Male suicide - Interesting article...

Thoughts_Arrive
Thoughts_Arrive Melbourne, Australia Posts: 15,165
edited December 2011 in A Moving Train
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  • gimmesometruth27
    gimmesometruth27 St. Fuckin Louis Posts: 24,442
    i would say that men suffer in silence. just as the article stated.

    having recently survived a crippling, very near life-threatening depression myself i can attest that as a man i suffered in silence. i was conditioned to not show emotion and never let people know that something was bothering me because it is a display of weakness. i was dying inside and to the outside world i had to act like nothing was wrong. i was fucking up at work and i became seriously apathetic and unable to have empathy for others because i was too wrapped up in the hellhole that my life had become. i had nobody to go to. i could not go to my male friends because they would think i was a pussy. they did not know how to help. their solution was to get me loaded on liquor and that just made things worse because i turned inward and dwelled on my problems instead of attacking them with a clear head. i could not go to my family because they could not help me. they had always avoided serious issues and acted like everything was normal and put on a front to everyone else like things were grand. i had lost my girlfriend, who at the time i thought was my best friend so i could not go to her. i was completely alone and self medicating with drugs and alcohol. i began to write letters to people that kind of put things in perspective and were my way of saying goodbye to some people. it scared me that i could write those goodbye letters with absolutely no emotion. no sadness, no anger, nothing. to me, i was done....i was actually thinking of ways to end things. i stopped caring about things. i started taking stupid risks and pushing the envelope in a lot of ways. i started giving things away that i felt that i did not need. and if i had had a gun at that time i don't see how i would be here today. i finally hit rock bottom and sought counseling, as that was my last option. i can freely admit that that counseling and a few close friendships on here, my band and my music, and my dog saved my life.

    i was looking at the table on that link about how men and women show signs of depression.

    depression-symptoms.png?w=540&h=381

    what i find strange is that my depression manifested itself and i showed more signs that were more common in women than in men.

    the more female symptoms i had were:
    i blamed myself
    i had sadness, apathy, and worthlessness, with some anger.
    i had serious anxiety issues
    i overslept
    i had difficulty maintaining boundaries
    i had mainly guilt, with some shame
    i had problems with success
    i assumed low status
    i withdrew from those closest to me

    while the more male characteristics that i had were:
    i created conflict
    i was restless and agitated
    i had compulsiveness
    i self medicated with drugs and alcohol
    and i did the overuse of internet/tv/email

    the other thing that i found interesting is that i know more males who have committed suicide than i do women. i think more women that i knew casually attempted, but more men were successful.

    this was a hard post for me to type and to admit so publicly, but i think that in the end it will be helpful for me to admit it.

    i am completely recovered now and i know that i will never, ever, allow myself to end up in a similar situation again. so in an odd way i am thankful that i went through all of that because it has made me a stronger person today. i learned so much about myself during that time. things that i never knew before. things that i might have suspected but i always trampled those feelings in an effort to bury them. the thing about counseling is it forces you to be honest with yourself. it forces you to find the demons inside of you and makes you exorcise them.. once you are able to be honest with yourself, then you can start to see the things that were the problem and you can recognize why they were the problem. and then you can put those things to bed and move on with your life.

    if anyone out there is depressed or feeling suicidal, for god's sake talk to someone.
    "You can tell the greatness of a man by what makes him angry."  - Lincoln

    "Well, you tell him that I don't talk to suckas."
  • Thoughts_Arrive
    Thoughts_Arrive Melbourne, Australia Posts: 15,165
    Thank you for being honest and sharing your experiences.
    Wishing you all the best.
    Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
  • pandora
    pandora Posts: 21,855
    if anyone out there is depressed or feeling suicidal, for god's sake talk to someone.
    I'm glad you are here.
    The best advice comes from sharing so people know they are not alone.
    Thank you
  • gimmesometruth27
    gimmesometruth27 St. Fuckin Louis Posts: 24,442
    thanks to both of you too...

    i share stuff so that if only one person is helped by it it is worth any temporary embarrassment on my part...
    "You can tell the greatness of a man by what makes him angry."  - Lincoln

    "Well, you tell him that I don't talk to suckas."
  • stargirl69
    stargirl69 Posts: 6,387
    You show great strength by sharing your story here gimmesometruth27 ... I have had my own personal experiences battling this and my most wonderful yet tragic relationship was darkly marked with my only loves history of suicide attempts.

    It takes great strength and courage to recognise and hear the words "I need help",come from our own mouths.

