why do you think I hightailed my butt to graduate school? I was like, if I have to nanny for the rest of my life, I might shoot myself. Maybe its different for you, but I find it very UNrewarding, time consuming, and energy sapping... (when I was a full time nanny for little kids)
Nanny burnout...that is a definite!!!!! I agree with you there...but I do find it rewarding but absolutely energy sapping. Many days I'm dozing off behind the wheel on the way home! :eek:
This is the greatest band in the world -- Ben Harper
Hmm...that makes sense. I'm not sure that's what I mean, though. I do think some of it is boredom...so you might right there.
well it's worth a try I fall into routines pretty easily... but I find if I mess around with them a bit, life gets a bit more interesting again even simple things like getting off the train at the wrong stop and walking... or getting the 'wrong' train and getting off at a random stop... or go book yourself into a hotel some night and just treat yourself. Of course, you probably need big changes... but big changes take planning... little changes don't
The Astoria??? Orgazmic!
Verona??? it's all surmountable
Dublin 23.08.06 "The beauty of Ireland, right there!"
Wembley? We all believe!
Copenhagen?? your light made us stars
Chicago 07? And love
What a different life
Had I not found this love with you
Yeah, I definitely think the move to Dallas will be good for you!! You need a fresh start for sure! But, you'll still be around the Pit, right?
You know...it wasn't that Dallas itself was my first choice so much, its just what was there for my situation, but you now what...it'll be good. It's getting out of here and doing something different. And that's what's important right now.
Of course I'll still be in the Pit so long as they have internet in that state . If not, I'll just write letters and send to the mods and hopefully they'll post for me. But seriously, being back on here after such a long stint away has been great for me. Glad to be back
well it's worth a try I fall into routines pretty easily... but I find if I mess around with them a bit, life gets a bit more interesting again even simple things like getting off the train at the wrong stop and walking... or getting the 'wrong' train and getting off at a random stop... or go book yourself into a hotel some night and just treat yourself. Of course, you probably need big changes... but big changes take planning... little changes don't
Yeah, I do little changes all the time. One of my 'things' I do on the weekends is when I'm driving alone (maybe out doing errands) I try to get myself lost. Ok, yeah, that sounds weird...but I just drive through random neighborhoods...places I've never been before.
Ok, yeah, I know...I'm weird.
This is the greatest band in the world -- Ben Harper
You know...it wasn't that Dallas itself was my first choice so much, its just what was there for my situation, but you now what...it'll be good. It's getting out of here and doing something different. And that's what's important right now.
Of course I'll still be in the Pit so long as they have internet in that state . If not, I'll just write letters and send to the mods and hopefully they'll post for me. But seriously, being back on here after such a long stint away has been great for me. Glad to be back
HAHAHAHAHA. Actually Dallas is lovely place! My uncle used to live in Plano. You'll enjoy it there...as long as there's a/c.
This is the greatest band in the world -- Ben Harper
I haven't had one...and DESPERATELY need one. Lately I have just had a great feeling of discontent. I don't really have any great reason to complain...I have a great family, friends, love my job...but I need a CHANGE. I'm not sure exactly what kind...possibly a move. I don't know. It's all very abstract. I can't actually define what it is that's missing...it just is.
Wow. I've never really said this "outloud" before. But it's been a long time coming.
I always felt like there was something missing in my life. I had a great life, and really couldn't see any reason for me to be unhappy, but I was, because something was missing.
It makes absolutely no sense to anyone who has never felt that way, but whatever is missing is undefinable, and you can't put a name to it until you find it. I hope that you do find it.
~AKA Dave-of-the-dead~
I don't wanna think, I wanna feel
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London 18/06/07 Dusseldorf 21/06/07 Copenhagen 26/06/07 Nijmegen 28/06/07
I always felt like there was something missing in my life. I had a great life, and really couldn't see any reason for me to be unhappy, but I was, because something was missing.
It makes absolutely no sense to anyone who has never felt that way, but whatever is missing is undefinable, and you can't put a name to it until you find it. I hope that you do find it.
THANK YOU!! Someone who gets it!!!!!!!!!! That's EXACTLY how I'm feeling. Sorry to hear you're experiencing it too.
This is the greatest band in the world -- Ben Harper
Yeah, I do little changes all the time. One of my 'things' I do on the weekends is when I'm driving alone (maybe out doing errands) I try to get myself lost. Ok, yeah, that sounds weird...but I just drive through random neighborhoods...places I've never been before.
