I lost the woman of my dreams
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I lost her and her 2 beautiful children 3 weeks ago. I've been suffering the worst loss I've felt since my brother Joe died. She doesnt want to speak to me anymore and I feel my hearts been ripped out of my chest. I feel like I screwed up. She was such a beautiful person and I loved those kids like they were my own. We were engaged to be married in June and we broke it off due to some problems we were having. We got back together in July and I thought we would make it work...it was a struggle and in the end it was just more fighting. 3 weeks ago she had had enough and ended it with me. I haven't been able to speak to her since. Last night she called and layed into me and told me she didn't love me, the kids didn't love me and that they were just going to forget that I ever existed. I've never felt so much pain.
I love those 3 more than life. I would give up everything I am and everything I know for them. I made my mistakes..I'm not perfect. I was ready and willing to change on a dime. I was hoping for another chance..but now I don't think it will come. I'm lost. I feel like no one will ever love me again. I hate myself and I don't want to go on another day without them. I need a miracle in the worst way. I cant cry another tear..its hurt too much. Tonight I suggest you hug your girlfriend, fiance, wife, daughter, son and tell them how much you love them. I hope none of you ever have to go through the pain I've gone through this holiday.
Thats all I can say.I have nothing left..
I love those 3 more than life. I would give up everything I am and everything I know for them. I made my mistakes..I'm not perfect. I was ready and willing to change on a dime. I was hoping for another chance..but now I don't think it will come. I'm lost. I feel like no one will ever love me again. I hate myself and I don't want to go on another day without them. I need a miracle in the worst way. I cant cry another tear..its hurt too much. Tonight I suggest you hug your girlfriend, fiance, wife, daughter, son and tell them how much you love them. I hope none of you ever have to go through the pain I've gone through this holiday.
Thats all I can say.I have nothing left..
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sorry to hear about it.
just throw on "thumbing my way" and you'll realize, "no matter how cold the winter, theres a springtime ahead."
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Leaving is for the answering machine.
remind yourself to just keep living, and one day it just wont hurt as much.
good luck.
-steve
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It's friggin painful. You feel like there is no purpose for you and that in the end you will carry around that love in your heart forever, and yes, you might. It's also very normal to have feelings so intense that you just don't feel like going on. I'm right there with you.
It seems like fate can be so cruel sometimes, but as someone mentioned about the window opening, there just may be someone more amazing than you ever imagined coming into you life.
We do have to let go if we love someone. Personally her attack on you and the hateful words she spit at you makes me feel like she was not it. "The One" would never do that. "The One" (and there are many) will find you someday and show you the love you always deserved.
Until then friend, wake up everyday, one day at a time, breath and know that you are worth something. You are a miracle.
Always remember, your lady is still on this planet. She has not gone anywhere. She is alive and safe. Wish her well. Wish her happiness. The results from that come back at you a thousand fold. You never know what the future holds.
PM me if you would like to talk some more. I'm challenged to live with depression so I would love to listen if you need an ear.
I'm sending you some light today to help your aching heart.
"..That's One Happy Fuckin Ghost.."
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Butthead: It means that his friends are like turds and that they like suck.
Beavis: Heh heh. Oh yeah. Yeah! Get those spoons out of my face before I shove them up your butt!
Butthead: Huh huh.
This rings true, I know it's hard but just try to believe this because it's the truth. Our most difficult trials bring us our greatest successes if you see it through. Stay strong and keep your head high, eventually you'll get yourself to turn a corner and come out better.
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learn from your past mistakes/experiences and use them in the future...
hang in there
It will get better. I promise.
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Just take it one day at a time... (((((( HUGS ))))))
Wish you were here...
♥~RIP Dad
I hope the pain goes away.....
But there is something I have to say...
You lost a girl who had broke up with you once before....
She told you "She doesnt love you"
She told you " Her kids dont love you"
I am not quite sure how long you 2 had been together....
But Losing a woman who already has 2 children, who doesnt love you...
May be a BIG BLESSING IN DISGUISE.......
Again, I hope the pain goes away...
But there are reasons for everything....
Till there aint nothing left worth taking away from me.....
Whatever you are, be a good one --Lincoln
In time the wounds will heal.
Until that happens, I suggest you distance yourself from everything that has to do with her, otherwise it will be really, really hard.
By the way, her calling you after she broke it off and bitching you out is beyond low. Who does that? Do not answer your phone if you see her calling you anymore.
Again, it'll get better. Stay strong!
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
Just resist being sucked back in should she decide she doesn't like being without you...she had her chance and she blew it. She doesn't deserve you...
If the pain stays and you can't seem to get past it, go talk to someone to help you process this experience.
What we need to have in our life in counseling and support. We have spent too much time fighting and not enough time enjoying each others company this last year. I think that through forgiveness and through mutually agreeable counselor we can make this relationship stronger and more resilient to petty fights. I've spent the last month reading books and praying and I feel that this is the only way. I only wish I could get through to Jenn and get her to agree to this. Its the only thing that gets me through the day right now. :( :( :( :( :( :(
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10/3/05 Philly. 5/27-28/06 Camden. 6/23/06 Pitt. 6/19-20/08 Camden. 6/24/08 MSG. 8/7/08 EV Newark, NJ. 6/11-12/09 EV Philly, PA. 10/27-28-30-31/09 Philly, PA., 5/15/10 Hartford,5/17/10 Boston, 5/18/10 Newark, 5/20-21/10 MSG
Keep your head, bro
I heard this on XM today..not my fave cup of tea but kinda funny
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-zfKPlvnwak
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"..That's One Happy Fuckin Ghost.."
“..That came up on the Pillow Case...This is for the Greek, With Our Apologies.....”
The most important thing is look after yourself until the pain fades, however long that takes. It takes time for the wounds to heal, especially the emotional ones. Once they do you'll think and see clearer and, in time, realise that everything happens for a reason - good or bad.
To phone you and insult you like that was an horrendous thing to do and only goes to show that she wasn't the right one for you. Don't take her back whatever you do - even if she gets on her knees and begs. Begin the long road of recovery and don't ever look back. Spend some time on your own, talk to friends and family and you'll find all the strength you need when the way gets rocky.
I went through a break-up where I was humiliated, belittled and made to feel like I was nothing. My ex showed not one iota of compassion or emotion and continued with life like nothing had happened. I lost confidence in myself and spent seven years alone, thinking I'd never meet anyone. Now I'm very happily married to an amazing woman, whilst the ex is single, with very few friends and no life to speak of.
What comes around goes around. You'll come out smiling, trust me.
Good luck.
.....I'm single and I have 2 kids
i kid, i kid..........that was to make you smile!
The best expression of Love is Time.
The best time to Love is Now.
I'm never as good as when you're there.........
i am sure you will find the women who will want to be with you and that won't be in dreams but in reality.
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keep your heart open and keep loving her and those kids
don't give up on love
this love needs you to fight for it
you can be so strong
9/24/96 MD. 9/28/96 Randalls. 8/28-29/98 Camden. 9/8/98 NJ. 9/18/98 MD. 9/1-2/00 Camden. 9/4/00 MD. 4/28/03 Philly. 7/5-6/03 Camden. 9/30/05 AC.
10/3/05 Philly. 5/27-28/06 Camden. 6/23/06 Pitt. 6/19-20/08 Camden. 6/24/08 MSG. 8/7/08 EV Newark, NJ. 6/11-12/09 EV Philly, PA. 10/27-28-30-31/09 Philly, PA., 5/15/10 Hartford,5/17/10 Boston, 5/18/10 Newark, 5/20-21/10 MSG