    I wish you well and I am glad to hear you are doing better with each new day.

    xxooxx
    “There should be a place where only the things you want to happen, happen”
  • catefrances
    catefrances Posts: 29,003
    pandora wrote:
    if anyone out there is depressed or feeling suicidal, for god's sake talk to someone.
    I'm glad you are here.
    The best advice comes from sharing so people know they are not alone.
    Thank you


    im glad hes here too pandora.... oh wow look its the season for miracles... we agree on something. ;):lol:
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • gimmesometruth27
    gimmesometruth27 St. Fuckin Louis Posts: 24,442
    pandora wrote:
    if anyone out there is depressed or feeling suicidal, for god's sake talk to someone.
    I'm glad you are here.
    The best advice comes from sharing so people know they are not alone.
    Thank you


    im glad hes here too pandora.... oh wow look its the season for miracles... we agree on something. ;):lol:
    awwwww glad you two can agree, and i have something to do with it haha.... :D
    "You can tell the greatness of a man by what makes him angry."  - Lincoln

    "Well, you tell him that I don't talk to suckas."
  • gimmesometruth27
    gimmesometruth27 St. Fuckin Louis Posts: 24,442
    stargirl69 wrote:
    You show great strength by sharing your story here gimmesometruth27 ... I have had my own personal experiences battling this and my most wonderful yet tragic relationship was darkly marked with my only loves history of suicide attempts.

    It takes great strength and courage to recognise and hear the words "I need help",come from our own mouths.

    I wish you well and I am glad to hear you are doing better with each new day.

    xxooxx
    thank you. like i said, i am back to normal now. the way i figure it, i am normal and average enough that i am sure there are others out there that are going through a rough patch and if my words can help anyone in any way i am not afraid to share. if i had read something like that in the depths of my depression it would have helped me for sure.

    and yeah, the "i need help" thing was a difficult conclusion to come to. i mean people knew i was in trouble but it took me to admit it that i needed help and that i was willing to listen to that help for things to actually start to turn around.

    i am sorry that you had to go through what you had to experience. it is never easy when you or someone you love is going through this stuff.

    take care stargirl69.
    "You can tell the greatness of a man by what makes him angry."  - Lincoln

    "Well, you tell him that I don't talk to suckas."
  • Loulou
    Loulou Adelaide Posts: 6,247
    Yeah have to admit, the 4 people I have known were all males between 19-25. My best mate from high school always felt very lonley, he would tell me all the time that I was a great friend but that I didn't understand. Found out after he died that he was gay, I wish he had been able to talk about it with me. Very sad.
    “ "Thank you Palestrina. It’s a wonderful evening, it’s great to be here and I wanna dedicate you a super sexy song." " (last words of Mark Sandman of Morphine)


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  • gimmesometruth27
    gimmesometruth27 St. Fuckin Louis Posts: 24,442
    Loulou wrote:
    Yeah have to admit, the 4 people I have known were all males between 19-25. My best mate from high school always felt very lonley, he would tell me all the time that I was a great friend but that I didn't understand. Found out after he died that he was gay, I wish he had been able to talk about it with me. Very sad.
    i am so sorry.

    i don't want to speak for your friend, but i know that when i was at my worst people were reaching out to me and i did not want to talk. i didn't want to talk because i didn't want to share any more than i had to, and because i did not think that my friends would understand my situation. there were a few of them that i did not think i could trust, and since my trust had just been severely betrayed i did not want to let anyone else in. also rather than answering a million questions about it from many different people, i said nothing.

    again i am so sorry for your loss... :(
    "You can tell the greatness of a man by what makes him angry."  - Lincoln

    "Well, you tell him that I don't talk to suckas."
  • Loulou
    Loulou Adelaide Posts: 6,247
    Loulou wrote:
    Yeah have to admit, the 4 people I have known were all males between 19-25. My best mate from high school always felt very lonley, he would tell me all the time that I was a great friend but that I didn't understand. Found out after he died that he was gay, I wish he had been able to talk about it with me. Very sad.
    i am so sorry.

    i don't want to speak for your friend, but i know that when i was at my worst people were reaching out to me and i did not want to talk. i didn't want to talk because i didn't want to share any more than i had to, and because i did not think that my friends would understand my situation. there were a few of them that i did not think i could trust, and since my trust had just been severely betrayed i did not want to let anyone else in. also rather than answering a million questions about it from many different people, i said nothing.

    again i am so sorry for your loss... :(
    Thanks mate, yeah it's like he would start to talk about it but it hurt him too much and he'd stop. He was always the person to make everyone laugh, if you weren't that close to him you would have never thought he would have gone through with it. He tried it a couple of times before succeeding, then broke up with someone and I guess that was the last straw. I'm sorry that you went through this too, thanks for giving us some insight into this, much appreciated.
    “ "Thank you Palestrina. It’s a wonderful evening, it’s great to be here and I wanna dedicate you a super sexy song." " (last words of Mark Sandman of Morphine)


