Release@MSG (My Story)
bkagen@aol.com
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Dear Pearl Jam Family,
I'm going to tell my story which I really do not do that often, and really never to complete strangers, but as these 2 shows are rapidly approaching, I would like to get it out there!
14 PJ shows - Never seen "Release"
Only a true Pearl Jam fan will appreciate and understand what I went through and how a song actually saved me.....
Dec 8 2000
I was 25 years old. My Father "KK" was killed in a tragic train accident on Long Island. The days and months after that one quick moment were the most difficult hours, minutes, seconds of my life.
What I found was the passion, words and music of "Release" to be my savior! Obviously growing up with PJ and listening to Release thousands of times, it was not until now that a whole new meaning has taken place for me!
The lyrics rip through me every time I now hear that song. But because of it's power, it gave me the strength to live strong and move forward.
In June 2008 i became a father of a beautiful daughter named after my father "KK"......As life moves forward I can only pray that he sees me being the best father I can possibly be to my little angel.
I bought a ticket to Bonnaroo hoping and pretty much knowing that "Release" would be played being Fathers Day weekend and all, and finally stopping my search of hearing "Release" live. But as father day approached, I couldn't bear the fact to be away from her and my family on that day. I kept thinking what would my father do in this situation? I made a decision to sell the tickets and spend fathers day at home.
Then of course finding out that the greatest most emotional "Release" was played after midnight as Eddie poured his soul into it, made me think twice. But I stand by my decision and wouldn't change it for the world.
So here we are 4 nights away from the first of two at the Garden. I can not wait, it will be so great to see them jam again. But now is the time for me to finally see and hear "Release" so I can stop chasing the dream I have for me and my father.
I also have a "Release" tattoo on my right shoulder with my fathers initials "KK" floating over water. If you would like to see it, send me an email as I can not figure out how to attach anything to this.
Thank you for taking some time to read this, reply if you would like, if not - See you at the GARDEN!!!!
Oh Dear Dad,
Can you see me Now
I am Myself,
Like you Somehow
BK
I'm going to tell my story which I really do not do that often, and really never to complete strangers, but as these 2 shows are rapidly approaching, I would like to get it out there!
14 PJ shows - Never seen "Release"
Only a true Pearl Jam fan will appreciate and understand what I went through and how a song actually saved me.....
Dec 8 2000
I was 25 years old. My Father "KK" was killed in a tragic train accident on Long Island. The days and months after that one quick moment were the most difficult hours, minutes, seconds of my life.
What I found was the passion, words and music of "Release" to be my savior! Obviously growing up with PJ and listening to Release thousands of times, it was not until now that a whole new meaning has taken place for me!
The lyrics rip through me every time I now hear that song. But because of it's power, it gave me the strength to live strong and move forward.
In June 2008 i became a father of a beautiful daughter named after my father "KK"......As life moves forward I can only pray that he sees me being the best father I can possibly be to my little angel.
I bought a ticket to Bonnaroo hoping and pretty much knowing that "Release" would be played being Fathers Day weekend and all, and finally stopping my search of hearing "Release" live. But as father day approached, I couldn't bear the fact to be away from her and my family on that day. I kept thinking what would my father do in this situation? I made a decision to sell the tickets and spend fathers day at home.
Then of course finding out that the greatest most emotional "Release" was played after midnight as Eddie poured his soul into it, made me think twice. But I stand by my decision and wouldn't change it for the world.
So here we are 4 nights away from the first of two at the Garden. I can not wait, it will be so great to see them jam again. But now is the time for me to finally see and hear "Release" so I can stop chasing the dream I have for me and my father.
I also have a "Release" tattoo on my right shoulder with my fathers initials "KK" floating over water. If you would like to see it, send me an email as I can not figure out how to attach anything to this.
Thank you for taking some time to read this, reply if you would like, if not - See you at the GARDEN!!!!
Oh Dear Dad,
Can you see me Now
I am Myself,
Like you Somehow
BK
"See the path Cut by the Moon, for you to Walk On"
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Great story, very touching. Thanks for sharing it.
Hope you get to hear Release live at the next shows!
Take care,
http://www.youtube.com/user/kcherub#p/a/u/0/N-UQprRqSwo
-CS
I am so sorry for you loss and I hope and pray that Release is played for you. And please if you need to shed a tear or a milion of them at the show... just do it.
See u there!!!
My
God
From a fellow (former) LI'er......i hope your wish comes true, and if it does, i'll be there somewhere in the arena, thinking of u....
Hugh
"well I know for sure that if we met up eye-to-eye....a little wine would bring us closer...you and I"...Pete Townshend
I wish for you that your dream comes true!
I won't be at the show, though will be feeling it from afar! 'Release' please for BK17!
I lost my father last year, 'man of the hour' is one that pulled me through! I was so thankful that pj played lollapalooza. It was "rock" medicine for my grieving soul. This may sound silly, though it happens occasionally ... dragonflies are a symbol that remind me of my dad. While waiting feverishly with the many for pj to start I was missing my dad. A few moments later I looked up and about 20 dragonflies flew over head. A summer occurrence though a magical moment for me. I realized that my dad is always in my heart.
So enjoy the shows! Rock your heart and soul out! And I so hope for you that 'release' is played ... loud & clear!
h&d
*Official Marker in the Sand Fan Club Junkie*
Member # 0003
wont let the light escape from me
wont let the darkness swallow me
the currents will shift
Good luck hearing "Release". As someone who just lost their father less than 2 months ago, I can appreciate your feelings for the song. I had the pleasure of hearing it as an opener in 2003, but it has so much new meaning for me now.
