Thanks Pandora..that was really nice...man I thought I was helping myself by writing all my feelings down on a piece of paper and turns out its depressed me more cause I don't think it'll ever be read by her :(
I kept a notebook when the wife left. wrote in it everytime i wanted to talk to her, hoping she would someday read it.
my dogs ate it one day when i left it in reach. ( they love leather, and it was a really nice leather bound book )
i think a few days after they ate the book, I met my gf I love her more than anything. and now, we are kinda on a day to day basis and I'm an emotional wreck !!! I have only eaten 3 pieces of pizza in the last 6 days, and a cracker here and there. i've lost almost 10 lbs in that time. I think most of that is that i have given up drinking too. shitty time to quit drinking. :?
good luck bro. keep your head up, and just keep on keeping on.
Peace, Love.
"To question your government is not unpatriotic --
to not question your government is unpatriotic."
-- Sen. Chuck Hagel
ask for a miracle it may come for you keep your heart open and keep loving her and those kids
don't give up on love
this love needs you to fight for it
you can be so strong
Its when this happens , that the miracle happens.
My former wife has completely moved on with her life and yet I feel a purer love for her than when we were together. All the pain aside , hell even with it , Its a helluva gift to be given.
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
sorry dude that is some harsh shit life likes to kick us in the nuts all the time.
seriously try e-harmony,I really mean it. move on and find you real true love (yeah sounds easy I know)
all I can tell you is things work for a reason, it is a cliche but my life has come into such focus the past 2 years and everything was happening making another thing possible. If it was meant to be you'd be with them, the plan calls for you to be with someone else, so take it a day at a time and start putting the pieces back together.
ask for a miracle it may come for you
keep your heart open and keep loving her and those kids
don't give up on love
this love needs you to fight for it
you can be so strong
I think so, too.
I'm sorry to hear this :(
I was just like her several years ago.
We breaked up many times,
and he tried to get back with me many times.
Now,he is my husband,and he is a father of my son.
"I loved those kids like they were my own"
.....really great word!
I have been there. Im not going to bore you with my story,but it will get better with time. Find comfort in your friends and family. Stay busy and try not to self medicate it will only make things worse in the long run,
Thanks Pandora..that was really nice...man I thought I was helping myself by writing all my feelings down on a piece of paper and turns out its depressed me more cause I don't think it'll ever be read by her :(
You are depressed because you want her to see, read and understand you. Thats all any of us want in this world, a little understanding and to feel secure.
Maybe by writing her feelings down, really feeling her, you may see everything in a different perspective and she will feel the understanding you are trying to give.
Security comes with time and experiences shared, all young relationships are tough, but worth the work believe me.
Its really much harder to fight when you understand how your partner feels. Anyways then it doesn't matter if you do fight because its no longer a threat. Then its just the turmoil of life and thats when we need each other the most.
Thanks Pandora..that was really nice...man I thought I was helping myself by writing all my feelings down on a piece of paper and turns out its depressed me more cause I don't think it'll ever be read by her :(
You are depressed because you want her to see, read and understand you. Thats all any of us want in this world, a little understanding and to feel secure.
Maybe by writing her feelings down, really feeling her, you may see everything in a different perspective and she will feel the understanding you are trying to give.
Security comes with time and experiences shared, all young relationships are tough, but worth the work believe me.
Its really much harder to fight when you understand how your partner feels. Anyways then it doesn't matter if you do fight because its no longer a threat. Then its just the turmoil of life and thats when we need each other the most.
I have come to understand her point of view through my own soul searching. I just wish I could show her I've realized it
ok ... i don't know the entire situation but this is my perspective and it comes from a place of honesty and not malice ...
if you truly love this woman - you need to do what is right for her and what would ultimately make her and her children happy ... it sounds like your relationship with her was volatile something she ultimately wants no part of ... set her free - you can't just look at your own wants when love comes into play ... continue with your soul searching and understand who it is you are and who you want to be and work on that ... this relationship didn't dissolve overnight and it's not going to mend in a short time either ... support her decisions and work on yourself - only when you are comfortable with who you are can you enter into a meaningful relationship ...
