Borderline Eating Disorder

urbanhippie

It's easy to use food as a form of control in your life. At the end of last year I was going through a hard time at uni and my marriage was failing and I used food to cope with it. Not comfort eating, the opposite. I called it 'comfort starving'. I used to challenge myself to see how long I could go without eating. I went for days without consuming anything but cappucino's.
It wasn't til I was sitting in a class about teenage mental health issues discussing eating disorders that I realised how fucked up my thinking was. It was kind of like not stepping on the cracks in the pavement when you're a kid. 'If I go without eating, nothing bad will happen'. Crazy. And I don't think it would have happened if I hadn't been overweight already.

I'm in a better place now, but even now when I get stressed, the first thing I notice is my eating going screwy again and I have to make the effort to drag myself back from going there again.

I find that if I focus more on WHAT I eat and don't worry too much about the amount, calories and such it's easier to manage and to feel good. Food should be a pleasure, to be enjoyed and savoured and you can't do that if you obsess about it.

HushBull

urbanhippie wrote:

but even now when I get stressed, the first thing I notice is my eating going screwy again .

I am right there with you on this one. Unconsciously , this is one of the first things that happens when I feel depressed or stressed to any great deal, I just stop eating. I would think,"fuck.... I haven't eaten in 48 hours." I still deal with this from time to time, but it's only because of external things in my life, ones I am trying to weed out presently.

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I would say the majority of the population (if we're talking U.S. anyways) has an eating disorder of some sort. In general, people don't have any real grasp on nutrition and what's important and what's not. People won't eat things like butter because "oooooOOOoo it's bad for ya", but they'll gobble up Cliff bars like there's no tomorrow because they're "organic". It's crazy.

There's tons of disorderly eating going on...we just don't have definitions for all the disorders...only a select few.

smithnic

If you think you have a problem, you do. That's pretty much how it goes.

HushBull

smithnic wrote:

If you think you have a problem, you do. That's pretty much how it goes.

Because everything is a clear cut case of yes & no. Yes? ... err, no.