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FrankieG

FoxyRedLa wrote: »

Frankie - jenny, don't feel too bad, people change. I honestly feel if you felt you weren't missing out on anything then you aren't now either.

From what I have seen here, looks like they are the ones that should have made a bigger effort!

Truthfully, there are a couple people that I'm glad I have grown away from.. ) But then I miss the commradere that my old - good friends had. The only thing that really bothers me are the days that it's not socially acceptable to spend away from friends (New years eve) because i will be alone in my apartment doing nothing special... Is that really a problem for me? i don't know a little, but I'm comfortable by myself, I'm just uncomfortable telling someone else that that is what i enjoy when they have the expectation that I should be at a random party getting drunk..

shetellsherself

Trying to keep my mind on work. I have 7 days off after today! <:-P

23scidoo

National elections at 25 of January..who's gonna be the next ''savior''??..

RKCNDY

FrankieG wrote: »

FoxyRedLa wrote: »

Frankie - jenny, don't feel too bad, people change. I honestly feel if you felt you weren't missing out on anything then you aren't now either.

From what I have seen here, looks like they are the ones that should have made a bigger effort!

Truthfully, there are a couple people that I'm glad I have grown away from.. ) But then I miss the commradere that my old - good friends had. The only thing that really bothers me are the days that it's not socially acceptable to spend away from friends (New years eve) because i will be alone in my apartment doing nothing special... Is that really a problem for me? i don't know a little, but I'm comfortable by myself, I'm just uncomfortable telling someone else that that is what i enjoy when they have the expectation that I should be at a random party getting drunk..

Don't let that bother you! If somebody wanted to remain your friend, they would have made the effort to stay in touch.

Don't be embarrassed to tell people how you plan to spend NYE (or any other 'event'), be proud of how you spend your 'me time'. I don't feel the need to be constantly surrounded by people....seems so 'co-dependent' .

samjam

I've been planning a non-existent Disney vacation for the past couple days. I want to go so badly!! Haven't been in a long while. My bf and I are aiming for a trip sometime in 2016

ldent42

Got an appointment with the doctor about my back in a few hours. I'm afraid he's gonna tell me to fuck off. I don't even know what I want out of this appointment.

jnimhaoileoin

FrankieG wrote: »

FoxyRedLa wrote: »

Frankie - jenny, don't feel too bad, people change. I honestly feel if you felt you weren't missing out on anything then you aren't now either.

From what I have seen here, looks like they are the ones that should have made a bigger effort!

Truthfully, there are a couple people that I'm glad I have grown away from.. ) But then I miss the commradere that my old - good friends had. The only thing that really bothers me are the days that it's not socially acceptable to spend away from friends (New years eve) because i will be alone in my apartment doing nothing special... Is that really a problem for me? i don't know a little, but I'm comfortable by myself, I'm just uncomfortable telling someone else that that is what i enjoy when they have the expectation that I should be at a random party getting drunk..

I'm the same as regards feeling most comfortable in my own company. Unfortunately this doesn't mean I don't constantly regret my lack of friends. I do realise that sounds quite pathetic, but it is what it is. It bothered me back when I was in school as well. I just don't find it that easy to make friends, mainly because I'm not great at socialising and I don't drink (the primary means of socialising in Ireland!). I confuse myself really, as I generally feel quite content at home on my own but at the same time I'm always aware of how empty my life really is when I allow myself to think about it. Then I envy acquaintances who have a wide circle of friends and family who they can turn to whenever they need and never feel alone.

By the way Frankie, I was alone in the office today as well! Only one in the building, as I honestly had nowhere better to be

FoxyRedLa

Frankie - I still stand by people change, priorities and responsibilities change, and just sometimes stuff that used to be fun just isn't anymore.

Lol you know we are nosey lol lol we like knowing what your general plans are. Maryland is too far away for me to harass you :-))

I don't think it's a problem that you want to stay home alone. Do whatever you like.

ldent42

I don't understand why I have to wait in the waiting room for an hour before I see the doctor

northerndragon

ldent42 wrote: »

I don't understand why I have to wait in the waiting room for an hour before I see the doctor

That's why it's called the waiting room and not the get in to see the Dr right away room......
But truthfully it's bullshit that you have to make an appt., which if you are late for they charge you and you have to rebook, and yet they can make you wait forever with no repercussions!

RKCNDY

northerndragon wrote: »

ldent42 wrote: »

I don't understand why I have to wait in the waiting room for an hour before I see the doctor

That's why it's called the waiting room and not the get in to see the Dr right away room......
But truthfully it's bullshit that you have to make an appt., which if you are late for they charge you and you have to rebook, and yet they can make you wait forever with no repercussions!

We should be able to charge doctors if they cancel our appt. I made a dentist appt waited a month to go in, show up an get told "oh the hygienist is out today, so we have to reschedule you...how does tomorrow sound?



"how does, 'I'm going to be in Las Vegas tomorrow' sound?" then I stormed out and never went back.

pickupyourwill

First time on here since my life fell apart. Had my father cremated this past Tuesday. While I was worried about my friend's cat a week ago, my dad lay dead in his apartment for almost 5 days--heart attack. Guilt and self-blame are only the tip of the iceberg for me.

