Diary of A D.O.E.F.; The World In My Eye...

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  • Godfather.
    Godfather. Posts: 12,504
    hedonist wrote: »
    Fuck that, GF. We're talking bear-hug territory!

    WH, no need to thank anyone. It's all - to refer to the old board incarnation - Synergy.

    And, thanks to you for baring (and bearing) your scars and wounds - and perspective through healing.

    Keep letting it out, and here's to your continued Release.

    you are correct my friend !
    we have been thinking or really are moving away from Cali in the next year or so depending when the plant I work closes and the pictures WH posted look like a place we'd like to live,,it's beautiful !


    Godfather.

  • whispering hands
    whispering hands Under your skin Posts: 13,527
    edited February 2015
    Colorado is gorgeous! Just beware of Colorado Springs... The revolving hub of miscellaneous drivers coming from every fucking where makes for frustrating commutes. But I try to watch out for the idiots out there.. Keep them safe til they learn how to drive... Sad I even have to say that.. Other than that, it is a tremendously beautiful place to
    Live! I love it here!
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  • whispering hands
    whispering hands Under your skin Posts: 13,527
    edited February 2015
    Shhht! Forward, Self, Forward!!

    So in doing my research for schools through which to renew or relearn all my vet tech stuff, I have found a couple of other schools. I want one where I can take my boards, and get back into the Association of CVTs again.. And begin to rebuild my life. No stupid pipe dreams, but something that is doable and sustains me in life. I don't need a lot. I just want something where I can support a comfy but tiny life. I plan on doing a minimalist life. I was happiest, and AM happiest when I have very few possessions. I want a dog. But I am grateful for the time I have to study my kitty. He is very smart and is learning to listen like a dog! Lol.
    He is also reminding me to take time to just live in the moment, slow down.. Look around, and enjoy my surroundings. I feel like I am moving again...

    When I was in school originally for Animal Behavioral Sciences, I had a course in which we discussed mental imbalance in animals, and temperment disorders.. And the only real cure for nuerosis in an animal, is to get their brain to move forward. The most automatic trigger it to get them to focus on MOVING forward, physically. And now that I am forcing myself to face my passed fears, and tackle this mission of going back to school, I can see how that is relieving to us humans as well. I am getting back into the focus of being responsible, and functioning human being in the real world again. It has been a long time since I've been brave enough to go do this shit again. I am partly excited, and have my feelers out, but I'm mostly optimistic. Yet there is still a piece inside that shivers... I tremble at the thought of failure.. But I also know now what I didn't know then..I guess it is a normal healthy fear.. A caution of sorts.. But in the long run, I know I just need to get back in there and I'll work it out.. But whew.. So much stimuli!! It's so overshelming to me. So much information.. And not just curricular information, but human information.. Scents, energies, attitudes.. I have to learn how to tune all that background info out.. But it's not easy.. I can hear shit I shouldn't smell things k shouldn't.. It's crazy and insanely overwhelming.. But I'm looking forward to moving forward.. Just one little step.. But each adds up.. One step, two step... Forward.. Just keep moving forward, and everything will be as it is supposed go be..And never forget to stay in the moment.. Never lose sight of the here and now in search of the future.. And most of all.. Just Breathe.. ( that's about the most you'll get outta me, as to a quote from that song..)
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  • TalonTedd
    TalonTedd Toronto Posts: 835
    good for you Whispering hands. I found a lot of inspiration in your story and I wish you all the best with your endeavors. I am sure you will make a superb animal whisperer. I think you are right to let the past lay and set your goals for the future. Don't let the backround noise distract you from your path, but don't tune it out all together. You may hear some really good stuff. Speaking of really good stuff; here is a song dedication...........Animal!

