I want to confess a real secret to you all
Malcolm_X
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I think I am a deeply lonely person.....I mean very, very lonely!!! And I have been this way I believe the majority of my life. Like I know a lot of people and I have friends, and people like me. I'm 24 and I've been on some dates, but never any real romantic ones....never had a girlfriend or anything like that......
But anyway, sometimes, and I haven't done this lately, but I call up phone sex lines....not for phone sex, but just because I want someone to talk to. You'd actually be surprised...most of these girls are in college, and its nice to just be able to open up to them. Most of them have told me that they can tell that I'm very lonely, and that I really need to tear down these walls that I build and let someone in....I dunno, I just wanted to get that off my chest.
But anyway, sometimes, and I haven't done this lately, but I call up phone sex lines....not for phone sex, but just because I want someone to talk to. You'd actually be surprised...most of these girls are in college, and its nice to just be able to open up to them. Most of them have told me that they can tell that I'm very lonely, and that I really need to tear down these walls that I build and let someone in....I dunno, I just wanted to get that off my chest.
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Sorry.
Sweep the Leg Johnny.
Yeah its really fuckin' funny thanks bud
Auuuu come on. I am just kidding.
Sorry if I hurt your feelings.
Sweep the Leg Johnny.
you are doing a good job at being the dickhead
hahahaha
nicely done @ being the prick
hahahaha
Sorry.
"Hear me, my chiefs!
I am tired; my heart is
sick and sad. From where
the sun stands I will fight
no more forever."
Chief Joseph - Nez Perce
I think some people have more trouble connecting closely in average social situations and I think perhaps you are one of these people. Don't worry so much. You will eventually meet a few people you can connect with and you'll feel less lonely. Part of growing up is learning about how you need to move in the world to feel okay.
I don't think it's a great idea to call chat lines like this to relieve your loneliness because you may end up connecting your loneliness with guilt because they are phone sex lines.
It would probably be better to chat with people about other things (interests like music for example) to feel connected and then you won't mess up your ability to have a good love relationship.
Malcolm. Do you have anyone else in your life? Are you close with siblings, or parents, friends? Or is it romantic encounters you feel lacking in?
It sounds like the phone lines aren't satisfying. If they were, I'd recommend sticking with that, as full-time women can be difficult.
It would help if I knew more about your situation. Do you have trouble with women?
I've spent most of my life without romantic partners. I've only had one serious relationship and it turned me off. But I still have a longing, like everyone else, and sometimes I have difficulty balancing my need for solitude with my need for a partner. The two conflict, and regardless of my situation, wether I'm alone or in a steady relationship, I always feel an absence of the other.
btw, when you get the bill for 5.99/min from Trinidad, that's the sex line. Most get routed through Trinidad, so they appear on phone bills as long distance calls to Trinidad. It'll save you a bit of embarassment if you don't call your provider.
truth is, i was actually thinking of posting something similar.
i've been having these huge days where i feel opressed by anxiety and sadness. but i have too many people that need me to be me. need me to be the strong one. i am the one they come to for advice. i've already put a huge strain on my marriage. i'm tired of going to her how i feel so hopeless, because she has stuff to go thru that i want to be there for. i want to be someone strong and happy. i will have a logical thought of why things aren't as bad i feel, but the feeling is overwhelming. my biggest fear is that my went into depression and its gonna happen to me. the only hope i have is that my mom got relatively better by her late thirties. which means i only have to worry about it for the next few years.
most of this all comes down from my troubles in school and overwhelming debt from school . oh, and still about 99.99% of the people who know me have no idea that i'm not strong and happy 100% of the time.
so i can understand why you would call a stranger. the phone sex line people are still people. i've actually known people who worked them and they said that most guys just talked. about fears, desires hopes.
as for the dating part. the only thing i can say is this. i've had a date here and there. they usually didnt go as planned. i've fallen in love with friends i was close for, only to be told i wouldnt ever been seen by them in that light.
i dont know how i ever found anyone that would love me. and i will tell you a secret. I dont know if i deserve love, i dont know if i believe anyone (not even my wife) really loves me, and i know thats all stuff haunting me from my childhood. but i know in my brain she does. i know it happened when i stopped looking. i know that i get along with her and she makes me want to be a better person.
i dont think this was a very cheery happy post to help you along, but its one that i think is to let you know that you aren't alone. others feel like you do. nothing about your first post makes you odd or wierd.
but nice people sw****w
I don't think you were feeling sorry for yourself. I'm just suggesting that perhaps it isn't a good idea to use phone sex lines as an outlet because it might mess up your ability to have a real relationship that could be something solid to help with the loneliness.