ok ... i don't know the entire situation but this is my perspective and it comes from a place of honesty and not malice ...
if you truly love this woman - you need to do what is right for her and what would ultimately make her and her children happy ... it sounds like your relationship with her was volatile something she ultimately wants no part of ... set her free - you can't just look at your own wants when love comes into play ... continue with your soul searching and understand who it is you are and who you want to be and work on that ... this relationship didn't dissolve overnight and it's not going to mend in a short time either ... support her decisions and work on yourself - only when you are comfortable with who you are can you enter into a meaningful relationship ...
good luck
This makes perfect sense and I am of the same feelings as you. My feelings and wants dont come from a completely selfish place. I feel that WE have more to offer each other and our situation and the situations surrounding our situation did not let us fully experience each other completely. Does that make sense? We had outside issues (the kids father), finances, etc..What I feel is that this DID get so volatile that there was no choice but for this to end in its current state..Im not lost on this notion. What I DO feel is that now that there has been an opportunity for a breather and to step out of the situation and look at it as it is I feel there is an incredible opportunity to fix our love and think more clearer. I HAVE been for the most part a good role model for her children. I HAVE for the most part been a provider for this family. I HAVE for the most part been many things that make a relationship a relaionship but what I want to do is focus more on her and her needs. That is where my blockage is. I know I can give her more in the areas I've lacked the last year or more..
almost 3 years and as far as I know there is no other guy involved
I understand your pain through this completely........my girlfriend of five years left me on thanksgiving to be w/ somebody else she just met. Everyday is still a struggle, and everything reminds me of what once was. I tried to be good throughout the relationship, but all of my mistakes and regrets are so glaringly obvious now.
You, myself and the wolf should toast a drink to each other sometime......all going through a similar mess right now.
almost 3 years and as far as I know there is no other guy involved
I understand your pain through this completely........my girlfriend of five years left me on thanksgiving to be w/ somebody else she just met. Everyday is still a struggle, and everything reminds me of what once was. I tried to be good throughout the relationship, but all of my mistakes and regrets are so glaringly obvious now.
You, myself and the wolf should toast a drink to each other sometime......all going through a similar mess right now.
You know what..Im really starting to think theres this crazy planet alignment thing going on
You know what...fuck this...Im tired of being the shut in sitting around moping about why oh why has my love gone. If she wants me then she can come get me...Im done putting myself in the fucking corner...NO ONE PUTS PETROCS IN THE FUCKING CORNER! I love her dearly and no matter what actions shes taken against me in the past my heart is open and my phone is on and I will always be there for her but crying and bitching about what I cant do to prove my worth to her is done..I am worth it...if she wants to retry im all for it...if not..well then its both our loss...but most importantly..Its HER LOSS for not wanting to see in ACTIONS what I've learned..
So here it is...Jenn...Im all yours if you want me...if not..well then your fucking loss cause the man you THINK you know is gone..the man I WANT to be is right fucking here..Im worth it damnit!
You know what...fuck this...Im tired of being the shut in sitting around moping about why oh why has my love gone. If she wants me then she can come get me...Im done putting myself in the fucking corner...NO ONE PUTS PETROCS IN THE FUCKING CORNER! I love her dearly and no matter what actions shes taken against me in the past my heart is open and my phone is one and I will always be there for her but crying and bitching about what I cant do to prove my worth to her is done..I am worth it...if she wants to retry im all for it...if not..well then its both our loss...but most importantly..Its HER LOSS for not wanting to see in ACTIONS what I've learned..
So here it is...Jenn...Im all yours if you want me...if not..well then your fucking loss cause the man you THINK you know is gone..the man I WANT to be is right fucking here..Im worth it damnit!
.....
"...Dimitri...He talks to me...'.."The Ghost of Greece..".
"..That's One Happy Fuckin Ghost.."
“..That came up on the Pillow Case...This is for the Greek, With Our Apologies.....”
You know what...fuck this...Im tired of being the shut in sitting around moping about why oh why has my love gone. If she wants me then she can come get me...Im done putting myself in the fucking corner...NO ONE PUTS PETROCS IN THE FUCKING CORNER! I love her dearly and no matter what actions shes taken against me in the past my heart is open and my phone is one and I will always be there for her but crying and bitching about what I cant do to prove my worth to her is done..I am worth it...if she wants to retry im all for it...if not..well then its both our loss...but most importantly..Its HER LOSS for not wanting to see in ACTIONS what I've learned..
