How you feeling right now???
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^^^ (I'm censoring myself, I can't call him what I want to but how cruel!)0
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Hungry. Waiting for dinner to cook.Kool Kat Club 1992, Moderna museet 1992, Globen 2012, Friends arena 20140
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I love when I come visit and read this thread - there is so much care and comfort here.
I am struggling. Feel like I'm locked inside myself and Christmas has triggered so much anxiety and sadness. Hard to explain and I'm so sick of being fucked up. PTSD sucks. Parental Alientaion sucks - I haven't seen my son in a month. And seeing him just triggers the PTSD - sohow do I get better. And he is mentally unstable from all this and I can't help him. It's a horrible feeling to not be able to help your child, and to realize that seeing them makes you sicker. . I love Christmas and I have done nothing - no tree, decorations, presents - nothing. Going near anything Christmasy makes me want to hide. I hope none of you ever experience this. But I wanted to type how it feels, as best as I can explain, in here. I never feel safe, but this is a safish type place - I think. I doubt myself . I want me back, my family normal - but it seems so unlikely nd I'm getting scared I'll never get past this. Did watch an amazing show on HBO - The Night Of - thought I'd add something positive - so sick of posting about being fucked up. Right now I need to go to the store to pick up something and I'm terrified to go. Fuck .0 -
You aren't the only one who feels this way. It sounds like what I went through after my brother passed and with my concussion last year. All I can say is don't force it, don't feel bad. The joy will return as you heal just give your self the time to do that. It is the best thing you can do.njnancy said:I love when I come visit and read this thread - there is so much care and comfort here.
I am struggling. Feel like I'm locked inside myself and Christmas has triggered so much anxiety and sadness. Hard to explain and I'm so sick of being fucked up. PTSD sucks. Parental Alientaion sucks - I haven't seen my son in a month. And seeing him just triggers the PTSD - sohow do I get better. And he is mentally unstable from all this and I can't help him. It's a horrible feeling to not be able to help your child, and to realize that seeing them makes you sicker. . I love Christmas and I have done nothing - no tree, decorations, presents - nothing. Going near anything Christmasy makes me want to hide. I hope none of you ever experience this. But I wanted to type how it feels, as best as I can explain, in here. I never feel safe, but this is a safish type place - I think. I doubt myself . I want me back, my family normal - but it seems so unlikely nd I'm getting scared I'll never get past this. Did watch an amazing show on HBO - The Night Of - thought I'd add something positive - so sick of posting about being fucked up. Right now I need to go to the store to pick up something and I'm terrified to go. Fuck .Anything you lose from being honest
You never really had to begin with.
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Very safe advice!northerndragon said:
You aren't the only one who feels this way. It sounds like what I went through after my brother passed and with my concussion last year. All I can say is don't force it, don't feel bad. The joy will return as you heal just give your self the time to do that. It is the best thing you can do.njnancy said:I love when I come visit and read this thread - there is so much care and comfort here.
I am struggling. Feel like I'm locked inside myself and Christmas has triggered so much anxiety and sadness. Hard to explain and I'm so sick of being fucked up. PTSD sucks. Parental Alientaion sucks - I haven't seen my son in a month. And seeing him just triggers the PTSD - sohow do I get better. And he is mentally unstable from all this and I can't help him. It's a horrible feeling to not be able to help your child, and to realize that seeing them makes you sicker. . I love Christmas and I have done nothing - no tree, decorations, presents - nothing. Going near anything Christmasy makes me want to hide. I hope none of you ever experience this. But I wanted to type how it feels, as best as I can explain, in here. I never feel safe, but this is a safish type place - I think. I doubt myself . I want me back, my family normal - but it seems so unlikely nd I'm getting scared I'll never get past this. Did watch an amazing show on HBO - The Night Of - thought I'd add something positive - so sick of posting about being fucked up. Right now I need to go to the store to pick up something and I'm terrified to go. Fuck .njnancy!
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Thanks for the advice and cyber hugs. I know I have to go through it to get better, but sometimes it's overwhelming. It is comforting to know other's feel the same way. I am sorry about your brother - I've lost my brother(10 yrs) and my sister (3 years), and dad's gone 20 years I'm grieving a child that is still alive. Kind of takes same of the joy out of many things. Christmas is not the same. My mom is a great comfort, and I love her very much, but my circle of support has shrunk. Losing a parent is difficult - losing a sibling is hard to explain but I empathize. Shouldn't be losing siblings young. Good luck through the holidays. I look forward to the joy returning some day. Thank you for your support whispering - I haven't talked to you in a long time. Miss you!whispering hands said:
Very safe advice!northerndragon said:
You aren't the only one who feels this way. It sounds like what I went through after my brother passed and with my concussion last year. All I can say is don't force it, don't feel bad. The joy will return as you heal just give your self the time to do that. It is the best thing you can do.njnancy said:I love when I come visit and read this thread - there is so much care and comfort here.
I am struggling. Feel like I'm locked inside myself and Christmas has triggered so much anxiety and sadness. Hard to explain and I'm so sick of being fucked up. PTSD sucks. Parental Alientaion sucks - I haven't seen my son in a month. And seeing him just triggers the PTSD - sohow do I get better. And he is mentally unstable from all this and I can't help him. It's a horrible feeling to not be able to help your child, and to realize that seeing them makes you sicker. . I love Christmas and I have done nothing - no tree, decorations, presents - nothing. Going near anything Christmasy makes me want to hide. I hope none of you ever experience this. But I wanted to type how it feels, as best as I can explain, in here. I never feel safe, but this is a safish type place - I think. I doubt myself . I want me back, my family normal - but it seems so unlikely nd I'm getting scared I'll never get past this. Did watch an amazing show on HBO - The Night Of - thought I'd add something positive - so sick of posting about being fucked up. Right now I need to go to the store to pick up something and I'm terrified to go. Fuck .njnancy!
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Yes! I miss you also! It always brings me great joy to see you
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Tired, but pleased. Tomorrow begins the Christmas Holiday!Kool Kat Club 1992, Moderna museet 1992, Globen 2012, Friends arena 20140
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Excited and nervous, going in for my Career aptitude testing, for school.. whew.. I haven't done this in 20-something years! Nervous!0
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Horribly anxious and restless.
(Just after I tell my husband that, he plays an episode of The Twilight Zone. That intro music? Probably not the best choice at that specific moment, but it did make us laugh).0 -
Feeling my head is going to explodeRoskilde 1992
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Tired and overwhelmed. So much to do and so little time.Anything you lose from being honest
You never really had to begin with.
Sometimes it's not the song that makes you emotional it's the people and things that come to your mind when you hear it.0 -
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I wish i was the souvenir you kept your house key on..0 -
Refreshed.. loving this nic break in the crazy cold weather!0
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Sick! Picked up a lovely case of the flu complete with coughing, sore throat and sweats on my trip to Iceland last week. Now I wanna get out on the slopes today and not sure I can make it.
late PJ bloomer- what was I doing in the 90's that I didn't know who Pearl Jam was???0 -
Excited.0
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A little exhausted from yesterday.0
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great"...Dimitri...He talks to me...'.."The Ghost of Greece..".
"..That's One Happy Fuckin Ghost.."
“..That came up on the Pillow Case...This is for the Greek, With Our Apologies.....”0 -
I'm feeling full of food...0
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Excited I get to start my new part time job tomorrow! Yay!0
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