Thanks to all and an update on my wife
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paysonites wrote:Good Day,
Thank you everybody for the support. Again, The kids have always been okay..
If you knew us personally then it wouldn't be a topic. On the other hand PJ is the one
you all should be concerned about. He seems to have a slipper fetish and Shawna's
about ready to feed him to the coyotes.
Just kidding..
We hope you all have a great rest of your week. Thank you again for your concern.
We are definitely riding along the high road and we are starting to come out of this funk.
Take care of yourselves,
John and Shawna
Feed PJ to the coyotes!?!
Gave me a good laugh. I would rather he chew on my shoes than pee on them.The love he receives is the love that is saved0 -
F Me In The Brain wrote:paysonites wrote:Good Day,
Thank you everybody for the support. Again, The kids have always been okay..
If you knew us personally then it wouldn't be a topic. On the other hand PJ is the one
you all should be concerned about. He seems to have a slipper fetish and Shawna's
about ready to feed him to the coyotes. Just kidding..
We hope you all have a great rest of your week. Thank you again for your concern.
We are definitely riding along the high road and we are starting to come out of this funk.
Take care of yourselves,
John and Shawna
Feed PJ to the coyotes!?!
Gave me a good laugh. I would rather he chew on my shoes than pee on them.
Matter of opinion buddy Shall we take a poll?
PJ's favorite song is River of deceit. (After the news paper swishes his butt). You can honestly hear him sing "My pain is self chosen..Yeah"
Best wishes for the best of day's you guy's...How I chose to feel.. Is how I am..I won't lose my faith it's an inside job today.
John and Shawna0 -
love!!all you need is love.."...Dimitri...He talks to me...'.."The Ghost of Greece..".
"..That's One Happy Fuckin Ghost.."
“..That came up on the Pillow Case...This is for the Greek, With Our Apologies.....”0 -
Helloo John & Shawna
Been awhile since I was here & had some catching up to do. You all have been in my thoughts often.
On December 22, 2012 at 5:25 am the phone rang and everything changed. It was my first day off & I was exhausted so when the phone rang I thought I was dreaming. I was not.
My daughter was on the phone & whispering "Mom? Mom?" With my heart thundering in my ears she proceeded to tell me her fiance had beat her up & kept her hostage in the bathroom for hours. And he had a knife.
For a second, my brain, my heart & soul could not comprehend this. The connection broke.
The next few moments were a blur & I will always thank the universe that my husband was outside with the dog & hadn't left for work yet. We were on our way in seconds, my phone in hand dialing 911. Then silence as all we could do was race towards their house 25 minutes away.
No answer from my daughter & for the next ten minutes as we drove in complete silence through the murky early morning darkness I feared my life was snuffed out. Surely I would feel it, my only child gone? I felt my heart would burst it was thumping so hard or was it my husbands' heart thumping so?
And then, a text asking me to call her. I did & she pretended it was me calling about my Gram to throw him off the scent. As we sped closer I heard it play out on the phone. The arrival of the police, her cries, me telling her to open the door, the scuffle....we pulled up & she was alive. That was all that mattered at that moment.
Her & their two little ones were alive & in disbelief I looked on as a person I watched grow up & hoped to become the man I thought he could be was lead away in cuffs. Life became different for awhile.
Well, that was kind of cathartic. I haven't even told my close friends this but I feel I can here, it will stay here. And I haven't really ever wrote it down or spoke of it in such depth. We've been too busy getting her & the kids settled. Everything involved has been overwhelming, financially, physically, emotionally. We were planning a wedding & then......
Love gets you through & builds strength just when you think you are spent. You shake your fist at the unfairness of it & then you carry on. Hanging on by your fingertips, feeling like letting go but you don't, you cannot. Why? Because people love you & you love them & your valid, important & have a pulsing need to enjoy the one life we are given. That's why.0 -
kellanazzie wrote:Helloo John & Shawna
Been awhile since I was here & had some catching up to do. You all have been in my thoughts often.
