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why is life never easy?

musicismylife78musicismylife78 Posts: 6,116
edited October 2008 in All Encompassing Trip
its funny, my life has been going so well lately, finally found myself so to speak, and havent had the painful and scary thoughts of "what do i do with my life" for many many months now. Before those were daily thoughts. I found my passion, music, and spend basically every waking moment around or involved with music. volunteer at a music venue, literally every show. job has been good about letting me works hours conducive to going to concerts every night. to top it off, many of the books, movies and music I am listening to seems almost divinely or cosmic in terms its relation to my life. its like it was all supposed to happen this way, that I was destined to see these movies, or bands at this time.

flash forward, to my laptop of several years is on its last legs, keyboard doesnt respond, doesnt even recognize that a DVD/CD drive is and was always installed. so thats at least a thousand plus bones. need to buy a tv and dvd player, and of course need to pay for food, rent, and most importantly money for concerts. topping it off, work may have me closing from now on, making volunteering at every show impossible.

I thought once you found your passion, it would be easy. I got past the rough parts, of trying to figure out what my passion was, and now that I found it, its more problems!

how to afford this, working at a minimum wage job, and just starting out my life...? I am still stuck in a job I dont see myself at in the future, and even though I found my general niche, music, I dont know exactly what in music is my calling. If the job ends up cutting into my concerts, I may need to move on. How can I afford my first apartment, I just moved into it, on a potentially smaller salary?

This isnt meant to belittle those who have children fighting in iraq or are losing their houses, but I do think there are people who dont have either of those things going on, but have things they need to work out...

what to do, what to do? If I feel a cosmic pull to alot of what I am doing and seeing, why is it still so hard?
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  • Jeremy1012Jeremy1012 Posts: 7,170
    Just man up and take it. Most people are in the same boat.
    I have no money to eat tomorrow.
    "I remember one night at Muzdalifa with nothing but the sky overhead, I lay awake amid sleeping Muslim brothers and I learned that pilgrims from every land — every colour, and class, and rank; high officials and the beggar alike — all snored in the same language"
  • TrixieCatTrixieCat Posts: 5,756
    Jeremy1012 wrote:
    Just man up and take it. Most people are in the same vote.

    I have no money to eat tomorrow.
    WTH?
    I will overnight a homemade chicken salad sandwich and some organic baby carrots and a juice box for you.
    :o
    Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
    And I don't feel right when you're gone away
  • Slip KidSlip Kid Posts: 1,175
    could be worse, you could have no legs and arms

    hurray!!
    I just don't trust anything that bleeds for five days and doesn't die.
  • Jeremy1012Jeremy1012 Posts: 7,170
    TrixieCat wrote:
    WTH?
    I will overnight a homemade chicken salad sandwich and some organic baby carrots and a juice box for you.
    :o
    A greater concern is that I wrote vote when I meant boat, and now you've quoted it so it's stuck that way :(

    How does one overnight across the atlantic? :D

    I'll be ok. Maybe I'll have my loan, if not I'll find something.
    "I remember one night at Muzdalifa with nothing but the sky overhead, I lay awake amid sleeping Muslim brothers and I learned that pilgrims from every land — every colour, and class, and rank; high officials and the beggar alike — all snored in the same language"
  • TrixieCatTrixieCat Posts: 5,756
    Jeremy1012 wrote:
    A greater concern is that I wrote vote when I meant boat, and now you've quoted it so it's stuck that way :(

    How does one overnight across the atlantic? :D

    I'll be ok. Maybe I'll have my loan, if not I'll find something.
    Dude, boat and vote are like WAY different. :rolleyes:
    I can do anything, ok? Overnighting across the Atlantic???? Small potatoes.
    How do you think Rachel Zoe gets that Zac Posen gown to Cameron Diaz in London for a movie opening the next day?
    Nothing is impossible.
    :)
    Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
    And I don't feel right when you're gone away
  • jamie ukjamie uk Posts: 3,812
    Jeremy1012 wrote:
    Just man up and take it. Most people are in the same boat.
    I have no money to eat tomorrow.

    skip a train to Wales buddy, I'll get you a Boots meal deal :D...or whatever :o
    I came, I saw, I concurred.....
  • Jeremy1012Jeremy1012 Posts: 7,170
    TrixieCat wrote:
    Dude, boat and vote are like WAY different. :rolleyes:
    I can do anything, ok? Overnighting across the Atlantic???? Small potatoes.
    How do you think Rachel Zoe gets that Zac Posen gown to Cameron Diaz in London for a movie opening the next day?
    Nothing is impossible.
    :)
    I know they are way different, I have a lot on my mind, ok? :o:)

