"Bridges freak me out too... Something I probably shouldn't admit as a structural engineer
A stranger one is a totally overwhelming sense of claustrophobia that comes over me when I'm walking on an escalator that isn't moving. Bizarre, eh?"
have you engineered bridges? buildings? stadiums?
claustrophobic while walking on a escalator that's standing still.... shit, you are jammed up i am claustrophobic when air is stale or in a mri tube or when sitting in those little rooms with the model knees & backs, medical posters & the good dr.s degrees framed on the walls.... the fucking door is closed & the room is small & there is no windows & you're sitting on the exam table with the paper sheet down the length of it.... the damn room the nurse takes vitals in & you wait to see the dr... fuck that room
i've gotten up, opened the door & walked in circles doing laps waiting on the dr or the nurse. i don't like those rooms & i would rather have the door open, they would not though. it's like im frankenstein in a small bathroom & im going ape shit crazy trying to pee or two & the sink is on top of me. im trying to shower & the toilet is half way in the shower & the water pressure is like a toad spitting water on me. wtf!? i can't move.
now im fucking shy again
You crack me up, Chadwick
I have engineered buildings exclusively... It was a short-lived engineering career to be fair; after about half a year I recognized that it was not an industry I belonged in and have found my calling in a specific subset of the tech industry. That being said, I have taken courses specifically on bridge design and am confident about the logic and safeguards applied to them, my phobia is entirely unwarranted and irrational.
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EV
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i like engineers, they are, or, seem to be what i'd call smart nicely done finding your spot in life
Thanks, dude! Not going to lie - I didn't fit in as an engineer. Felt that way all through school, then throughout my short-lived career, and that was validated by a professional profile that left the firm's HR manager scratching his head. Introverts and people plagued with confidence issues are largely the minority within the industry... I'm a quiet type who loves to facilitate other peoples' abilities to shine. I have such a job now, and it's a real privilege!
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EV
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i like engineers, they are, or, seem to be what i'd call smart nicely done finding your spot in life
Thanks, dude! Not going to lie - I didn't fit in as an engineer. Felt that way all through school, then throughout my short-lived career, and that was validated by a professional profile that left the firm's HR manager scratching his head. Introverts and people plagued with confidence issues are largely the minority within the industry... I'm a quiet type who loves to facilitate other peoples' abilities to shine. I have such a job now, and it's a real privilege!
I'm quite similar...and I think in being/doing so, you shine upon your own abilities as well.
i like engineers, they are, or, seem to be what i'd call smart nicely done finding your spot in life
Thanks, dude! Not going to lie - I didn't fit in as an engineer. Felt that way all through school, then throughout my short-lived career, and that was validated by a professional profile that left the firm's HR manager scratching his head. Introverts and people plagued with confidence issues are largely the minority within the industry... I'm a quiet type who loves to facilitate other peoples' abilities to shine. I have such a job now, and it's a real privilege!
I'm quite similar...and I think in being/doing so, you shine upon your own abilities as well.
Agreed I think we're lucky to be wired this way.
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EV
Toronto Film Festival 9/11/2007, '08 - Toronto 1 & 2, '09 - Albany 1, '11 - Chicago 1
Love the name of your new book Chadwick. ) I'm a facilitator also. Good work figuring it out Benjs. It takes strength to accept that you made a mistake in a life direction and changing it.
"Feel the path of everyday....which road you taking?"
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Good words there in your first post, Walking. I also was painful shy when I was young. I'm still fairly self-conscious and maybe that's why (subconsciously?) I've put myself into positions of having to push past that- being a teacher, working with the public in bookstores, doing book fairs, organizing a rally, etc. This is a great place to spend time interacting with good people. Then go to a PJ show and meet some of this fine folks. You'll do fine!
"Don't give in to the lies. Don't give in to the fear. Hold on to the truth. And to hope."
Love the name of your new book Chadwick. ) I'm a facilitator also. Good work figuring it out Benjs. It takes strength to accept that you made a mistake in a life direction and changing it.
You know, I think it takes strength to even realize it; sometimes, it's so easy to fool ourselves. And to what end?
ps to Brian - you do pretty well speaking your mind! Freedom via the physical or pen or keyboard, all an exposure of ourselves. TO ourselves.
