVERYDAY.

chiquimonkey

what's wrong with working for industry? if you haven't tried it how do you know you won't like it? are you in an academic setting? i would think that would be more intellectually stimulating, that's my situation anyway.

there are federal offices all over the country, not just DC.

and sure, NOBODY wants to work. i love my job, but would i rather be doing a bunch of other things? sure. everybody is in that same boat, so you aren't special in that regard.

and if you really did see a psychiatrist/psychologist and they acted like you were nuts, you went to the wrong ones. you might want to explore that again, if you are having trouble focusing it may be more something biochemical.

chiquimonkey

PJPixie wrote:

Teach..........you love school so much, try teaching. Kids are amazing....maybe they could be your hobby and YOU could learn something from them EVERYDAY.

that's an excellent idea.

LeilaMoonTurtle

what age group?
not very young I hope

from the bit I've read
it is not a great idea

chiquimonkey wrote:

that's an excellent idea.

Spunkie

GreenTeaDisease wrote:

does it bother anyone else as much as it bothers me? Seriously it's like a gut reaction for me to resist putting my head on things I am not interested in. it sort of makes me head tingle and I feel slightly nauseous.

I need to go to school again...I wish I had the money. work makes me want to gauge my eyeballs out.

Me too.

GreenTeaDisease

PJPixie wrote:

Teach..........you love school so much, try teaching. Kids are amazing....maybe they could be your hobby and YOU could learn something from them EVERYDAY.

I do like teaching, it was a career path I did consider in college. but I REALLY want to solve environmental problems and do economics for a living. that's what I want to do, I just can't seem to find anyone who will let me.

pineapplesandwaves

PJPixie wrote:

Teach..........you love school so much, try teaching. Kids are amazing....maybe they could be your hobby and YOU could learn something from them EVERYDAY.

I'm an elementary school teacher, and it's great! It's definitely difficult and very frustrating at times, and it's a lot of work (much more than the general public realizes and cares to give credit for), but it's rewarding and I NEVER have a boring day. One of the greatest perks for me is that while there is a routine (which I like to have), every day is different. There's so much variety.

Plus, teachers are constantly taking courses and attending workshops. Teachers are always learning.

GreenTeaDisease

chiquimonkey wrote:

what's wrong with working for industry? if you haven't tried it how do you know you won't like it? are you in an academic setting? i would think that would be more intellectually stimulating, that's my situation anyway.

I don't like business, I like science and policy. I don't like day-to-day bottom-line kinds of jobs. I talked to a few industry positions while I was looking for this job, and they didn't really appeal to me, so I'm just not sure if it would be something I'd want to invest another year of my life in.

chiquimonkey wrote:

there are federal offices all over the country, not just DC.

I know that, but for the kinds of things I'd want to do they are mostly centered on DC.

chiquimonkey wrote:

and sure, NOBODY wants to work. i love my job, but would i rather be doing a bunch of other things? sure. everybody is in that same boat, so you aren't special in that regard.

I actually love *working* you know, in the sense of doing something productive, challenging, etc. I just don't like...jobs. It just makes me feel so bad about myself because I know I could be doing a better job, but I just can't FOCUS.

LeilaMoonTurtle

o poor you


you know some times people start their own organizations and such

GreenTeaDisease wrote:

I do like teaching, it was a career path I did consider in college. but I REALLY want to solve environmental problems and do economics for a living. that's what I want to do, I just can't seem to find anyone who will let me.