Soon, Again

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  • AliAli Posts: 2,621
    I like it...
    sadness reflected by Leak from my eyes?
    A whisper and a thrill
    A whisper and a chill
    adv2005

    "Why do I bother?"
    The 11th Commandment.
    "Whatever"

    PETITION TO STOP THE BAN OF SMOKING IN BARS IN THE UNITED STATES....Anyone?
  • grooveamaticgrooveamatic Posts: 1,374
    Ali wrote:
    I like it...
    sadness reflected by Leak from my eyes?

    indeed, sadness.

    this poem is an older one...I am not sad like that now. but the poem once reflected me...so in a way, it always will. no?
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  • AliAli Posts: 2,621
    I think it'll reflect a time period in your life..when you were going through some heavy emotional things...but like when you fall down..emotions leave scars.So..you'll always remember it.
    A whisper and a thrill
    A whisper and a chill
    adv2005

    "Why do I bother?"
    The 11th Commandment.
    "Whatever"

    PETITION TO STOP THE BAN OF SMOKING IN BARS IN THE UNITED STATES....Anyone?
  • AliAli Posts: 2,621
    But not be it.
    just learn and grow from it.
    Thats what I try to do.
    A whisper and a thrill
    A whisper and a chill
    adv2005

    "Why do I bother?"
    The 11th Commandment.
    "Whatever"

    PETITION TO STOP THE BAN OF SMOKING IN BARS IN THE UNITED STATES....Anyone?
  • grooveamaticgrooveamatic Posts: 1,374
    Ali wrote:
    But not be it.
    just learn and grow from it.
    Thats what I try to do.

    exactly...that's why I keep some of the old poems around, to remind me and keep the past fresh in my mind and heart...so I can endeavor to not repeat it.
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  • AliAli Posts: 2,621
    Gotcha.I try not to repeat what I write as well,
    unless its part of a series.
    A whisper and a thrill
    A whisper and a chill
    adv2005

    "Why do I bother?"
    The 11th Commandment.
    "Whatever"

    PETITION TO STOP THE BAN OF SMOKING IN BARS IN THE UNITED STATES....Anyone?
  • grooveamaticgrooveamatic Posts: 1,374
    some of my poems I am so fond of--like children of friends--that I've got to bring them around more than once. it's like they are their own creatures, and they deserve some time in the sunlight.
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  • grooveamaticgrooveamatic Posts: 1,374
    some of my poems I am so fond of--like children of friends--that I've got to bring them around more than once. it's like they are their own creatures, and they deserve some time in the sunlight.

    that should say "like children OR friends"
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  • grooveamaticgrooveamatic Posts: 1,374
    My ghost,
    Which will haunt this world
    After I am dead,
    Is within me now,
    Angling for position,
    Scaling down my bones
    To make room for itself.
    It is shearing
    The corners
    And edges
    Of my body
    In preparation
    For it’s leaving.
    My elbows, oh so minutely,
    Have grown more pointed:
    Sharpened tips
    Like the bottoms
    Of fence-posts
    About to be earthed.
    Fingers-barely bones to begin with-
    Winnowed down
    In the middle
    Of each knuckle,
    Leaving twentyeight
    Quarter-inch hourglasses
    Pointing at the ground
    When I walk.
    The kneecaps,
    Brittle saucers,
    Appear to have been shaved
    Sarcastically around their rims,
    Losing centimeters, millimeters
    Of circumference,
    Floating above stalks
    Of tibias.
    This ghost of mine
    Is cutting away swaths of calcium,
    Ballooning the skin
    And meat
    Of my husk,
    Excising inner mass
    For it’s bloating spirit self.
    The ghost’s deepest desire is,
    I fear,
    To fashion my bones
    Into blades,
    Slicing through my outer layer
    So it may flee my flesh
    To dwell among the living
    While I yet live,
    My ghost
    Moving through the material plane
    Honking car horns,
    Shopping for apples,
    Attending church
    And maybe even
    Silently cradling an infant,
    While I curl up alone,
    Bleeding to blackness.
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  • grooveamaticgrooveamatic Posts: 1,374
    You poor little girl,
    unafraid of being paupered
    strumming guitars on the street
    for money and dignity
    shambling along in secondhand sweats
    bemoaning your feet,
    your aching back,
    the choices you failed to make,
    unafraid of the stacking regret
    that comes of unhinged promiscuity.

