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DURPDURP OhighO Posts: 2,180
edited December 2013 in The Porch
I am being a huge Dick right now to a lot of you for no reason. I am severely depressed and for some reason my meds are not working like normal. Part of it is this time of year. I'm not going to get into but let's say Christmas was not always merry at my house growing up.

I'm big enough to admit when I am being wrong and a Dick. None of you deserve the way I acted it's not your fault. Sorry for being a major asshole.
My butt itches!
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    LloydXmasLloydXmas Posts: 7,539
    We all have our moments.
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    ldent42ldent42 NYC Posts: 7,859
    have some pj: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HWEPgBTe34g

    Pretty good audience audio from the Phoenix show which was a nice setlist. Live PJ usually helps me, give it a try. :)
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    TinAntTinAnt Posts: 343
    If you are a looking for an outlet to troll go over to reddit, the place is great because they can't ban you.
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    DURPDURP OhighO Posts: 2,180
    TinAnt wrote:
    If you are a looking for an outlet to troll go over to reddit, the place is great because they can't ban you.

    I was just lashing out at the world.


    I don't know what reddit even is.
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    jason_94jason_94 Toledo, OH Posts: 1,872
    Very nicely said. Don't sweat it too much. At the end of the day your other posts were just words.

    More importantly, take care of yourself. I wish the best for you through your tough times and I hope you're feeling better very soon.

    Before you know it, we'll all be back to debating best posters, songs, setlists, & bootlegs.

    Take care.
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    DURPDURP OhighO Posts: 2,180
    duska3419 wrote:
    have some pj: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HWEPgBTe34g

    Pretty good audience audio from the Phoenix show which was a nice setlist. Live PJ usually helps me, give it a try. :)

    I just got the Buffalo show.

    But what calmed me down was calling the Veterans Crisis Hotline.

    I'm still feeling down and sad but the murderous rage and feelings of self harm are gone.
    My butt itches!
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    looloolooloolooloo Posts: 378
    This may be the best post on the board in recent times.
    Hugs, Durp, even if you don't want them.
    How many of us have the balls to apologize like this?

    If the holidays bring bad memories, then fuck em and treat em like any other day. And maybe one day you can start making positive memories to replace the bad ones. Good luck.
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    TinAntTinAnt Posts: 343
    DURP wrote:
    TinAnt wrote:
    If you are a looking for an outlet to troll go over to reddit, the place is great because they can't ban you.

    I was just lashing out at the world.


    I don't know what reddit even is.

    It is a mixture of pretty much every type of person in the world, there are plenty of depressed or unhappy people there that lash out(because its fun) in trollish ways. You might even find some people that are like minded and become part of a community. Or you can head over and try to find some help for what ever is bothering you.

    add .com to the end of reddit and you will be there.
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    SVRDhand13SVRDhand13 NYC Posts: 25,849
    It is really cool of you to apologize. Wishing you the best! Buy that Buffalo boot- that should help :).
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    PJ_SoulPJ_Soul Vancouver, BC Posts: 49,539
    edited November 2013
    TinAnt wrote:
    If you are a looking for an outlet to troll go over to reddit, the place is great because they can't ban you.
    That is some good advice. :)
    Hope you're feeling a little more cheery and less of a dick soon DURP. ;)
    As for Xams.... yeah, fuck it if you don't like it. Just pretend all the decorations are simply the result of people being bored. :D
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    Leezestarr313Leezestarr313 Temple of the cat Posts: 14,346
    I hope you will feel better soon :)
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    DURPDURP OhighO Posts: 2,180
    PJ_Soul wrote:
    TinAnt wrote:
    If you are a looking for an outlet to troll go over to reddit, the place is great because they can't ban you.
    That is some good advice. :)
    Hope you're feeling a little more cheery soon DURP.

    I'm working on it.
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    SeaSea Earth Posts: 2,923
    PJ_Soul wrote:
    TinAnt wrote:
    If you are a looking for an outlet to troll go over to reddit, the place is great because they can't ban you.
    That is some good advice. :)
    Hope you're feeling a little more cheery and less of a dick soon DURP. ;)
    As for Xams.... yeah, fuck it if you don't like it. Just pretend all the decorations are simply the result of people being bored. :D


    When someone apologizes we take that to heart. We also don't encourage trolling here or elsewhere. Please see the Posting Guidelines. Thank you.

