I Think I'm Finally Ready To Share This Now....(1 Year Later)

SoapMakesUTaller

I wrote this a year ago....It's cheesy, but this is what came to the surface when I was treading rising waters.

PS. Either Immortality from the Immagine DVD or any TYAAM MP3 will suffice as background sound through this...

People, relationships, love, anything of meaning or a cause of heartache….as far as I’m concerned, they’re like sharp objects protruding from the sea. They are like jagged edged rocks out not too far on the ocean floor…..these concerns reach your water level and make headway towards the sky, almost blinding your ablity to see forward. And it can be like that for a long time, at least it seems in such a way. You’re afraid to go forward, afraid to cut your feet on the edges, afraid something is behind this huge obstacle, afraid that this monster won’t stop growing, so you sit back and take your time coming up with a way to overcome this seemingly insurmountable object. . And the truth is, while you’re going about this, trying to figure out a solution, these huge jagged rocks are being withered down by time itself. It’s chipping away with each passing day. Those edges becoming touchable now. And soon enough, you have the courage to maybe even push, because you know these once blade-like edges won’t sting your hands today. The weight being just that…. And then, you take a few steps back, and take a good look at the horizon. And you realize, you’re hair is a little lighter, your skin a little rougher, your smile a little worn, your heart a little heavier, and come to see that your ocean is chalk full of smooth rocks….and you smirk because that horizon is inching its way closer to you. Such a beautiful light that it has emitted to your life.

I can’t say with certainty, or any kind of concrete clarity what the future holds ………..a box of treasures for me in this life? Not sure… but I do know that I’m happiest when I don’t care about what people think while being myself. It’s like wearing an invisible bullet-proof shield everytime you’re awake.

So….why did this make me cry? It’s not one thing….it’s just reading the raw emotions of it all. 1 at a time. It’s like taking the mute button off the past and letting it get in your ear right before you drift off the sleep. You’re at your most vulnerable, and there’s no putting up walls. It either anchors itself into your minds currents, or gets washed away like a million other things you’ve let pass you by over the years.

I'd like to say........a year later, this has become the way I live my life. No fear. Don't be scared to be yourself, some may reject you, some may love you, but no one can say you weren't you. Godspeed.

LONGRD

Will you hold me?