    I have no idea what the latter part of your post means, the only thing I recognise is Cameron Diaz :o
    "I remember one night at Muzdalifa with nothing but the sky overhead, I lay awake amid sleeping Muslim brothers and I learned that pilgrims from every land — every colour, and class, and rank; high officials and the beggar alike — all snored in the same language"
  • musicismylife78musicismylife78 Posts: 6,116
    thanks for the thoughts on my situation. pretty helpful. I will be sure to hijack a thread when you start one buddy
  • Drop The Leash 10Drop The Leash 10 Posts: 7,011
    HAHAHAHA i saw the vote. :D ahhh damm europeans :p


    we still love ya jamie
    I will be what i could be
    Once I get out of this town


    9/29/04;6/27/08;6/30/08;8/23/09;08/24/09;5/17/10
  • TrixieCatTrixieCat Posts: 5,756
    Jeremy1012 wrote:
    I know they are way different, I have a lot on my mind, ok? :o:)

    I have no idea what the latter part of your post means, the only thing I recognise is Cameron Diaz :o
    :p
    Over your head. haha
    Those in the Bravo world will know what I mean. :)
    Rachel Zoe is a stylist (she dresses people)
    Zac Posen is one of the new great American fashion designers
    Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
    And I don't feel right when you're gone away
  • PJ_SalukiPJ_Saluki Posts: 1,006
    Jeremy1012 wrote:
    Just man up and take it. Most people are in the same boat.
    I have no money to eat tomorrow.

    My first student loan payment is due Nov. 28 and I haven't been able to find a full-time job. Looks like I'll try to pick up another part-timer. Good thing the job market is shite where I live.
    "Almost all those politicians took money from Enron, and there they are holding hearings. That's like O.J. Simpson getting in the Rae Carruth jury pool." -- Charles Barkley
  • TrixieCatTrixieCat Posts: 5,756
    Sorry Radiohead.
    Just breathe and know that it will get better.
    Know that you have your health and a roof over your head.
    I think a lot these days about what do I really need?
    This latest financial crisis has got me thinking why do so many people try to live beyond their means and keep up with the Joneses?
    Life simply so others can simply live. I am trying hard to keep that as my mantra.
    Good luck and think positive.
    Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
    And I don't feel right when you're gone away
  • itsevobabyitsevobaby Posts: 1,809
    life will always throw problems at you, guaranteed. but there's ALWAYS solutions, they may not be very obvious all of the time & some may take YEARS to come across, but they're there. just try not to get overwhelmed by the situation, relax & be logical about it. you'll figure it out, just in time for the next problem to come along :)
    Look Alive,
    See These Bones
  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 29,003
    radiohead33 wrote:
    thanks for the thoughts on my situation. pretty helpful. I will be sure to hijack a thread when you start one buddy

    and this is your problem. you need to chill out and just enjoy the ride. not everything goes the way we like. but we all have to adjust and just get on with it.

    its just nature that despite what you want people are gonna think differently.

    oh and people will chat on a thread. consider it a tangential loop before getting back on topic, not a hijack. :D
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • musicismylife78musicismylife78 Posts: 6,116
    like I said, thanks trixie, jeremy and jamie. but if you arent going to discuss on topic, please go to another thread. I wont be offended, honest. Dont like my thread. no skin off my nose, but please dont hijack threads. whatever you may think of me, i dont think people could read my thread and think I was being silly or asinine or making a joke thread. I posted a serious rant or question, and there have been like 12 posts on this thread and 2 have discussed the topic at hand?

    again, id appreciate it if you respected my threads as I dont hijack others threads. please allow me the same respect
  • Jeremy1012Jeremy1012 Posts: 7,170
    radiohead33 wrote:
    thanks for the thoughts on my situation. pretty helpful. I will be sure to hijack a thread when you start one buddy
    Sorry man, unintentional, although my first post stands. Shit happens, just ride it out. My point is, everyone gets dealt a bad hand once in a while. Don't despair.
    "I remember one night at Muzdalifa with nothing but the sky overhead, I lay awake amid sleeping Muslim brothers and I learned that pilgrims from every land — every colour, and class, and rank; high officials and the beggar alike — all snored in the same language"
  • Drop The Leash 10Drop The Leash 10 Posts: 7,011
    radiohead33 wrote:
    like I said, thanks trixie, jeremy and jamie. but if you arent going to discuss on topic, please go to another thread. I wont be offended, honest. Dont like my thread. no skin off my nose, but please dont hijack threads. whatever you may think of me, i dont think people could read my thread and think I was being silly or asinine or making a joke thread. I posted a serious rant or question, and there have been like 12 posts on this thread and 2 have discussed the topic at hand?

