***LOVE REIGN O'ER ME*** - IN PRAGUE FOR MY DAD

Stereotype

The request was first attempted in 2018 and - as Prague this time falls on my birthday I decided to give it one last try.

"....so I wait for you like a lonely house

till you will see me again and live in me.

Till then my windows ache.”

― Pablo Neruda

I have long contemplated whether I should write this down or not, partly because I do not feel entitled to request anything from the band and secondly, because I am exposing myself openly, something I have difficulties with. But you as a band have done such things many times - and we know history is the finest whore everybody comes back for more...

I am yet another daughter who lost her musician dad due to suicide. 
He was a self-thought keyboard and organ player, a walking Encyclopaedia of rock music. The happiest I have seen him was behind keyboards or organs. He loved breaking down pieces of songs to me, even when I was a very young girl. We bonded though music and had endless discussions about it. I was always eager to present "my bands" and hear what he had to say about them. Pearl Jam was and is "my band", one that found me and was a band that my dad did not hand down to me. My last PJ concert before his death was Vienna 2014 and I vividly remember how thoughtfully he listened to what I had to say about songs performed. Much to my surprised he said he might check them out if they play close to Slovenia again. It would be very special for me to see Pearl Jam with my life-and-music mentor. But just 2 months later - he was gone. My life split into before and after. The sadness that came over me will always linger and there is the horror of all these people - who are just not him. I could hardly listen to music. The pain. He was in every song. What was my release and harbour, turned into a torture.

There was a wooden Dalecarlian horse found by his side, the one I bought for his birthday while I was studying in Sweden. I told him about the tradition and the meaning of this horse. I remember him saying he is going to have it for safe travels. And so he did, even for his final journey. 

He died with music playing in his ears. There were three folders on the MP3 player found by his dead body. One contained songs from his beloved group SMAK. Then there was a folder with carefully selected songs, which I believe, were chosen for their lyrics. An explanation of a kind. 

The third folder contained 12 songs he composed on the keyboard. It was incredibly hard to listen to them and still is. Those songs destroy me each time as they are basically a musical suicide goodbye letter, expressing his pain and depression through instrumental music. I promised myself I would share them. For him, for all the people who loved and respected him. For me. A way of closure. So I did - I released these songs and put it on an album (designed by me) in his honor (for family, friends and his students so we could have something we could go to, somewhere where we can still find him). His goodbye songs are here (unmixed, raw, the way they were found).

Dear Pearl Jam, I wish I could return the gift you gave me unknowingly but I can't or know how to. Instead I am sharing a frail piece of me (and a little music that is as mine as it can be).

It would be really special for me to hear "Love Reign O'er Me" in Prague that I am attending on 22nd of July. While it might be a little perverse to request a song that is not "your" song, I think it is a perfect fit because:
- it has keyboards in it
- my dad was a fan of The Who from his teen years 
- it was raining heavily on the night he took his life
- I once read Townsend explained that this song is when Jimmy goes through a suicide crisis
- symbolically this way my dad could be with me on my birthday in Prague
(and needless to say - I absolutely love your version of it.)

Thank you for reading , regardless of the success of this request it will be a privilege to be on your concert on my birthday...
Barbara 

Loujoe

Sweet sadness. Darn. Lots of love. They do play it great. Take care

lastexitlondon

Im all for this. 
1. I feel  your pain.
2. Dark times have been with me recently. 
3. The loss of a parent is horrible 
4. Music heals.
5. Jeff nails the beautiful  bassline perfectly 
Love and light  to you!

korowiow

Sorry for your loss! I hope you’ll get the song. 

michelleswart

Exposing your vulnerability is admirable ❤️ I really hope you will get to hear this song. So sorry for you loss, may he live forever on through his music and through your beautiful soul. ✨

Esmeraldariglea

Sending all the love and comfort to you❤️
It is, indeed, a huge loss and I am so sorry. In the same time, I admire your strength to be able to open up about such a delicate subject. 
Really wish they will play this song for you on the show in Prague.
Much love❤️

PJNB

Sorry for your loss. 

It is an amazing song live and hope you get to hear it. 

jgregory89

I really hope you get it, but I don't think Ed's voice can handle that song anymore.

margitasirnik

I REALLY want that your wish will come true! ❤️❤️❤️❤️😘😘😘 Vidimo se u Beču! 
BUMP!! 

demetrios

Sorry for your loss.

I hope they play this for you in Prague.

ddeschler

May I suggest, instead of Baba O'Riley, that this would be the perfect Who song to end a show!  They need to change up the end to the shows anyway, and this would be a perfect way to do it.