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Maybe you should ask him to lie on the couch first...
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put on a slow, dumb show for you
and crack you up
so you can put a blue ribbon on my brain
god I'm very, very frightening
and I'll overdo it'
that made me sad reading that.
im sure you will find someone.
you tell 'em, fonzie!
Still waiting for the pm
put on a slow, dumb show for you
and crack you up
so you can put a blue ribbon on my brain
god I'm very, very frightening
and I'll overdo it'
All I'm saying is, you might be lonely, but you're not alone.
NOTE: Everything I write in the P,P&M section are intended to be songs, not poetry.
after reading all these posts I feel like a real dick b/c of my first post.
Sorry Malcolm, I hope you figure it out.
It is nice to see the people here who reached out to PM you.
Good people here.
And yes, I am a good person, I just am a ballbreaker.
My wife read my first post here and ripped me a new one!
Sweep the Leg Johnny.
I've been divorced for about four years now. I actually ended up moving to a completely different state and surrounded myself with all new people. I found that when I did this, I was able to get people to know for who I really was, not the idea of who they thought i was. I'm not saying this is what everyone should do, but it worked for me. I still have moments here and there, of course, but nowhere near like it was before.
Hang in there man, I guess what you need to do is figure out what you need to do to try and get yourself out of this. i would say to maybe let one of your "friends" in, and maybe they could help, but that didn't work for me. The only one who really knew what was good for me was me.
Feel free to PM me anytime if you need to talk. I have all the messenger services.....
Good Luck
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And I don't feel right when you're gone away
Let me ask you a question.....do you prefer to just be alone? I mean, as opposed to be in social situations, spend time by yourself? There is a difference between craving anomyous social interaction and real face to face social situations.
The reason I ask is that I can relate to that. Really. Outwards, I'm the most social person you'd meet. But outside of work, I prefer to be by myself. If I didn't have my husband, I'd always be alone. I have a lot of "friends" but only a few close close "forever" friends as I call them. The type that I'd share anything with - and really if I think about it only 1 that I'd trust with my life. And I only see him a few times a month, but we have that type of relationship where we don't need to be attached at the hip.
Some people, such as myself, find comfort in peace and quiet. In my own entertainment.
What do you do for work? I think that might have something to do with it? If you are constantly on the phone or in meetings/group settings, working with people - that sort of thing - you might need an escape from it. That's how I feel.
Does it make me lonely? My husband says so. He says I'm unsocial. He knows how I am in social settings though - always the center of attention. But if I'm asked to do something outside of work, I'd prefer to stay home - even by myself. But I don't think it makes me lonely, I just prefer quiet and my own time.
As for talking to people that you don't know on phone lines, it's that connection - and not face to face. That's not unnatural. It's easy, it's instant, and it's comfortable. But don't let that be the center of your life.
It's easy for me to say because I'm married. And I'm in a good point in my life professionally. If I ever was single, I'd be single forever, as I'd never leave my house! So, it might not be a bad idea to join some networking groups, find something you like to do and get involved. Not just to meet people, but to spark some interest. Get that blood flowing again.
All the best to you, don't let anyone get you down. You sound like a nice person and I give you credit for bringing this up.
Albert Einstein (1879-1955)
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That's how most of us have done it. All except for soulsinging who uses this as a proving ground to develop argument tact in a courtroom once he graduates law school;)
Please stop calling sex lines. Just call TrixieCat. She walk you through some boredom, I'm sure:)
Why would you start was has no end?
i would argue with this, but since your qualifications as an expert witness on sex relations are impeccable, i must stipulate to your opinion and encourage malcolm to accept your testimony and move for a directed verdict with injunctive relief ordering him to get laid.
I remember being really lonely @ 24 (which was just a few years ago). I did'nt date much, but did smoke lots of pot which helped soooo much. But you don't have to do that. anyway I'm about to meet the family of the girl I'm gonna marry, I'm freaked out man. freaked out. my point is, when it happens, it happens. Don't call those sex lines anymore. take up a hobby, really. it helps.
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
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It makes me feel better when I feel disconnected.