'ing on Jimmy Stewart chatting with Johnny Carson.
I may or may not watch It's a Wonderful Life yet again this year.
"Well of course I like her. She's a peach!!!!!!"
"With this draft, it's a wonder we don't all catch pneumonia!!!!!!!"
^ My fave George Bailey lines. You have to scream it like he does.
I am quite partial to that George, among other beloved Georges. Our bigass kitty was named for each of them in part, and bless him, he lives up to them in part...
^^^Awww George is adorable! And I'm happy that you're feeling better RS!
Thanks! It's so ironic...I was isolating myself trying not to bring others down when those same wonderful people brought me out of my funk. So grateful.
Sick at how some people treat the animals for whom they should be caring, and loving.
Henry is a Golden in a near-ish area- some asshole dumped him, abandoned him, because he had a huge (40+ lb) tumor. Just left him on the road.
I don't like feeling hate, but fuck me...I have it strong for people who have no business living with an animal in the first place. Who aren't even fucking people.
I love when I come visit and read this thread - there is so much care and comfort here.
I am struggling. Feel like I'm locked inside myself and Christmas has triggered so much anxiety and sadness. Hard to explain and I'm so sick of being fucked up. PTSD sucks. Parental Alientaion sucks - I haven't seen my son in a month. And seeing him just triggers the PTSD - sohow do I get better. And he is mentally unstable from all this and I can't help him. It's a horrible feeling to not be able to help your child, and to realize that seeing them makes you sicker. . I love Christmas and I have done nothing - no tree, decorations, presents - nothing. Going near anything Christmasy makes me want to hide. I hope none of you ever experience this. But I wanted to type how it feels, as best as I can explain, in here. I never feel safe, but this is a safish type place - I think. I doubt myself . I want me back, my family normal - but it seems so unlikely nd I'm getting scared I'll never get past this. Did watch an amazing show on HBO - The Night Of - thought I'd add something positive - so sick of posting about being fucked up. Right now I need to go to the store to pick up something and I'm terrified to go. Fuck .
I love when I come visit and read this thread - there is so much care and comfort here.
I am struggling. Feel like I'm locked inside myself and Christmas has triggered so much anxiety and sadness. Hard to explain and I'm so sick of being fucked up. PTSD sucks. Parental Alientaion sucks - I haven't seen my son in a month. And seeing him just triggers the PTSD - sohow do I get better. And he is mentally unstable from all this and I can't help him. It's a horrible feeling to not be able to help your child, and to realize that seeing them makes you sicker. . I love Christmas and I have done nothing - no tree, decorations, presents - nothing. Going near anything Christmasy makes me want to hide. I hope none of you ever experience this. But I wanted to type how it feels, as best as I can explain, in here. I never feel safe, but this is a safish type place - I think. I doubt myself . I want me back, my family normal - but it seems so unlikely nd I'm getting scared I'll never get past this. Did watch an amazing show on HBO - The Night Of - thought I'd add something positive - so sick of posting about being fucked up. Right now I need to go to the store to pick up something and I'm terrified to go. Fuck .
You aren't the only one who feels this way. It sounds like what I went through after my brother passed and with my concussion last year. All I can say is don't force it, don't feel bad. The joy will return as you heal just give your self the time to do that. It is the best thing you can do.
Anything you lose from being honest You never really had to begin with.
Sometimes it's not the song that makes you emotional it's the people and things that come to your mind when you hear it.
I love when I come visit and read this thread - there is so much care and comfort here.
I am struggling. Feel like I'm locked inside myself and Christmas has triggered so much anxiety and sadness. Hard to explain and I'm so sick of being fucked up. PTSD sucks. Parental Alientaion sucks - I haven't seen my son in a month. And seeing him just triggers the PTSD - sohow do I get better. And he is mentally unstable from all this and I can't help him. It's a horrible feeling to not be able to help your child, and to realize that seeing them makes you sicker. . I love Christmas and I have done nothing - no tree, decorations, presents - nothing. Going near anything Christmasy makes me want to hide. I hope none of you ever experience this. But I wanted to type how it feels, as best as I can explain, in here. I never feel safe, but this is a safish type place - I think. I doubt myself . I want me back, my family normal - but it seems so unlikely nd I'm getting scared I'll never get past this. Did watch an amazing show on HBO - The Night Of - thought I'd add something positive - so sick of posting about being fucked up. Right now I need to go to the store to pick up something and I'm terrified to go. Fuck .