AMENt_TO_THAT

Pearl Jam, please do this 😞

vedderman

So sorry for your loss 😔 I didn't know what happened. I remember we talked in 2012 after i got from Amsterdam shows and they played that song there...how you wished they played it in Stockholm.
I really do hope they play it in Prague for you!❤

HF90032

Stereotype said:

The request was first attempted in 2018 and - as Prague this time falls on my birthday I decided to give it one last try.

"....so I wait for you like a lonely house

till you will see me again and live in me.

Till then my windows ache.”

― Pablo Neruda

I have long contemplated whether I should write this down or not, partly because I do not feel entitled to request anything from the band and secondly, because I am exposing myself openly, something I have difficulties with. But you as a band have done such things many times - and we know history is the finest whore everybody comes back for more...

I am yet another daughter who lost her musician dad due to suicide. 
He was a self-thought keyboard and organ player, a walking Encyclopaedia of rock music. The happiest I have seen him was behind keyboards or organs. He loved breaking down pieces of songs to me, even when I was a very young girl. We bonded though music and had endless discussions about it. I was always eager to present "my bands" and hear what he had to say about them. Pearl Jam was and is "my band", one that found me and was a band that my dad did not hand down to me. My last PJ concert before his death was Vienna 2014 and I vividly remember how thoughtfully he listened to what I had to say about songs performed. Much to my surprised he said he might check them out if they play close to Slovenia again. It would be very special for me to see Pearl Jam with my life-and-music mentor. But just 2 months later - he was gone. My life split into before and after. The sadness that came over me will always linger and there is the horror of all these people - who are just not him. I could hardly listen to music. The pain. He was in every song. What was my release and harbour, turned into a torture.

There was a wooden Dalecarlian horse found by his side, the one I bought for his birthday while I was studying in Sweden. I told him about the tradition and the meaning of this horse. I remember him saying he is going to have it for safe travels. And so he did, even for his final journey. 

He died with music playing in his ears. There were three folders on the MP3 player found by his dead body. One contained songs from his beloved group SMAK. Then there was a folder with carefully selected songs, which I believe, were chosen for their lyrics. An explanation of a kind. 

The third folder contained 12 songs he composed on the keyboard. It was incredibly hard to listen to them and still is. Those songs destroy me each time as they are basically a musical suicide goodbye letter, expressing his pain and depression through instrumental music. I promised myself I would share them. For him, for all the people who loved and respected him. For me. A way of closure. So I did - I released these songs and put it on an album (designed by me) in his honor (for family, friends and his students so we could have something we could go to, somewhere where we can still find him). His goodbye songs are here (unmixed, raw, the way they were found).

Dear Pearl Jam, I wish I could return the gift you gave me unknowingly but I can't or know how to. Instead I am sharing a frail piece of me (and a little music that is as mine as it can be).

It would be really special for me to hear "Love Reign O'er Me" in Prague that I am attending on 22nd of July. While it might be a little perverse to request a song that is not "your" song, I think it is a perfect fit because:
- it has keyboards in it
- my dad was a fan of The Who from his teen years 
- it was raining heavily on the night he took his life
- I once read Townsend explained that this song is when Jimmy goes through a suicide crisis
- symbolically this way my dad could be with me on my birthday in Prague
(and needless to say - I absolutely love your version of it.)

Thank you for reading , regardless of the success of this request it will be a privilege to be on your concert on my birthday...
Barbara 

I hope your request gets seen. Good luck and I wish you the greatest pearl jam experience ever!

alesek

Ill see you Thursday for some beers in Prague! 

alesek

PRAGUE Meet Up: 

• Date: Thursday, July 21st, 2022, 6 PM
• Location: Letná Beer Garden https://www.praguebeergarden.com/pubs/post/letna-beer-garden?fbclid=IwAR2V60Au0kW0Hit2bUUb34NW8zmZFGliv1AAJm6OICCYCZH3F82SV9yfK50 
• Facebook Group: https://fb.me/e/4zrGITxBL

Stereotype

Thousand times thank you. I really appreciate all the support.   
Still constantly torn between “why am I doing this” and “what is the harm in trying” but your posts already made it worthwhile.
(I am fully and deeply aware that it is not the easiest song one could ask for, but it is just a perfect fit.)
 

just_one

Please play it in prague!!

AP252938

I have no words now, that touched me deeply. Will talk with you in Prague! 

just_one

Bump for prague play!!

demetrios

just_one said:

Bump for prague play!!