On December 22, 2012 at 5:25 am the phone rang and everything changed. It was my first day off & I was exhausted so when the phone rang I thought I was dreaming. I was not.
My daughter was on the phone & whispering "Mom? Mom?" With my heart thundering in my ears she proceeded to tell me her fiance had beat her up & kept her hostage in the bathroom for hours. And he had a knife.
For a second, my brain, my heart & soul could not comprehend this. The connection broke.
The next few moments were a blur & I will always thank the universe that my husband was outside with the dog & hadn't left for work yet. We were on our way in seconds, my phone in hand dialing 911. Then silence as all we could do was race towards their house 25 minutes away.
No answer from my daughter & for the next ten minutes as we drove in complete silence through the murky early morning darkness I feared my life was snuffed out. Surely I would feel it, my only child gone? I felt my heart would burst it was thumping so hard or was it my husbands' heart thumping so?
And then, a text asking me to call her. I did & she pretended it was me calling about my Gram to throw him off the scent. As we sped closer I heard it play out on the phone. The arrival of the police, her cries, me telling her to open the door, the scuffle....we pulled up & she was alive. That was all that mattered at that moment.
Her & their two little ones were alive & in disbelief I looked on as a person I watched grow up & hoped to become the man I thought he could be was lead away in cuffs. Life became different for awhile.
Well, that was kind of cathartic. I haven't even told my close friends this but I feel I can here, it will stay here. And I haven't really ever wrote it down or spoke of it in such depth. We've been too busy getting her & the kids settled. Everything involved has been overwhelming, financially, physically, emotionally. We were planning a wedding & then......
Love gets you through & builds strength just when you think you are spent. You shake your fist at the unfairness of it & then you carry on. Hanging on by your fingertips, feeling like letting go but you don't, you cannot. Why? Because people love you & you love them & your valid, important & have a pulsing need to enjoy the one life we are given. That's why.
Holy crap! Thank goodness your daughter is now safe. My prayers for her and you as you all move forward from this horrific incident. Better days are ahead, I promise.ELITIST FUK0 -
kellanazzie wrote:Helloo John & Shawna
Been awhile since I was here & had some catching up to do. You all have been in my thoughts often.
On December 22, 2012 at 5:25 am the phone rang and everything changed. It was my first day off & I was exhausted so when the phone rang I thought I was dreaming. I was not.
My daughter was on the phone & whispering "Mom? Mom?" With my heart thundering in my ears she proceeded to tell me her fiance had beat her up & kept her hostage in the bathroom for hours. And he had a knife.
For a second, my brain, my heart & soul could not comprehend this. The connection broke.
The next few moments were a blur & I will always thank the universe that my husband was outside with the dog & hadn't left for work yet. We were on our way in seconds, my phone in hand dialing 911. Then silence as all we could do was race towards their house 25 minutes away.
No answer from my daughter & for the next ten minutes as we drove in complete silence through the murky early morning darkness I feared my life was snuffed out. Surely I would feel it, my only child gone? I felt my heart would burst it was thumping so hard or was it my husbands' heart thumping so?
And then, a text asking me to call her. I did & she pretended it was me calling about my Gram to throw him off the scent. As we sped closer I heard it play out on the phone. The arrival of the police, her cries, me telling her to open the door, the scuffle....we pulled up & she was alive. That was all that mattered at that moment.
Her & their two little ones were alive & in disbelief I looked on as a person I watched grow up & hoped to become the man I thought he could be was lead away in cuffs. Life became different for awhile.
Well, that was kind of cathartic. I haven't even told my close friends this but I feel I can here, it will stay here. And I haven't really ever wrote it down or spoke of it in such depth. We've been too busy getting her & the kids settled. Everything involved has been overwhelming, financially, physically, emotionally. We were planning a wedding & then......
Love gets you through & builds strength just when you think you are spent. You shake your fist at the unfairness of it & then you carry on. Hanging on by your fingertips, feeling like letting go but you don't, you cannot. Why? Because people love you & you love them & your valid, important & have a pulsing need to enjoy the one life we are given. That's why.