    You poor young thing,
    I can't imagine spending another night with you,
    another inert evening at tepid coffee shops
    reinventing the wheel
    the caffeine buzz morphing to fever trembles
    overnicotened, overtalked, overawake.
    Oh! I can't imagine another night like that,
    another night of overthinking
    and underdoing.

    I want to find you so interesting;
    I want to get you pregnant
    and watch a future unfold
    unlike any you ever dreamed;
    I want to make fancy twinkling music
    play inside your head.
    Alas, there is nothing so hellbent
    as a woman determined to destroy something beautiful,
    as if born from a womb of tears,
    shedding monthly blood as a repentance
    to an unremitting god
    who she won't try to understand.

    You do me no disservice,
    you poor little thing,
    no matter what you believe.
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  • grooveamaticgrooveamatic Posts: 1,374
    I am routinely shocked by the fact
    That I am not always finding dead bodies everywhere
    (dead human bodies)
    Because I know for a fact
    (from reading the paper)
    That lots of people are constantly dying
    (it is a flow that cannot be squelched, it seems)
    And--sense would tell me--they've got to be dying somewhere.
    Every time I walk onto an elevator
    (which is not that often)
    I expect a crumpled, warmish body to be tucked
    Into the corner--
    This has never happened
    (to me, anyway).
    Walking through the parking lot at the Megastore
    Never have I seen a body
    Crouched over a bleating steering wheel
    Or sprawled feet from the car,
    Keys in hand.
    In the park on sunny lovely days
    Strolling along, I have never found
    On a wooden bench the corpse of a lovely old
    Man or woman whose time it simply
    Happened to be,
    Who had just lived too long
    Or smoked too much
    Or eaten lots of fried foods
    Or been to too many wars
    Or been brutally divorced
    Or had untreated syphillis
    Or just plain died there on a bench,
    I've never come across it.

    I ask my friends,
    "Where are all these people dying?
    We should be knee-deep in the dead,
    Bodies all underfoot and rotting."
    They never know what to say.

    And I lay awake nights
    Picturing movie theaters full
    Of the freshly-stricken dead,
    Smiling, laughing,
    Waiting to be found.
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  • pearlmuttpearlmutt Posts: 392
    "Big Evil "

    I love the whole poem. I love your understanding of the complexity of buying American for the average American -- it's great!

    Last year I really started making an effort not to buy things made out of the country -- it ain't easy! And if you don't have a computer so that you can order online, good luck.

    I appreciate the poem so much!!
  • pearlmuttpearlmutt Posts: 392
    "but the poem once reflected me...so in a way, it always will. no?"

    Yes!

    I could talk about your poetry for days:

    "I am routinely shocked by the fact
    That I am not always finding dead bodies everywhere
    (dead human bodies)
    Because I know for a fact
    (from reading the paper)
    That lots of people are constantly dying
    (it is a flow that cannot be squelched, it seems)
    And--sense would tell me--they've got to be dying somewhere.
    Every time I walk onto an elevator
    (which is not that often)
    I expect a crumpled, warmish body to be tucked
    Into the corner--
    This has never happened
    (to me, anyway).
    Walking through the parking lot at the Megastore
    Never have I seen a body"

    This makes me think of one evening at dinner. I was sitting there with a friend -- the news was on. They were discussing the beheading of three people in Iraq, two were British. I said, "Two were Brits, do you call a British person a Brit?"

    Then I wanted to throw up -- someone's death becoming polite dinner conversation, as easy to say as "Do you call a British person a Brit?" This crazy war, our crazy de-sensitivity!


    You're no schlub, you're an artist! And your poetry is great. They have more than good chocolate in Pennsylvania -- they've got Groove's brain!
  • grooveamaticgrooveamatic Posts: 1,374
    Pearlmutt--you are too kind! Thanks so much for all the kind words; I shall do my best to keep up the good work!
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  • grooveamaticgrooveamatic Posts: 1,374
    Anyone could have done it;
    He did it right in broad daylight.
    The mother a bit flighty, perhaps,
    Easily distracted too,
    With her child in the park.
    The masked man just up and
    Stole the child, right from in front
    Of her.
    What a bold crime!
    The ingenuity and the gusto,
    The surety it would require!
    Oh, but for the days
    I was younger
    When I stole children,
    But never quite so boldly.
    It was innocent then,
    And the penalties enormous.
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  • grooveamaticgrooveamatic Posts: 1,374
    this poem is about me,say, five years ago, give or take. It was written as a form of gratitude for my life today, and the distance I have come from that person I used to be.

