there I go!! off to the nuthouse with me... (no joke...)

Davanita

Heineken Helen wrote:

Ah wow... I don't think I've chatted much to you and didn't know much about your situation. But best of luck and I really hope this is exactly what you've been waiting for! Go get yourself sorted

hey Helen.. I'm not quite as *renowned* around these parts as you are, but I've read many of your posts and they were always good
thank you and everyone here for all the support!

iluvcats wrote:

And don't call it a nuthouse!

ok mom.

Davanita

Zanne wrote:

We always referred to it as "The Laughing Academy". Although I'm sure I've narrowly escaped it a few times in my life, my father and my son have both actually spent time in one. I don't know how much laughing they did on the inside, but they sure were smiling when they got out. They didn't have open "borders" and weekends off, either.

Peace

wow... both your father *and* your son...? that's quite something...
i'm so glad to hear it was a positive experience for them (or at least the outcome was positive).... that's really motivating, thank you!

Davanita

here's the infamous t-shirt... i just got it today...

sorry the pic is pretty big and poor quality but the tee is fuckin' sweet!

http://a257.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/83/l_fd89410b52478df0379b879a2bab6e40.jpg

so that's it... i'm going in tomorrow. i'm pretty nervous but i'm excited at the same time. i'm somehow glad i'm going... i really hope it will be a good experience, however long it may take.

Jeremy1012

Davanita wrote:

here's the infamous t-shirt... i just got it today...

sorry the pic is pretty big and poor quality but the tee is fuckin' sweet!

http://a257.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/83/l_fd89410b52478df0379b879a2bab6e40.jpg

so that's it... i'm going in tomorrow. i'm pretty nervous but i'm excited at the same time. i'm somehow glad i'm going... i really hope it will be a good experience, however long it may take.

That's AWESOME Best of luck. Don't forget about us!

Fifthelement

Great shirt. Take care of yourself and good luck. I hope that everything works out for you.

Pax!

Linda

hey you, take care, i will think of you tomorrow......you just go and do what is necessary.....vibes are send..;)

Davanita

Linda wrote:

hey you, take care, i will think of you tomorrow......you just go and do what is necessary.....vibes are send..;)

hey Linda, das lang geleden... m'n situatie is dus nog net zo triest als tijdens Nijmegen vorig jaar, maar nu ga ik er wat aan doen!

thanks everybody for all of your support, i appreciate it so much!

weenie

The shirt rocks.....!!
And - you're obviously intelligent enough to separate rational decision making from the part of you that's anxious, so I have a feeling that there are good things in your future! Besides, just think - once you've conquered the beast, you'll be able to go see PJ live!
Best of luck-

Linda

Davanita wrote:

hey Linda, das lang geleden... m'n situatie is dus nog net zo triest als tijdens Nijmegen vorig jaar, maar nu ga ik er wat aan doen!

thanks everybody for all of your support, i appreciate it so much!

Godver, ik had echt gehoopt dat je je nu al wat beter zou voelen, maar daar is wat meer hulp bij nodig, blijkt. Maar heel dapper en slim van je dat je gaat, morgen.....heel veel sterkte, en laat zien uit welk hout je bent gesneden, je gaat hier gewoon uitkomen, klaar!!

liefs, Lin.

Davanita

weenie wrote:

The shirt rocks.....!!
And - you're obviously intelligent enough to separate rational decision making from the part of you that's anxious, so I have a feeling that there are good things in your future! Besides, just think - once you've conquered the beast, you'll be able to go see PJ live!
Best of luck-

that's one of my biggest goals! just to think that one day i might be able to survive front row at a PJ concert... that's what keeps me going! thanks weenie

Linda wrote:

Godver, ik had echt gehoopt dat je je nu al wat beter zou voelen, maar daar is wat meer hulp bij nodig, blijkt. Maar heel dapper en slim van je dat je gaat, morgen.....heel veel sterkte, en laat zien uit welk hout je bent gesneden, je gaat hier gewoon uitkomen, klaar!!

liefs, Lin.

ja tis behoorlijk kut... 14 maanden van m'n leven naar de klote. er moest echt verandering in komen... ik heb er bijna zin in weet je dat!
heel erg bedankt voor je steun, en ik ga er zeker uitkomen!!!

xxx

JOEJOEJOE

I have similar issues when there are lights, loud music and people walking in many directions. That is why I have never been a clubgoer! I also try to avoid going to dinners when there are a lot of people at the same table.....my ears seems to pull-in every single conversation at the table.

Luckily, it doesn't effect me at concerts because everyone is focused on the stage, and I stay away from GA crowds.

I am lucky enough to have access to movie premiers/backstage/fancy private parties, but if my senses get too overloaded, its difficult to stick around in those environments.

Good luck!

Davanita

hey Joe, it's nice to hear from someone who's had similar experiences... makes me feel a little less alone with my shit.


ok that's it from me.... (hehe i make it sound like i'm going away for-fuckin-ever but i'll be back during weekends!)

this is my last post here for the rest of the week... *melodramatic music in the background*

ok seriously.... bye everyone!

