Release@MSG (My Story)

Posts: 45
edited October 2009 in Words and Music...Communication
Dear Pearl Jam Family,
I'm going to tell my story which I really do not do that often, and really never to complete strangers, but as these 2 shows are rapidly approaching, I would like to get it out there!
14 PJ shows - Never seen "Release"
Only a true Pearl Jam fan will appreciate and understand what I went through and how a song actually saved me.....
Dec 8 2000
I was 25 years old. My Father "KK" was killed in a tragic train accident on Long Island. The days and months after that one quick moment were the most difficult hours, minutes, seconds of my life.
What I found was the passion, words and music of "Release" to be my savior! Obviously growing up with PJ and listening to Release thousands of times, it was not until now that a whole new meaning has taken place for me!
The lyrics rip through me every time I now hear that song. But because of it's power, it gave me the strength to live strong and move forward.
In June 2008 i became a father of a beautiful daughter named after my father "KK"......As life moves forward I can only pray that he sees me being the best father I can possibly be to my little angel.
I bought a ticket to Bonnaroo hoping and pretty much knowing that "Release" would be played being Fathers Day weekend and all, and finally stopping my search of hearing "Release" live. But as father day approached, I couldn't bear the fact to be away from her and my family on that day. I kept thinking what would my father do in this situation? I made a decision to sell the tickets and spend fathers day at home.
Then of course finding out that the greatest most emotional "Release" was played after midnight as Eddie poured his soul into it, made me think twice. But I stand by my decision and wouldn't change it for the world.
So here we are 4 nights away from the first of two at the Garden. I can not wait, it will be so great to see them jam again. But now is the time for me to finally see and hear "Release" so I can stop chasing the dream I have for me and my father.
I also have a "Release" tattoo on my right shoulder with my fathers initials "KK" floating over water. If you would like to see it, send me an email as I can not figure out how to attach anything to this.
Thank you for taking some time to read this, reply if you would like, if not - See you at the GARDEN!!!!
Oh Dear Dad,
Can you see me Now
I am Myself,
Like you Somehow

BK
"See the path Cut by the Moon, for you to Walk On"
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  • Posts: 961
    BK,

    Great story, very touching. Thanks for sharing it.

    Hope you get to hear Release live at the next shows!

    Take care,
    I still want you all to "take care"--I am just damn tired of typing it.

    http://www.youtube.com/user/kcherub#p/a/u/0/N-UQprRqSwo
  • Posts: 27
    well said bk, i only wish i am standing next to you when they do eventually play this for you.

    -CS
  • Posts: 15
    Are you trying to kill me?? I am 7 months pregnant with my second child and In too lost my dad. Not as tragic but it hurts all the same.

    I am so sorry for you loss and I hope and pray that Release is played for you. And please if you need to shed a tear or a milion of them at the show... just do it.


    See u there!!!
    Sometimes life won't leave you alone...
  • Posts: 686
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  • Posts: 47
    BK,

    From a fellow (former) LI'er......i hope your wish comes true, and if it does, i'll be there somewhere in the arena, thinking of u....

    Hugh
    if hope could grow from dirt like me.....

    "well I know for sure that if we met up eye-to-eye....a little wine would bring us closer...you and I"...Pete Townshend
  • Posts: 430
    BK17,

    I wish for you that your dream comes true!

    I won't be at the show, though will be feeling it from afar! 'Release' please for BK17!

    I lost my father last year, 'man of the hour' is one that pulled me through! I was so thankful that pj played lollapalooza. It was "rock" medicine for my grieving soul. This may sound silly, though it happens occasionally ... dragonflies are a symbol that remind me of my dad. While waiting feverishly with the many for pj to start I was missing my dad. A few moments later I looked up and about 20 dragonflies flew over head. A summer occurrence though a magical moment for me. I realized that my dad is always in my heart.

    So enjoy the shows! Rock your heart and soul out! And I so hope for you that 'release' is played ... loud & clear!

    h&d
    "i'm a dedicated insomniac" ~ ev nyc beacon 6/22
  • Posts: 475
    Add me as another who will thinking of this story when IT IS played at MSG


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    Member # 0003

    wont let the light escape from me
    wont let the darkness swallow me
  • Posts: 124
    22 shows and no Release for me so good luck to you. I hope you get it.
    hold on to the thread
    the currents will shift
  • Posts: 1,902
    BK17 wrote:
    Dear Pearl Jam Family,
    I'm going to tell my story which I really do not do that often, and really never to complete strangers, but as these 2 shows are rapidly approaching, I would like to get it out there!
    14 PJ shows - Never seen "Release"
    Only a true Pearl Jam fan will appreciate and understand what I went through and how a song actually saved me.....
    Dec 8 2000
    I was 25 years old. My Father "KK" was killed in a tragic train accident on Long Island. The days and months after that one quick moment were the most difficult hours, minutes, seconds of my life.
    What I found was the passion, words and music of "Release" to be my savior! Obviously growing up with PJ and listening to Release thousands of times, it was not until now that a whole new meaning has taken place for me!
    The lyrics rip through me every time I now hear that song. But because of it's power, it gave me the strength to live strong and move forward.
    In June 2008 i became a father of a beautiful daughter named after my father "KK"......As life moves forward I can only pray that he sees me being the best father I can possibly be to my little angel.
    I bought a ticket to Bonnaroo hoping and pretty much knowing that "Release" would be played being Fathers Day weekend and all, and finally stopping my search of hearing "Release" live. But as father day approached, I couldn't bear the fact to be away from her and my family on that day. I kept thinking what would my father do in this situation? I made a decision to sell the tickets and spend fathers day at home.
    Then of course finding out that the greatest most emotional "Release" was played after midnight as Eddie poured his soul into it, made me think twice. But I stand by my decision and wouldn't change it for the world.
    So here we are 4 nights away from the first of two at the Garden. I can not wait, it will be so great to see them jam again. But now is the time for me to finally see and hear "Release" so I can stop chasing the dream I have for me and my father.
    I also have a "Release" tattoo on my right shoulder with my fathers initials "KK" floating over water. If you would like to see it, send me an email as I can not figure out how to attach anything to this.
    Thank you for taking some time to read this, reply if you would like, if not - See you at the GARDEN!!!!
    Oh Dear Dad,
    Can you see me Now
    I am Myself,
    Like you Somehow