    I just don't want anyone worrying about me. :)

    Here it is:

    Proud Gallows


    The sun peeks from under it's blanket
    Igniting this vast zoo,
    I exisitng selfaware nonsober at dawn's child
    On this chair reading
    My own microscopic importance
    Taking form, igniting it's pilot light,
    Gyrating it's cogworks;
    I bob and heave
    A massive machine
    Squinting with automatic lenses
    Remaining on this plane strictly for monetary purposes.
    This body, whose light does refract,
    This hydraulic fleshcar, this stymied conflagration,
    Mortality does reek from this proud gallows.
    This umbilical envy does sway, drunk
    And awaits the sullied lecture,
    The final dollar grossed;
    I will weep abruptly to my fellow mechanisms
    Sporting my electrical hands, cupped,
    Filled to the brim with my own warm blood
    Sliding slickly through the hinges of my knuckles
    This blood
    Does blot the carpet, this couch, this universe
    Which shuns me,
    Does blot my fanbelts and timers,
    My sparkplugs, my whirlygigs,
    My hands a crimson sieve.
    Watch me serenely drift to sleep,
    Book across iron chest, rising and falling,
    This tired, proud gallows.
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  • grooveamaticgrooveamatic Posts: 1,374
    I've posted this one before, but I made a few small changes and am now quite happier with it:

    Here Are My Plans


    Here are my plans:
    First I’ve got to call people up
    And find out who’ll be where
    And who’ll be where when
    And find out if they know who’ll be who when
    Once I’ve figured that all out
    The thing to do
    Is load up the car
    With food and music and gorgeous things
    Fill it up with gas
    Fill it up with two tanks of gas!
    Check the air level in the tires
    Check the oil
    The coolant
    Smell it, does it smell good inside?
    And off I go!
    Drive here, drive there, drive all over,
    Find who is who when they are there,
    Pick ‘em up and keep haulin’
    Go neat places and take backpacks
    And eat lunch on bridges
    Always on bridges
    Go to furniture stores and lay on couches
    Jump off sofas!
    Buzz by beaches, oh baby,
    Buzz by beaches and sniff the salt
    Sift the sand
    Empty our pockets and hand everything to the person to our left
    And back in the car baby
    Late night driving on turnpikes come up with nicknames
    Crazy nicknames for each other
    Sugardaddy Longlegs or Celery Kool-Aid
    Count the bears alongside the road
    And park in towns and hitchhike to cemeteries
    Dance around headstones like crazy Popsicles
    And pretend we are dead
    Laying vertical staring at signs and meeting God
    Kissing the damned and braying like donkeys,
    And spin baby spin till you’re dizzy
    And back in the car baby
    And maybe fill it up with gas twice again
    Let’s go to monuments and parks
    And praise the builders and shakers
    The stone links of history and manners
    Never stopping to wonder where they went
    Where they got to
    Never worrying about the rain
    Lets get wet we were born that way
    Let’s return to the womb but this time it’s a car
    It’s a car we have piled into and gassed up
    And it’s plummeting through the countryside
    The townside the monuments the acres of alfalfa
    We’ll drive briefly on the lawns
    The lawns of stationary folks
    And laugh like it was crazy baby like it was crazy
    Make rest stops and tape money to stray dogs
    Tape money anywhere
    To stop signs and open windows
    On apple pies and shoes in the locker room at the public pool
    Let’s tape money to things baby!
    People will find it and be confused and lovely
    And assured that the world is as unpredictable as they have always suspected
    And maybe they’ll start taping money to things
    And wouldn’t that be lovely?
    And then back in the car guys
    We’ve got states to shoo away
    And horizons to spraypaint,
    We’ll paint beautiful graffiti on turtles
    People say not to but let’s do it
    Only old and lecherous turtles
    Only the worst turtles, man,
    We’ll walk all the trails and passages
    The one’s people write about
    Sleep under growing stars
    Twirling nightscapes
    And name galaxies, make things up baby
    We’ll make things up guys
    And never stop never stop making things up
    And then back to the car
    Always back to the car
    Fill it up with gas again
    Buy a CB radio and talk to the air
    Make the most beautiful promises to the air
    And take it with us
    Into the most treacherous cities
    The concrete damsels and evening fools
    We’ll take the air with us in the car baby!
    Nothing’s too dangerous on this trip,
    We’ll wander down the alleys skipping like children
    Singing gently to the world oh yeah
    Kneel before the manholes and sewer grates
    Like they were portals to another world
    A world of upside-down mirroring us
    Following us like a hand two-inches above a clear puddle
    And let’s make sure we’ve got crayons with us
    And let’s make sure we’re never hungry
    And let’s make sure there’s plenty of water
    And we’ll do jumping jacks in thunderstorms baby
    We’ll buy pumpkins and put them in trees
    Way up in trees just to do it
    And walk through glades not in single file
    Who would do that anyway
    And back in the car guys
    Fill ‘er up again thrice
    I want to see swampland
    And I want to see famous birthplaces, like Maine,
    And I want to see factories where things real things useful things get made
    Things I use man I want to see where they get made
    I want to find streetlamps shaped like exclamation points
    And I want to see prisons
    Where bad people and unfortunate people and some good people live
    Let’s tape money to the prisons too while we are there
    And let’s shake the hands of strangers
    Ugly strangers
    And call little boys sir
    And call little girls ma’am
    I want to see huge balls of twine
    And I want to see the world’s largest scale model of the world
    Let’s buy underwear at yard sales and stop being scared of stupid little things like that
    As a matter of fact let’s go to the first yard sale we see,
    Earnestly and silently survey the whole thing and declare without humor,
    “We’ll take it,”
    And buy all of someone else’s old,
    And put it all in the car man put it all in the car
    Lives can fit in cars
    They can fit in urns and coffee-shops
    And we’ll keep moving
    I want to see state capitols man
    I want to throw a baseball across a state line baby
    Let’s go to an Indian Reservation
    And ask Indians if they still make sweet promises to the air
    And then reach down into our backpacks and give them something
    Something nice or not whatever we have
    A peeled onion or bug spray or money we found taped to something baby!
    And then we’ve got to keep motoring, fill that tank up for a dozen, guys,
    We’ve got miles to go before we sleep
    We still have to draw eternal pictures in the dirt with backscratchers
    And try our hand at re-enactments
    And rolling down hills in huge tires and stop being scared of stupid little things like that
    And driving the car through narrow swaths in corn fields
    And always keep moving, keep moving,
    Keep moving, keep moving,
    Keep moving forward, baby!
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  • NixonianNixonian Posts: 6
    Hmm... I'll phrase this in the best words possible.