Be sound.


Dorian

zenith

only read the first page, so excuse me if someone has already said this to you - but wow, you are such a very brave person. So many people stay in denial, or just refuse to try to help themselves.
your not just taking a positive step - you are taking a bloody longjump - well done. I hope this road takes you to the off-ramp you need...

not sure if i could go without my pj dvds - but good luck - you've obviously got many good thoughts here going in with you - use them ...

norm

JOEJOEJOE wrote:

I have similar issues when there are lights, loud music and people walking in many directions. That is why I have never been a clubgoer! I also try to avoid going to dinners when there are a lot of people at the same table.....my ears seems to pull-in every single conversation at the table.

Luckily, it doesn't effect me at concerts because everyone is focused on the stage, and I stay away from GA crowds.

I am lucky enough to have access to movie premiers/backstage/fancy private parties, but if my senses get too overloaded, its difficult to stick around in those environments.

Good luck!

it's these feelings that kept me from going to concerts for my 20's and early 30's hence missing shows by some of my favorite bands pj being one of them of course....but a few years ago i said fuck it i don't want to miss anymore shows....i love music too much

good luck davanita

prljamgirl

I don't know you at all, I don't think we've ever talked on here.....but I have to say that I'm really proud of you for recognizing what you need and doing something about it. I wish you the best of luck and can't wait to hear about your progress!!! Don't forget that we're all here for you!!! Take care.....

Davanita

hey everyone...

just a quick update to let you all know how i'm doing so far... first few days went surprisingly well... then on the third day i had a panic attack and i was glad to go home the next day. second week started pretty good but then on the third day (yesterday) all of a sudden a lot happened really fast, with me personally but also with a few friends i've made there... bad stuff happened and yesterday evening i had another panic attack, which was much more destructive than the first one. i thought a good night sleep would make me feel better but it didn't and i went home sick today.
i'm a real mess right now... i don't know what to feel. don't know if what i'm doing is the right thing... it's just SO MUCH after 15 months of isolation... all the people.. all the new impressions.. all the talking and everybody's baggage...
i knew it would exhaust me at some point i just didn't think it would happen so fast... :(
i'm just a mess. i really hoped i wouldn't have to say this but it's the simple truth. right now i feel completely drained.
i hope i'll feel better next week.

thanks again everyone for all your support.

Dorian

Fifthelement

Davanita wrote:

hey everyone...

just a quick update to let you all know how i'm doing so far... first few days went surprisingly well... then on the third day i had a panic attack and i was glad to go home the next day. second week started pretty good but then on the third day (yesterday) all of a sudden a lot happened really fast, with me personally but also with a few friends i've made there... bad stuff happened and yesterday evening i had another panic attack, which was much more destructive than the first one. i thought a good night sleep would make me feel better but it didn't and i went home sick today.
i'm a real mess right now... i don't know what to feel. don't know if what i'm doing is the right thing... it's just SO MUCH after 15 months of isolation... all the people.. all the new impressions.. all the talking and everybody's baggage...
i knew it would exhaust me at some point i just didn't think it would happen so fast... :(
i'm just a mess. i really hoped i wouldn't have to say this but it's the simple truth. right now i feel completely drained.
i hope i'll feel better next week.

thanks again everyone for all your support.

Dorian

Take your time and keep at it. I'm sure there are a lot of people on here who are thinking of you and hoping that things go well. I know I'm one of them. Small steps . . . hold on to that. Best of luck to you.

Steve Dunne

Davanita wrote:

hey everyone...

just a quick update to let you all know how i'm doing so far... first few days went surprisingly well... then on the third day i had a panic attack and i was glad to go home the next day. second week started pretty good but then on the third day (yesterday) all of a sudden a lot happened really fast, with me personally but also with a few friends i've made there... bad stuff happened and yesterday evening i had another panic attack, which was much more destructive than the first one. i thought a good night sleep would make me feel better but it didn't and i went home sick today.
i'm a real mess right now... i don't know what to feel. don't know if what i'm doing is the right thing... it's just SO MUCH after 15 months of isolation... all the people.. all the new impressions.. all the talking and everybody's baggage...
i knew it would exhaust me at some point i just didn't think it would happen so fast... :(
i'm just a mess. i really hoped i wouldn't have to say this but it's the simple truth. right now i feel completely drained.
i hope i'll feel better next week.

thanks again everyone for all your support.

Dorian

You hang in there D!!! In everyday life there are ups and downs, inside your mind, and outside your room. You hang in there!!! You can do this!!! It won't easy - you're at a point you knew would come. You can do this!!!

Cheers D!!!!!

meme

I know it's hard, but it's at times like these when you have to choose someone to trust with your wellbeing and go with what they suggest. If you really believe this is what you need, keep going!

brain of c

get well soon.