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  • hedonist
    hedonist Posts: 24,524
    DURP wrote:
    But what calmed me down was calling the Veterans Crisis Hotline.

    I'm still feeling down and sad but the murderous rage and feelings of self harm are gone.
    Glad you reached out...keep hanging in there, and do what you need.

    Good thoughts to you.
  • Fighting Hellfish
    Fighting Hellfish Posts: 3,175
    takes a big man to apologize and admit being in the wrong. I give you credit for that. May I suggest, and I am not trying to be a dick here, watching the Steve Gleason A Football Life if you have NFL Network. Not sure when it re-airs, but I know they are repeating it. It is truly uplifting and inspirational. And it kicks off with an Eddie Vedder solo song. I won't spoil it by saying what song. I was pleasantly surprised when the show started. I was expecting some PJ, maybe Steve introducing the band at Voodoo fest, but was surprised with what they used
  • DURP
    DURP OhighO Posts: 2,180
    Thanks everyone. Really thanks. I don't have more to say except that. You guys are awesome and thanks for accepting my apology like I said I just lashed out and none of you deserved it. 95% of the people here are really cool and I'm happy that you all accepted my apology and am wishing me better days ahead.


    LouLou I have two friends in OZ now. I met her at my cousin's wedding this year. I have gone global I guess.
    My butt itches!
  • DURP
    DURP OhighO Posts: 2,180
    Fighting Hellfish wrote:
    takes a big man to apologize and admit being in the wrong. I give you credit for that. May I suggest, and I am not trying to be a dick here, watching the Steve Gleason A Football Life if you have NFL Network. Not sure when it re-airs, but I know they are repeating it. It is truly uplifting and inspirational. And it kicks off with an Eddie Vedder solo song. I won't spoil it by saying what song. I was pleasantly surprised when the show started. I was expecting some PJ, maybe Steve introducing the band at Voodoo fest, but was surprised with what they used

    We are "SUPPOSED" to be moving next week. But the dang contractors have been saying that since Oct yes I said Oct. We thought we were moving a week after the Buffalo show. So that has contributed to my stress and craziness. But when we move I will look for it. I usually have that series set up for DVR but the wife recorded some show of her's so mine got booted.
    My butt itches!
  • EdsonNascimento
    EdsonNascimento Posts: 5,531
    Hope you get some help and feel better. Take it a minute, a day at a time. It will get better. There is nothing you can't overcome if you take a deep breath and realize it's not insurmountable.

    And if you need us to get some of your anguish on, then we're here for ya. And when you feel better, come chat and tell us what your favorite off the new album is, and we will be there for ya, too.

    Be good.
    Sorry. The world doesn't work the way you tell it to.
  • mfc2006
    mfc2006 HTOWN Posts: 37,496
    keep your head up, man. sending good thoughts your way.

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  • Black Diamond
    Black Diamond Posts: 25,109
    No worries dude... I certainly get like that... a lot.
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  • afroannnie
    afroannnie Posts: 12,995
    DURP wrote:
    duska3419 wrote:
    have some pj: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HWEPgBTe34g

    Pretty good audience audio from the Phoenix show which was a nice setlist. Live PJ usually helps me, give it a try. :)

    I just got the Buffalo show.

    But what calmed me down was calling the Veterans Crisis Hotline.

    I'm still feeling down and sad but the murderous rage and feelings of self harm are gone.

    I'm glad you called the Veterans Crisis Hotline and they were able to help you. I hope you make through the holidays ok since it's a particularly rough time for you. And I hope you continue to feel better.
    Show #13 was a lucky one for me....
  • dimitrispearljam
    dimitrispearljam Posts: 139,747
    is all good man..we are have good and bad moments.its human,its life..
    have a great day,.cheers from Greece
    "...Dimitri...He talks to me...'.."The Ghost of Greece..".
    "..That's One Happy Fuckin Ghost.."
    “..That came up on the Pillow Case...This is for the Greek, With Our Apologies.....”
  • mookieb10
    mookieb10 Posts: 930
    Great of you to address some questionale posts. Best of luck. And if you're suicidal, know that suicide is a bad thing. Youre lifeless body would look hideous, and you would leave those around you with everlasting pain.
  • Spags
    Spags Leigh-on-Sea, UK Posts: 3,077
    DURP wrote:
    We are "SUPPOSED" to be moving next week. But the dang contractors have been saying that since Oct yes I said Oct. We thought we were moving a week after the Buffalo show. So that has contributed to my stress and craziness.