    BK


    Good luck hearing "Release". As someone who just lost their father less than 2 months ago, I can appreciate your feelings for the song. I had the pleasure of hearing it as an opener in 2003, but it has so much new meaning for me now.
    Brian
  • Posts: 3
    BK, you just made me cry. I didnt know about that. I am glad I do now. Email me a pic of your tat or I will have to come to NY and grab ur muscles like I used too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  • Posts: 23
    I've been lucky enough to see Release 2 times out of the 13 shows i've been at. I will be at both MSG shows and hope they play it for you. It is my all time favorite song for them to open up with. I get chills through my body when I hear this song.
  • Posts: 53
    i can't wait till they play it either tonight or tomorrow. i'll definitely be thinking about you
    Maui I 98 / Camden II 98 / Jones Beach I,II,III 00 / Camden I,II 00 / Philadelphia 03 / Camden I 03 / Mansfield III 03 / Reading 04 / Montreal 05 / Camden II 06 / East Rutherford I 06 / Camden I 08 / NYC I,II 08
  • Posts: 23
    I lost my dad in March '98 and Long Road was the song that got me through it, probably listened to it 100 times. Fast forward to sept 10 '98, first time ever seeing Pearl Jam live, and of course they open with Long Road. THat stuff doesnt happen by accident.

    Ive only gotten Release once in 15 shows, praying for it tonite!!
  • Posts: 768
    One day or another I'll hear Release during a PJ concert. So far I have only been to 4 shows so chances were quite low but there's no other possibility !!! I lost my dad 14 years ago. He was only 42, went to bed and never woke up. I miss him so much.
    Strange thing is that I started to listen to PJ a lot around that time and when I realized what this song was about tears came quickly. They still come quickly most of the time I hear this song. There's so much emotion in it.
  • Posts: 141
    Lost my pops 26yrs ago today!!!!
    I was 11. Still pissed.

    Praying for release tonight!!!!!

    First time I heard it live was MSG II 08'.

    Lets start off tonight with a little tribute.

    Heres to ya POP!!
    96' Randalls island II
    98' NJ, MSG II
    00' Jones Beach I,II,III
    03' Nassau, MSG I, II
    05' Montreal, Ottawa, Borgata II
    06' NJ I, II
    08' Camden II, MSG II, Hartford, Beacon NY, Ed Ved NYC I
    09' Philly 4
    10' MSG I,II
    11' Ed Ved Hartford
    13' Chicago, Brooklyn II
    15' GCF NY
    16' Philly II, MSG I
  • Posts: 3,527
    i've been fortunate to hear this song 3 times live and it gives me chills every time ...

    if i wasn't such an emotionally stunted goof - i'd probably cry
  • Posts: 34
    I was just hoping they opened with it tonight at MSG 2 but that gives you a little more to think about.
    Hail Hail The Lucky Ones!!!

    Saratoga 92, Hartford 96, Hartford 98, Jones Beach 3 00, Mansfield 1 03, Mansfield 2 03, Camden 1 03, MSG 1 03, MSG 2 03, Mansfield 3 03, Holmdel 03, Boston 1 04, Albany 06, Hartford 06, East Rutherford 1 06, Camden 2 08, MSG 1 08, MSG 2 08, Hartford 08, Mansfield 1 08, Mansfield 2 08, Spectrum 4 09, Hartford 10, MSG 1 10, MSG 2 10, EV Hartford 11, Philly 12, Brooklyn 1 13, Brooklyn 2 13, Hartford 13, MSG 1 16, MSG 2 16, Fenway 1 16, Temple Of The Dog MSG 16
  • Posts: 40
    I hope you get to hear it. Its a great song indeed. Its a song that played live is so much better. My first time I cried when they opened with it I was so moving, it means something to me as well and I couldnt see crap from my seats really, just heard them moving around on the stage a bit and then Ed started. Still nothing no lights at all then the lights hit him and he got louder and I lost it. Mid way through the song I was still teary - I was not embarrassed. Since then I have heard it a few more times and each time it tingles my spine and raises my neck hairs. Amazing. I hope you hear it very soon - enjoy it and thanks for the story, its very touching.


    VB
    45 Shows & Counting!!!
  • Posts: 45
    To everybody who responded or just took time to read our stories, THANK YOU!! Whether you were there with us last night or somewhere else - we were all together as we found our "RELEASE" at Garden in New York!!

    For years it was a mystery of how I would react when we finally got it! There was an instant emotional breakdown of my body and soul as a wave of pure ecstasy and great sorrow hit me ALL AT ONCE!!!

    Thank you boys for giving me everything you had during these past two nights at the Garden, and giving us the "Release", that will allow us to finally get closure and move forward..................
    "See the path Cut by the Moon, for you to Walk On"
  • Posts: 430
    BK17 your wish was granted!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    "i'm a dedicated insomniac" ~ ev nyc beacon 6/22

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