    Dude, like... woah!
  • grooveamaticgrooveamatic Posts: 1,374
    Hmm... I'll phrase this in the best words possible.

    Dude, like... woah!

    hmmm...shall I take that as a compliment?
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  • NixonianNixonian Posts: 6
    Ah, why not? Heh, yes, compliment. Them's some good words you have.
  • grooveamaticgrooveamatic Posts: 1,374
    Ah, why not? Heh, yes, compliment. Them's some good words you have.

    then thank you very much. :)
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  • pearlmuttpearlmutt Posts: 392
    flawless plans!

    Someone should be publishing these poems, but then I guess we wouldn't be getting them here for free --

    great! thanks for such a wonderful set of images -- made my brain happy, and my mouth smile (brain candy is what I would call it!!)


    If I can point out something, I would like to. Once I was criticized for using too many "and's" and the criticism was warranted in the context of the poem I was writing. Here you've used many, but I think it's perfect in this context -- it's the way people talk when they are excited about their plans -- what a nice future your speaker must have!
  • grooveamaticgrooveamatic Posts: 1,374
    pearlmutt wrote:
    flawless plans!

    Someone should be publishing these poems, but then I guess we wouldn't be getting them here for free --

    great! thanks for such a wonderful set of images -- made my brain happy, and my mouth smile (brain candy is what I would call it!!)


    If I can point out something, I would like to. Once I was criticized for using too many "and's" and the criticism was warranted in the context of the poem I was writing. Here you've used many, but I think it's perfect in this context -- it's the way people talk when they are excited about their plans -- what a nice future your speaker must have!

    Thanks so much once again Pearlmutt! You are truly going to inflate my ego!

    The many 'and's were certainly on purpose--like you said, I thought it denoted the excitement and the "in-the-moment" rushed nature of what the speaker is talking about. I wrote that poem in about ten minutes. I thought that in order to nail the rushed and excited feeling, I needed to rush the poem. Of course, I've gone back and changed a few things, but the tone remains.

