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  • Aafke
    Aafke Posts: 1,219
    bowerymission said:

    I am enjoying this thread, looking forward to more

    Thank you! Work keeps me quite occupied at the moment, but when I get more free time, I'll make some more...

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    "The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed".- Carl Jung.
    "Art does not reproduce what we see; rather, it makes us see."- Paul Klee
  • i_lov_it
    i_lov_it Perth, Western Australia Posts: 4,007
    edited October 2014
    Nice artwork and very Good writing...Keep up the good work Aafke :)
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  • Aafke
    Aafke Posts: 1,219
    i_lov_it said:

    Nice artwork and very Good writing...Keep up the good work Aafke :)

    Thanks... I will, when I have some space in my busy agenda.
    Waves_zps6b028461.jpg
    "The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed".- Carl Jung.
    "Art does not reproduce what we see; rather, it makes us see."- Paul Klee
  • Aafke
    Aafke Posts: 1,219
    Thunderstorm

    On the outside
    I have little victories
    But beneath the surf
    Thunder roars
    Waves are building beneath
    Higher and higher
    Would it be easy to drift along?
    To give in?
    To give up the appearance
    To be normal, to be sane?
    To afraid to get overwhelmed and drown
    Trying to stay on top
    But inside the walls are crumbling
    Crumbling under waves of tears
    Tears that I’ll never show you
    Cause I’m in hiding
    In hiding from myself
    If I keep it all inside
    I can convince you it isn’t there.
    If you believe it, maybe I can believe it myself
    But the walls are crumbling
    The thunder roars
    Lightning strikes
    The waves are building
    I’m drowning
    To keep on top I have to let it show
    Cause on my own I can’t do it no more...

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    "The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed".- Carl Jung.
    "Art does not reproduce what we see; rather, it makes us see."- Paul Klee
  • donnaruhl
    donnaruhl Posts: 2,157
    Aafke wrote: »
    History repeats itself

    Why does history repeat itself?
    Don’t know why… I just know it does
    Cause my mom did hide her insecurities to survive
    I transformed this skill into a real art
    Always playing strong and competent
    I let my marriage fail, by doing this
    My ex and I couldn’t speak out
    Couldn’t share…
    Our feelings building up inside
    We fought about the daily concerns
    But the stuff witch really mattered was left out
    Now I am left lonely and insecure
    This way of dealing with my feelings
    I can barely manage it this way
    But what I can’t stand
    Is seeing my son deal with it the same way
    When anger, sadness or insecurity
    Overwhelms him, the shades go down in his head
    He puts a dark mask over his face
    Avoiding eye contact
    Unable to speak out
    The confusing feelings inside
    No longer able to make contact in any way
    I see his suffering
    It frightens me
    I know how heavy this burden is
    By burring your feelings deep inside
    Firmly locked away behind bars inside your head
    The burden gains weight, and the loneliness grows
    But how can I show this to him?
    I can’t even do it myself?
    I wanna break this chain
    I wanna break with this history
    But how do I do this?

    You'll find that once you break the cycle,and step away from the shadow's, You'll find that you've spent more energy hiding,than you did,by letting go..A weight will be lifted,you won't be exhausted anymore.And when you smile,You'll mean it.And your son will smile with you. I don't know of what faith you hold,but my sister told me once, too "Let Go,Let God" It pains me to see you in such turmoil,But excited to know that you've taken the first step without even knowing."Acknowledgement" That is the beginning of better things to come.
  • Aafke
    Aafke Posts: 1,219
    Thanks you donnaruhl. i know all that, but knowing and feeling are two entire different things for me.
    Waves_zps6b028461.jpg
    "The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed".- Carl Jung.
    "Art does not reproduce what we see; rather, it makes us see."- Paul Klee
  • donnaruhl
    donnaruhl Posts: 2,157
    What you think may be a learned trait,could very well be hereditary.It doesn't mean you're flawed in any way.It means that some things are beyond your control.
  • Aafke
    Aafke Posts: 1,219
    Most things are beyond my control, I've knows this almost all my life... Doesn't mean i've to like it, does it?
    Waves_zps6b028461.jpg
    "The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed".- Carl Jung.
    "Art does not reproduce what we see; rather, it makes us see."- Paul Klee
  • donnaruhl
    donnaruhl Posts: 2,157
    No,Not at all. I didn't mean it that way.Do you have a good rapport with your Doctor? You could ask his or her opinion on how it is you've felt this way for so long.They might just have some answers for you,and some options as well.
  • Aafke
    Aafke Posts: 1,219
    Well, the only option he had for me, has just crushed before my eyes, so therefor this depression...
    Waves_zps6b028461.jpg
    "The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed".- Carl Jung.
    "Art does not reproduce what we see; rather, it makes us see."- Paul Klee
  • donnaruhl
    donnaruhl Posts: 2,157
    You can P.M me if you'd like.I'd really like to know what he said to crush everything.Maybe you could get a second opinion. You can look me up on F.B. under my name. Donna Ruhl
  • Aafke
    Aafke Posts: 1,219
    edited January 2015
    Hey Donna, I might P.M you, some time later this week. Now it's time for me to go to sleep. I have a bussy week in front of me. So sleep, well...
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    Waves_zps6b028461.jpg
    "The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed".- Carl Jung.
    "Art does not reproduce what we see; rather, it makes us see."- Paul Klee
  • donnaruhl
    donnaruhl Posts: 2,157
    You must live far away from me. Have a wonderful week, sleep well my friend. :)

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