So here it is...Jenn...Im all yours if you want me...if not..well then your fucking loss cause the man you THINK you know is gone..the man I WANT to be is right fucking here..Im worth it damnit!
.....
Yeah well..thats how I feel after last night...I dont want to get into it but lets just say it was not called for
I haven't read the whole thread, and i understand the pain but.....and no one has mentioned this...after reading the first post, it doesn't really sound one sided. If you want any future relationship to work please look hard at any part you had to play in her unhappiness. The unhappiness in a relationship is not usually one sided, nor does it usually blindside you. Of course there are exceptions but from just your explanation of the situation it sounds like it was two way and she's the one ending it and perhaps taking it out on you, but examine your part in the demise as well. You will find love, but be sure not to make the same mistakes. Don't let this love leave you with nothing learned and doomed to repeat.
bugs in the way...I feel about you
"New music, new friends. Pearl Jam."
I like our socks. I hear we make a fine sock. I always say, You might not love our records, but I think you'll like our socks. - Stone
"This record is us speaking out in class." -EV on PJ
You know what...fuck this...Im tired of being the shut in sitting around moping about why oh why has my love gone. If she wants me then she can come get me...Im done putting myself in the fucking corner...NO ONE PUTS PETROCS IN THE FUCKING CORNER! I love her dearly and no matter what actions shes taken against me in the past my heart is open and my phone is one and I will always be there for her but crying and bitching about what I cant do to prove my worth to her is done..I am worth it...if she wants to retry im all for it...if not..well then its both our loss...but most importantly..Its HER LOSS for not wanting to see in ACTIONS what I've learned..
So here it is...Jenn...Im all yours if you want me...if not..well then your fucking loss cause the man you THINK you know is gone..the man I WANT to be is right fucking here..Im worth it damnit!
.....
Yeah well..thats how I feel after last night...I dont want to get into it but lets just say it was not called for
the.......... i put was my way to respect your feelings,something like speechless,no comment..
"...Dimitri...He talks to me...'.."The Ghost of Greece..".
"..That's One Happy Fuckin Ghost.."
“..That came up on the Pillow Case...This is for the Greek, With Our Apologies.....”
I tried to be good throughout the relationship, but all of my mistakes and regrets are so glaringly obvious now.
and her my friend is the hardest part.
knowing you may never have the chance to show her that you have seen your mistakes, and fix them.
i agree. We will never be able to change the past though. All we can do is try to understand it and use it to learn/shape our future actions. If you get another chance, just be ready for it and don't let a moment slip. Be ready for whatever may present itself.
Of course I can speak like that right now because im in okay mood.......three hours from now i know its all down hill again. Vicious cycle, this love thing.
Love isnt suppose to be fickle..love is suppose to be patient..this situation that a few of us find ourselves in right now, whether through our doing or not required a lot more patient from the one who LOVED US. Mine gave me time..I was too blind to see it. I was more concerned with doing what was best for me to be comfortable and not losing control of myself. I was more scared at the possibility that I had to answer to another...now...I'd give anything to answer to her. Stupid mistakes...I dont believe the actions of my past should dictate the course of my future.
this happened to me over 15 years ago. as documented on the board before, she ripped my heart out like that dude in Indiana Jones. Still hurts. But I've learned to live with it because I can not go back. I've moved on. I have a perty good life now. Takes time my friend. Take time to heal yourself, exhale, and get back to neutral.
I lost her and her 2 beautiful children 3 weeks ago. I've been suffering the worst loss I've felt since my brother Joe died. She doesnt want to speak to me anymore and I feel my hearts been ripped out of my chest. I feel like I screwed up. She was such a beautiful person and I loved those kids like they were my own. We were engaged to be married in June and we broke it off due to some problems we were having. We got back together in July and I thought we would make it work...it was a struggle and in the end it was just more fighting. 3 weeks ago she had had enough and ended it with me. I haven't been able to speak to her since. Last night she called and layed into me and told me she didn't love me, the kids didn't love me and that they were just going to forget that I ever existed. I've never felt so much pain.
