Chained and silenced

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  • TalonTedd
    TalonTedd Toronto Posts: 835
    Aafke said:

    Thoughts_Arrive" said:
    [quote="Aafke"]Well let this piece speak for itself.... I'm curious what you will see in it.

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    A conflicted person, someone with many thoughts and feelings.[/quote]

    Nice one...

    "The selfish they're all standing in line. Faithing and hoping to buy themselves time"......
    The sorrow grows bigger when the sorrows denied....
    All the innocents broken with lies.....

    gotta dedicate a song to this one, I am mine.

    I am so fucking glad I left it behind, am working it out...to be mine.

    Aafke, "Speaks for itself" is a masterpiece....I want that one, consider me to care for it and appreciate it forever. Would you part with it?

    :-O =D>
    I remember when, yeah. I swore I knew everything, oh yeah.
  • Aafke
    Aafke Posts: 1,219
    edited January 2014
    Please, do send a PM about that last question. It doesn't seem fit for me to talk about this kind of stuff publicly.

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    "The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed".- Carl Jung.
    "Art does not reproduce what we see; rather, it makes us see."- Paul Klee
  • Aafke
    Aafke Posts: 1,219
    edited January 2014
    Everyone tells me how to live my life, but they aren't the ones living it now, are they?

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    So fuck off, I'll do it my way.
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    "The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed".- Carl Jung.
    "Art does not reproduce what we see; rather, it makes us see."- Paul Klee
  • Aafke
    Aafke Posts: 1,219
    edited January 2014
    A Poem accompanying the pic above

    LOST

    Hidden in a corner
    Seeking for myself
    Lost
    My tears

    Can't cry
    Lost my feelings
    Estranged
    Not lonely

    Running away
    From myself
    My feelings
    So intense
    Imprisoned
    My sadness
    Suffocated
    Lost
    Ascending
    With them
    The feelings
    Die
    Loosing
    I'm no longer me


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    "The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed".- Carl Jung.
    "Art does not reproduce what we see; rather, it makes us see."- Paul Klee
  • Aafke
    Aafke Posts: 1,219
    edited January 2014
    I try to be free, Living in the moment...
    Like this Dying Dancer...

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    "The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed".- Carl Jung.
    "Art does not reproduce what we see; rather, it makes us see."- Paul Klee
  • Aafke
    Aafke Posts: 1,219
    edited February 2014
    Well, I've been doing some rewriting of Blind
    It's now called Clouded View...

    I think it's an improvement this way, but I would love to hear your feedback on it...So please let me know...

    Clouded view

    Out of breath, black spots in my eyes
    Became red clouds
    Swirling around in sight
    Clouding my focus…clouding my view

    Red strings swirl in sight
    Clouded view
    Out goes the light…

    Doctors confirm the fear
    Shooting lasers, treatment after treatment
    Operation after operation
    But the damage done is irreversible

    Red strings swirl in sight
    Clouded view
    Out goes the light…

    Wasn't able to work
    Couldn't handle being confronted
    Being focused on my sight
    By making art… feelings were dealt with

    Red strings swirl in sight
    Clouded view
    Out goes the light…

    Fear, panic, despair, hopeless and furious
    While treatments failed
    Couldn't handle it
    Terrified off losing….Suicide? Yes!

    Red strings swirl in sight
    Clouded view
    Out goes the light…

    In despair…
    Stop feeling... or go down
    Try to survive, grabbing onto live
    Feelings deep inside vaulted behind bars

    Red strings swirl in sight
    Clouded view
    Out goes the light…

    Survive, survive, survive…
    All of this to survive…
    The emotional storm hidden inside
    Thrown away the prison key
    Cause what is there to see?

    Red strings swirl in sight
    Clouded view
    Out goes the light…

    Still Alive, in loss of all depth
    Amazing fear is what remained
    But feeling is healing…art using as crowbar,
    I begin to feel again, I begin to live again

    Red strings swirl in sight
    Clouded view
    Out goes the light…
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    "The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed".- Carl Jung.
    "Art does not reproduce what we see; rather, it makes us see."- Paul Klee
  • Aafke
    Aafke Posts: 1,219
    Roaring fire...

