"Bridges freak me out too... Something I probably shouldn't admit as a structural engineer
A stranger one is a totally overwhelming sense of claustrophobia that comes over me when I'm walking on an escalator that isn't moving. Bizarre, eh?"
have you engineered bridges? buildings? stadiums?
claustrophobic while walking on a escalator that's standing still.... shit, you are jammed up i am claustrophobic when air is stale or in a mri tube or when sitting in those little rooms with the model knees & backs, medical posters & the good dr.s degrees framed on the walls.... the fucking door is closed & the room is small & there is no windows & you're sitting on the exam table with the paper sheet down the length of it.... the damn room the nurse takes vitals in & you wait to see the dr... fuck that room
i've gotten up, opened the door & walked in circles doing laps waiting on the dr or the nurse. i don't like those rooms & i would rather have the door open, they would not though. it's like im frankenstein in a small bathroom & im going ape shit crazy trying to pee or two & the sink is on top of me. im trying to shower & the toilet is half way in the shower & the water pressure is like a toad spitting water on me. wtf!? i can't move.
now im fucking shy again
You crack me up, Chadwick
I have engineered buildings exclusively... It was a short-lived engineering career to be fair; after about half a year I recognized that it was not an industry I belonged in and have found my calling in a specific subset of the tech industry. That being said, I have taken courses specifically on bridge design and am confident about the logic and safeguards applied to them, my phobia is entirely unwarranted and irrational.
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i like engineers, they are, or, seem to be what i'd call smart nicely done finding your spot in life
Thanks, dude! Not going to lie - I didn't fit in as an engineer. Felt that way all through school, then throughout my short-lived career, and that was validated by a professional profile that left the firm's HR manager scratching his head. Introverts and people plagued with confidence issues are largely the minority within the industry... I'm a quiet type who loves to facilitate other peoples' abilities to shine. I have such a job now, and it's a real privilege!
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Toronto Film Festival 9/11/2007, '08 - Toronto 1 & 2, '09 - Albany 1, '11 - Chicago 1
i like engineers, they are, or, seem to be what i'd call smart nicely done finding your spot in life
Thanks, dude! Not going to lie - I didn't fit in as an engineer. Felt that way all through school, then throughout my short-lived career, and that was validated by a professional profile that left the firm's HR manager scratching his head. Introverts and people plagued with confidence issues are largely the minority within the industry... I'm a quiet type who loves to facilitate other peoples' abilities to shine. I have such a job now, and it's a real privilege!
I'm quite similar...and I think in being/doing so, you shine upon your own abilities as well.
i like engineers, they are, or, seem to be what i'd call smart nicely done finding your spot in life
Thanks, dude! Not going to lie - I didn't fit in as an engineer. Felt that way all through school, then throughout my short-lived career, and that was validated by a professional profile that left the firm's HR manager scratching his head. Introverts and people plagued with confidence issues are largely the minority within the industry... I'm a quiet type who loves to facilitate other peoples' abilities to shine. I have such a job now, and it's a real privilege!
I'm quite similar...and I think in being/doing so, you shine upon your own abilities as well.
Agreed I think we're lucky to be wired this way.
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EV
Toronto Film Festival 9/11/2007, '08 - Toronto 1 & 2, '09 - Albany 1, '11 - Chicago 1
Love the name of your new book Chadwick. ) I'm a facilitator also. Good work figuring it out Benjs. It takes strength to accept that you made a mistake in a life direction and changing it.
"Feel the path of everyday....which road you taking?"
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Good words there in your first post, Walking. I also was painful shy when I was young. I'm still fairly self-conscious and maybe that's why (subconsciously?) I've put myself into positions of having to push past that- being a teacher, working with the public in bookstores, doing book fairs, organizing a rally, etc. This is a great place to spend time interacting with good people. Then go to a PJ show and meet some of this fine folks. You'll do fine!
“The fear of death follows from the fear of life. A man [or woman] who lives fully is prepared to die at any time.”
Love the name of your new book Chadwick. ) I'm a facilitator also. Good work figuring it out Benjs. It takes strength to accept that you made a mistake in a life direction and changing it.
You know, I think it takes strength to even realize it; sometimes, it's so easy to fool ourselves. And to what end?
ps to Brian - you do pretty well speaking your mind! Freedom via the physical or pen or keyboard, all an exposure of ourselves. TO ourselves.
