Thanks guys, & congrats to all of you for being sober right now. Moment to moment, day to day... doing our best...during a challenging year & now the holidays. We can all do it, ODAAT.
@hedonist You are exceptionally lucky to have a firewalker, I am so happy for you, it must be a special journey. 😘
My bottom was on going & I was living a 'normal ' life while slowly falling apart. I couldn't do it anymore, none of it, my career, my marriage, my responsibilities, I was suddenly terrified to live my life. I was dealing with the onset of depression & panic, which I then had no name for except AHH!! And at the same time my increasingly constant drunkenness.
That's part of my story, as deep as I wish to go right now. But it was an incredibly crucial change of my entire life. Wow, that was the beginning of two years of hell.
I've been dealing with fear a lot & it brings me back to when panic creeped into my life. Thank God I'm not using because that is one seriously ugly mix. I don't want to use, but outing my fear is important. Thanks for letting me tell on myself!
I did not go for my scan. I know I need to but COVID is bad here & I've been at home since March. I'm scared. I'll let you know when I actually go. Thanks for being my cyber home group.
Thanks guys, & congrats to all of you for being sober right now. Moment to moment, day to day... doing our best...during a challenging year & now the holidays. We can all do it, ODAAT.
@hedonist You are exceptionally lucky to have a firewalker, I am so happy for you, it must be a special journey. 😘
My bottom was on going & I was living a 'normal ' life while slowly falling apart. I couldn't do it anymore, none of it, my career, my marriage, my responsibilities, I was suddenly terrified to live my life. I was dealing with the onset of depression & panic, which I then had no name for except AHH!! And at the same time my increasingly constant drunkenness.
That's part of my story, as deep as I wish to go right now. But it was an incredibly crucial change of my entire life. Wow, that was the beginning of two years of hell.
I've been dealing with fear a lot & it brings me back to when panic creeped into my life. Thank God I'm not using because that is one seriously ugly mix. I don't want to use, but outing my fear is important. Thanks for letting me tell on myself!
I did not go for my scan. I know I need to but COVID is bad here & I've been at home since March. I'm scared. I'll let you know when I actually go. Thanks for being my cyber home group.
Love to you all....and comfort & joy! ✌
You’ll get there, Nancy. I know all about prolonging the necessary out of fear. That we’ve kept sober through all this is a testament to our will, even if getting there takes a while, or a few tries.
Be well
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so today marks 1 year for my HS best friend OB. he's been in and mostly out of AA for 35 years.
Its been my absolute honor and joy to serve him as sponsor. Which I was reluctant to do but he insisted......
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
to be able to do this for someone that close(although we hadnt seen each other for a long long time before reconnecting yr and half ago) is special to me.
I work with one other guy, a former board member here. A Brit living in Poland.
Each of these trip me out how they came to be and their significance to my sobriety.
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
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to be able to do this for someone that close(although we hadnt seen each other for a long long time before reconnecting yr and half ago) is special to me.
I work with one other guy, a former board member here. A Brit living in Poland.
Each of these trip me out how they came to be and their significance to my sobriety.
humbling and awe inspiring.
Nothing like a strong shot of humility. Good for the soul.
Bravo to your friend.
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So my childhood friend Dennis( a Pastor without a church) has a podcast as part of his ministry. "From The War Room" this series is titled "Uncommon Spirituality" . I am episode 5. It appears there will be more with me here inn the future.
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
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Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
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mickeyrat
up my ass, like Chadwick was up his Posts: 35,676
such a short sighted dumbass. wasted a year of possibilities on zoom meetings around the world.......
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
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Newcomers meeting "Rule 62" Melbourne Australia......Thursdays 7pm Aus time. 15 hrs ahead of EST.
was different in format than I have ever seen but very interesting in its structure..
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
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prayer request. For Tierah. A friend and the wife of my best friend and sponsee Rob O. , is in the hospital. heart issues. had a seizure yesterday which led to V fib and a heart attack. appears to have lasted 3-5 hours. waiting now to see the extent of the damage
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
prayer request. For Tierah. A friend and the wife of my best friend and sponsee Rob O. , is in the hospital. heart issues. had a seizure yesterday which led to V fib and a heart attack. appears to have lasted 3-5 hours. waiting now to see the extent of the damage
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
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up my ass, like Chadwick was up his Posts: 35,676
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
Comments
Sitting on the sidewalk piss
Telling me his wish
Can't will to life
Sitting on the sidewalk piss
Pissing in a cup
So he doesn't walk away on life
Sitting on the sidewalk piss
Digging deep in the abyss
The lost life
Sitting on the sidewalk piss
Eyes beautiful and blue
Choosing life
*Congrats Nancy. My big sis just hit the big 2 0, as well. She's a year and half ahead of me for both birthdays!
@hedonist You are exceptionally lucky to have a firewalker, I am so happy for you, it must be a special journey. 😘
My bottom was on going & I was living a 'normal ' life while slowly falling apart. I couldn't do it anymore, none of it, my career, my marriage, my responsibilities, I was suddenly terrified to live my life. I was dealing with the onset of depression & panic, which I then had no name for except AHH!! And at the same time my increasingly constant drunkenness.
That's part of my story, as deep as I wish to go right now. But it was an incredibly crucial change of my entire life. Wow, that was the beginning of two years of hell.
I've been dealing with fear a lot & it brings me back to when panic creeped into my life. Thank God I'm not using because that is one seriously ugly mix. I don't want to use, but outing my fear is important. Thanks for letting me tell on myself!
I did not go for my scan. I know I need to but COVID is bad here & I've been at home since March. I'm scared. I'll let you know when I actually go. Thanks for being my cyber home group.
Love to you all....and comfort & joy! ✌
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
Ain’t it the truth...
4 years by the Grace of God.
Rock on.....
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
If the Dodgers didn't drive you to drink (for both frustration and celebration reasons) over the past 4 years, you can handle anything.
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
sending good vibes Terah’s way. I hope the outcome is good.
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
astoria 06
albany 06
hartford 06
reading 06
barcelona 06
paris 06
wembley 07
dusseldorf 07
nijmegen 07
this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -
drunken pot smoking crackhead is offered and accepts admission to long-term drug and alcohol treatment. 15 yrs ago today.
happy 4-20 everyone!!!!
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
Take care