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    "The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed".- Carl Jung.
    "Art does not reproduce what we see; rather, it makes us see."- Paul Klee
  • Aafke
    Aafke Posts: 1,219
    Always

    Always on the lookout
    Always insecure
    Always expecting bad things to happen
    Always fucking up
    It becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy
    Why do I find it so difficult to break this chain?
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    "The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed".- Carl Jung.
    "Art does not reproduce what we see; rather, it makes us see."- Paul Klee
  • Aafke
    Aafke Posts: 1,219
    edited February 2014
    Always on the lookout
    Always on the side
    Observing
    Always in hiding

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    "The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed".- Carl Jung.
    "Art does not reproduce what we see; rather, it makes us see."- Paul Klee
  • Aafke
    Aafke Posts: 1,219
    The Storm Whirling Inside

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    "The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed".- Carl Jung.
    "Art does not reproduce what we see; rather, it makes us see."- Paul Klee
  • Aafke
    Aafke Posts: 1,219
    edited March 2014
    The only thing that is suffocating me right now are my own negative thoughts... How do I outgrow them?

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    "The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed".- Carl Jung.
    "Art does not reproduce what we see; rather, it makes us see."- Paul Klee
  • Aafke
    Aafke Posts: 1,219
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    Waves_zps6b028461.jpg
    "The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed".- Carl Jung.
    "Art does not reproduce what we see; rather, it makes us see."- Paul Klee
  • Aafke
    Aafke Posts: 1,219
    In all darkness en decay I'm looking for the light...

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    "The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed".- Carl Jung.
    "Art does not reproduce what we see; rather, it makes us see."- Paul Klee
  • Aafke
    Aafke Posts: 1,219
    edited April 2014
    Behind the darkness there will be light...

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    "The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed".- Carl Jung.
    "Art does not reproduce what we see; rather, it makes us see."- Paul Klee
  • Aafke
    Aafke Posts: 1,219
    Dust to dust...
    Old grave...

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    "The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed".- Carl Jung.
    "Art does not reproduce what we see; rather, it makes us see."- Paul Klee
  • Aafke
    Aafke Posts: 1,219
    edited June 2014
    She’s back…

    She’s knocking on my door,
    Again…
    Like a true companion.
    Faithfull she is…
    Always coming back,
    On my weakest moments.

    Trying to keep her out,
    the shades come down…
    No one knows…
    She here…
    But me.

    Trying to fight her off...
    Taking refuge in my imagination…

    Fading away…
    Fading…fading away…
    Into the background,
    If no one notices me, maybe I’ll be saved…
    Fading into the distance…
    Trying to escape…Trying to flee…

    She hunts me down.
    She gets a hold of me…
    Knocks me down…
    Down… down…
    Why can’t I fight her off?
    Why am I so weak?

    The weaker I get
    The stronger I pretend to be…
    Prisoner of my own mind…

    Why am I so afraid to cry out for help?
    Afraid no one cares enough to hear my cry…
    The shades are down in my head…
    She has got me to herself…
    Bound in a cocoon of pretending, silence and loneliness…

    I’m sinking…
    Sinking…
    Down and alone…
    How can I pull up the shades?
    Show the world…
    What I allow her to do to me….
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    "The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed".- Carl Jung.
    "Art does not reproduce what we see; rather, it makes us see."- Paul Klee
  • Aafke
    Aafke Posts: 1,219
    F*cking Disease

    So this f*cking disease has broken me again
    In a thousand pieces
    The cure was in sight
    But once again
    My hopes where up to high
    Now they lay before me
    Broken into a million splinters
    I wish, I knew
    Life not living on the edge
    On that borderline between
    Life and death
    So tired of surviving
    I just wanna live
    is that too much to ask?
    Waves_zps6b028461.jpg
    "The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed".- Carl Jung.
    "Art does not reproduce what we see; rather, it makes us see."- Paul Klee
  • Aafke
    Aafke Posts: 1,219
    edited August 2022
    Tied up
    Not only to the bed

    Out of necessity intertwined
    With the silence

    Chained
    To loneliness 

    Crying
    Inside my head

    Cause I only may exist
    If I pretend to be someone they want me to be

    Screaming for help 
    Inside my head

    Cause there is no one who wants to listen
    So I present to be the real me

    Trying to become the person someone else wants me to be

    AMV
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    "The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed".- Carl Jung.
    "Art does not reproduce what we see; rather, it makes us see."- Paul Klee
  • evsgjamm
    evsgjamm Posts: 2,108
    I love the rejuvenated thread after 7 ish years. 
    Vancouver '03, Paramount Theatre '05, Saskatoon '05, Calgary '05, Edmonton '05, Saskatoon '11, Calgary '11, Calgary '13

    2010 WATCH IT GO TO FIRE!!

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