They call it ringing

I can’t remember what true silence sounded like

now that the ringing is constant

sometimes it is disguised by outside sounds

but as I try to fall asleep it is ever present and inescapable

I practice accepting it

I put my attention elsewhere

apparently, the noise is made by my own mind

It is striving to listen

and while trying to listen, it rings

Or hums like a piece of electrical equipment

It reminds me of the long track on a Ghost is born

fortunately, I notice it less during the day

And I have yet to layer white noise on top of it

an expert suggested sleeping with the sound of artificial rain

Yet I don’t really like the stress of a rain storm with thunder every night

plain acceptance seems to work best


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  • brianluxbrianlux Moving through All Kinds of Terrain. Posts: 42,125
    justam said:

    I can’t remember what true silence sounded like

    now that the ringing is constant

    sometimes it is disguised by outside sounds

    but as I try to fall asleep it is ever present and inescapable

    I practice accepting it

    I put my attention elsewhere

    apparently, the noise is made by my own mind

    It is striving to listen

    and while trying to listen, it rings

    Or hums like a piece of electrical equipment

    It reminds me of the long track on a Ghost is born

    fortunately, I notice it less during the day

    And I have yet to layer white noise on top of it

    an expert suggested sleeping with the sound of artificial rain

    Yet I don’t really like the stress of a rain storm with thunder every night

    plain acceptance seems to work best



    Good tinnitus poem, justam. 
    When my tinnitus first started in the fall of 1993, I thought I would lose my mind.  All that constant, pervasive noise 24/7 was really hard to handle (strange to think it hasn't stopped for one second in a little over 29 years now).  One of the things that helped get me through a difficult and long period of adjustment was writing and sketching.
    So what you created there is great.  Good job and well done!
    "A pessimist is simply an optimist in full possession of the facts."
    -Edward Abbey















  • ZodZod Posts: 10,607
    It's funny.  My Tinnitus is pretty annoying, yet I sleep with ear plugs in, because I like silence when I sleep, but all I hear is the ringing....
  • justamjustam Posts: 21,410
    Thanks for reading this guys.  I am getting used to the constant sound.  
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