    Peace,
    Sea
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    PJ_SoulPJ_Soul Vancouver, BC Posts: 49,539
    Sea wrote:
    PJ_Soul wrote:
    TinAnt wrote:
    If you are a looking for an outlet to troll go over to reddit, the place is great because they can't ban you.
    That is some good advice. :)
    Hope you're feeling a little more cheery and less of a dick soon DURP. ;)
    As for Xams.... yeah, fuck it if you don't like it. Just pretend all the decorations are simply the result of people being bored. :D


    When someone apologizes we take that to heart. We also don't encourage trolling here or elsewhere. Please see the Posting Guidelines. Thank you.

    Peace,
    Sea
    Oops, sorry - I thought it was a joke!
    With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be careful. Strive to be happy. ~ Desiderata
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    ldent42ldent42 NYC Posts: 7,859
    DURP wrote:
    duska3419 wrote:
    have some pj: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HWEPgBTe34g

    Pretty good audience audio from the Phoenix show which was a nice setlist. Live PJ usually helps me, give it a try. :)

    I just got the Buffalo show.

    But what calmed me down was calling the Veterans Crisis Hotline.

    I'm still feeling down and sad but the murderous rage and feelings of self harm are gone.

    Check these guys out too http://iava.org
    Get involved in some things if you have free time, it helps, especially being around like minded individuals. There's a few vets on this board too. I'm glad the hotline people were able to help you out. :)
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    mrluthor9mrluthor9 Posts: 264
    I have a friend who was in Iraq and he is going through some similar issues. I hope you are feeling better and thanks for your service. I know the VA gets a bad rap sometimes but there are some good people there and it's good you are reaching out to let them help.
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    LoulouLoulou Adelaide Posts: 6,247
    Hey Matey! :wave: don't be sad Durpster!! ;) always have a friend here in Oz!! :)
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    Given2Fly-FishGiven2Fly-Fish Posts: 811
    DURP wrote:
    I am being a huge Dick right now to a lot of you for no reason. I am severely depressed and for some reason my meds are not working like normal. Part of it is this time of year. I'm not going to get into but let's say Christmas was not always merry at my house growing up.

    I'm big enough to admit when I am being wrong and a Dick. None of you deserve the way I acted it's not your fault. Sorry for being a major asshole.

    Don't sweat the small stuff man. Thanks for posting I was worried about you. Feel better, take care of yourself and try to enjoy the holiday as best you can.

    Peace, love & PJ,

    Chris
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    TinAntTinAnt Posts: 343
    Sea wrote:
    PJ_Soul wrote:
    TinAnt wrote:
    If you are a looking for an outlet to troll go over to reddit, the place is great because they can't ban you.
    That is some good advice. :)
    Hope you're feeling a little more cheery and less of a dick soon DURP. ;)
    As for Xams.... yeah, fuck it if you don't like it. Just pretend all the decorations are simply the result of people being bored. :D


    When someone apologizes we take that to heart. We also don't encourage trolling here or elsewhere. Please see the Posting Guidelines. Thank you.

    Peace,
    Sea

    I am specifically discouraging trolling here, as it is not allowed. Trolling is allowed at reddit and in some places specifically encouraged. Their admins don't moderate, the users do.

    I'm just trying to help the guy find a place to vent in a way he deems fit, and it is very likely he will find some help along the way.
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    PJ_SoulPJ_Soul Vancouver, BC Posts: 49,539
    TinAnt wrote:
    Sea wrote:
    PJ_Soul wrote:
    Hope you're feeling a little more cheery and less of a dick soon DURP. ;)
    As for Xams.... yeah, fuck it if you don't like it. Just pretend all the decorations are simply the result of people being bored. :D


    When someone apologizes we take that to heart. We also don't encourage trolling here or elsewhere. Please see the Posting Guidelines. Thank you.

    Peace,
    Sea

    I am specifically discouraging trolling here, as it is not allowed. Trolling is allowed at reddit and in some places specifically encouraged. Their admins don't moderate, the users do.