    Torture from you to me
    Abducted from the street
    you think I wont come around
    seed of faith sprouted
    I won't be held down
    I'd rather be
    I'd rather be with
    I'd rather be with an Animal

    In joyous part
    I remember when, yeah. I swore I knew everything, oh yeah.
  • whispering hands
    whispering hands Under your skin Posts: 13,527
    Thank you!! Perfect song too!
  • whispering hands
    whispering hands Under your skin Posts: 13,527
    Toss, Turn; Repeat...

    So I can't sleep. All night I've been having weird dreams about school. Guess it's nerves. But I hate not sleeping. I don't want to be tired and worn out to go talk to these people. So here I sit, listening to Riot Act....trying to soothe my crumpled nerves. I don't think I ever thought of myself as a really sensitive person.. But I just believe after all the crap I have been through, that I became ultra aware of how truly devastating life can be. It has to be, because I remember being nervous when I did my application interview for UC Davis, but I also remember being confident in my experience too. This time is different, I'm 41 now, and rather old to be restarting this profession. However I truly believe that this is what I am supposed to be doing in life. I really don't require much to be happy.. I just want enough to payy own way, and to be making a valuable difference with what I am doing. Is that being greedy? I hope not.
    I know I'm rambling on, but I am just trying to get all this crap in my head OUT, so maybe I can get an hour or more's sleep. It really is frustrating not being able to sleep. I'm jealous as fuck of my sister Melissa, who can lay her head on a pillow and be asleep, guckin wish it was that easy.. But my brain never shuts up.. It's like my brain is in hyperdrive 24/7. I wish there was a way to harness that...? Hmm. So, so far I am trying to think of things that will make me sleepy... I've read the end of two books I was almost done with, finished my prerequisite school's application and Grant apps, and read four chapters in the Bible.. Still awake... Phhhht. If only it weren't so early... Maybe I'll just get up and get a shower.. Start my day off early. Ok that's what I'm going to do.. Can't fight insomnia.. Might as well utilize it to get some stuff done!
  • whispering hands
    whispering hands Under your skin Posts: 13,527
    Think I need to cover the homeless people situation here!! So I'mma work on putting that together.. But first I want to show ya'll where I work! So I'll be gathering some pics for that segment today at work!
  • whispering hands
    whispering hands Under your skin Posts: 13,527
    Extreme Bargains.. Kitché nook in the Springs...

    Ok.. So there's some really cool pics in this chapter! This a blessing, a real God send when it comes to a job, and a really great set of people to work for. It's a family owned and run business. They have been in business for just over twenty years. The craziest part is, that over those 20 years they've had to relocate @ 4 different locations throughout the Springs. Now... Let me first explain, that Colorado Springs is one of the most fucked up, swear they designed the city on acid, sorta city when it comes to road structure, city lay out, designation of place and property zoning.. Etc..... ( BUT to their credit.. This was the first city in the US, to be a full on electricity based unit. They were the first full fledged town to have electricity.. Shops, homes, schools etc. mind you.. Other people HAD electricity in the US.. We were just the first full fledged TOWN; at that time to be RUN with it.) also Nicholi Tesla got kicked out of COS, for creating an earthquake here while studying magnetic propulsion induced by elctromagnetic static fields!! So..... Some interesting history here, STILL the most fucked street, lay out, zone designation, highway structures.. They literally built this fucking town around military bases, then smunched it together into one city when when the military populations melded eventually.. So yeah, no one " planned" this city, they just fucking "made it happen.." So now that it's a full on city, we pay the price of hurried growth, with no constructive planning in place...That having been said.. This business has moved to four unique and a couple of obscure locations here in COS. BUT.. They are so friendly, family and customer oriented [owners], that their customer base has followed them all over the city!! We are always getting people coming in saying, " OMG, I finally found you guys again!!" It's a trip, but definitely a testament to the kind of service, and friendly atmosphere you are welcomed with when you come into this store.