You aren't the only one who feels this way. It sounds like what I went through after my brother passed and with my concussion last year. All I can say is don't force it, don't feel bad. The joy will return as you heal just give your self the time to do that. It is the best thing you can do.
I love when I come visit and read this thread - there is so much care and comfort here.
I am struggling. Feel like I'm locked inside myself and Christmas has triggered so much anxiety and sadness. Hard to explain and I'm so sick of being fucked up. PTSD sucks. Parental Alientaion sucks - I haven't seen my son in a month. And seeing him just triggers the PTSD - sohow do I get better. And he is mentally unstable from all this and I can't help him. It's a horrible feeling to not be able to help your child, and to realize that seeing them makes you sicker. . I love Christmas and I have done nothing - no tree, decorations, presents - nothing. Going near anything Christmasy makes me want to hide. I hope none of you ever experience this. But I wanted to type how it feels, as best as I can explain, in here. I never feel safe, but this is a safish type place - I think. I doubt myself . I want me back, my family normal - but it seems so unlikely nd I'm getting scared I'll never get past this. Did watch an amazing show on HBO - The Night Of - thought I'd add something positive - so sick of posting about being fucked up. Right now I need to go to the store to pick up something and I'm terrified to go. Fuck .
You aren't the only one who feels this way. It sounds like what I went through after my brother passed and with my concussion last year. All I can say is don't force it, don't feel bad. The joy will return as you heal just give your self the time to do that. It is the best thing you can do.
Very safe advice! njnancy!
Thanks for the advice and cyber hugs. I know I have to go through it to get better, but sometimes it's overwhelming. It is comforting to know other's feel the same way. I am sorry about your brother - I've lost my brother(10 yrs) and my sister (3 years), and dad's gone 20 years I'm grieving a child that is still alive. Kind of takes same of the joy out of many things. Christmas is not the same. My mom is a great comfort, and I love her very much, but my circle of support has shrunk. Losing a parent is difficult - losing a sibling is hard to explain but I empathize. Shouldn't be losing siblings young. Good luck through the holidays. I look forward to the joy returning some day. Thank you for your support whispering - I haven't talked to you in a long time. Miss you!
Horribly anxious and restless. (Just after I tell my husband that, he plays an episode of The Twilight Zone. That intro music? Probably not the best choice at that specific moment, but it did make us laugh).
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"With this draft, it's a wonder we don't all catch pneumonia!!!!!!!"
^ My fave George Bailey lines. You have to scream it like he does.
...though he has yet to lasso the moon
You never really had to begin with.
Sometimes it's not the song that makes you emotional it's the people and things that come to your mind when you hear it.
Henry is a Golden in a near-ish area- some asshole dumped him, abandoned him, because he had a huge (40+ lb) tumor. Just left him on the road.
I don't like feeling hate, but fuck me...I have it strong for people who have no business living with an animal in the first place. Who aren't even fucking people.
Sorry........back to the love-fest
I am struggling. Feel like I'm locked inside myself and Christmas has triggered so much anxiety and sadness. Hard to explain and I'm so sick of being fucked up. PTSD sucks. Parental Alientaion sucks - I haven't seen my son in a month. And seeing him just triggers the PTSD - sohow do I get better. And he is mentally unstable from all this and I can't help him. It's a horrible feeling to not be able to help your child, and to realize that seeing them makes you sicker. . I love Christmas and I have done nothing - no tree, decorations, presents - nothing. Going near anything Christmasy makes me want to hide. I hope none of you ever experience this. But I wanted to type how it feels, as best as I can explain, in here. I never feel safe, but this is a safish type place - I think. I doubt myself . I want me back, my family normal - but it seems so unlikely nd I'm getting scared I'll never get past this. Did watch an amazing show on HBO - The Night Of - thought I'd add something positive - so sick of posting about being fucked up. Right now I need to go to the store to pick up something and I'm terrified to go. Fuck .
You never really had to begin with.
Sometimes it's not the song that makes you emotional it's the people and things that come to your mind when you hear it.
Post! It means you are still here with us.
(Just after I tell my husband that, he plays an episode of The Twilight Zone. That intro music? Probably not the best choice at that specific moment, but it did make us laugh).