    I'm just trying to help the guy find a place to vent in a way he deems fit, and it is very likely he will find some help along the way.
    It is true that it's a free for all at Reddit anyway! That place is way too chaotic for me! :lol:
    Really DURP, now I feel bad - I really do hope you are feeling better soon! I know it's hard when it feels (and is) so out of one's control, so hoping you find the thing that helps you out of the dark place! :)
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    hedonisthedonist standing on the edge of forever Posts: 24,524
    DURP wrote:
    But what calmed me down was calling the Veterans Crisis Hotline.

    I'm still feeling down and sad but the murderous rage and feelings of self harm are gone.
    Glad you reached out...keep hanging in there, and do what you need.

    Good thoughts to you.
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    Fighting HellfishFighting Hellfish Posts: 3,166
    takes a big man to apologize and admit being in the wrong. I give you credit for that. May I suggest, and I am not trying to be a dick here, watching the Steve Gleason A Football Life if you have NFL Network. Not sure when it re-airs, but I know they are repeating it. It is truly uplifting and inspirational. And it kicks off with an Eddie Vedder solo song. I won't spoil it by saying what song. I was pleasantly surprised when the show started. I was expecting some PJ, maybe Steve introducing the band at Voodoo fest, but was surprised with what they used
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    DURPDURP OhighO Posts: 2,180
    Thanks everyone. Really thanks. I don't have more to say except that. You guys are awesome and thanks for accepting my apology like I said I just lashed out and none of you deserved it. 95% of the people here are really cool and I'm happy that you all accepted my apology and am wishing me better days ahead.


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    My butt itches!
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    DURPDURP OhighO Posts: 2,180
    Fighting Hellfish wrote:
    takes a big man to apologize and admit being in the wrong. I give you credit for that. May I suggest, and I am not trying to be a dick here, watching the Steve Gleason A Football Life if you have NFL Network. Not sure when it re-airs, but I know they are repeating it. It is truly uplifting and inspirational. And it kicks off with an Eddie Vedder solo song. I won't spoil it by saying what song. I was pleasantly surprised when the show started. I was expecting some PJ, maybe Steve introducing the band at Voodoo fest, but was surprised with what they used

    We are "SUPPOSED" to be moving next week. But the dang contractors have been saying that since Oct yes I said Oct. We thought we were moving a week after the Buffalo show. So that has contributed to my stress and craziness. But when we move I will look for it. I usually have that series set up for DVR but the wife recorded some show of her's so mine got booted.
    My butt itches!
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    EdsonNascimentoEdsonNascimento Posts: 5,506
    Hope you get some help and feel better. Take it a minute, a day at a time. It will get better. There is nothing you can't overcome if you take a deep breath and realize it's not insurmountable.

    And if you need us to get some of your anguish on, then we're here for ya. And when you feel better, come chat and tell us what your favorite off the new album is, and we will be there for ya, too.

    Be good.
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    mfc2006mfc2006 HTOWN Posts: 37,385
    keep your head up, man. sending good thoughts your way.

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    Black DiamondBlack Diamond Posts: 25,107
    No worries dude... I certainly get like that... a lot.
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    afroannnieafroannnie Posts: 12,995
    DURP wrote:
    duska3419 wrote:
    have some pj: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HWEPgBTe34g

    Pretty good audience audio from the Phoenix show which was a nice setlist. Live PJ usually helps me, give it a try. :)

    I just got the Buffalo show.

    But what calmed me down was calling the Veterans Crisis Hotline.

    I'm still feeling down and sad but the murderous rage and feelings of self harm are gone.

    I'm glad you called the Veterans Crisis Hotline and they were able to help you. I hope you make through the holidays ok since it's a particularly rough time for you. And I hope you continue to feel better.
    Show #13 was a lucky one for me....
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    dimitrispearljamdimitrispearljam NINUNINOPRO Posts: 139,158
    is all good man..we are have good and bad moments.its human,its life..
    have a great day,.cheers from Greece
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    mookieb10mookieb10 Posts: 930
    Great of you to address some questionale posts. Best of luck. And if you're suicidal, know that suicide is a bad thing. Youre lifeless body would look hideous, and you would leave those around you with everlasting pain.
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