Pearl Jam and suicide?

stevehomeair
stevehomeair Posts: 318
edited March 2010 in The Porch
I'm not looking for sympathy or a get well soon card..i just want to clear my name of "so called benny, into the wild sale" I took a turn for the worst Monday the 15th of March at 8:15 p.m. i decided to take my life and slit my wrists twice....After losing two cups of blood, i called 911 and luckily got an ambulance ride to the hospital for 12 stitches..To make a long story short I spent the last TEN days in the psych ward in Mt.Clemens Mi...And am now Home W/ my family and friends...I am willing to part with some posters...But the vinyl I'll hold onto till Jenna Bush gets in office... Or even worse Sarah Palin.. LOL....I LOVE all of you even the obsessed and overzealous!!! PEACE AND send some healing over to The DETROIT area..thanks
p.s. I will renew my fanclub...Since i listened to SANTA CRUZ and GOLDEN STATE on repeat since I made it HOME yesterday.........Love Steven HOMEAIR!!
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  • Satans Red Mosquito
    Satans Red Mosquito Posts: 867
    Hey man, get to feeling better, I used to be a maniac depressant when I lost my mother, I told myself everybody that I wouldn't take my own life, but I would take a bullet for anybody, because I knew they had more to live for then me. Now, I'm almost in nursing school, and have a wonderful girlfriend that I plan on marrying and love with all my heart. I learned just because life shits on you now doesn't mean it will always be like that. Things will turn around and the sun will shine on you. Just keep digging.
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  • Attaway77
    Attaway77 Posts: 3,815
    Yo Yo check it out.. (that's my Randy Jackson slang) I use to write alot back in my "day" and one thing I came up with will always ring true.. "Life is the hardest job you will ever have, everything else is part time" remember those words.... Throwin some prayers & musical notes your way to the Detroit Rock City vibe.
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  • veddertown
    veddertown Scotland Posts: 5,260
    I read your posts from time to time friend, not good to hear you got that low and I'll not lay on the sympathy or anything. Just glad you're still here and that you made that call and nice to hear you'll renew the membership. You'll thank yourself surrounded by family and friends and I hope you get a PJ gig in the not too distant. I've seen a lot of friends have ups and downs and I know it's easier to dig a hole than it is to dig your way out of one but you've taken some pretty huge steps. Peace 8-)
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  • stevehomeair
    stevehomeair Posts: 318
    Just wish I didn't go to Toronto last August and would have saved it for Cleveland....could of should of would of......SAVIN UP for 20th anniversary show!!! If it happens? alot can change from now until then!!!!JUST BREATHE into SUPERSONIC into SAVE YOU into WHO U R!!!......I BELIEVE IN MIRACLES>>>ITS O>K>>>
  • Get_Right
    Get_Right Posts: 14,168
    dude
    records are just things, they really dont matter that much in the grand scheme
    why would you want to hurt yourself when there are so many beautiful women out there and so many wonderful musical experiences to have?


    think positive my man, life is hard, but PLEASE let the emotional responses to the good things outweigh the emotional responses to the bad things :!:
  • TravisTheSky
    TravisTheSky Posts: 615
    Take at least 5,000 IU of Vitamin D3 every day, along with at least one gram of high quality Omega-3 oils, like flaxseed oil or fish oil. (See the thread on flax in the AET section.)

    Most of us are severely deficient, causing a plague of depression and other illness. Pharmaceutical "anti-depressants" simply increase one's risk of suicide.

    It's up to you!
    "May you live in interesting times."
  • Suziemay
    Suziemay Posts: 11,168
    Will try not to offer sympathy; I don't know your story but I just wanted to offer support to let you know you're not alone in your ups and downs. I went to a very bad place last year mentally, and felt like it crept up on me and all of a sudden hit me like a ton of bricks without any warning. I'm glad you're still here and hoping you'll make it to a Pearl Jam concert soon! When I was really down last year, I kept listening to the Gorge CDs over and over and over again, every time it got to the part where Ed was taunting Tom Petty I would giggle and think about how happy Ed is now versus the awful years he had to go through and it gave me some feeling of comfort and hope.