    Yeah, we're supposed to be moving next week too. People say its one of the most stressful things you can do and they ain't bullshitting. Stay strong, hang in there and try not to let it get on top of you man! Easier said than done I know. When in doubt, listen to PJ. Good luck with it.
    Nature drunk and High
  • evsgjamm
    evsgjamm Posts: 2,110
    DURP wrote:

    We are "SUPPOSED" to be moving next week. But the dang contractors have been saying that since Oct yes I said Oct. We thought we were moving a week after the Buffalo show. So that has contributed to my stress and craziness. But when we move I will look for it. I usually have that series set up for DVR but the wife recorded some show of her's so mine got booted.

    Your contractors have to get all the Lightning Bolt albums shipped first!

    In all seriousness, I know that I can't relate to your personal experiences as a vet, but I do get emotional thinking about vets and what they've endured to protect our freedoms. The unbelievable sacrifices you've made for your country are so often taken for granted. I will never know the feelings that you endure on a daily basis, however I wish you all the best in your daily struggle. The PJ forum is a place where you can find caring people for sure. It's weeding out the 5% (as per one of your earlier messages) that may help keep you from being dragged down into more troll-like posts. Nothing wrong with taking a break from the forum altogether from time to time as well. I'll leave you with a few things that I instantly think of when I see your name, DURP. All the best to you.

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  • RiotZact
    RiotZact Posts: 6,300
    Sweet, very cool of you.
  • Snoopy Died For Our Sins
    Snoopy Died For Our Sins Posts: 2,608
    forget the sorry, just erase your less than decent posts...no need to create another post to state the obvious
    "No way to save someone who won't take the rope,and just lets go..."
  • PJ_Soul
    PJ_Soul Vancouver, BC Posts: 51,492
    Snoopy Died For Our Sins wrote:
    forget the sorry, just erase your less than decent posts...no need to create another post to state the obvious
    Well that doesn't work. They were all quoted.
    Not very gracious of you.... it's a sincere apology and a good explanation.
    With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be careful. Strive to be happy. ~ Desiderata
  • CAVSTARR313
    CAVSTARR313 Posts: 8,756
    This is relief for something that was on my mind today..

    Holy shit, these little avatars are actually humans.. :D

    Hope thing get easier soon and we are all here if needed
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  • Flyingw
    Flyingw Brantford Posts: 443
    Take it easy DURP. Be kind to yourself. Know that people care...and are listening to Buffalo boot too!
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  • corduroykelly
    corduroykelly Posts: 668
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  • shetellsherself
    shetellsherself New Jersey Posts: 8,835
    Caveeze wrote:
    This is relief for something that was on my mind today..

    Holy shit, these little avatars are actually humans.. :D

    Hope thing get easier soon and we are all here if needed

    I was worried too though I don't know you DURP. I saw some earlier posts that had me feeling concerned for a fellow pj fan who was clearly hurting. Glad you reached out for help and also chatted with us. Maybe talk to the doc about your meds? Hope you find peace.

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  • kc007
    kc007 USA Posts: 282
    Hi there, I do not generally read and post on the boards here that often, but decided to log in to just let you know that people care - especially fellow pearl jammers. The holidays can be brutal. Take each day, one day at a time. If you can get outdoors and get some exercise and fresh air, I think that would help quite a bit. Also, reaching out to others that may also be suffering or volunteering someplace during the holiday season can do a great deal to make you feel better and take those suicidal thoughts away. And thank you for your service, you are a braver, stronger soul than I and you are valued here and in the world. Be kind to yourself. :)

    Hang in there. It will get better.

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