I have a confession to make

gue_bariumgue_barium Posts: 5,515
edited May 2007 in A Moving Train
I was never beaten or abused by my father. He was a gifted man who married a lovely woman. He wasn't perfect, I just need to make that clear.
I've made up stories sometimes, for the sake of argument.

In high school, I was co-captain of the varsity football team as a sophomore. I dated the head chearleader. I lived an ordinary American life, growing up, I think.
There's more to it than this lil post, but for the most part, that is it.

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  • gue_bariumgue_barium Posts: 5,515
    I'm lying. He beat the hell out of me.

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  • gue_bariumgue_barium Posts: 5,515
    gue_barium wrote:
    I'm lying. He beat the hell out of me.

    Q: HE did?
    A: oh sure, he was a maniac.
    Q: oh man
    A: well, i was a good football player, no thanks to him.
    Q: Amen.

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  • AhnimusAhnimus Posts: 10,560
    Dude, that's not cool.

    How do you think it contributes to who you are today?
    I necessarily have the passion for writing this, and you have the passion for condemning me; both of us are equally fools, equally the toys of destiny. Your nature is to do harm, mine is to love truth, and to make it public in spite of you. - Voltaire
  • angelicaangelica Posts: 6,038
    Well, it sometimes looks like he's out of touch with any core personality. ;)
    "The opposite of a fact is falsehood, but the opposite of one profound truth may very well be another profound truth." ~ Niels Bohr

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  • gue_bariumgue_barium Posts: 5,515
    Ahnimus wrote:
    Dude, that's not cool.

    How do you think it contributes to who you are today?

    I was defiant to the idea that it contributed anything of who I am, to a fault.

    He only grabbed me by the hair and threw me across the room against the wall a few times. I got over it. Oh, and the horsewhip. The punching, I think he held back on, really, that's true.

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  • gue_bariumgue_barium Posts: 5,515
    angelica wrote:
    Well, it sometimes looks like he's out of touch with any core personality. ;)

    Me?

    I think you all are looking for something I'm not involved with.

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  • gue_bariumgue_barium Posts: 5,515
    There were a few times as I got older, like 13-14-15 years old, I just puffed my chest and clenched my fists as if to say, let's go, pig fucker.


    He laughed, swigged his beer. That was during the emotional abuse stage when he was fucking my girlfriends.

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  • gue_bariumgue_barium Posts: 5,515
    gue_barium wrote:
    There were a few times as I got older, like 13-14-15 years old, I just puffed my chest and clenched my fists as if to say, let's go, pig fucker.


    He laughed, swigged his beer. That was during the emotional abuse stage when he was fucking my girlfriends.
    That's heavy dude.

    You want to submit?

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  • soulsingingsoulsinging Posts: 13,202
    gue_barium wrote:
    I was defiant to the idea that it contributed anything of who I am, to a fault.

    He only grabbed me by the hair and threw me across the room against the wall a few times. I got over it. Oh, and the horsewhip. The punching, I think he held back on, really, that's true.

    probably cos you do dumb shit like have inane, pointless conversations with yourself on music message boards. there are really great medications out there for schizophrenia, i urge you to look into them.
  • gue_bariumgue_barium Posts: 5,515
    gue_barium wrote:
    That's heavy dude.

    You want to submit?

    ummmm.

    no.

    well, i mean, she did look pretty hot in her cheerleader outfit.

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  • gue_bariumgue_barium Posts: 5,515
    gue_barium wrote:
    ummmm.

    no.

    well, i mean, she did look pretty hot in her cheerleader outfit.

    She was 15!!!!

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  • AhnimusAhnimus Posts: 10,560
    gue_barium wrote:
    I was defiant to the idea that it contributed anything of who I am, to a fault.

    He only grabbed me by the hair and threw me across the room against the wall a few times. I got over it. Oh, and the horsewhip. The punching, I think he held back on, really, that's true.

    Certainly these experiences lend to your defiance and I suspect that led to your analysis of those experiences. Surely some part of your character came from it, perhaps in a chaotic sense.

    In many ways, I am glad I experienced the rough parts in my life. I can't recall a particular quote right now, but it's along the lines that, he who has not experienced tragedies in life has not really lived.

    It seems to me that people who do experience rough spots are more aware of their ecological environments. They are more likely to identify causes and the structure of experience, as opposed to focusing entirely on the epiphenomenal aspects of life.
    I necessarily have the passion for writing this, and you have the passion for condemning me; both of us are equally fools, equally the toys of destiny. Your nature is to do harm, mine is to love truth, and to make it public in spite of you. - Voltaire
  • dunkmandunkman Posts: 19,646
    i've seen some weird shit... ok normally it involves a giraffes vagina and a crusty baguette... but this thread is getting close to that shit.


    stop typing to yourself
    oh scary... 40000 morbidly obese christians wearing fanny packs invading europe is probably the least scariest thing since I watched an edited version of The Care Bears movie in an extremely brightly lit cinema.
  • gue_bariumgue_barium Posts: 5,515
    Ahnimus wrote:
    Certainly these experiences lend to your defiance and I suspect that led to your analysis of those experiences. Surely some part of your character came from it, perhaps in a chaotic sense.

