When all day is shity...

halszka123

and You begin to think You are a shit too...

Today is the day for me.
In work I found I did something very wrong, and the consequences are baaad, not only for me. And I start to think that maybe I shouldn't do what I do, maybe it's better for animals if I quick veterinary? Or maybe everybody has sometimes problem like me, but maybe others know what to do with it?
Or maybe others don't care much about it? Or... maybe it's only me, others mybe are more perfect?
And because of this I think my life is nothing. Sometimes i feel like having no talents and skills, nothing to say important, just like dust. I know it will pass. But today I am down.

TrixieCat

That was so sad to read. :(
I am sorry you are feeling this way.
You are a vet? I am sure you make a difference everyday.
Sometimes things happen and surely you didn't do it on purpose.
Get some rest and think about it tomorrow.

Super Vedder

what did you do?

Jeremy1012

I'm assuming you made a bad decision with an animal that led to it coming to harm? If so, I'm no expert in veterinary surgery but that must happen sometimes right? It's got to be part of the job. You shouldn't beat yourself up over it. I'm sure you did your best and care a lot, otherwise you wouldn't be beating yourself over it. Everyone feels like this sometimes. The thing to do is tell yourself that you're doing a job that makes a difference and, whether or not you sometimes wonder if you're cut out for it, if you weren't doing it, somewhere, someone would be negatively effected by your absence.

halszka123

TrixieCat wrote:

That was so sad to read. :(
I am sorry you are feeling this way.
You are a vet? I am sure you make a difference everyday.
Sometimes things happen and surely you didn't do it on purpose.
Get some rest and think about it tomorrow.

Thanx for warm words.
You know, the hardest think is that i can't stop to think about it now. and believe me, I try.. maybe it will be better to drink calming tea (melissa) and go to sleep to not think...

halszka123

What did I do?
I operated two months ago a cat. The cat didn't react enough for anaesthetics (i gave her the dose of drugs llike for two and half cat!, but sometimes it's happen) and i was affraid of overdose, so I have to be hurry with the operation. Yes, I tried to do my best, but... today her owner let me know that her cat has a hernia - because of my operation. Sure I'm sorry! But it doesn't matter now. And yes i know - this is part of my job, I know that we all make mistakes, but now I feel I'm not good doctor.
I wish it'll never happen again, sometimes i think the responsibility is too big for me

Super Vedder

halszka123 wrote:

What did I do?
I operated two months ago a cat. The cat didn't react enough for anaesthetics (i gave her the dose of drugs llike for two and half cat!, but sometimes it's happen) and i was affraid of overdose, so I have to be hurry with the operation. Yes, I tried to do my best, but... today her owner let me know that her cat has a hernia - because of my operation. Sure I'm sorry! But it doesn't matter now. And yes i know - this is part of my job, I know that we all make mistakes, but now I feel I'm not good doctor.
I wish it'll never happen again, sometimes i think the responsibility is too big for me

But did the cat get the hernia "because" of your operation or was it something that could have just happened anyway and the owner was looking for someone to blame??? People can react and say bad things when they are looking for someone to blame, you do a very worthwhile job and im sure you are a wonderful vet and feel for you at this time. I hope you bounce back and get over this soon

share

Maybe the cat lifted something it shouldn't have lifted?
I hear the mice in Poland are huge.

It's obvious that you love what you do and you have the
animals best intentions and welfare at heart and that's all
an animal can hope for in a vet.
We all fuck up every now and again. The cat is probably alive
due to your expertise.

Prescribe a little catnip and tell it to call you in the morning.

Collin

Dobranoc (did I get that right?)

Look man, shitty things happen you have to take the good with the bad.

Don't worry about it too much. You'll make plenty of people happy... Just don't give up.

the wolf

NO !!! dont quit!!! people who love animals enough to FEEL what your feeling after something like this are the kind of people i want to work on my dogs if something goes wrong!!! you care, that is quite clear. it sucks, write it off as a bad day, and move on. you do way more good for people and their furry little family members then anything bad you could do.

i hope you feel better about this soon.

good luck my friend.

i admire what you do a great deal.

eyedclaar

Keep helpin' the cats, bro. I'm sure you have saved way more than you have harmed.

Fifthelement

Sorry to hear your feeling so low. I don't know if hernias are life threatening in a cat, but keep in mind the cat is alive to have a hernia. I hope that things are more clear for you tomorrow. Keep up the good work. As others have said, there are a lot of little critters in this world that need someone like you to care for them and to fix their hurts. Peace!

halszka123

Collin wrote:

Dobranoc (did I get that right?)

wow!
Yes, it's correct. U just wished me goodnight:)


Than You guys, everybody. I know U want me to feel better, and I really appreciate it. And somehow I am better.
I know - tomorrow is different day. I believe it won't hurt me so much (but other way i wish it would - just like punishment for pain of this cat - it would be more fair).
BTW. i'm sis, not bro:)(or maybe it's only a slang?)

Heineken Helen

the wolf wrote:

NO !!! dont quit!!! people who love animals enough to FEEL what your feeling after something like this are the kind of people i want to work on my dogs if something goes wrong!!! you care, that is quite clear. it sucks, write it off as a bad day, and move on. you do way more good for people and their furry little family members then anything bad you could do.

i hope you feel better about this soon.

good luck my friend.

i admire what you do a great deal.

I agree completely. It takes a special kinda person to take on the responsibilities you have. EVERYONE makes mistakes in our jobs, we don't want to but it happens. You're only human and are bound to make mistakes at times... doesn't make it any easier to deal with but you're doing your best and you care... keep up the good work

Collin

halszka123 wrote:

wow!
Yes, it's correct. U just wished me goodnight:)

Than You guys, everybody. I know U want me to feel better, and I really appreciate it. And somehow I am better.
I know - tomorrow is different day. I believe it won't hurt me so much (but other way i wish it would - just like punishment for pain of this cat - it would be more fair).

I know what I means. I only know a few Polish words; sklep, nowy, co, on/ona/ono, jitro?, woda and piwo... Ja jestem Collin(em)? And I might understand a few more but that's it!

You won't be able to save every animal. But you will be able to help so much more other animals and make so many people happy because of it! Focus on that!