That is an incredibly harrowing story.
Your daughter is so lucky to have been able to sneak the phone call and have you spring into action the way you did.
I can't imagine how terrified you and husband must have been, not to mention your daughter!
Thank goodness everyone is ok.0 -
paysonites wrote:Good Day,
Thank you everybody for the support. Again, The kids have always been okay..
If you knew us personally then it wouldn't be a topic. On the other hand PJ is the one
you all should be concerned about. He seems to have a slipper fetish and Shawna's
about ready to feed him to the coyotes. Just kidding..
We hope you all have a great rest of your week. Thank you again for your concern.
We are definitely riding along the high road and we are starting to come out of this funk.
Take care of yourselves,
John and Shawna
The joy in your words shines through loud and clear.....
I'm so glad everything is going well and getting back on track.
Just in time for spring!0 -
SD48277 wrote:Holy crap! Thank goodness your daughter is now safe. My prayers for her and you as you all move forward from this horrific incident. Better days are ahead, I promise.
This was so far outside of what I could ever have imagined. Surreal but we have an amazing family & the wagons circled. He has decided to plead not guilty so court is in our future but it's okay. We have moved on, accepted what we need to do & are forever grateful my girl & her boys are alive. Thank you very much, support from here can really go a very long way in the healing process.ItIsAllAboutPJ wrote:That is an incredibly harrowing story.
Your daughter is so lucky to have been able to sneak the phone call and have you spring into action the way you did.
I can't imagine how terrified you and husband must have been, not to mention your daughter!
Thank goodness everyone is ok.
In catching up here my heart sank & then relief that things have taken a better turn. Life can really smack you down but knowing people care takes one hell of a load off.
John & Shawna, you & your family were never far from my thoughts
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A little hello on your birthday, John.
It's good to see that your life seems to have taken a turn and that things seem to be shaping up! Best of luck in your new job and hope the landscaping adverts bring you some clients!
Well... except for PJ, that is.... No 'shaping up' for him, it would seem!
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happy birthday Johm..much love!!!!!!!"...Dimitri...He talks to me...'.."The Ghost of Greece..".
"..That's One Happy Fuckin Ghost.."
“..That came up on the Pillow Case...This is for the Greek, With Our Apologies.....”0 -
dimitrispearljam wrote:happy birthday Johm..much love!!!!!!!
Thank you so so much...After having a very long first week with this new job. Matter a fact I had a 21 hour day yesterday. This is the first time I have been able to get on here to check in with my friends. We thank you for all of your love and support. We finally were able to submit a invoice so in 30 days we will have our first check with this company. This job is going to save our house and our sanity. We are so excited about it all. Shawna struggled quite a bit on our drives all through AZ. but at the same time has a beautiful shine to her which hasn't been seen for some time. This next 30 days will be our biggest financial struggle we have ever gone through. So we ask that you all send us your best vibes, wishes and prayers that we will figure out how to make it through.
Their have been a few of you that have reached out to us directly and we want you to know that we have been thinking of you all week here. We are very touched by your words and after a day or two of survival of this complete exhaustion we will be back again. We are thinking of you in a very special way and know that you are in our hearts and thoughts. Again, thank you for your support and love it it felt each and everyday.
Much love,
John, Shawna , Kolbi , Dorian and our little PJ :shifty: :-D John and Shawna0 -
So we ask that you all send us your best vibes, wishes and prayers that we will figure out how to make it through.
Thoughts sent.......
This is a good exhaustion and the excitement will get you through.
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paysonites wrote:dimitrispearljam wrote:happy birthday Johm..much love!!!!!!!
Thank you so so much...After having a very long first week with this new job. Matter a fact I had a 21 hour day yesterday. This is the first time I have been able to get on here to check in with my friends. We thank you for all of your love and support. We finally were able to submit a invoice so in 30 days we will have our first check with this company. This job is going to save our house and our sanity. We are so excited about it all. Shawna struggled quite a bit on our drives all through AZ. but at the same time has a beautiful shine to her which hasn't been seen for some time. This next 30 days will be our biggest financial struggle we have ever gone through. So we ask that you all send us your best vibes, wishes and prayers that we will figure out how to make it through.
