Life can be so fucking cruel...
Sian-of-the-dead
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Some of you may remember that eight weeks ago my Dad died suddenly of a heart attack...
I was just starting to feel better and then two weeks ago my boyfriend's Dad had a stroke... he's now ok but then on Wednesday this week I got a phone call telling me that my Mum's Dad, my Canadian grandad, had died suddenely from a heart attack the night before.
Yesterday I had a phone call telling me that my Dad's cat, Boris, had been rushed to the vets with kidney failure, partially brought on by the stress of losing my Dad, and is critical.
My job isn't particularly secure and I'm currently in and out of the hospital for matters that could drastically change my future as well as having tests on my own heart to see if there's a hereditary condition that could also end my life too early.
My Mum's a wreck and i'm having to be strong for her... but honestly, I really don't know how much more of this I can take :(
Sorry about posting something so negative, I don't mean to bring anyone down, I just needed to vent.
I was just starting to feel better and then two weeks ago my boyfriend's Dad had a stroke... he's now ok but then on Wednesday this week I got a phone call telling me that my Mum's Dad, my Canadian grandad, had died suddenely from a heart attack the night before.
Yesterday I had a phone call telling me that my Dad's cat, Boris, had been rushed to the vets with kidney failure, partially brought on by the stress of losing my Dad, and is critical.
My job isn't particularly secure and I'm currently in and out of the hospital for matters that could drastically change my future as well as having tests on my own heart to see if there's a hereditary condition that could also end my life too early.
My Mum's a wreck and i'm having to be strong for her... but honestly, I really don't know how much more of this I can take :(
Sorry about posting something so negative, I don't mean to bring anyone down, I just needed to vent.
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I'm a firm believer in the fact that we are not given more than we can carry. it may feel like too much at times, but when life seems to be at its darkest, things can only get better. you're in my thoughts.
Peace
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Sorry to hear of your continuing miseries.
I know of a cat who similarly to Boris, just basically gave up after his primary owner passed away. Very sad yet, shows how much animals truly feel.
The cliche that thing will get better generally has some truth to it. Things are bound to improve.
I hope they improve for you quickly.
Keep your head up, it will get better. I promise.
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especially to be strong for your mom.
Your loving bond will get you thru together
my prayers to you
oh sian! :(
i am so, so sorry to read of all your torubles/worries!
you're not being negative, you've got a LOT to deal with! life can be horribly overwhelming at times. i wish, dave, all your families...peace.....and to get thru this very trying time. we've all been thru periods like this, and all you can do is.....get thru it. at the end of the day, if nothing else...it helps you to truly savor and appreciate every moment filled with love and happiness. i hope you have many, many moments like that....and SOON!
*hugs*
Let's just breathe...
I am myself like you somehow
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(((((( hugs & good vibes ))))))
Wish you were here...
♥~RIP Dad
that is a lot. It seems to come in waves for some reason.
Take care and be strong. Hope things get BRIGHTERsoon!!!
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I'm sorry to hear that :(
This year has been terrible...just found out TODAY my buddy at work his Father was diagnosed with Lung Cancer
Good Luck with everything..it has to get better..right ?
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I thought I was having a bad week but it's pathetic compared to your problems.
Good vibes heading your way.
hang in there sian
You have support, be strong for your mum, be strong for dave, and the rest of us (friends and family) are here for you (and dave too) to hold you up.
lots of love xxx
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I'm sorry about Boris, I know how special he is.
Thinking of you x
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Let's just breathe...
I am myself like you somehow
Sian,
There is no doubt that you've been unfairly burdened by life. Continue on though, and you'll be a much stronger person for making it through your struggles. I can't comprehend the difficulty of your situation, and I'm extremely sympathetic. I'm sure you are already aware, but if not here is a reminder...come here and vent, there will always be someone her to listen to you and help you through your pain. Stay strong over there, things will look up and become brighter with time, I swear it.
Much compassion, hugs, and good vibes...
Be well.
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You, Dave, and your families are in my thoughts . . . (((good vibes))) to all of you.
You're having such a really crap time just now. Sending lots of nice thoughts and positive energy your way.
Take care of yourselves.
Claire
Also, maybe your mum needs to see you aren't as strong as you are pretending. She then knows you can relate to her and her to you. You are perhaps the only person who feels as bad as her about your dad as she and she may need to see you be weak a little so she can then talk with you and cry with you. She may mistake your being strong as not feeling as bad as her and then she feels alone. Let her know she's not alone. Its okay to show your true emotions.
My thoughts are with you. Please update us. I really want to know how it goes for you. I hope you keep a job. If you lose the one you got, perhaps a better door will open. I hope things like that happen, it usually does. At least in my life it has. I have had those times when everything falls down at once, but then there are other times when all kinds of good happens at once. Please let us know. I know I have seen you on here for years but I personally have never spoke with you. I am feeling your pain and I hope I haven't overstepped my bounds. I just had to let you know I am feeling for you.
Love to you, Heather
Stay strong
Moragxx
peace and love
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