How you feeling right now???

Annafalk said:

Thoughts_Arrive said:

Annafalk said:

Annafalk said:

Thoughts_Arrive said:

Disappointed and sad.

What has happened?

Don’t worry about turning 40, you still have 5 years left, that is a lot of time.
A comfort is also that it’s the same for everyone, it’s very equal, aging I mean. I know I always say those obvious things...
I’m trying to think about not filling life with days but the days with life. (But it’s not always that easy)
I’m sitting in the car looking out the window, the landscape is moving on the outside. A journey like life is and the journey that’s also the goal. 

Just very down about my life situation at the moment.
I feel like I don't know who I am, where I am going, where I fit into this world.
I'm nearly finished my bachelor's degree in psychology and then have honours next year and hopefully further studies if I make it.
But the problem is I don't know if my chosen career is for me. 

And I need to find a job, applied for 2 jobs and got rejected for both. I have not had a job for 4 years as I wanted to focus entirely on studying plus I don't want to work because of how badly I was bullied in my last job. I am out of confidence. I feel like I can't do anything right. I had some work experience in between when I was studying to be a high school teacher and my supervising teacher said I was doing poorly and she was going to fail me for my work experience. She was very pissed off at me and didn't want to talk to me much. She kept faulting everything I did. I then dropped out of that career path. The two last jobs I had I got fired from and my university work experience I failed. I feel like a failure. Having to go back to work makes me very anxious knowing I am struggling and always the target of bullying.

My friends are new fathers and happy with life, they have jobs they are happy with. I am happy for them but it is bittersweet.
I've never had a girlfriend.
I just feel like a big loser.
Been batting feelings of sadness for the whole year but keeping it to myself.

This is why 40 is a big deal for me. 40 year old virgin without a career.
Still lives with mum and dad because he can't afford to live on his own.

Maybe don’t focus on the end goal, make a short term commitment and follow through, then choose the next goal on your journey. 

Great to hear that you are about to finalize your Bachelor degree! That is a great achievement. Take pride in finalizing that, and you will be set for reaching the next goal you set your mind to, just make sure you move forward in small steps, and don't let anyone devalue your progress - you do this for you, and noone else!

Try to focus on the positive things in life, Eddie told us at the concert how he had been earlier in his life not many paychecks from poverty actually.  A lot of things can change in life, I hope you will reach your goals and achieve what you set your mind to, you can do it.

njnancy said:

I am feeling proud that I was able to break through my anxiety to make my follow up mammography yesterday. I had to get 5 of them done (on one side) and each one was more squished. And I had a sonogram on both. Good news - I'm clear. Go back next year. Phew.

I am not sure how I feel - it's my sister's birthday July 9 - she's been gone since 2013 and she went to the hospital on her birthday. She was gone by September.. 

I quit smoking on July 9 2017. I wanted to make it a day that was positive instead of sad and make my big sis proud of me maybe. I'm 2 years cigarette free. My doc had me use vapes and I did both for a while but I didn't buy the cigarettes one day in July and my sister's birthday is now my anniversary. I miss her a lot. 

Was going to go food shopping to keep the leave the house thing going but woke up with a migraine and still have it. I better not have it tomorrow cause I have SO much I need to do. SO much.

But I'm proud of myself for breaking through and getting where I needed to go. And I'm really proud of not smoking for 2 years - I have smoked since I was a teen and never though I'd do it. So my sissy's birthday is a good day. 

eeriepadave said:

good, just found $20 in our apt. complex parking lot

lastexitlondon said:

Oh no something  similar  happened here  . Good luck drink  plenty

hauntingfamiliar said:

I feel like my midlife crisis is working in my favor right now.
Quit job that used to be fulfilling...check 
Sold house...check 
Moved to a new city...check 
Traveling this summer,  seeing shows and avoiding all reality...check, check, check, check 
I feeeel like I will go back to reality when I am damn well ready.