Ok, yeah, I know...I'm weird.
Nah, it's ok, I used to do that shit too . It passes the time til you find what you're looking for
The Astoria??? Orgazmic!
Verona??? it's all surmountable
Dublin 23.08.06 "The beauty of Ireland, right there!"
Wembley? We all believe!
Copenhagen?? your light made us stars
Chicago 07? And love
What a different life
Had I not found this love with you
I haven't had one...and DESPERATELY need one. Lately I have just had a great feeling of discontent. I don't really have any great reason to complain...I have a great family, friends, love my job...but I need a CHANGE. I'm not sure exactly what kind...possibly a move. I don't know. It's all very abstract. I can't actually define what it is that's missing...it just is.
Wow. I've never really said this "outloud" before. But it's been a long time coming.
I hear that.
Still, I'm only 19. Plenty of time for defining moments. I just sometimes feel like I'm drifting and it makes me feel world-weary. Life lacking direction is fine at my age but only if you're content with it. I feel like I need some kind of focus.
"I remember one night at Muzdalifa with nothing but the sky overhead, I lay awake amid sleeping Muslim brothers and I learned that pilgrims from every land — every colour, and class, and rank; high officials and the beggar alike — all snored in the same language"
Back in 97 I fell 15+ft from a ledge that runs underneath the first floor windows, is to the left of the picture that is obscured by trees. I landed on foliage and walked away with only minor bruises, but it really shook me up in a way that's hard to describe because I'd always had falling dreams......never been a physical risk taker since. I've had a haemorrage of an eye, broken two ribs, and been hospitalized over an infected groin before but none of them match up to the supreme terror I felt for, mmm, a second at the most. It's still vivid in my mind and in my dreams.
i've had two and they both came within a few months of each other. one turned my life around dramatically for the better and healed things i hadnt even know were broken. the other happened about 8 months later and burned holes in me that i suspect will never heal.
"You've never been out of college, you don't know what it's like out there. I've worked in the private sector... they expect results." -Ray
i've had two and they both came within a few months of each other. one turned my life around dramatically for the better and healed things i hadnt even know were broken. the other happened about 8 months later and burned holes in me that i suspect will never heal.
My clarity came when my bastard ex husband called me drunk one night and told me that I would never be anything but a single welfare mom. He was very abusive and a nasty alcoholic. The next month I enrolled in a college that completely changed my life. It led me to a wonderful job, a wonderful husband, a new house and a peace of mind. Gave me the confidence to never look back and to change who I was and become a better wife and mother and a stronger person.
Clarity= Now that the shades are raised- RVM. I listen to this at least once a week to remind me how far I've come.
I will hold the candle until it burns up my arm. I'll keep taking punches until their will grows tired. I will stare the sun down until my eyes go blind. I won't change direction and I won't change my mind.
Well, I don't think I can handle this
A cloudy day in Metropolis
I think I'll talk to my analyst
I got it so bad for this little journalist
It drives me up the wall and through the roof
Lois and Clark in a telephone booth
I think I'm going out of my brain
I got it so bad for little miss Lois Lane
(Chrous)
Lois Lane please put me in your plan
Yeah, Lois Lane you don't need no Super Man
Come on downtown and stay with me tonight
I got a pocket full of kryptonite, I
I got a pocket full of kryptonite, I
I got a pocket full of kryptonite
He's leaping buildings in a single bound
I'm reading Shakespeare at my place downtown
Come on downtown and make love to me
I'm Jimmy Olsen not a titan, you see
He's faster than a bullet, stronger than a train
He's the one who got lucky, got his cape around miss Lois Lane
I can't believe my dilemma is real
I'm competing with the man of steel
(Chorus)
Got a pocket full of...
Well, I don't think I can handle this
A cloudy day in Metropolis
I think I'll talk to my analyst
I got it so bad for this little journalist
(Chorus)
Oh Miss Lois Lane...
Got a pocket full of...
