BACK FROM DETOX

phillyfan
phillyfan Posts: 831
edited July 2011 in All Encompassing Trip
Hello all,
Today is my first full day out of detox.This is by far the hardest thing I have gone through,I feel like shit.I forced myself to go to work, my head is not straight.It feels so fuzzy and almost like I just stepped out of the worst nightmare possible.I have a wife and 2 young daughters and the pain I feel is indescribable.The guilt is burning in me like acid.And I Know I DESERVE ALL The pain in me, but it just sucks right now.About a year ago I was in a car accident and messed my back up and the doc
prescribed me pain pills and it got so out of control.They had me as soon as I took the first one.needless to say here I am.Sorry just needed to get it out of me aliitle, thanks for listening.
Back to work.
If you hate something dont you do it too
world fucking champs!!!
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  • jamminpearls
    jamminpearls Posts: 7,078
    Stay strong u got alot to look forward to.
    Go Birds!!!!
  • phillyfan
    phillyfan Posts: 831
    jamminpearls wrote:
    Stay strong u got alot to look forward to.
    Thanks for the words of encouragement.I live in levittown too.
    If you hate something dont you do it too
    world fucking champs!!!
  • davidtrios
    davidtrios Posts: 9,732
    hang in there, stay strong, youre making your family proud
  • jamminpearls
    jamminpearls Posts: 7,078
    phillyfan wrote:
    jamminpearls wrote:
    Stay strong u got alot to look forward to.
    Thanks for the words of encouragement.I live in levittown too.
    Where at? I'm in fairless hills now,PHS 1999 grew up in thornridge.
    Go Birds!!!!
  • megatron
    megatron Posts: 3,420
    how long were you in detox? it took me a month before i stopped feeling like i was in a haze. things get clear just gotta hang in there. congrats
  • Ms. Haiku
    Ms. Haiku Washington DC Posts: 7,390
    Congratultions on making it through detox.

    This video, although not a Pearl Jam song, seems to fit many situations. Just come back to the board when you need a confidence boost.

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K_MdSu0I620
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  • jervin007
    jervin007 Posts: 3,182
    Good luck! I have a cousin who was a heroin addict and beat it. Seven years sober now. Addiction is a terrible thing, but you can overcome it. Stay strong and stick with it!!
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  • PJPixie
    PJPixie Posts: 3,026
    Stay positive, you can do it!
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  • FenwayFaithful
    FenwayFaithful Posts: 8,626
    Hang in there buddy. The best is yet to come. Stay strong and stay positive!
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  • neilybabes86
    neilybabes86 Posts: 16,057
    i would like to go in myself.... good luck and good job
    i post on the board of a band that doesn't exsist anymore .......i need my head examined.......
  • unlost dogs
    unlost dogs Greater Boston Posts: 12,553
    Day 1 is behind you _ stay strong.

    Wishing you peace.
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  • mikalina
    mikalina Posts: 7,206
    Congrats and good luck to YOU !!!

    Those pain pills are the worst things that were ever made, and I do realize that we may need them to control pain. I have used them occasionally - but never long enough to get addicted to them.

    I wish you all the best and stay strong and don't give up.... the worst is just about over. :thumbup:
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  • phillyfan
    phillyfan Posts: 831
    jamminpearls wrote:
    phillyfan wrote:
    jamminpearls wrote:
    Stay strong u got alot to look forward to.
    Thanks for the words of encouragement.I live in levittown too.
    Where at? I'm in fairless hills now,PHS 1999 grew up in thornridge.
    I am in north park, graduated from bensalem 95
    Thanks everyone feels good to come on here, take me away from work.
    If you hate something dont you do it too
    world fucking champs!!!
  • phillyfan
    phillyfan Posts: 831
    megatron wrote:
    how long were you in detox? it took me a month before i stopped feeling like i was in a haze. things get clear just gotta hang in there. congrats
    I was in there 5 days.thanks for the good words
    If you hate something dont you do it too
    world fucking champs!!!
  • PJPixie
    PJPixie Posts: 3,026
    This place is a whole other addiction!
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  • CJMST3K
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    Good luck with it all! I'm sure there's a number of board members who might be able to chat with you about it too.
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  • iluvcats
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    how is your back? have you tried acupuncture or a chiropractor? both have kept me from surgery.
    I hope you are doing ok.
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  • whispering hands
    whispering hands Under your skin Posts: 13,527
    eventually things will get back to normal..I have just recently kicked alcohol and that is hard too.. but after awhile it'll be back to the way it was before the addiction.. can't wait for that to hit!!lol Proud of ya!! Keep up the good fight!!
  • mickeyrat
    mickeyrat Posts: 44,820
    Stop on by and chat a while


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  • JaneNY
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    Hang in there - sounds like you've been through some tough times. Good for you for making changes! I hope you feel better soon!
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