Scared to sleep

Keiran
Keiran Posts: 393
edited October 2008 in All Encompassing Trip
Anyone ever been afraid to go to sleep because they are so depressed that the idea of slowing down and stopping and having to hear silence seems unbearable? Because when you stop the thought has a chance to creep out of its box and back into the front of your head. Even the sweet relief of sleep seems cruel because you know that tomorrow you will have to wake up and there it is - again. Only stronger - because it's almost like it gained strength and stamina from the rest you took. Sorry for the poor wording, I'm so tired and so filled with dread and I ramble.
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  • pretext
    pretext Posts: 1,294
    Yep. It's horrifying, especially because you're probably already exhausted, and that just builds on itself. For me, it doesn't go away quickly or without help. Talk to someone if you can, maybe even a doctor (psych, not GP) that can prescribe something short-term to help knock you out, so at least you can get some rest.
    Hope you got some sleep last night, and that you're feeling better today. Give a shout if you wanna talk.
  • chadwick
    chadwick up my ass Posts: 21,157
    Keiran wrote:
    Anyone ever been afraid to go to sleep because they are so depressed that the idea of slowing down and stopping and having to hear silence seems unbearable? Because when you stop the thought has a chance to creep out of its box and back into the front of your head. Even the sweet relief of sleep seems cruel because you know that tomorrow you will have to wake up and there it is - again. Only stronger - because it's almost like it gained strength and stamina from the rest you took. Sorry for the poor wording, I'm so tired and so filled with dread and I ramble.

    poor wording?
    where?

    i found many great wordings in here that would make for great poetry.
    example... even the sweet relief of sleep seems cruel.

    that is very good.
    i like that alot.

    you might wanna try writing sometime.
    hell, maybe you already write shit out.
    it helps.
    btw, good luck .
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  • urbanhippie
    urbanhippie Posts: 3,007
    Vodka.


    The trick is to drink enough of it that you forget what you were thinking about.
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  • OffHeGoes29
    OffHeGoes29 Posts: 1,240
    Can't sleep, clowns will eat me.....can't sleep, clowns will eat me
    BRING BACK THE WHALE
  • LikeAnOcean
    LikeAnOcean Posts: 7,718
    Meditation or alcohol..

    Meditation doesn't work right away, but over time it trains your brain to control your thoughts. They are just thoughts you are having that make you depressed. Nothing more. The more power you have over your brain, the easier you can erase anything negative.
  • iluvcats
    iluvcats Posts: 5,153
    LikeAnOcean wrote:
    They are just thoughts you are having that make you depressed. Nothing more. The more power you have over your brain, the easier you can erase anything negative.

    you rock!
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  • Nothingman54
    Nothingman54 Posts: 2,251
    Keiran wrote:
    Anyone ever been afraid to go to sleep because they are so depressed that the idea of slowing down and stopping and having to hear silence seems unbearable? Because when you stop the thought has a chance to creep out of its box and back into the front of your head. Even the sweet relief of sleep seems cruel because you know that tomorrow you will have to wake up and there it is - again. Only stronger - because it's almost like it gained strength and stamina from the rest you took. Sorry for the poor wording, I'm so tired and so filled with dread and I ramble.


    I sometimes lay in bed and get scared of dying. Knowing that someday I will not be breathing and picturing myself in a casket. It scares the shit out of me.
    I'll be back
  • DeetroitBaasketball
    DeetroitBaasketball Posts: 379
    Keiran wrote:
    Anyone ever been afraid to go to sleep because they are so depressed that the idea of slowing down and stopping and having to hear silence seems unbearable? Because when you stop the thought has a chance to creep out of its box and back into the front of your head. Even the sweet relief of sleep seems cruel because you know that tomorrow you will have to wake up and there it is - again. Only stronger - because it's almost like it gained strength and stamina from the rest you took. Sorry for the poor wording, I'm so tired and so filled with dread and I ramble.

    You should seek help. I'm not joking.
  • MattyJoe
    MattyJoe Posts: 1,424
    See a therapist, and ask if they use Cognitive Behavioral therapy. That's the most effective form.
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  • mca47
    mca47 Posts: 13,337
    I'm a terrible sleeper.
    My mind never shuts off!! It's like that during the day (I generally have like 10 things going through my mind at any moment) and it doesn't bother me at all, but at night with no distractions it just keeps on running.
    The best analogy I can make is like having someone keep flipping though the channels on your TV and you don't have access to the remote. Annoying as hell!

    Lots of exercise helps me.
    Oh, so does alcohol! :D
  • Vedderlution_Baby
    Vedderlution_Baby Posts: 2,535
    It's been getting worse and worse for me.
  • pretext
    pretext Posts: 1,294
    MattyJoe wrote:
    See a therapist, and ask if they use Cognitive Behavioral therapy. That's the most effective form.

    For some people. Depends on many factors for the individual.

    But, yeah, if you're feeling this way, see someone. Look, i do, and there's no miracle cure (CBT, meds, any other form of therapy). I still struggle quite a bit at times - but it CAN be better. I swear it can. The terror, dread, depression will lift, even if it takes awhile.

    In the meantime, see what kind of coping skills you have at your disposal. Someone mentioned writing as an example. It can be really simple, distracting stuff like listening to PJ/music, cooking, working, exercising, watching sports/movies/tv, etc.
    Avoid alcohol and other depressants. Try not to isolate (that's a tough one for me).

    Hang in there. Keep hanging around here.

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