    So... Let me explain the store, and then I'll show you all the cool shot I get to play around with all day! Lol it's what you call a Salvage store. It's kind of like a thrift store of sorts.. But we sell groceries of dry and canned stock sorts. In all actuality, what this place is, is a brilliant mind taking heaps of advantage of a wasteful situation, and making it profitable!! Ok so let me explain that a bit better. When grocery chains hit the sell by date in foods, they throw them out. Or they used to. But people like my boss John that have that unique money master mind in business senses, see that and are wise enough to know that those dates are a rotation movement ploy. That food isn't bad... It still has six months to a year shelf life left.. The stores just constant move product, so it appears, at all times to be current and 'fresh', which in itself is a brilliant master minded ploy! So somewhere along the line, these people , John and his like, began to bid on boxes of throw away items. We get them, root through them item by item, weed out the stuff that really is bad, and process ( transaction not handling) them, and sell them. Same thing with LP ( loss prevention) boxes from big name clothing stores etc. He also has an eBay and Amazon store accounts. So we ship, receive, and resell everything!!! Smart right??? So that's the store.. Now.. HERE's the store... It's so much fun working here!!
    When you pull into the south parking lot, looking west.. This is what you see. Pike's Peak.
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    East..
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    The sign truck.. Out front.
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    One door, two door...
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    STORE!!!
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    So... That is where I work!! My bosses rock!! And I love getting up and coming to work for the very first time in YEARS!! Now, I am personally inviting anyone who ends up here in Colorado Springa, to come visit us! Ask me on here, or look em up on FB! But come say hi!!!
    We look forward to meeting you!!
  • TalonTedd
    TalonTedd Toronto Posts: 835
    RIP Severed whispering hands. Until the resurrection.
    I remember when, yeah. I swore I knew everything, oh yeah.
  • rollings
    rollings unknown Posts: 7,127
    I hear ya. I can't believe hands was banned. this place is a worse place , not better, as a result of all the bans. so what good are they? this place would and has been a cool hangout if it weren't so strictly policed.
    For Eddie being so outspoken politically , how ironic that the pearl jam communisty right under his nose goes so unnoticed.
  • TalonTedd
    TalonTedd Toronto Posts: 835
    Thats the confounding part. This is a ROCK bands' fan club. I can understand the need to keep some level of decorum and I am completely in the dark as to what went down,but she is such a good member and this is a rock band's fan club. It should be like anarchy all the time. And you're right EV has told Dick Cheney to go fuck himself on numerous occasions and then some. And whats with the Scarlet letter on her avatar. Its like a police badge saying "we are in controll here", its a bit disconcerting. Hopefully cooler heads prevail. I'm going to start a petition. Hey if the west Memphis three can get a second chance.....
    I remember when, yeah. I swore I knew everything, oh yeah.
  • whispering hands
    whispering hands Under your skin Posts: 13,527
    Awww. :-)
  • TalonTedd
    TalonTedd Toronto Posts: 835
    hey. Welcome back. They canned my petition but it worked. You are resurected.
    I remember when, yeah. I swore I knew everything, oh yeah.
  • whispering hands
    whispering hands Under your skin Posts: 13,527
    You guys are awesome!! Thank you.
  • kce8
    kce8 Posts: 1,636
    Hey!!! Welcome back whispering hands!

    This is soo great! Best thing happened today....til now!!!
  • whispering hands
    whispering hands Under your skin Posts: 13,527
    You guys are the Best!!
  • Aafke
    Aafke Posts: 1,219
    Welcome back Whispering Hands!
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    "The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed".- Carl Jung.
    "Art does not reproduce what we see; rather, it makes us see."- Paul Klee
  • whispering hands
    whispering hands Under your skin Posts: 13,527
    Aafke said:

    Welcome back Whispering Hands!

    Thank you!
  • Gillycw
    Gillycw Sydney Posts: 524
    Good to see you here again :hug:
  • whispering hands
    whispering hands Under your skin Posts: 13,527
    Gillycw said:

    Good to see you here again :hug:

    Thank you! Working on another entry for here as soon as I can get more pics together.

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