How you feeling right now???

northerndragon

Excited and terrified.

JWPearl

good i had a great sleep

northerndragon said:

Excited and terrified.

i bet you are

northerndragon

Now just stoked for my last concert trip of the year. Thanks to those who made me laugh all day.

bluegrace

Good, but longing for December and hopefully snow.

dimitrispearljam

Happy...totaly..

njnancy

Calm & safe. (As long as I stay out of my head).

23scidoo

Relief..finally this shit day is over..

njnancy

23scidoo said:

Relief..finally this shit day is over..

Hi Scidoo! Glad you are done with a crap day - relax, take it easy...

SD48277

njnancy said:

Calm & safe. (As long as I stay out of my head).

Nancy! Great to see you here.

hedonist

njnancy said:

Calm & safe. (As long as I stay out of my head).

Doing that is always a tough one for me. Usually I can't help but get in there

Hope you keep that feeling with you.

njnancy

SD48277 said:

njnancy said:

Calm & safe. (As long as I stay out of my head).

Nancy! Great to see you here.

Thank you - it's nice to be here. Trying to stay connected more - I am still working on it. Hope you are well SD48277!

hedonist said:

njnancy said:

Calm & safe. (As long as I stay out of my head).

Doing that is always a tough one for me. Usually I can't help but get in there

Hope you keep that feeling with you.

Thanks Hedonist. Unfortunately, I couldn't stay out of my head either and that always ends it hurt and sadness. I am trying my best to deal with PTSD but with continuing abnormal behavior from my son and others, it just feels endlessly hopeless. I don't understand and I can't make believe he doesn't exist. And my late sister's husband and I argued in the Spring and now he demands an apology or I'm not invited to holiday family gatherings. I am absolutely not apologizing and he doesn't reach out to talk and reach a stalemate so I've been banned - my sister would be apoplectic. And it makes my mom feel stressed and sad. So I'm estranged from everyone but my mother - it hurts and I am powerless over the actions of others. My ex and co. really messed up my son - my baby is so fucked up - I can't believe it's still going on and now I am scared for him due to his choices. And when do I work on me? I don't know. I can't figure out how to separate being a mother from who I am - I'm screwed. So I went there and it ends this way. Hope you are doing okay, hedoinst. Oh, just celebrated 20 years - I should feel proud, but I don't feel anything.

PJfanwillneverleave1

njnancy said:

SD48277 said:

njnancy said:

Calm & safe. (As long as I stay out of my head).

Nancy! Great to see you here.

Thank you - it's nice to be here. Trying to stay connected more - I am still working on it. Hope you are well SD48277!

hedonist said:

njnancy said:

Calm & safe. (As long as I stay out of my head).

Doing that is always a tough one for me. Usually I can't help but get in there

Hope you keep that feeling with you.

Thanks Hedonist.

Refer to this http://community.pearljam.com/discussion/comment/6366685#Comment_6366685
pg 519 in particular

oftenreading

njnancy said:

SD48277 said:

njnancy said:

Calm & safe. (As long as I stay out of my head).

Nancy! Great to see you here.

Thank you - it's nice to be here. Trying to stay connected more - I am still working on it. Hope you are well SD48277!

hedonist said:

njnancy said:

Calm & safe. (As long as I stay out of my head).

Doing that is always a tough one for me. Usually I can't help but get in there

Hope you keep that feeling with you.

Thanks Hedonist. Unfortunately, I couldn't stay out of my head either and that always ends it hurt and sadness. I am trying my best to deal with PTSD but with continuing abnormal behavior from my son and others, it just feels endlessly hopeless. I don't understand and I can't make believe he doesn't exist. And my late sister's husband and I argued in the Spring and now he demands an apology or I'm not invited to holiday family gatherings. I am absolutely not apologizing and he doesn't reach out to talk and reach a stalemate so I've been banned - my sister would be apoplectic. And it makes my mom feel stressed and sad. So I'm estranged from everyone but my mother - it hurts and I am powerless over the actions of others. My ex and co. really messed up my son - my baby is so fucked up - I can't believe it's still going on and now I am scared for him due to his choices. And when do I work on me? I don't know. I can't figure out how to separate being a mother from who I am - I'm screwed. So I went there and it ends this way. Hope you are doing okay, hedoinst. Oh, just celebrated 20 years - I should feel proud, but I don't feel anything.

I'm sorry that this is how you're feeling. The accomplishment of 20 years still stands, regardless of how you feel about it in this moment. It is still there for you to take pride in when you are feeling up to that.

hedonist

oftenreading said:

njnancy said:

SD48277 said:

njnancy said:

Calm & safe. (As long as I stay out of my head).

Nancy! Great to see you here.

Thank you - it's nice to be here. Trying to stay connected more - I am still working on it. Hope you are well SD48277!

hedonist said:

njnancy said:

Calm & safe. (As long as I stay out of my head).

Doing that is always a tough one for me. Usually I can't help but get in there

Hope you keep that feeling with you.

Thanks Hedonist. Unfortunately, I couldn't stay out of my head either and that always ends it hurt and sadness. I am trying my best to deal with PTSD but with continuing abnormal behavior from my son and others, it just feels endlessly hopeless. I don't understand and I can't make believe he doesn't exist. And my late sister's husband and I argued in the Spring and now he demands an apology or I'm not invited to holiday family gatherings. I am absolutely not apologizing and he doesn't reach out to talk and reach a stalemate so I've been banned - my sister would be apoplectic. And it makes my mom feel stressed and sad. So I'm estranged from everyone but my mother - it hurts and I am powerless over the actions of others. My ex and co. really messed up my son - my baby is so fucked up - I can't believe it's still going on and now I am scared for him due to his choices. And when do I work on me? I don't know. I can't figure out how to separate being a mother from who I am - I'm screwed. So I went there and it ends this way. Hope you are doing okay, hedoinst. Oh, just celebrated 20 years - I should feel proud, but I don't feel anything.

I'm sorry that this is how you're feeling. The accomplishment of 20 years still stands, regardless of how you feel about it in this moment. It is still there for you to take pride in when you are feeling up to that.

Agreed with this wise woman.

Nancy, just feel as you can. I've found numbness is countered with waves of over-feeling; it's almost unavoidable and sometimes too much on either end, but hell, you must look after yourself too because I believe that there are shades of balances. Sometimes out of nowhere.

They're necessary and may be fleeting, but are precious and valuable.

23scidoo

njnancy said:

23scidoo said:

Relief..finally this shit day is over..

Hi Scidoo! Glad you are done with a crap day - relax, take it easy...

Thank you Nancy..it was really bad..

northerndragon

Tired, sore and so jacked! Can't wait to do it all again tonight!

JWPearl

great had plenty of sleep

vogonpoetbythelake

oh so thank full of every party... i may have missed or not....the thread has kept me aligned in bliss.. and taken me to palaces in the world overwrought..small dens amid galexies basking in one son...forgetting the daughters with hope there are none? left to devices of tapping out time....the boys are left with no one in space to rhyme...

InHiding80

Relieved that it was a record not playing that was the problem and not the player being broken.

I just got both UYI albums from Guns N Roses and for some reason side 3 of the first one won't play which is a bummer since that side has November freaking Rain to start it off.

hedonist

vogonpoetbythelake said:

oh so thank full of every party... i may have missed or not....the thread has kept me aligned in bliss.. and taken me to palaces in the world overwrought..small dens amid galexies basking in one son...forgetting the daughters with hope there are none? left to devices of tapping out time....the boys are left with no one in space to rhyme...