I love those 3 more than life. I would give up everything I am and everything I know for them. I made my mistakes..I'm not perfect. I was ready and willing to change on a dime. I was hoping for another chance..but now I don't think it will come. I'm lost. I feel like no one will ever love me again. I hate myself and I don't want to go on another day without them. I need a miracle in the worst way. I cant cry another tear..its hurt too much. Tonight I suggest you hug your girlfriend, fiance, wife, daughter, son and tell them how much you love them. I hope none of you ever have to go through the pain I've gone through this holiday.
Thats all I can say.I have nothing left..
I am sure your feelings are hurt...
I hope the pain goes away.....
But there is something I have to say...
You lost a girl who had broke up with you once before....
She told you "She doesnt love you"
She told you " Her kids dont love you"
I am not quite sure how long you 2 had been together....
But Losing a woman who already has 2 children, who doesnt love you...
May be a BIG BLESSING IN DISGUISE.......
Again, I hope the pain goes away...
But there are reasons for everything....
AMEN to that. A blessing in Desguise. I know things get emotional, but that was pretty nasty. You and Wolf going through the same type of thing, sorry to hear that. I went though it exactly a year ago. I was completely let down. And I know it sucks to hear everyone say it, but its true, and pretty soon you'll wonder why you ever cared so much at this time. I promise. And my situation also involved kids I loved and still do love. I was their step-dad, I know what thats about. But you'll come to think about this as Blessing, I promise.
Well I know what my night is going to consist of...I have a 1.5l bottle of Cab Sauv a 750ml of Pinot and a bottle of Xanax and some Jack White on repeat! partay! dont you wish you were me!
Well I know what my night is going to consist of...I have a 1.5l bottle of Cab Sauv a 750ml of Pinot and a bottle of Xanax and some Jack White on repeat! partay! dont you wish you were me!
do what you've got to do, but don't take to many of the xanax with the alcohol. Its real easy to fuck up with that combination.
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I kept a notebook when the wife left. wrote in it everytime i wanted to talk to her, hoping she would someday read it.
my dogs ate it one day when i left it in reach. ( they love leather, and it was a really nice leather bound book )
i think a few days after they ate the book, I met my gf
good luck bro. keep your head up, and just keep on keeping on.
"To question your government is not unpatriotic --
to not question your government is unpatriotic."
-- Sen. Chuck Hagel
9/24/96 MD. 9/28/96 Randalls. 8/28-29/98 Camden. 9/8/98 NJ. 9/18/98 MD. 9/1-2/00 Camden. 9/4/00 MD. 4/28/03 Philly. 7/5-6/03 Camden. 9/30/05 AC.
10/3/05 Philly. 5/27-28/06 Camden. 6/23/06 Pitt. 6/19-20/08 Camden. 6/24/08 MSG. 8/7/08 EV Newark, NJ. 6/11-12/09 EV Philly, PA. 10/27-28-30-31/09 Philly, PA., 5/15/10 Hartford,5/17/10 Boston, 5/18/10 Newark, 5/20-21/10 MSG
My former wife has completely moved on with her life and yet I feel a purer love for her than when we were together. All the pain aside , hell even with it , Its a helluva gift to be given.
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
seriously try e-harmony,I really mean it. move on and find you real true love (yeah sounds easy I know)
all I can tell you is things work for a reason, it is a cliche but my life has come into such focus the past 2 years and everything was happening making another thing possible. If it was meant to be you'd be with them, the plan calls for you to be with someone else, so take it a day at a time and start putting the pieces back together.
If it does no t kill you it makes you stronger!
I feel for you
peace out
oh yeah they still sell TAB? shit!
I think so, too.
I'm sorry to hear this :(
I was just like her several years ago.
We breaked up many times,
and he tried to get back with me many times.
Now,he is my husband,and he is a father of my son.
"I loved those kids like they were my own"
.....really great word!