Their have been a few of you that have reached out to us directly and we want you to know that we have been thinking of you all week here. We are very touched by your words and after a day or two of survival of this complete exhaustion we will be back again. We are thinking of you in a very special way and know that you are in our hearts and thoughts. Again, thank you for your support and love it it felt each and everyday.
Much love,
John, Shawna , Kolbi , Dorian and our little PJ :shifty: :-D
Awesome, so glad to hear that the work is going well and look forward to subsequent updates. Let me know if you have any needs I can help with in the meantime.
As stated in your Happy Birthday thread --- HAPPY BIRTHDAY! The love he receives is the love that is saved0 -
kellanazzie wrote:Helloo John & Shawna
Been awhile since I was here & had some catching up to do. You all have been in my thoughts often.
On December 22, 2012 at 5:25 am the phone rang and everything changed. It was my first day off & I was exhausted so when the phone rang I thought I was dreaming. I was not.
My daughter was on the phone & whispering "Mom? Mom?" With my heart thundering in my ears she proceeded to tell me her fiance had beat her up & kept her hostage in the bathroom for hours. And he had a knife.
For a second, my brain, my heart & soul could not comprehend this. The connection broke.
The next few moments were a blur & I will always thank the universe that my husband was outside with the dog & hadn't left for work yet. We were on our way in seconds, my phone in hand dialing 911. Then silence as all we could do was race towards their house 25 minutes away.
No answer from my daughter & for the next ten minutes as we drove in complete silence through the murky early morning darkness I feared my life was snuffed out. Surely I would feel it, my only child gone? I felt my heart would burst it was thumping so hard or was it my husbands' heart thumping so?
And then, a text asking me to call her. I did & she pretended it was me calling about my Gram to throw him off the scent. As we sped closer I heard it play out on the phone. The arrival of the police, her cries, me telling her to open the door, the scuffle....we pulled up & she was alive. That was all that mattered at that moment.
Her & their two little ones were alive & in disbelief I looked on as a person I watched grow up & hoped to become the man I thought he could be was lead away in cuffs. Life became different for awhile.
Well, that was kind of cathartic. I haven't even told my close friends this but I feel I can here, it will stay here. And I haven't really ever wrote it down or spoke of it in such depth. We've been too busy getting her & the kids settled. Everything involved has been overwhelming, financially, physically, emotionally. We were planning a wedding & then......
Love gets you through & builds strength just when you think you are spent. You shake your fist at the unfairness of it & then you carry on. Hanging on by your fingertips, feeling like letting go but you don't, you cannot. Why? Because people love you & you love them & your valid, important & have a pulsing need to enjoy the one life we are given. That's why.
I've read this twice now and each time I've shuttered in disbelief of how cruel the world can be. To take someone in as your own and then to have to mourn the loss of it all. I am so sorry for you and your family. I can't even imagine how much you all have had to of gone through then and I'm sure still. You never know what lies around the corner of life. Although you do know how important and sacred your loved ones are to you. That has been your blessing then and now Kelly. How fortunate it is for you to have the closeness of your daughter and the little ones still by your side. The one good thing that has come out of this is the "love". You must mean so much to your daughter. For her to rely on you in her darkest moments is a tribute to the love that you both have for each other. Things could of went a whole different direction but it is the love that has gotten you both through it all. It is the love that gave you the direction you so needed. You are such a inspiration to me and I'm sure to many who are close to you. To have had the strength during those tense moments to have the stars align perfectly. So that it all worked out and you could be there in the best ways possible. You are such a strong and loving person. I can't tell you enough how much sharing your experience meant to me. I feel really honored and blessed.