I've done fairly well Brian. I keep tabs on it and push myself. But some days I fall back to old habits. I just know that I'm not the only one, and others may be in different stages of dealing with their shyness, so I felt it needed to be said. And for me it was cathartic. I was nervous to post anything serious on here before.
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I feel like there is going to be a big group hug here. And I'm good with that.
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I don't do group hugs, but I've been known to subject some asses to pinches and the occasional goose
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I've done fairly well Brian. I keep tabs on it and push myself. But some days I fall back to old habits. I just know that I'm not the only one, and others may be in different stages of dealing with their shyness, so I felt it needed to be said. And for me it was cathartic. I was nervous to post anything serious on here before.
Hey! See, you're doing great already! :-D
"Don't give in to the lies. Don't give in to the fear. Hold on to the truth. And to hope."
nice post this place needs this after the last few days :-c
\:D/ you are so right...it was a little bit sad the last days.
I do mostly only read all this stuff here. My English isn´t that good so I often don´t write what I would like to say bc it´s so difficult if you want to explane some complex stuff in a foreign language especially on The Moving Train. But I hope it will get better and people can understand what I want to say. I can only say I like this place and people here so much! >:D<
nice post this place needs this after the last few days :-c
\:D/ you are so right...it was a little bit sad the last days.
I do mostly only read all this stuff here. My English isn´t that good so I often don´t write what I would like to say bc it´s so difficult if you want to explane some complex stuff in a foreign language especially on The Moving Train. But I hope it will get better and people can understand what I want to say. I can only say I like this place and people here so much! >:D<
Have you seen how GF spells his own English speaking language???? You're doing fine! And GF, u know I ment that with love.....
Thank you badbrains! Haven´t mentioned that before.
Reading is not a problem...even if it happens that I don´t get some meanings, but I think that´s bc of some expressions I cannot understand. Bigger challenge is to find the right words, and it´s taking so much time to bring them in the right arrangement...lol...but I do exercise...
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I have engineered buildings exclusively... It was a short-lived engineering career to be fair; after about half a year I recognized that it was not an industry I belonged in and have found my calling in a specific subset of the tech industry. That being said, I have taken courses specifically on bridge design and am confident about the logic and safeguards applied to them, my phobia is entirely unwarranted and irrational.
EV
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nicely done finding your spot in life
"Hear me, my chiefs!
I am tired; my heart is
sick and sad. From where
the sun stands I will fight
no more forever."
Chief Joseph - Nez Perce
EV
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EV
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Barrie, ON '98
Toronto, ON '00/'03/'06/'09/'11/'16(x2)
Hamilton, ON '05/'11
Newark, NJ '10
London, ON '13
Buffalo, NY '13
Detroit, MI '14
Ottawa, ON '16
This is a great place to spend time interacting with good people. Then go to a PJ show and meet some of this fine folks. You'll do fine!
ps to Brian - you do pretty well speaking your mind! Freedom via the physical or pen or keyboard, all an exposure of ourselves. TO ourselves.
I like it...as I do this thread
Barrie, ON '98
Toronto, ON '00/'03/'06/'09/'11/'16(x2)
Hamilton, ON '05/'11
Newark, NJ '10
London, ON '13
Buffalo, NY '13
Detroit, MI '14
Ottawa, ON '16
Barrie, ON '98
Toronto, ON '00/'03/'06/'09/'11/'16(x2)
Hamilton, ON '05/'11
Newark, NJ '10
London, ON '13
Buffalo, NY '13
Detroit, MI '14
Ottawa, ON '16
Barrie, ON '98
Toronto, ON '00/'03/'06/'09/'11/'16(x2)
Hamilton, ON '05/'11
Newark, NJ '10
London, ON '13
Buffalo, NY '13
Detroit, MI '14
Ottawa, ON '16
Reading is not a problem...even if it happens that I don´t get some meanings, but I think that´s bc of some expressions I cannot understand. Bigger challenge is to find the right words, and it´s taking so much time to bring them in the right arrangement...lol...but I do exercise...