"You've never been out of college, you don't know what it's like out there. I've worked in the private sector... they expect results." -Ray
Well, I don't think I can handle this
A cloudy day in Metropolis
I think I'll talk to my analyst
I got it so bad for this little journalist
It drives me up the wall and through the roof
Lois and Clark in a telephone booth
I think I'm going out of my brain
I got it so bad for little miss Lois Lane
(Chrous)
Lois Lane please put me in your plan
Yeah, Lois Lane you don't need no Super Man
Come on downtown and stay with me tonight
I got a pocket full of kryptonite, I
I got a pocket full of kryptonite, I
I got a pocket full of kryptonite
He's leaping buildings in a single bound
I'm reading Shakespeare at my place downtown
Come on downtown and make love to me
I'm Jimmy Olsen not a titan, you see
He's faster than a bullet, stronger than a train
He's the one who got lucky, got his cape around miss Lois Lane
I can't believe my dilemma is real
I'm competing with the man of steel
(Chorus)
Got a pocket full of...
Well, I don't think I can handle this
A cloudy day in Metropolis
I think I'll talk to my analyst
I got it so bad for this little journalist
(Chorus)
Oh Miss Lois Lane...
Got a pocket full of...
apologies. i confused myself. all that kryptonite talk. i thought i was actually replying to jeanie. aah shit what a fool i am.
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
That my mild mannered friend, is HR Puff N Stuff. It was a kids series way back in the day about the adventures of Jimmy (see? starting to make sense now? ) and his friend Freddy, The Golden Flute who had a really high pitched annoying voice and was often heard to scream Jimmy! Jimmy! Help!
Cool song btw, very catchy and I like the Spin Doctors, especially Little Miss Can't Be Wrong.
Oh and back on topic, sorry OP, I've had many life defining moments that have changed the course of my life, some for good and some for bad, but I really don't like to think of one absolute moment in time defining me. I think we're all a lot more interesting and complex than that.
I haven't had one...and DESPERATELY need one. Lately I have just had a great feeling of discontent. I don't really have any great reason to complain...I have a great family, friends, love my job...but I need a CHANGE. I'm not sure exactly what kind...possibly a move. I don't know. It's all very abstract. I can't actually define what it is that's missing...it just is.
Wow. I've never really said this "outloud" before. But it's been a long time coming.
I think we're in the same shoe.
You're sick of the same old routine bullshit of your ordinary life and there's an adventurous character within you that needs desperately to come out and explore some new experiences. You love your friends and family but everything seems too simple and stable that you need some kind of a challenge to kill this boredom of a life you've been living lately. You really want to go but is scared to diminished the current situation and don't want to burn bridges with friends and family in case they don't understand why you want to leave.
If I'm wrong then you just got my frustrating situation right there.
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Nanny burnout...that is a definite!!!!! I agree with you there...but I do find it rewarding but absolutely energy sapping. Many days I'm dozing off behind the wheel on the way home! :eek:
Verona??? it's all surmountable
Dublin 23.08.06 "The beauty of Ireland, right there!"
Wembley? We all believe!
Copenhagen?? your light made us stars
Chicago 07? And love
What a different life
Had I not found this love with you
You know...it wasn't that Dallas itself was my first choice so much, its just what was there for my situation, but you now what...it'll be good. It's getting out of here and doing something different. And that's what's important right now.
Of course I'll still be in the Pit so long as they have internet in that state
Yeah, I do little changes all the time. One of my 'things' I do on the weekends is when I'm driving alone (maybe out doing errands) I try to get myself lost. Ok, yeah, that sounds weird...but I just drive through random neighborhoods...places I've never been before.
Ok, yeah, I know...I'm weird.
HAHAHAHAHA. Actually Dallas is lovely place! My uncle used to live in Plano. You'll enjoy it there...as long as there's a/c.
I always felt like there was something missing in my life. I had a great life, and really couldn't see any reason for me to be unhappy, but I was, because something was missing.
It makes absolutely no sense to anyone who has never felt that way, but whatever is missing is undefinable, and you can't put a name to it until you find it. I hope that you do find it.
I don't wanna think, I wanna feel
Dublin 23/08/06 Lisbon I 04/09/06 Lisbon II 05/09/06 Paris 11/09/06 Verona 16/09/06
London 18/06/07 Dusseldorf 21/06/07 Copenhagen 26/06/07 Nijmegen 28/06/07
Pearl Jam bootlegs:
http://wegotshit.blogspot.com
THANK YOU!! Someone who gets it!!!!!!!!!! That's EXACTLY how I'm feeling. Sorry to hear you're experiencing it too.
Verona??? it's all surmountable
Dublin 23.08.06 "The beauty of Ireland, right there!"
Wembley? We all believe!