    again, id appreciate it if you respected my threads as I dont hijack others threads. please allow me the same respect
    sorry dude.


    just stay positive. best thing you can do. know that things get better.
    I will be what i could be
    Once I get out of this town


    9/29/04;6/27/08;6/30/08;8/23/09;08/24/09;5/17/10
  • musicismylife78musicismylife78 Posts: 6,116
    its just the idea I find funny thats all. My life, in terms of personal and recreation couldnt be going greater. I feel a part of a scene and movement for the first time since grunge died. I feel like all these bands are speaking to me and about me, and its a pretty special and important time I think. Precious almost. I will routinely check out books from the library, but for whatever reason never get around to them, sometimes checking them out 6 or 7 times. then finally when I read the books I prolonged its like some revelation, that its destiny to read these books at that moment. same with music, and film. happens all the time. Add to that finding myself, which to me was hugely important as I spent several years consumed with that hanging over my head every second of every day. but on the flip side, I have a job I dont see myself working at for much longer, but still have no idea how to get closer to my dream job in music. and as I said, the computer is about dead, and just bought my first apartment and am paying for food, rent and everything for the first time ever in my life, and its scary to wonder, what will happen when i need to move on from this job, which feels sooner rather than later. How do I deal with a lease? thats why I think they are useless, as are the job interview questions like "where do you see yourself in 5 years". and of course as I said, my job may force me to work later, meaning I will no longer attend concerts.

    taking it easy, or chilling, may be the best advice I agree, but its easier said than done.
  • musicismylife78musicismylife78 Posts: 6,116
    i just thought once I found my calling that everything would be fine,
  • angie76angie76 Posts: 646
    why life is never easy? Well, because it's life. Im sorry you are having a tough time but when you are tempted to feel sorry for yourself you have to think of people who have it a lot worse. I know that sounds cliched but it works. I had a pretty shitty year but I know it could have been worse. Cheer up kiddo.
    Dig a ditch deep enough
    To keep you clear of the sun
    You've been burned more than once
    You don't think much of trust
  • _Crazy_Mary__Crazy_Mary_ Posts: 1,299
    How old are you?
    This is only my opinion, obviously, but I think you have some growing up to do or maybe at least some prioritizing. You need to have shelter over your head and food in your belly before you can start following a dream. Going to concerts shouldn't be 1st and foremost. You need money to follow your passion, so work needs to come before that.
    I really screwed that up. I really Schruted it.
  • Jeremy1012Jeremy1012 Posts: 7,170
    radiohead33 wrote:
    its just the idea I find funny thats all. My life, in terms of personal and recreation couldnt be going greater. I feel a part of a scene and movement for the first time since grunge died. I feel like all these bands are speaking to me and about me, and its a pretty special and important time I think. Precious almost. I will routinely check out books from the library, but for whatever reason never get around to them, sometimes checking them out 6 or 7 times. then finally when I read the books I prolonged its like some revelation, that its destiny to read these books at that moment. same with music, and film. happens all the time. Add to that finding myself, which to me was hugely important as I spent several years consumed with that hanging over my head every second of every day. but on the flip side, I have a job I dont see myself working at for much longer, but still have no idea how to get closer to my dream job in music. and as I said, the computer is about dead, and just bought my first apartment and am paying for food, rent and everything for the first time ever in my life, and its scary to wonder, what will happen when i need to move on from this job, which feels sooner rather than later. How do I deal with a lease? thats why I think they are useless, as are the job interview questions like "where do you see yourself in 5 years". and of course as I said, my job may force me to work later, meaning I will no longer attend concerts.

    taking it easy, or chilling, may be the best advice I agree, but its easier said than done.
    Oh, it's definitely easier said than done but it's worth trying, especially since you seem like the kind of person who is enthusiastic about his future and life in general. It's easy for another kind of person, a person like me perhaps, to be pessimistic whenever I'm in a shitty situation but it doesn't help and it just gets you down. You don't seem like that's your style, and that's a good thing. Fight for what you want. If you have a dream within music, go out and make it happen.