Here I've had my struggles with seeing and feeling love in my personal life lately. It's not that it hasn't been here all along but when you go through hardships unfortunately sometimes you stray from what is right in front of you. Your experience is a heart opener if you know what I mean and I truly thank you for sharing it with me. I think sometimes we have to go through turmoil to begin to see again. It doesn't make it right at all but as long as it brings better things into focus for you or for the one's closest to you. Than one can see the light of life again. I'm so happy that all of that is over for you. I hope that things are better. Your daughter is so lucky to have such a wonderful and strong mother. We hope only the best for you and yours.
Many blessings headed your way...
All of our love,
John, Shawna and our boy'sJohn and Shawna0 -
John & Shawna....Thank you. Simple words with so much meaning behind them. You brought tears to my eyes with your kindness to me in the face of the great suffering you & your loved ones have endured. In sharing we connect, we feel empowered by knowing others' can & do get through some really tough moments. I had hoped to give you some strength that no matter how dark a day, how cloudy it seems, the sun will peek through again & one day will shine bright. I wish very much for this to happen for you all. Inspiration comes in many forms & I have learned to embrace the smallest moments & gifts. John & Shawna, you are both an unending source of the spirit & strength we all strive for.
We are doing alright over here. I see my daughter happy. The caterpillar has emerged from her cocoon & she sees the world from outside of the restrictions that were placed on her from an abusive relationship. She has learned her worth & will never settle for less again. I'm so proud of her.
Freedom & peace my friends.0 -
kellanazzie wrote:John & Shawna....Thank you. Simple words with so much meaning behind them. You brought tears to my eyes with your kindness to me in the face of the great suffering you & your loved ones have endured. In sharing we connect, we feel empowered by knowing others' can & do get through some really tough moments. I had hoped to give you some strength that no matter how dark a day, how cloudy it seems, the sun will peek through again & one day will shine bright. I wish very much for this to happen for you all. Inspiration comes in many forms & I have learned to embrace the smallest moments & gifts. John & Shawna, you are both an unending source of the spirit & strength we all strive for.
We are doing alright over here. I see my daughter happy. The caterpillar has emerged from her cocoon & she sees the world from outside of the restrictions that were placed on her from an abusive relationship. She has learned her worth & will never settle for less again. I'm so proud of her.
Freedom & peace my friends.
Thank you so much for your kind and inspiring update to things. I'm so glad to hear that your daughter is doing better. I'm sure it's going to take quite some time. I'm just glad that theirs such a wonderful support chain for you, her and your family. That is so important..Without support life can be much more difficult as we all know.
On a different note I'm asking for the good vibes to be sent over our way again..Today has been rough.
Our little one has strep throat and a relentless fever. Shawna's pain levels seemed to have sky rocketed since last night. To top things off, I went to the doctor today and there is a chance that I broke a disk in my neck. Tomorrow I'm getting an ex-ray and I'll get the final word on Thursday. I hope it's nothing but a sprain or a pulled muscle at this point.
We did go to Phoenix and spoke with my new supervisor over at Safe Guard and within a day or two I'll be servicing 10-11 properties a day. So there is some good news through our mess. I just can't give up the hope that life will turn around for us. I refuse to believe that we were put on this Earth to suffer. No matter what things have got to get better at some point. We just need to believe that it's not that far off.
Best wishes to you and your family Kelly and our family will be thinking of you in a very special way tonight.
Many blessings to you and yours.
John, Shawna, Kolbi and DorianJohn and Shawna0 -
Sending good vibes that all goes well at the doctor's tomorrow.ELITIST FUK0
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Hi John, sorry to hear about stumbles yesterday -- hoping that Dorian and Shawna are feeling better and that your pain subsides and it turns out to be a muscle or sprain rather than something more serious causing more pain and/or messing with your new opportunities.
Will be thinking of your visit and hoping for good news!
B.The love he receives is the love that is saved0 -
The best of vibes sent John. Big hugs to Dorian & Shawna.
Hoping for a relief-filled Dr visit & x-ray!!
Just believe. You all have been through so much & are still
strong & loving.
Hope. Sometimes it's all we have but it's enough.0 -
Just a little hello and hoping things have been shaping up for you guys.0
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