Copenhagen?? your light made us stars
Chicago 07? And love
What a different life
Had I not found this love with you
Like I said, I hope you do too.
I don't wanna think, I wanna feel
Dublin 23/08/06 Lisbon I 04/09/06 Lisbon II 05/09/06 Paris 11/09/06 Verona 16/09/06
London 18/06/07 Dusseldorf 21/06/07 Copenhagen 26/06/07 Nijmegen 28/06/07
Still, I'm only 19. Plenty of time for defining moments. I just sometimes feel like I'm drifting and it makes me feel world-weary. Life lacking direction is fine at my age but only if you're content with it. I feel like I need some kind of focus.
Back in 97 I fell 15+ft from a ledge that runs underneath the first floor windows, is to the left of the picture that is obscured by trees. I landed on foliage and walked away with only minor bruises, but it really shook me up in a way that's hard to describe because I'd always had falling dreams......never been a physical risk taker since. I've had a haemorrage of an eye, broken two ribs, and been hospitalized over an infected groin before but none of them match up to the supreme terror I felt for, mmm, a second at the most. It's still vivid in my mind and in my dreams.
Denny Crane!
Kryptonite?
*~You're IT Bert!~*
Hold on to the thread
The currents will shift
HAHAH. That was funny!
I hope you don't me asking...if you feel like you can share...what was it that was missing?
Clarity= Now that the shades are raised- RVM. I listen to this at least once a week to remind me how far I've come.
now im thinking of the spin doctors song
Denny Crane!
Just begged to be said really.
Not making light of Clarke's defining moments though.
*~You're IT Bert!~*
Hold on to the thread
The currents will shift
are you sure you dont mean 3 doors down, girlie ?
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
1. i'm a guylie
2. no, i meant spin doctors... love this song:
Well, I don't think I can handle this
A cloudy day in Metropolis
I think I'll talk to my analyst
I got it so bad for this little journalist
It drives me up the wall and through the roof
Lois and Clark in a telephone booth
I think I'm going out of my brain
I got it so bad for little miss Lois Lane
(Chrous)
Lois Lane please put me in your plan
Yeah, Lois Lane you don't need no Super Man
Come on downtown and stay with me tonight
I got a pocket full of kryptonite, I
I got a pocket full of kryptonite, I
I got a pocket full of kryptonite
He's leaping buildings in a single bound
I'm reading Shakespeare at my place downtown
Come on downtown and make love to me
I'm Jimmy Olsen not a titan, you see
He's faster than a bullet, stronger than a train
He's the one who got lucky, got his cape around miss Lois Lane
I can't believe my dilemma is real
I'm competing with the man of steel
(Chorus)
Got a pocket full of...
Well, I don't think I can handle this
A cloudy day in Metropolis
I think I'll talk to my analyst
I got it so bad for this little journalist
(Chorus)
Oh Miss Lois Lane...
Got a pocket full of...
Denny Crane!
Yeah, I'm thinking 3 Doors Down!
Don't be jimmy olsen, I'd be forever thinking about this whenever you popped up.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C-yLYz6ejqw
*~You're IT Bert!~*
Hold on to the thread
The currents will shift
i have no idea what that is, but it is creepy as shit.
this is the song i was referring to, but i warn you now, you may be singing it for days! it's a good one though
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=re7oTQnih-0
that video is funny, but here's the actual band. love those goofy hippies:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YVPhkz6UOCs&feature=related
Denny Crane!
apologies. i confused myself. all that kryptonite talk. i thought i was actually replying to jeanie. aah shit what a fool i am.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
no worries, just trying to spread the spin doctors love. a sadly forgotten band.
Denny Crane!
im not sad ive forgotten them
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
That my mild mannered friend, is HR Puff N Stuff.
Cool song btw, very catchy and I like the Spin Doctors, especially Little Miss Can't Be Wrong.
Oh and back on topic,
*~You're IT Bert!~*
Hold on to the thread
The currents will shift
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You're sick of the same old routine bullshit of your ordinary life and there's an adventurous character within you that needs desperately to come out and explore some new experiences. You love your friends and family but everything seems too simple and stable that you need some kind of a challenge to kill this boredom of a life you've been living lately. You really want to go but is scared to diminished the current situation and don't want to burn bridges with friends and family in case they don't understand why you want to leave.
If I'm wrong then you just got my frustrating situation right there.
EV- 08/09,10/2008.06/08,09/2009