I'm right there with you - weirdly enough, today was the day I started listening to his music again too. I still don't want to touch TOTD, or Seasons (my favourite song ever), but I put Superunknown on, and the emotions weren't as bad as I feared. It was almost like I was listening to it for the first time - my overwhelming feeling was absolute awe of what a masterpiece they really made, records of this depth just don't seem to be made anymore.
Still a huge struggle to comprehend the fact he's no longer with us, I find myself thinking about it frequently. I google his name daily to see if there's any news or insights into how this could have happened. I don't know what all the stages of grieving are, and I know some people would question how you could grieve for someone you never really knew, but this feels as genuinely crushing as any of the losses I've experienced - the added sadness being that it was his music I turned to in those times of grief.
Goddammit. It's comforting (wrong word, but the best I've got right now) knowing we're all right there with one another. We'll be processing this for a long time. Cornell's death sent me off a cliff and into an OCD lapse (I'd been symptom-free for almost a year when he died). Ironically, his death also motivated me to make the final push towards "full" recovery that I'd been actively avoiding for years. I don't mean to suggest I'm thankful for the push, but it's a small silver lining I've been clinging to.
Yeah I think a lot of people feel the same, your words totally resonated with me. It's hard to discuss it with friends to be honest. I went to see Guns 'n' Roses a few weeks back, and they covered Black Hole Sun, I was pretty drunk, but man, I cried my eyes out. I don't think music has been such a big crutch to my friends, so while they see it as really sad, I think I'm dealing with it on a whole other level.
I know what you mean about his death making you reevaluate your own issues, it's done the same for me, I've been living as a functionally depressed person for a very long time now, and music has been the main thing I've turned to in times of despair. With Chris' passing it feels like music isn't enough - and rightly so, whilst it can be an enormous comfort, I've realised that there has to be something more.
Is GNR still using "You Know My Name" as its playout music??
The first show I saw after Chris died was Tool. I cried at fucking TOOL. However, when we saw U2 a couple weeks ago, they played "Bad," and it turned me into a puddle. It's a song that's meant a lot to me for a long time anyway, but hearing it just over a month after Chris' death felt like a hammer blow. I was literally sobbing. This is going to take a long while.
Yeah they were still using You Know My Name as the closing music, it was kind of hard to hear once everybody was leaving though.
"Matt Cameron: Yes, please share if you would like. I wanted to stop by today on his birthday to say hello, but words are failing me and going out in public is still not feeling right, but I would love to stop by eventually. Maybe in the fall. My life is in extreme flux at the moment, but I/we love the support of our local music community and KEXP has been a beacon of strength for me since Chris passed. Thank you." Heartbreaking.
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"Matt Cameron: Yes, please share if you would like. I wanted to stop by today on his birthday to say hello, but words are failing me and going out in public is still not feeling right, but I would love to stop by eventually. Maybe in the fall. My life is in extreme flux at the moment, but I/we love the support of our local music community and KEXP has been a beacon of strength for me since Chris passed. Thank you." Heartbreaking.
Matt, Kim and Ben must be going through a terrible time at the moment. Peace and love to them, keep it strong guys.
Been going through stuff from Chris's entire career lately and there's no doubt that he was one of the greatest and most versatile rock singers of all time.
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"...though my problems are meaningless....that don't make them go away...."
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It's the one that sticks out to me from the Gorge 2011 show. I keep listening to the version on Live on I5 alot. It rocks so hard.
Yeah they were still using You Know My Name as the closing music, it was kind of hard to hear once everybody was leaving though.
Amazing performance - I forgot how good that song was.
I totally agree.... this is beyond perfection.
Heartbreaking.
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Been going through stuff from Chris's entire career lately and there's no doubt that he was one of the greatest and most versatile rock singers of all time.
http://abcnews.go.com/Entertainment/chris-cornells-daughter-12-performs-tribute-late-father/story?id=49024365
Amazing tribute last night in Miami. Thanks Axl.
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Thankfully PJ's music is much more hopeful.