Ive only gotten Release once in 15 shows, praying for it tonite!!
Strange thing is that I started to listen to PJ a lot around that time and when I realized what this song was about tears came quickly. They still come quickly most of the time I hear this song. There's so much emotion in it.
I was 11. Still pissed.
Praying for release tonight!!!!!
First time I heard it live was MSG II 08'.
Lets start off tonight with a little tribute.
Heres to ya POP!!
98' NJ, MSG II
00' Jones Beach I,II,III
03' Nassau, MSG I, II
05' Montreal, Ottawa, Borgata II
06' NJ I, II
08' Camden II, MSG II, Hartford, Beacon NY, Ed Ved NYC I
09' Philly 4
10' MSG I,II
11' Ed Ved Hartford
13' Chicago, Brooklyn II
15' GCF NY
16' Philly II, MSG I
if i wasn't such an emotionally stunted goof - i'd probably cry
Saratoga 92, Hartford 96, Hartford 98, Jones Beach 3 00, Mansfield 1 03, Mansfield 2 03, Camden 1 03, MSG 1 03, MSG 2 03, Mansfield 3 03, Holmdel 03, Boston 1 04, Albany 06, Hartford 06, East Rutherford 1 06, Camden 2 08, MSG 1 08, MSG 2 08, Hartford 08, Mansfield 1 08, Mansfield 2 08, Spectrum 4 09, Hartford 10, MSG 1 10, MSG 2 10, EV Hartford 11, Philly 12, Brooklyn 1 13, Brooklyn 2 13, Hartford 13, MSG 1 16, MSG 2 16, Fenway 1 16, Temple Of The Dog MSG 16
VB
For years it was a mystery of how I would react when we finally got it! There was an instant emotional breakdown of my body and soul as a wave of pure ecstasy and great sorrow hit me ALL AT ONCE!!!
Thank you boys for giving me everything you had during these past two nights at the Garden, and giving us the "Release", that will allow us to finally get closure and move forward..................
I had to wait quite a while for it too. My first was in Verona. Yesterday was my second
"Where's Mike McCready? My god he's been ate!"
"If you're an Elvis fan, there's no explanation necessary; if you're not, there's no explanation possible."
"Sometimes God makes perfect people and Paul Newman was one of them." - RIP Paul Newman
Let me start by saying that this post has nothing to do with anyone's "story". It's just the reality of setlist statistics.
"Release" is played more often than any other opener, by nearly a factor of 2! I've heard it at 7/34 shows, nearly 1/5. By that logic, you will hear it at your next show! :-) There is not secret to hearing "release," if you go to enough shows, you will hear it. I get sick of people hoping for "release," when all they really have to do is go to a couple of shows. You should really hope for "Sometimes" or "Oceans", true rarities.... and enjoy "Release" as a consolation prize! I'm not saying I don't like "release," or that "Sometimes" or "Oceans" are better or worse songs.
04/25/03 05/02/03 5/3/03 6/24/03 6/28/03 7/5/03 7/6/03 7/11/03 7/12/03 7/14/03
09/28/04 09/29/04 10/01/04 10/02/04
09/28/05 09/30/05 10/03/05
5/24/06 5/25/06 5/27/06 5/28/06 5/30/06 6/01/06 6/03/06 6/23/06 6/24/06 7/22/06 7/23/06
6/20/08 6/22/08 6/24/08 6/25/08
I hope you get this message but your not home...I will be there in just a minute or so...
I want to go but I want to go with you.
Travel is fatal to prejudice, bigotry and narrow-mindedness and many of our people need it sorely on these accounts. Broad, wholesome, charitable views of men and things cannot be acquired by vegetating in one little corner of the earth all one's lifetime. -MT
I've had enough, said enough, felt enough. I'm fine, still in it.
Peace
EV
Toronto Film Festival 9/11/2007, '08 - Toronto 1 & 2, '09 - Albany 1, '11 - Chicago 1
Well, that's your opinion. Everyone has a sad story, some post it on the internet, some don't. In fact it is completely about setlist statistics, if his wish was to hear "otherside," he would have been completely out of luck. Lots of people there wanted to hear a special song for a special reason. Some did, and some didn't. I'm glad this guy did, who wouldn't be? But like I already said, my post wasn't related to some guy's story. You will see that I replied to someone else who thought their chances to hear the song were "quite low." I tried to point out that I've seen it in about 1/5 shows.
04/25/03 05/02/03 5/3/03 6/24/03 6/28/03 7/5/03 7/6/03 7/11/03 7/12/03 7/14/03
09/28/04 09/29/04 10/01/04 10/02/04
09/28/05 09/30/05 10/03/05
5/24/06 5/25/06 5/27/06 5/28/06 5/30/06 6/01/06 6/03/06 6/23/06 6/24/06 7/22/06 7/23/06
6/20/08 6/22/08 6/24/08 6/25/08
EV
Toronto Film Festival 9/11/2007, '08 - Toronto 1 & 2, '09 - Albany 1, '11 - Chicago 1
You refer to my previous post.
If you want to bring statistics on the table, I'm a really lucky guy since I heard Dirty Frank (only played 10 times) and Fatal (only played 3 times) during the same concert. I beat all statistics ... and between us I know that I will hear Release one day ... but you have to understand that some people can't attend as many shows as they wish. When is the next Europe tour ???
Anyway, I'm really happy for BK17. Music is pure emotion ... some songs more than others.