Please believe yourself and keep smile
I have been there. Im not going to bore you with my story,but it will get better with time. Find comfort in your friends and family. Stay busy and try not to self medicate it will only make things worse in the long run,
Maybe by writing her feelings down, really feeling her, you may see everything in a different perspective and she will feel the understanding you are trying to give.
Security comes with time and experiences shared, all young relationships are tough, but worth the work believe me.
Its really much harder to fight when you understand how your partner feels. Anyways then it doesn't matter if you do fight because its no longer a threat. Then its just the turmoil of life and thats when we need each other the most.
I have come to understand her point of view through my own soul searching. I just wish I could show her I've realized it
9/24/96 MD. 9/28/96 Randalls. 8/28-29/98 Camden. 9/8/98 NJ. 9/18/98 MD. 9/1-2/00 Camden. 9/4/00 MD. 4/28/03 Philly. 7/5-6/03 Camden. 9/30/05 AC.
10/3/05 Philly. 5/27-28/06 Camden. 6/23/06 Pitt. 6/19-20/08 Camden. 6/24/08 MSG. 8/7/08 EV Newark, NJ. 6/11-12/09 EV Philly, PA. 10/27-28-30-31/09 Philly, PA., 5/15/10 Hartford,5/17/10 Boston, 5/18/10 Newark, 5/20-21/10 MSG
if you truly love this woman - you need to do what is right for her and what would ultimately make her and her children happy ... it sounds like your relationship with her was volatile something she ultimately wants no part of ... set her free - you can't just look at your own wants when love comes into play ... continue with your soul searching and understand who it is you are and who you want to be and work on that ... this relationship didn't dissolve overnight and it's not going to mend in a short time either ... support her decisions and work on yourself - only when you are comfortable with who you are can you enter into a meaningful relationship ...
good luck
This makes perfect sense and I am of the same feelings as you. My feelings and wants dont come from a completely selfish place. I feel that WE have more to offer each other and our situation and the situations surrounding our situation did not let us fully experience each other completely. Does that make sense? We had outside issues (the kids father), finances, etc..What I feel is that this DID get so volatile that there was no choice but for this to end in its current state..Im not lost on this notion. What I DO feel is that now that there has been an opportunity for a breather and to step out of the situation and look at it as it is I feel there is an incredible opportunity to fix our love and think more clearer. I HAVE been for the most part a good role model for her children. I HAVE for the most part been a provider for this family. I HAVE for the most part been many things that make a relationship a relaionship but what I want to do is focus more on her and her needs. That is where my blockage is. I know I can give her more in the areas I've lacked the last year or more..
9/24/96 MD. 9/28/96 Randalls. 8/28-29/98 Camden. 9/8/98 NJ. 9/18/98 MD. 9/1-2/00 Camden. 9/4/00 MD. 4/28/03 Philly. 7/5-6/03 Camden. 9/30/05 AC.
10/3/05 Philly. 5/27-28/06 Camden. 6/23/06 Pitt. 6/19-20/08 Camden. 6/24/08 MSG. 8/7/08 EV Newark, NJ. 6/11-12/09 EV Philly, PA. 10/27-28-30-31/09 Philly, PA., 5/15/10 Hartford,5/17/10 Boston, 5/18/10 Newark, 5/20-21/10 MSG
i hope i dont hit a sore spot, but is there another guy involved?
9/24/96 MD. 9/28/96 Randalls. 8/28-29/98 Camden. 9/8/98 NJ. 9/18/98 MD. 9/1-2/00 Camden. 9/4/00 MD. 4/28/03 Philly. 7/5-6/03 Camden. 9/30/05 AC.
10/3/05 Philly. 5/27-28/06 Camden. 6/23/06 Pitt. 6/19-20/08 Camden. 6/24/08 MSG. 8/7/08 EV Newark, NJ. 6/11-12/09 EV Philly, PA. 10/27-28-30-31/09 Philly, PA., 5/15/10 Hartford,5/17/10 Boston, 5/18/10 Newark, 5/20-21/10 MSG
I understand your pain through this completely........my girlfriend of five years left me on thanksgiving to be w/ somebody else she just met. Everyday is still a struggle, and everything reminds me of what once was. I tried to be good throughout the relationship, but all of my mistakes and regrets are so glaringly obvious now.