    In many ways, I am glad I experienced the rough parts in my life. I can't recall a particular quote right now, but it's along the lines that, he who has not experienced tragedies in life has not really lived.

    It seems to me that people who do experience rough spots are more aware of their ecological environments. They are more likely to identify causes and the structure of experience, as opposed to focusing entirely on the epiphenomenal aspects of life.

    I think i know what epiphenomenal means.

    youth.

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  • AhnimusAhnimus Posts: 10,560
    gue_barium wrote:
    She was 15!!!!

    que, that's fucked!
    I necessarily have the passion for writing this, and you have the passion for condemning me; both of us are equally fools, equally the toys of destiny. Your nature is to do harm, mine is to love truth, and to make it public in spite of you. - Voltaire
  • gue_bariumgue_barium Posts: 5,515
    gue_barium wrote:
    She was 15!!!!

    Yeah. I can't imagine what was going through my Dad's head. We're different.


    Dunkman, this is therapy, in a way, fuck yourself.

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  • dunkmandunkman Posts: 19,646
    gue_barium wrote:
    Dunkman, this is therapy, in a way, fuck yourself.

    therapy is for losers..
    oh scary... 40000 morbidly obese christians wearing fanny packs invading europe is probably the least scariest thing since I watched an edited version of The Care Bears movie in an extremely brightly lit cinema.
  • gue_bariumgue_barium Posts: 5,515
    probably cos you do dumb shit like have inane, pointless conversations with yourself on music message boards. there are really great medications out there for schizophrenia, i urge you to look into them.

    Oh.

    Glad I found this little gem.

    Your nearsightedness is my relief. I urge myself to be nearsighted.

    Dumbass.

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  • LOL
    what the hell is all this about?!
  • gue_bariumgue_barium Posts: 5,515
    dunkman wrote:
    therapy is for losers..

    exactly.

    cheers!

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  • soulsingingsoulsinging Posts: 13,202
    gue_barium wrote:
    There were a few times as I got older, like 13-14-15 years old, I just puffed my chest and clenched my fists as if to say, let's go, pig fucker.


    He laughed, swigged his beer. That was during the emotional abuse stage when he was fucking my girlfriends.

    you must've dated some serious whores if they were down with fucking 40 year old men while wearing their cheerleading outfits. on the upside, you'll get to see them again when you rent their porno movies in a year or so.
  • gue_bariumgue_barium Posts: 5,515
    LOL
    what the hell is all this about?!

    Quite possibly, Not for you. :)

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  • soulsingingsoulsinging Posts: 13,202
    gue_barium wrote:
    Oh.

    Glad I found this little gem.

    Your nearsightedness is my relief. I urge myself to be nearsighted.

    Dumbass.

    are you trying to write a haiku or something? it's 5-7-5. until then, hire a therapist to help you through your daddy issues. your desperation for attention and validation is pathetic.
  • gue_bariumgue_barium Posts: 5,515
    you must've dated some serious tramps if they were down with fucking 40 year old men in their cheerleading outfits. on the upside, you'll get to see them again when you rent their porno movies in a year or so.

    You are seriously fucked up.

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  • gue_barium wrote:
    Quite possibly, Not for you. :)

    yea, cheerleaders being fucked by my dad isnt really my thing..
  • soulsingingsoulsinging Posts: 13,202
    gue_barium wrote:
    You are seriously fucked up.

    last i checked, i wasn't the one whining to myself on a message board.
  • gue_bariumgue_barium Posts: 5,515
    are you trying to write a haiku or something? it's 5-7-5. until then, hire a therapist to help you through your daddy issues. your desperation for attention and validation is pathetic.

    Do you even realize what you are saying with that?

    Validation? With you?

    I don't need your validation. Never did, never will.

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  • NMyTreeNMyTree Posts: 2,374
    gue_barium wrote:
    I was never beaten or abused by my father. He was a gifted man who married a lovely woman. He wasn't perfect, I just need to make that clear.
    I've made up stories sometimes, for the sake of argument.

    In high school, I was co-captain of the varsity football team as a sophomore. I dated the head chearleader. I lived an ordinary American life, growing up, I think.
    There's more to it than this lil post, but for the most part, that is it.

    So you're a liar and anything you say may as well be disregarded as pure bullshit, regardless of what side of the argument you may be on at any given time.

    Good going!

    Never used the "ignore " function before, but I suspect you would be a good place to start.
  • gue_bariumgue_barium Posts: 5,515
    last i checked, i wasn't the one whining to myself on a message board.

    Punk.

    You're less than Punk.

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  • NMyTreeNMyTree Posts: 2,374
    gue_barium wrote:
    You are seriously fucked up.


    He's fucked up?

    Holy moly!
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