I've done fairly well Brian. I keep tabs on it and push myself. But some days I fall back to old habits. I just know that I'm not the only one, and others may be in different stages of dealing with their shyness, so I felt it needed to be said. And for me it was cathartic. I was nervous to post anything serious on here before.
"Feel the path of everyday....which road you taking?"
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I feel like there is going to be a big group hug here. And I'm good with that.
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I don't do group hugs, but I've been known to subject some asses to pinches and the occasional goose
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"Feel the path of everyday....which road you taking?"
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I've done fairly well Brian. I keep tabs on it and push myself. But some days I fall back to old habits. I just know that I'm not the only one, and others may be in different stages of dealing with their shyness, so I felt it needed to be said. And for me it was cathartic. I was nervous to post anything serious on here before.
Hey! See, you're doing great already! :-D
“The fear of death follows from the fear of life. A man [or woman] who lives fully is prepared to die at any time.”
nice post this place needs this after the last few days :-c
\:D/ you are so right...it was a little bit sad the last days.
I do mostly only read all this stuff here. My English isn´t that good so I often don´t write what I would like to say bc it´s so difficult if you want to explane some complex stuff in a foreign language especially on The Moving Train. But I hope it will get better and people can understand what I want to say. I can only say I like this place and people here so much! >:D<
nice post this place needs this after the last few days :-c
\:D/ you are so right...it was a little bit sad the last days.
I do mostly only read all this stuff here. My English isn´t that good so I often don´t write what I would like to say bc it´s so difficult if you want to explane some complex stuff in a foreign language especially on The Moving Train. But I hope it will get better and people can understand what I want to say. I can only say I like this place and people here so much! >:D<
Have you seen how GF spells his own English speaking language???? You're doing fine! And GF, u know I ment that with love.....
Thank you badbrains! Haven´t mentioned that before.
Reading is not a problem...even if it happens that I don´t get some meanings, but I think that´s bc of some expressions I cannot understand. Bigger challenge is to find the right words, and it´s taking so much time to bring them in the right arrangement...lol...but I do exercise...
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I have engineered buildings exclusively... It was a short-lived engineering career to be fair; after about half a year I recognized that it was not an industry I belonged in and have found my calling in a specific subset of the tech industry. That being said, I have taken courses specifically on bridge design and am confident about the logic and safeguards applied to them, my phobia is entirely unwarranted and irrational.
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Toronto Film Festival 9/11/2007, '08 - Toronto 1 & 2, '09 - Albany 1, '11 - Chicago 1
nicely done finding your spot in life
"Hear me, my chiefs!
I am tired; my heart is
sick and sad. From where
the sun stands I will fight
no more forever."
Chief Joseph - Nez Perce
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Toronto Film Festival 9/11/2007, '08 - Toronto 1 & 2, '09 - Albany 1, '11 - Chicago 1
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Toronto Film Festival 9/11/2007, '08 - Toronto 1 & 2, '09 - Albany 1, '11 - Chicago 1
Barrie, ON '98
Toronto, ON '00/'03/'06/'09/'11/'16(x2)
Hamilton, ON '05/'11
Newark, NJ '10
London, ON '13
Buffalo, NY '13
Detroit, MI '14
Ottawa, ON '16
This is a great place to spend time interacting with good people. Then go to a PJ show and meet some of this fine folks. You'll do fine!
ps to Brian - you do pretty well speaking your mind! Freedom via the physical or pen or keyboard, all an exposure of ourselves. TO ourselves.
I like it...as I do this thread
Barrie, ON '98
Toronto, ON '00/'03/'06/'09/'11/'16(x2)
Hamilton, ON '05/'11
Newark, NJ '10
London, ON '13
Buffalo, NY '13
Detroit, MI '14
Ottawa, ON '16
Barrie, ON '98
Toronto, ON '00/'03/'06/'09/'11/'16(x2)
Hamilton, ON '05/'11
Newark, NJ '10
London, ON '13
Buffalo, NY '13
Detroit, MI '14
Ottawa, ON '16
Barrie, ON '98
Toronto, ON '00/'03/'06/'09/'11/'16(x2)
Hamilton, ON '05/'11
Newark, NJ '10
London, ON '13
Buffalo, NY '13
Detroit, MI '14
Ottawa, ON '16
Reading is not a problem...even if it happens that I don´t get some meanings, but I think that´s bc of some expressions I cannot understand. Bigger challenge is to find the right words, and it´s taking so much time to bring them in the right arrangement...lol...but I do exercise...