I have similar issues when there are lights, loud music and people walking in many directions. That is why I have never been a clubgoer! I also try to avoid going to dinners when there are a lot of people at the same table.....my ears seems to pull-in every single conversation at the table.
Luckily, it doesn't effect me at concerts because everyone is focused on the stage, and I stay away from GA crowds.
I am lucky enough to have access to movie premiers/backstage/fancy private parties, but if my senses get too overloaded, its difficult to stick around in those environments.
hey Joe, it's nice to hear from someone who's had similar experiences... makes me feel a little less alone with my shit.
ok that's it from me.... (hehe i make it sound like i'm going away for-fuckin-ever but i'll be back during weekends!)
this is my last post here for the rest of the week... *melodramatic music in the background*
ok seriously.... bye everyone!
Be sound.
Dorian
Jon Stewart: "[about Russia's new president]...Dmitri Medevvvevv.... Dmitri Meh..... Dmitri M.! Or... as George W. Bush would probably pronounce it... Eddie Vedder."
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only read the first page, so excuse me if someone has already said this to you - but wow, you are such a very brave person. So many people stay in denial, or just refuse to try to help themselves.
your not just taking a positive step - you are taking a bloody longjump - well done. I hope this road takes you to the off-ramp you need...
not sure if i could go without my pj dvds - but good luck - you've obviously got many good thoughts here going in with you - use them ...
I have similar issues when there are lights, loud music and people walking in many directions. That is why I have never been a clubgoer! I also try to avoid going to dinners when there are a lot of people at the same table.....my ears seems to pull-in every single conversation at the table.
Luckily, it doesn't effect me at concerts because everyone is focused on the stage, and I stay away from GA crowds.
I am lucky enough to have access to movie premiers/backstage/fancy private parties, but if my senses get too overloaded, its difficult to stick around in those environments.
Good luck!
it's these feelings that kept me from going to concerts for my 20's and early 30's hence missing shows by some of my favorite bands pj being one of them of course....but a few years ago i said fuck it i don't want to miss anymore shows....i love music too much
I don't know you at all, I don't think we've ever talked on here.....but I have to say that I'm really proud of you for recognizing what you need and doing something about it. I wish you the best of luck and can't wait to hear about your progress!!! Don't forget that we're all here for you!!! Take care.....
just a quick update to let you all know how i'm doing so far... first few days went surprisingly well... then on the third day i had a panic attack and i was glad to go home the next day. second week started pretty good but then on the third day (yesterday) all of a sudden a lot happened really fast, with me personally but also with a few friends i've made there... bad stuff happened and yesterday evening i had another panic attack, which was much more destructive than the first one. i thought a good night sleep would make me feel better but it didn't and i went home sick today.
i'm a real mess right now... i don't know what to feel. don't know if what i'm doing is the right thing... it's just SO MUCH after 15 months of isolation... all the people.. all the new impressions.. all the talking and everybody's baggage...
i knew it would exhaust me at some point i just didn't think it would happen so fast... :(
i'm just a mess. i really hoped i wouldn't have to say this but it's the simple truth. right now i feel completely drained.
i hope i'll feel better next week.
thanks again everyone for all your support.
Dorian
Jon Stewart: "[about Russia's new president]...Dmitri Medevvvevv.... Dmitri Meh..... Dmitri M.! Or... as George W. Bush would probably pronounce it... Eddie Vedder."
__________________________________ http://www.myspace.com/pearl_jamn_it
just a quick update to let you all know how i'm doing so far... first few days went surprisingly well... then on the third day i had a panic attack and i was glad to go home the next day. second week started pretty good but then on the third day (yesterday) all of a sudden a lot happened really fast, with me personally but also with a few friends i've made there... bad stuff happened and yesterday evening i had another panic attack, which was much more destructive than the first one. i thought a good night sleep would make me feel better but it didn't and i went home sick today.
i'm a real mess right now... i don't know what to feel. don't know if what i'm doing is the right thing... it's just SO MUCH after 15 months of isolation... all the people.. all the new impressions.. all the talking and everybody's baggage...
i knew it would exhaust me at some point i just didn't think it would happen so fast... :(
i'm just a mess. i really hoped i wouldn't have to say this but it's the simple truth. right now i feel completely drained.
i hope i'll feel better next week.
thanks again everyone for all your support.
Dorian
Take your time and keep at it. I'm sure there are a lot of people on here who are thinking of you and hoping that things go well. I know I'm one of them. Small steps . . . hold on to that. Best of luck to you.