You, myself and the wolf should toast a drink to each other sometime......all going through a similar mess right now.
You know what..Im really starting to think theres this crazy planet alignment thing going on
9/24/96 MD. 9/28/96 Randalls. 8/28-29/98 Camden. 9/8/98 NJ. 9/18/98 MD. 9/1-2/00 Camden. 9/4/00 MD. 4/28/03 Philly. 7/5-6/03 Camden. 9/30/05 AC.
10/3/05 Philly. 5/27-28/06 Camden. 6/23/06 Pitt. 6/19-20/08 Camden. 6/24/08 MSG. 8/7/08 EV Newark, NJ. 6/11-12/09 EV Philly, PA. 10/27-28-30-31/09 Philly, PA., 5/15/10 Hartford,5/17/10 Boston, 5/18/10 Newark, 5/20-21/10 MSG
So here it is...Jenn...Im all yours if you want me...if not..well then your fucking loss cause the man you THINK you know is gone..the man I WANT to be is right fucking here..Im worth it damnit!
9/24/96 MD. 9/28/96 Randalls. 8/28-29/98 Camden. 9/8/98 NJ. 9/18/98 MD. 9/1-2/00 Camden. 9/4/00 MD. 4/28/03 Philly. 7/5-6/03 Camden. 9/30/05 AC.
10/3/05 Philly. 5/27-28/06 Camden. 6/23/06 Pitt. 6/19-20/08 Camden. 6/24/08 MSG. 8/7/08 EV Newark, NJ. 6/11-12/09 EV Philly, PA. 10/27-28-30-31/09 Philly, PA., 5/15/10 Hartford,5/17/10 Boston, 5/18/10 Newark, 5/20-21/10 MSG
"..That's One Happy Fuckin Ghost.."
“..That came up on the Pillow Case...This is for the Greek, With Our Apologies.....”
Yeah well..thats how I feel after last night...I dont want to get into it but lets just say it was not called for
9/24/96 MD. 9/28/96 Randalls. 8/28-29/98 Camden. 9/8/98 NJ. 9/18/98 MD. 9/1-2/00 Camden. 9/4/00 MD. 4/28/03 Philly. 7/5-6/03 Camden. 9/30/05 AC.
10/3/05 Philly. 5/27-28/06 Camden. 6/23/06 Pitt. 6/19-20/08 Camden. 6/24/08 MSG. 8/7/08 EV Newark, NJ. 6/11-12/09 EV Philly, PA. 10/27-28-30-31/09 Philly, PA., 5/15/10 Hartford,5/17/10 Boston, 5/18/10 Newark, 5/20-21/10 MSG
just want to say how sorry i am to read of your loss and pain.
Let's just breathe...
I am myself like you somehow
"New music, new friends. Pearl Jam."
I like our socks. I hear we make a fine sock. I always say, You might not love our records, but I think you'll like our socks. - Stone
"This record is us speaking out in class." -EV on PJ
"..That's One Happy Fuckin Ghost.."
“..That came up on the Pillow Case...This is for the Greek, With Our Apologies.....”
and her my friend is the hardest part.
knowing you may never have the chance to show her that you have seen your mistakes, and fix them.
"To question your government is not unpatriotic --
to not question your government is unpatriotic."
-- Sen. Chuck Hagel
i agree. We will never be able to change the past though. All we can do is try to understand it and use it to learn/shape our future actions. If you get another chance, just be ready for it and don't let a moment slip. Be ready for whatever may present itself.
Of course I can speak like that right now because im in okay mood.......three hours from now i know its all down hill again. Vicious cycle, this love thing.
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10/3/05 Philly. 5/27-28/06 Camden. 6/23/06 Pitt. 6/19-20/08 Camden. 6/24/08 MSG. 8/7/08 EV Newark, NJ. 6/11-12/09 EV Philly, PA. 10/27-28-30-31/09 Philly, PA., 5/15/10 Hartford,5/17/10 Boston, 5/18/10 Newark, 5/20-21/10 MSG
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do what you've got to do, but don't take to many of the xanax with the alcohol. Its real easy to fuck up with that combination.