    Glad you liked it!
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  • grooveamaticgrooveamatic Posts: 1,374
    All I need to do
    To be filled
    (overfilled, really; brimming)
    With poetic vigor
    Is to picture the lower half
    Of your body
    In black pinstriped pants
    Parading around the living room
    As though carried
    (held up, levitated)
    By wispful spirits,
    Happy thick ghosts
    Folding pinstriped flesh perfectly
    Around the room.

    That is all I need,

    And then more images follow:
    The ceremonial lighting of torches,
    Bats underlit circling a street light,
    A woman's lazy breasts
    Swinging in an African hut
    Swatting flies like a cow's tail,
    The exploding of devices.
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  • grooveamaticgrooveamatic Posts: 1,374
    When I was a younger man and foolhardy
    I would pick sometimes old cigarette butts
    Out of public ashtrays and smoke the crumpled tobacco,
    Inhaling the stale breath of strangers and lipstick
    Because I was out of money or time
    Or too boozed-up to notice or care.
    They had been like any other cigarette
    Except forgotten, valueless.

    I don't do that anymore.
    I now have just enough money and scruples
    To seperate what is trash from what has merit,
    Or what is mine from what is noone's.
    And on days when the sun is out
    And folks are walking, pushing kids in strollers,
    I'll walk the streets grinning, smoking one cigarette
    With an extra one behind my ear, in case a stranger needs one.
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  • FelicityFelicity Posts: 339
    i really like and appreciate the vulnerability.

    you are one of the nicest people.
  • grooveamaticgrooveamatic Posts: 1,374
    The visit
    Went I guess well
    Although her eyes drooped
    Thewholetime
    And she was gaunt
    As a bough with no leaves;
    She asked for nothing
    (which I promptly gave)
    But took perhaps my time
    (which is not I believe oh-so-precious)
    And I spoke to her rapidly
    Of dwindling things
    (like the future and cigarettes)
    As though she were a silently seated wall;
    I took no great pleasure
    In the solitary nature of the conversation,
    But rather than reminisce
    I'd rather ramble:
    Rather than hear her voice
    (which is also gaunt,
    and full of more past
    than a school yearbook)
    I'd rather hear mine
    (which at times is full of more bullshit
    than a pile of bullshit)
    Animatedly droning on
    About quirky vanity lisense plates
    And bizarre ways to set up a chess board;

    I have no more love for your body,
    Dear,
    And I never quite cared for your mind;
    I told you once that I thought I could force love,
    But nobody can. Noone ever has.


    And she sits inert listening to me
    (those sunken eyes black hungry pearls)
    But I keep talking
    Talking
    And always will
    (whenever she wants, whenever she calls)
    Because she was always there for me
    Naked and splayed
    (whenever I wanted, whenever I called)
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  • justamjustam Posts: 21,410
    I like the way you wrote this.
    And I feel sorry for inert the dark eyed woman.
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  • grooveamaticgrooveamatic Posts: 1,374
    justam wrote:
    I like the way you wrote this.
    And I feel sorry for inert the dark eyed woman.


    thanks so much!

    and yes, she is to be felt sorry for...she is miserable and I am not blameless in that...but I do what I can to make up for it. ah, regret!
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  • grooveamaticgrooveamatic Posts: 1,374
    The Last Poem


    If I wanted to say something new
    (that's never been said before)
    About the drudgery of aging
    And passing time
    Years building up upon you
    Like solid walls of heaviest stone
    I'd train to be a painter or dramatist;
    Poems are so small next to decades.

    If I wanted to complain about sagging bellies,
    Calloused feet, the ache here and the pain there
    (that never hurt before)
    The hair falling out,
    The dark mysterious shroud enveloping us
    The moment pubics sprout,
    I think I'd become a sculptor or dancer;
    Words are so woefully weightless.

    If I were inclined to break new ground
    (that's never been broke before)
    About the wrinkled dying masses,
    Their hearts beating to nowhere
    With souls sweeter than molasses
    And graves shallower than wells,
    I'd go to school for business or law;
    All language ever did was reflect oblivion.

    This should be the last poem I'll ever write
    (of course it won't be, of course it couldn't be)
    But from now on I'll only write about flowers,
    Moonbeams landing on still ponds,
    Fish that leap and miss the net,
    Lovers sweating on a candlelit balcony,
    Cold clothes left by the fire.
    I'll stop writing about things that baffle me.
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