PJ_Soul

I spent the last few months watching the entire Grey's Anatomy series (rewatching the first 5 seasons too), and I'm finally all caught up.... I swear to god, every single episode made me cry at least once. I don't know wtf is wrong with me or what it is about that show, but EVERY episode got me weepy! No exceptions. That's 240 fucking episodes. That's a lot of weeping in only a few months! So yay. Now i can have a break from crying... at least until season 11 starts, lol.

oftenreading

pickupyourwill wrote: »

First time on here since my life fell apart. Had my father cremated this past Tuesday. While I was worried about my friend's cat a week ago, my dad lay dead in his apartment for almost 5 days--heart attack. Guilt and self-blame are only the tip of the iceberg for me.

Wow. How horrible and sad. I'm so sorry to hear this. Of course guilt and self-blame are there for you now - how could they not be, given the circumstances you describe? I could tell you that you aren't, of course, to blame for his heart attack, but that won't help at this point. I am thinking of you, though.

ldent42

pickupyourwill wrote: »

First time on here since my life fell apart. Had my father cremated this past Tuesday. While I was worried about my friend's cat a week ago, my dad lay dead in his apartment for almost 5 days--heart attack. Guilt and self-blame are only the tip of the iceberg for me.

Great big giant hugs! I am sorry for your loss. The circumstances you describe are tragic but like oftenreading said, it's not your fault, try not to be too hard on yourself. I know that's way easier said than done. Just take it one day at a time, it's not something that you will instantly snap out of.

If you want to talk pm me. I haven't been in exactly the same shoes, but similar ones.

JWPearl

pickupyourwill wrote: »

First time on here since my life fell apart. Had my father cremated this past Tuesday. While I was worried about my friend's cat a week ago, my dad lay dead in his apartment for almost 5 days--heart attack. Guilt and self-blame are only the tip of the iceberg for me.

its honestly not your fault, dont be too hard on yourself, i understand people get pre-occupied with life, so sorry your going through this at the moment, but in all honest you cant ring your dad and be with him everyday when you have a life to live of your own, my sympathies..

im hopping off now..

dimitrispearljam

i dont like snow

FrankieG

jennycoyle wrote: »

FrankieG wrote: »

FoxyRedLa wrote: »

Frankie - jenny, don't feel too bad, people change. I honestly feel if you felt you weren't missing out on anything then you aren't now either.

From what I have seen here, looks like they are the ones that should have made a bigger effort!

Truthfully, there are a couple people that I'm glad I have grown away from.. ) But then I miss the commradere that my old - good friends had. The only thing that really bothers me are the days that it's not socially acceptable to spend away from friends (New years eve) because i will be alone in my apartment doing nothing special... Is that really a problem for me? i don't know a little, but I'm comfortable by myself, I'm just uncomfortable telling someone else that that is what i enjoy when they have the expectation that I should be at a random party getting drunk..

I'm the same as regards feeling most comfortable in my own company. Unfortunately this doesn't mean I don't constantly regret my lack of friends. I do realise that sounds quite pathetic, but it is what it is. It bothered me back when I was in school as well. I just don't find it that easy to make friends, mainly because I'm not great at socialising and I don't drink (the primary means of socialising in Ireland!). I confuse myself really, as I generally feel quite content at home on my own but at the same time I'm always aware of how empty my life really is when I allow myself to think about it. Then I envy acquaintances who have a wide circle of friends and family who they can turn to whenever they need and never feel alone.

By the way Frankie, I was alone in the office today as well! Only one in the building, as I honestly had nowhere better to be

Exactly! I feel most comfortable in my own company and don't drink at all either so the socializing doesn't come as easy. I think the "how empty my life is" feeling is what i will be feeling New Years eve like i was saying above, but I don't normally feel that way. Last night after work I put on a couple records and just layed on the floor of my apartment listening and it was a great night.

Yeah my office is pretty empty too this week with people taking vacation. There is no reason for me to take time off to just hang at home so I have been coming into the office too... It's so dead but just like you say, I have nowhere better to be. And it's not like a 'driving/motivation' force that keeps me going, it's more just like a 'maintain the status quo'/don't screw up mentality that I think I need to change..

SD48277

FrankieG wrote: »

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Truthfully, there are a couple people that I'm glad I have grown away from.. ) But then I miss the commradere that my old - good friends had. The only thing that really bothers me are the days that it's not socially acceptable to spend away from friends (New years eve) because i will be alone in my apartment doing nothing special... Is that really a problem for me? i don't know a little, but I'm comfortable by myself, I'm just uncomfortable telling someone else that that is what i enjoy when they have the expectation that I should be at a random party getting drunk..

Frankie, I used to say that I didn't like going out on New Year's because I didn't trust all the other people on the road (which was/is very true), but I've found that saying, "I just want to lay low for the holiday," is enough of an answer when people ask what I am doing for New Year's. If they don't get it, that's on them. Some people can't stand to be in their own company, so you are one of the lucky ones.

shetellsherself

pickupyourwill wrote: »

First time on here since my life fell apart. Had my father cremated this past Tuesday. While I was worried about my friend's cat a week ago, my dad lay dead in his apartment for almost 5 days--heart attack. Guilt and self-blame are only the tip of the iceberg for me.

I'm so sorry to hear about your dad. I lost my father to a sudden heart attack over 8 years ago. He just died in his bed. The day before I was talking to him on the phone and the next day I called and he didn't answer. I still have his cell number stored in my phone. It was so unexpected. My mom was away for the weekend so she carried a lot of guilt too thinking that if she had been there she could have helped him. She couldn't have and neither could you have helped your dad. It helped me to understand that we all have an allotted time in this life and he had used his. He was such a peaceful person. So easy to be with. He placed no demands on anyone. I hope you find comfort and peace in remembering your father.