    Out of curiosity though, how the fuck did you afford to buy an appartment?
    "I remember one night at Muzdalifa with nothing but the sky overhead, I lay awake amid sleeping Muslim brothers and I learned that pilgrims from every land — every colour, and class, and rank; high officials and the beggar alike — all snored in the same language"
  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 29,003
    radiohead33 wrote:
    i just thought once I found my calling that everything would be fine,
    well be thankful youve found your calling(whatever that means). im sitting and realising the thing ive been aiming at for the past 4 years isnt what i want to do with my life. i truly feel im working towards this particular goal to fill in time. maybe its jitters maybe its something else. but whatever it is i have very little time to get my thoughts in line if this is what i want to do with the rest of my life.
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • TrixieCatTrixieCat Posts: 5,756
    radiohead33 wrote:
    i just thought once I found my calling that everything would be fine,
    Once you find your calling it is usually more difficult for a while.
    You can flounder around for a bit, doing this and that.
    But once you find your "calling" it is for real now.
    And sorry, but life will probably never be easy.
    Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
    And I don't feel right when you're gone away
  • normnorm Posts: 31,146
    life is supposed to be easy?

    news to me
  • angie76angie76 Posts: 646
    cutback wrote:
    life is supposed to be easy?

    news to me

    ha..that's what I was saying.
    Dig a ditch deep enough
    To keep you clear of the sun
    You've been burned more than once
    You don't think much of trust
  • musicismylife78musicismylife78 Posts: 6,116
    _Crazy_Mary_ wrote:
    How old are you?
    This is only my opinion, obviously, but I think you have some growing up to do or maybe at least some prioritizing. You need to have shelter over your head and food in your belly before you can start following a dream. Going to concerts shouldn't be 1st and foremost. You need money to follow your passion, so work needs to come before that.

    what are priorities? who says what needs to be 1st or last in terms of priorities? I work, I pay rent, I buy food, I would say I am doing what I can.

    but i am living the dream. I have a dream and for me, being in music, somehow, is my ultimate goal. For some it may be to do or be something else, but to suggest how I should conduct my life, is kinda ridiculous. How was I suggesting I didnt need money? This whole post is about it.

    I found music to be my calling. I volunteer evey show at a local venue and moved into the apartments right next door. I am doing pretty much all I can in terms of trying to work my way up to my goal...
  • musicismylife78musicismylife78 Posts: 6,116
    Jeremy1012 wrote:
    Oh, it's definitely easier said than done but it's worth trying, especially since you seem like the kind of person who is enthusiastic about his future and life in general. It's easy for another kind of person, a person like me perhaps, to be pessimistic whenever I'm in a shitty situation but it doesn't help and it just gets you down. You don't seem like that's your style, and that's a good thing. Fight for what you want. If you have a dream within music, go out and make it happen.

    Out of curiosity though, how the fuck did you afford to buy an appartment?


    haha, rent.
  • _Crazy_Mary__Crazy_Mary_ Posts: 1,299
    radiohead33 wrote:
    what are priorities? who says what needs to be 1st or last in terms of priorities? I work, I pay rent, I buy food, I would say I am doing what I can.

    but i am living the dream. I have a dream and for me, being in music, somehow, is my ultimate goal. For some it may be to do or be something else, but to suggest how I should conduct my life, is kinda ridiculous. How was I suggesting I didnt need money? This whole post is about it.

    I found music to be my calling. I volunteer evey show at a local venue and moved into the apartments right next door. I am doing pretty much all I can in terms of trying to work my way up to my goal...


    early 20s at the oldest. right?
    You're complaining about not being able to buy certain luxury items and that work may be cutting into your volunteer time and it'll be 1000 bones to fix your laptop. And all I'm saying is work first, then dream. Save money, pay bills, then follow your dream. You started the thread, I thought you were asking for advice, sorry for my input, didn't mean to be 'ridiculous.'
    I really screwed that up. I really Schruted it.
  • TrixieCatTrixieCat Posts: 5,756
    radiohead33 wrote:
    what are priorities? who says what needs to be 1st or last in terms of priorities? I work, I pay rent, I buy food, I would say I am doing what I can.

    but i am living the dream. I have a dream and for me, being in music, somehow, is my ultimate goal. For some it may be to do or be something else, but to suggest how I should conduct my life, is kinda ridiculous. How was I suggesting I didnt need money? This whole post is about it.

    I found music to be my calling. I volunteer evey show at a local venue and moved into the apartments right next door. I am doing pretty much all I can in terms of trying to work my way up to my goal...
    A tv is not a priority.
    Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
    And I don't feel right when you're gone away
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