    Adelaide 1998
    Adelaide 2003
    Adelaide 2006 night 1
    Adelaide 2006 night 2
    Adelaide 2009
    Melbourne 2009
    Christchurch NZ 2009
    Eddie Vedder, Adelaide 2011
    PJ20 USA 2011 night 1
    PJ20 USA 2011 night 2
    Adelaide BIG DAY OUT 2014
  • catefrances
    catefrances Posts: 29,003
    awwwww glad you two can agree, and i have something to do with it haha.... :D


    dont get cocky kid....
    :P
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • _
    _ Posts: 6,657
    thanks to both of you too...

    i share stuff so that if only one person is helped by it it is worth any temporary embarrassment on my part...
    You're a good man. :thumbup:
  • catefrances
    catefrances Posts: 29,003
    _ wrote:
    thanks to both of you too...

    i share stuff so that if only one person is helped by it it is worth any temporary embarrassment on my part...
    You're a good man. :thumbup:


    QFT... perhaps a little unapproachable but hey! no ones perfect. ;) :P 8-)
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • usamamasan1
    usamamasan1 Posts: 4,695
    I grew up in a family circle of honesty and trust. We could always speak to each other if we had a problem/issue to solve/discuss.
    My parents are married and I am getting old. Traditions, like marriage and family are strong bonds.
    Suicide is the ultimate sin.
  • catefrances
    catefrances Posts: 29,003
    ..I grew up in a family circle of honesty and trust. We could always speak to each other if we had a problem/issue to solve/discuss.
    My parents are married and I am getting old. Traditions, like marriage and family are strong bonds.
    Suicide is the ultimate sin.


    why... cause doctrine says it is the only sin one cant seek repentance for?? excuse me but what a crock of shit that is.

    its great that you grew up in a environment such as you did, but not every one is as fortunate as you(and even if they are sometimes its just not enough) and not everybody has the strength within themselves. suicide is a desparate act and labelling it as 'the ultimate sin' doesnt help. perhaps youd like to take that strength you have and turn it into compassion.
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • gimmesometruth27
    gimmesometruth27 St. Fuckin Louis Posts: 24,442
    Suicide is the ultimate sin.
    is that a fact??

    try telling that to the family of jessie kasper, a teenage australian pearl jam fan who used to post here. she committed suicide in 2003. maybe if there was a thread like this back then, just maybe she might be here today.

    i wasn't going to say anything, but this reply has pissed me off big time...your level of callousness and your apathy towards those who are in a bad situation speaks volumes about you as a person. not just in this thread, but any thread where people who are not "winning" is discussed.

    please read this page and come back and tell me how much of a sinner she is...

    http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id= ... 94?sk=info
    "You can tell the greatness of a man by what makes him angry."  - Lincoln

    "Well, you tell him that I don't talk to suckas."
  • gimmesometruth27
    gimmesometruth27 St. Fuckin Louis Posts: 24,442
    Loulou wrote:
    Thanks mate, yeah it's like he would start to talk about it but it hurt him too much and he'd stop. He was always the person to make everyone laugh, if you weren't that close to him you would have never thought he would have gone through with it. He tried it a couple of times before succeeding, then broke up with someone and I guess that was the last straw. I'm sorry that you went through this too, thanks for giving us some insight into this, much appreciated.
    we should never ever forget that people who are in such an emotional state are capable of anything. that is why it is a bad sign when people withdraw or when they refuse to open up and discuss anything. i know in my experience, keeping up appearances that i was fine was the main motivation to get through my days. i went to work like i was fine. i actually excelled at work at that time because it was the only thing forcing me to take my mind off of my problem. and to maintain appearances i was not saying anything to anyone who i thought might do something crazy like calling my parents or the cops or anyone who could help. the thing i learned the most, which was distressing at the time, it that i am a survivor. i overcame the thing that threatened to do me in. i found the strength within me to keep going. and now i am thriving again. i wish that everyone can have the outcome that i had.
    "You can tell the greatness of a man by what makes him angry."  - Lincoln

    "Well, you tell him that I don't talk to suckas."
  • gimmesometruth27
    gimmesometruth27 St. Fuckin Louis Posts: 24,442
    _ wrote:
    thanks to both of you too...

    i share stuff so that if only one person is helped by it it is worth any temporary embarrassment on my part...
    You're a good man. :thumbup:


    QFT... perhaps a little unapproachable but hey! no ones perfect. ;) :P 8-)
    sometimes i have my doubts , _ :D

    and me unapproachable? i have to disagree :P ...
    "You can tell the greatness of a man by what makes him angry."  - Lincoln

    "Well, you tell him that I don't talk to suckas."
  • Byrnzie
    Byrnzie Posts: 21,037
    _ wrote:
    thanks to both of you too...

    i share stuff so that if only one person is helped by it it is worth any temporary embarrassment on my part...
    You're a good man. :thumbup:

    +1