    Take good care of yourself!
  • JR86440
    JR86440 Posts: 753
    stevehomeair wrote:
    Just wish I didn't go to Toronto last August and would have saved it for Cleveland....could of should of would of......SAVIN UP for 20th anniversary show!!! If it happens? alot can change from now until then!!!!JUST BREATHE into SUPERSONIC into SAVE YOU into WHO U R!!!......I BELIEVE IN MIRACLES>>>ITS O>K>>>

    If you want to go to Cleveland ticket is on me..if you want to bring a friend I am sure there is somebody on this board that will "match" me and cover the other
  • Claireack
    Claireack Posts: 13,561
    Really sorry to hear about what happened. Take care, things will improve.
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  • Thoughts_Arrive
    Thoughts_Arrive Melbourne, Australia Posts: 15,165
    I hope your not f'ing with us dude because all your posts here have not made sense.
    If serious, stay strong, stay there, talk to friends anyone to get you through, talking helps alot.
    Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
  • Thoughts_Arrive
    Thoughts_Arrive Melbourne, Australia Posts: 15,165
    TravisTheSky wrote:
    Take at least 5,000 IU of Vitamin D3 every day, along with at least one gram of high quality Omega-3 oils, like flaxseed oil or fish oil. (See the thread on flax in the AET section.)

    Most of us are severely deficient, causing a plague of depression and other illness. Pharmaceutical "anti-depressants" simply increase one's risk of suicide.

    It's up to you!


    haha that's what I've started doing 3 weeks ago.
    Doctor told me I am Vitamin D deficient.
    Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
  • SolarWorld
    SolarWorld Posts: 1,902
    Hey man you are getting help, that's what matters now, nothing else. Present Tense right? I have a friend who is riding the crazy train up and down the west coast right and wont get off. Wish he would, hes gonna crash hard. Good luck to you man. I'm sure your family is happy you are home. Keep looking forward. Peace.
  • guypjfreak
    guypjfreak Posts: 2,281
    good luck old son .im a m/d so know the feeling but i have a great wife and kids and that keeps me going.
    well them and my aunty valls and uncle toms :D
  • pjamaholic
    pjamaholic Posts: 1,225
    Thoughts_Arrive wrote:
    TravisTheSky wrote:
    Take at least 5,000 IU of Vitamin D3 every day, along with at least one gram of high quality Omega-3 oils, like flaxseed oil or fish oil. (See the thread on flax in the AET section.)

    Most of us are severely deficient, causing a plague of depression and other illness. Pharmaceutical "anti-depressants" simply increase one's risk of suicide.

    It's up to you!


    haha that's what I've started doing 3 weeks ago.
    Doctor told me I am Vitamin D deficient.

    It seems doctors are telling a lot of people that they're vitamin d deficient nowadays. I bought my daughter some vitamin d pills a while ago, because with her behaviour and not getting out enough in the sun I felt she could do with them. If you don't want to take the vitamin d, go out and get a good dose of the sun whenever you can, your brain needs plenty of LIGHT and the sun is an excellent source of vitamin d. Never understood why some people seem to darken up their houses, keeping curtains drawn etc. I've been in some such houses and I just want to tell the people inside them to open the curtains and let the light in. Darkness/lack of light is DEPRESSING, I know how bad I feel if the weather is gloomy and grey day in, day out. A lot of people in England tend to get that illness SAD (seasonal affective disorder) cos from what I can gather, they don't get enough light. One of my friends suffers from this form of depression. Pharmaceutical anti depressants work with some people, but not everyone. I know cos I had to go on them for a year and they helped me when I was depressed.

    Anyway man I hope you feel better soon, at least you have family and friends to surround yourself with and hopefully support you in the way you need. Most of mine have died. And keep listening to Pearl Jam, they help me feel better whenever I get down!
  • Bathgate66
    Bathgate66 Posts: 15,813
    Sometimes Euthanasia seems like the easiest way out
    but its kinda selfish, and hardest on those that we might leave behind.
    Hope youre feeling better.
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  • DS1119
    DS1119 Posts: 33,497
    One day at a time...
  • mookiemoochie16
    mookiemoochie16 Posts: 521
    No matter how cold the winter, there's a springtime ahead.

    You will be in my thoughts...I hope you're feeling better. :)
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  • 2-feign-reluctance
    2-feign-reluctance TigerTown, USA Posts: 23,462
    TravisTheSky wrote:
    Take at least 5,000 IU of Vitamin D3 every day, along with at least one gram of high quality Omega-3 oils, like flaxseed oil or fish oil. (See the thread on flax in the AET section.
    Most of us are severely deficient, causing a plague of depression and other illness. Pharmaceutical "anti-depressants" simply increase one's risk of suicide.

    Sorry, but that's simply not 100% accurate. Clinical grade depression cannot be contained with flax seed and other homeopathic avenues. Respectfully disagree with your response speaking as a licensed clinician who works in psychiatry/mental health.

    It's up to you!
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  • starmap3333
    starmap3333 Posts: 3,925
    against my better judgement... i'm going to ask: What does this have to do with Pearl Jam?
  • Suziemay
    Suziemay Posts: 11,168
    DS1119 wrote:
    One day at a time...

    I second this.

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