They call it ringing

I can’t remember what true silence sounded like

now that the ringing is constant

sometimes it is disguised by outside sounds

but as I try to fall asleep it is ever present and inescapable

I practice accepting it

I put my attention elsewhere

apparently, the noise is made by my own mind

It is striving to listen

and while trying to listen, it rings

Or hums like a piece of electrical equipment

It reminds me of the long track on a Ghost is born

fortunately, I notice it less during the day

And I have yet to layer white noise on top of it

an expert suggested sleeping with the sound of artificial rain

Yet I don’t really like the stress of a rain storm with thunder every night

plain acceptance seems to work best


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  • brianluxbrianlux Moving through All Kinds of Terrain.Posts: 38,622
    justam said:

    I can’t remember what true silence sounded like

    now that the ringing is constant

    sometimes it is disguised by outside sounds

    but as I try to fall asleep it is ever present and inescapable

    I practice accepting it

    I put my attention elsewhere

    apparently, the noise is made by my own mind

    It is striving to listen

    and while trying to listen, it rings

    Or hums like a piece of electrical equipment

    It reminds me of the long track on a Ghost is born

    fortunately, I notice it less during the day

    And I have yet to layer white noise on top of it

    an expert suggested sleeping with the sound of artificial rain

    Yet I don’t really like the stress of a rain storm with thunder every night

    plain acceptance seems to work best



    Good tinnitus poem, justam. 
    When my tinnitus first started in the fall of 1993, I thought I would lose my mind.  All that constant, pervasive noise 24/7 was really hard to handle (strange to think it hasn't stopped for one second in a little over 29 years now).  One of the things that helped get me through a difficult and long period of adjustment was writing and sketching.
    So what you created there is great.  Good job and well done!
    "I believe in the mystery, and I don't want to take it any further than that. Maybe what I mean by that is love."
    -John Densmore











  • ZodZod Posts: 8,896
    It's funny.  My Tinnitus is pretty annoying, yet I sleep with ear plugs in, because I like silence when I sleep, but all I hear is the ringing....
  • justamjustam Posts: 21,377
    Thanks for reading this guys.  I am getting used to the constant sound.  
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