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just a quick update to let you all know how i'm doing so far... first few days went surprisingly well... then on the third day i had a panic attack and i was glad to go home the next day. second week started pretty good but then on the third day (yesterday) all of a sudden a lot happened really fast, with me personally but also with a few friends i've made there... bad stuff happened and yesterday evening i had another panic attack, which was much more destructive than the first one. i thought a good night sleep would make me feel better but it didn't and i went home sick today.
i'm a real mess right now... i don't know what to feel. don't know if what i'm doing is the right thing... it's just SO MUCH after 15 months of isolation... all the people.. all the new impressions.. all the talking and everybody's baggage...
i knew it would exhaust me at some point i just didn't think it would happen so fast... :(
i'm just a mess. i really hoped i wouldn't have to say this but it's the simple truth. right now i feel completely drained.
i hope i'll feel better next week.
thanks again everyone for all your support.
Dorian
You hang in there D!!! In everyday life there are ups and downs, inside your mind, and outside your room. You hang in there!!! You can do this!!! It won't easy - you're at a point you knew would come. You can do this!!!
I know it's hard, but it's at times like these when you have to choose someone to trust with your wellbeing and go with what they suggest. If you really believe this is what you need, keep going!
... and the will to show I will always be better than before.
Take your time and keep at it. I'm sure there are a lot of people on here who are thinking of you and hoping that things go well. I know I'm one of them. Small steps . . . hold on to that. Best of luck to you.
I'm another one davanita... I've a serious amount of respect for your courage here... takes a big person to know when it's time to get help and that's what you're doing. I don't know anything about this but they say it has to get worse before it gets better. Just keep at it, of course it will be tough but just remind yourself that it will be worth it . I've every bit of faith in you
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Verona??? it's all surmountable
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Wembley? We all believe!
Copenhagen?? your light made us stars
Chicago 07? And love
What a different life
Had I not found this love with you
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Luckily, it doesn't effect me at concerts because everyone is focused on the stage, and I stay away from GA crowds.
I am lucky enough to have access to movie premiers/backstage/fancy private parties, but if my senses get too overloaded, its difficult to stick around in those environments.
Good luck!
ok that's it from me.... (hehe i make it sound like i'm going away for-fuckin-ever
this is my last post here for the rest of the week... *melodramatic music in the background*
ok seriously.... bye everyone!
Be sound.
Dorian
__________________________________
http://www.myspace.com/pearl_jamn_it
your not just taking a positive step - you are taking a bloody longjump - well done. I hope this road takes you to the off-ramp you need...
not sure if i could go without my pj dvds - but good luck - you've obviously got many good thoughts here going in with you - use them ...
it's these feelings that kept me from going to concerts for my 20's and early 30's hence missing shows by some of my favorite bands pj being one of them of course....but a few years ago i said fuck it i don't want to miss anymore shows....i love music too much
good luck davanita
just a quick update to let you all know how i'm doing so far... first few days went surprisingly well... then on the third day i had a panic attack and i was glad to go home the next day. second week started pretty good but then on the third day (yesterday) all of a sudden a lot happened really fast, with me personally but also with a few friends i've made there... bad stuff happened and yesterday evening i had another panic attack, which was much more destructive than the first one. i thought a good night sleep would make me feel better but it didn't and i went home sick today.
i'm a real mess right now... i don't know what to feel. don't know if what i'm doing is the right thing... it's just SO MUCH after 15 months of isolation... all the people.. all the new impressions.. all the talking and everybody's baggage...
i knew it would exhaust me at some point i just didn't think it would happen so fast... :(
i'm just a mess. i really hoped i wouldn't have to say this but it's the simple truth. right now i feel completely drained.
i hope i'll feel better next week.
thanks again everyone for all your support.
Dorian
__________________________________
http://www.myspace.com/pearl_jamn_it
Take your time and keep at it. I'm sure there are a lot of people on here who are thinking of you and hoping that things go well. I know I'm one of them. Small steps . . . hold on to that. Best of luck to you.
You hang in there D!!! In everyday life there are ups and downs, inside your mind, and outside your room. You hang in there!!! You can do this!!! It won't easy - you're at a point you knew would come. You can do this!!!
Cheers D!!!!!
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Verona??? it's all surmountable
Dublin 23.08.06 "The beauty of Ireland, right there!"
Wembley? We all believe!
Copenhagen?? your light made us stars
Chicago 07? And love
What a different life
Had I not found this love with you