a new short poem

deadnote

when the time is right
the moment has passed
its like youve just decided
to jump into the net
when the time comes
to reach out with the moment
the inception is a blueprint
for the seconds ahead
love for the shy
is a heart attack
love for the shy
is a heart attack

she loves me
she loves me not
she loves me
she loves me not

when the time is right
stay there with it
cause youll live with regret
and youll never know

deadnote

replenish the edit
erase the dork
contained in the mind
this is a call
bits of rambling voyage
into the realm of
spontanious descent
replenish the edit
a nation of youth
revolutionize pits
to erase the truth
that soft interiors need
a second chance to be
something more than this
redundant dork within

deadnote

every little thing about you
i miss
my soul begins haunting itself
instantly
down the road
down the road
such a sad picture
whys it have to be this way

im not the father i wish to be
my patience deteriorates
haunting me
its only been minutes
since youve been gone
i pray to god now
for your safety alon
this lonely road
this lonely road
such a sad picture
why it have to be this way

deadnote

renewed inspiration
a little on the rainy side
falling down the slopes of face
landscaped veins
happens
when your so far away

other than the morning
or the evening time
im a little out of word
and thats when i come

to say a little sorrow
to invent something within
new or unheard of
by eyes that seen this hand

and your so fay away now
on the outside
im iron steel
but on the inside
just a rusted wheel

deadnote

my baby
my little baby
sing to me
bring me to life
im following you home
but i dont want your anger
just want your smile
just want your picture
come to life
my baby
my little baby
how i understand
that i feel a need
to be with you
right now
write now
bring me to life
ami suppossed to hide
or reveal this face
i just dont know the rules
my baby
my little baby
nothing i can do for you
just sit here wasting time
wondering how life can be
such a seperated highway
and as i drive by
i look for your face
as your with me
wanna set you free

deadnote

easing into gear
the nerves are healing
slowly building speed
heart is softening

deadnote

i know what i might be thinking
cmon theres no way im feelin this way
this love for you in an infinite stage
how could this love be for real

deadnote

after reading this thread i sure wish the edit/delete option wer still available
my god when someone writes such pure unintelligent thoughts someones supposed to reveal themselves and say "hey,you suck kevin"

thank you

deadnote

for awhile i thought this would end
someday youd give me your hand
but lately ive realized
that i may never do the things
i dream of doing
that i might just fade away
as a nothingman
in my little town

if i could id live with kids
if i could id sing to the world black
if i could someday id ask you all the whys storred up inside my mind
but life isnt about freedom i guess
and all these choices i made
led me to this road of emptiness
and its here that i hate you most
and its here that i hate myself
and its here that i wish i were dead

i will always hate you

deadnote

why i wonder its so hard for the ones i love the most to actually sit and listen to me play for more than ten minutes is one reason i will never love you
there are millions of these stupid questions for you and ive reached a point where i figure i might live on social security for the rest of my life
that i may never sing songs to a group a people who admire the band that sorrounds

ellaine this thread is dedicated to how much i truly hate you forever

deadnote

i hate you
more than
the skies are blue
and when its grey
and full of rain
i think of your pain

it must be lonely
doing what you do
but i cant forgive
the shit i been through

and when the day
comes to an end
i listen to the song
again and again

your just not sensitive
to my families picture
respect has eluded you
and forever i will
hate you

justam

I don't understand how people can suddenly hate people they previously loved. I have never been able to do that.

Does it help you to separate if you find hate? I'm curious because it seems so foreign to me.

Jamal

justam wrote:

I don't understand how people can suddenly hate people they previously loved. I have never been able to do that.

Does it help you to separate if you find hate? I'm curious because it seems so foreign to me.

It does help, only it isn't as easy as it sounds ...

Hatred at least doesn't require the other person to feel the same way about you. it's the easy way out, if you know what I mean.

justam

Jamal wrote:

It does help, only it isn't as easy as it sounds ...

Hatred at least doesn't require the other person to feel the same way about you. it's the easy way out, if you know what I mean.

That's the way it seems when I see it.

deadnote

i was taught to hate
and in response
i hate her

of all the time here on earth
theres only a percentage
of it thats worth all the
hate i feel for her
all the time i spend alive
wishing that i was sleeping

all these years wasted

i never was good at good things
but im good at hating her forever

oh and i never loved her
never spent time with her