Hitting the wall.

brianlux
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Oh gawd, no, not that wall! 

OK, I gotta confess, I feel awkward- maybe even a bit lame- posting this kind of self-indulgent stuff but it helps me to process.
Maybe it's just an age thing combined with just having gotten through that busy holiday time of year, but I really hit the wall these last few months. In late September I had double whammy combination punch of labyrinthitis and migraine. I managed to get to the phone to call a friend (my wife was back east) and had to get hauled off to the E.R. for the day.
And then a week ago Tuesday another migraine hit me hard and laid me low. It was the same day I was supposed to see my neurologist.
And then only a weak later, yesterday, another migraine hit while I was on the road and still 40 minute from home. I went into total safety mode, making sure I was driving safely. I had to focus on my breathing so as not to hyperventilate and fight off a strong urge to puke. By the time I pulled into the driveway I was literally shaking from head to toe. I hit the bed and didn't move at all for hours. I made it to work today, did my thing, but at a much slower pace than normal.
I recently read this AWESOME book called Karakoram by Steve Swenson, a long time excellent mountaineer. The last climb he talks about takes place when he is 61, the Changi Tower, in the Karakoram at 21,325 feet (6500 meters). He describes how physically difficult it is to make an ascent like that at an older age. Some of what he described is how these migraines and vertigo often feel. So I guess they are my summit challenges. But damn, they beat the shit out of me.
Thanks for listening. I feel better.
"It's a sad and beautiful world"
-Roberto Benigni
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Feel better Brian. The holidazes wiped me out this year too. Didn't get really ill or go down but felt very tired and sometimes a little dizzy. Getting older is not for sissies...it's tough. Lotsa youngsters I work with talk about being tired or achy and I find myself thinking "poor puppies have no idea what they are in for in about 30 years! You also had a lot of bad air out there with the wildfires.0
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That sucks Brian. Congrats on developing coping skills. That’s a battle in and of itself. Also, keep venting as needed."What the CANUCK happened?!? - Esquimalt Barber Shop0
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Well no mountain climbing for you then Brian, lol.
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Thanks, friends. Woke up with another splitting headache this morning. Not a migraine so far but I have a feeling it could go either way. Gotta be tough to be old these days.
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Wishing you well Brian. I know what it's like to be forced out of action with illness.. I hope you are back in the bookshop and well soon
this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -0 -
I thought Brian was heading to the Southern Border to literally knock that wall down. Yes, Brian this time a year can be a struggle.Give Peas A Chance…0
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Hope you get through this one soon Brian“Do not postpone happiness”
(Jeff Tweedy, Sydney 2007)
“Put yer good money on the sunrise”
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Brian I must join you in the wall. I crashed a long time ago but the wall is winning and not sure where to go from here.
this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -0 -
goldrush said:Hope you get through this one soon Brianlastexitlondon said:Brian I must join you in the wall. I crashed a long time ago but the wall is winning and not sure where to go from here.
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Are these migraines new to you? I don't think you just "develop" migraines. I don't know how old you are, but attributing headaches to aging is not really a thing . . . aching knees, back pain, yes. Severe headaches, no. Is that what your doctor diagnosed??
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PureandEasy said:Are these migraines new to you? I don't think you just "develop" migraines. I don't know how old you are, but attributing headaches to aging is not really a thing . . . aching knees, back pain, yes. Severe headaches, no. Is that what your doctor diagnosed??No, I've had them for about 5 or 6 years. I'm 67 so they started in my early 60's. Yes, my doc said he thinks they are migraines so he sent me to a neurologist who ran a bunch of test and confirmed. You're probably right though that the migraines alone are probably not an aging thing. But with the migraines and all that other aches and pains nonsense (which will likely just get worse)- that's all getting harder to deal with, mainly because I keep trying to push myself like I'm 35. There's just so much I want to do and so little time. It's probably my body's way of telling me to slow down... but as we know, "rust never sleeps". I have to push myself to some degree, maybe just a lower degree now. But slow down? That just sounds so weak to me.Post edited by brianlux on"It's a sad and beautiful world"-Roberto Benigni0
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Brian you are an inspiration . At 67 your work ethic. Love of books . Love of nature and human rights. If I ever get to near 67 I would hope to be like you. A great human ......being
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lastexitlondon said:Brian you are an inspiration . At 67 your work ethic. Love of books . Love of nature and human rights. If I ever get to near 67 I would hope to be like you. A great human ......being
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Brian,Hope you feel better soon, my friend.0
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I hope you feel better, brianlux. Those migraines sound painful.There is no such thing as leftover pizza. There is now pizza and later pizza. - anonymous
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Meltdown99 said:lastexitlondon said:Brian you are an inspiration . At 67 your work ethic. Love of books . Love of nature and human rights. If I ever get to near 67 I would hope to be like you. A great human ......beingAsterisk on the Street said:Brian,Hope you feel better soon, my friend.Ms. Haiku said:I hope you feel better, brianlux. Those migraines sound painful.Thank you, friends. I never would have thought I'd say this, but today I'm thinking, "Man! Three days in a row no migraine of major headache!"All your kind words are encouraging!"It's a sad and beautiful world"-Roberto Benigni0
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brianlux said:Meltdown99 said:lastexitlondon said:Brian you are an inspiration . At 67 your work ethic. Love of books . Love of nature and human rights. If I ever get to near 67 I would hope to be like you. A great human ......beingAsterisk on the Street said:Brian,Hope you feel better soon, my friend.Ms. Haiku said:I hope you feel better, brianlux. Those migraines sound painful.Thank you, friends. I never would have thought I'd say this, but today I'm thinking, "Man! Three days in a row no migraine of major headache!"All your kind words are encouraging!Give Peas A Chance…0
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Meltdown99 said:brianlux said:Meltdown99 said:lastexitlondon said:Brian you are an inspiration . At 67 your work ethic. Love of books . Love of nature and human rights. If I ever get to near 67 I would hope to be like you. A great human ......beingAsterisk on the Street said:Brian,Hope you feel better soon, my friend.Ms. Haiku said:I hope you feel better, brianlux. Those migraines sound painful.Thank you, friends. I never would have thought I'd say this, but today I'm thinking, "Man! Three days in a row no migraine of major headache!"All your kind words are encouraging!
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Hitting the Wall, Part IISo yesterday I'm going along, fat dumb and happy, generally having a great day, working on straightening out the dog book section in the store and I stand up and get a head rush- you know, that thing where you go from sitting or squatting and you stand up and get a bit light headed. Only I got hit hard with everything going black and was holding on to a shelf and it was like the only part of my brain that was working was the brain stem or maybe the amygdala- what ever part controls survival. I felt like if I passed out I would die. And this went on for several seconds and then I still felt like maybe I could pass out. So then I go to the E.R. and of course it was busy as hell and I sit there waiting for an hour, mildly hyperventilating with numbness to my hand feet and most of my head and finally get in. They did an EKG, ran some blood test- all this takes another couple hours and in the end I'm told "nothing seems to be wrong, go home and rest for 24 hours". Okey dokey. Nothing wrong? Hmmm. OK fine, next time I'll save the trip to the E.R.If I sound pissed, it's not that I'm afraid of what might be going on. Just tell me. I just want to know, that's all. What a day.Post edited by brianlux on"It's a sad and beautiful world"-Roberto Benigni0
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