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skyeriverwinterskyeriverwinter Posts: 1,894
edited June 2008 in All Encompassing Trip
anyone ever deal with this problem????
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  • in_hiding79in_hiding79 Posts: 4,315
    I haven't, but do you have anyone you could talk too, like family?
    And so the lion fell in love with the lamb...,"
    "What a stupid lamb."
    "What a sick, masochistic lion."
  • skyeriverwinterskyeriverwinter Posts: 1,894
    i didn't say i had a problem... but if i did the answer would be no
  • FifthelementFifthelement Lotusland Posts: 6,963
    Hopefully the person would seek professional help - either through a help-line or their doctor. Good luck
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  • in_hiding79in_hiding79 Posts: 4,315
    skyeriverwinter wrote:
    i didn't say i had a problem... but if i did the answer would be no



    Oh I see, I would suggest seeking professional help then!!
    And so the lion fell in love with the lamb...,"
    "What a stupid lamb."
    "What a sick, masochistic lion."
  • skyeriverwinterskyeriverwinter Posts: 1,894
    ed has said "sometimes only love can prevent a suicide" do you think that can be enough? in the dark places can the light of love even shine?
  • libragirllibragirl Posts: 4,632
    Are you asking if anyone here has been suicidal? Well I have been depressed which led to suicidal thoughts. I have tried harming myself, but I guess suicide being a selfish act I am not quite selfish enough to follow through. I couldn't do that to my family.

    Im not sure if you are feeling suicidal but I am sorry, If you want to talk you can pm me.
    These cuts are leaving creases. Trace the scars to fit the pieces, to tell the story, you don't need to say a word.
  • dbhdbh Posts: 156
    I've actually considered driving my car off the Bay bridge, and I got close a couple of times but kept going til I turned around and went home. I was extremely depressed and thought my family could do better than me (I won't go into details), and one night, just before I was ready to help my kids with their shower, I just lost it - bawled my eyes out. Well, needless to say, that freaked my kids out...long story short, I saw a psychiatrist, got some meds, and now I'm truly thankful to be alive!

    Sorry to dump that on y'all, but this kinda helped a bit...along with what Eddy said in his interview after writing Jeremy. So, if anyone has these feelings of being a failure, having an empty feeling in your gut, or whatever.... GET HELP IMMEDIATELY!!
    ~we were but stones...your life made us stars~
  • pearljamjenpearljamjen Posts: 13,578
    Yep. Last year I went through something that made me depressed and I was seriously considering suicide. I knew what the note would say and how I was going to do it. But then I kept thinking about my mom, and what it would it would do to her. I just could not put her through it. So the next day I started counselling. The thing that I went through will be with me forever, but I know I can't change what happened, so I just have to get through it one day at a time. It gets easier and easier though. And I'm soooooo glad I went and got the help that I needed. :)
  • dbhdbh Posts: 156
    pearljamjen wrote:
    Yep. Last year I went through something that made me depressed and I was seriously considering suicide. I knew what the note would say and how I was going to do it. But then I kept thinking about my mom, and what it would it would do to her. I just could not put her through it. So the next day I started counselling. The thing that I went through will be with me forever, but I know I can't change what happened, so I just have to get through it one day at a time. It gets easier and easier though. And I'm soooooo glad I went and got the help that I needed. :)
    That's awesome! Sometimes when bad things happen, we get stronger because of it...we fight back because we realize how powerful and precious life is, and that we will never be alone.
    ~we were but stones...your life made us stars~
  • pearljamjenpearljamjen Posts: 13,578
    dbh wrote:
    That's awesome! Sometimes when bad things happen, we get stronger because of it...we fight back because we realize how powerful and precious life is, and that we will never be alone.

    Exactly! I'm so thankful that I did fight back. It wasn't easy and the situation was the hardest thing I ever had to go through. I do feel so much stronger. And I'm lucky to have such a great support network around me. It is hard for me to reach out to people, but I'm so glad I did.
  • pearljamjenpearljamjen Posts: 13,578
    dbh wrote:
    I've actually considered driving my car off the Bay bridge, and I got close a couple of times but kept going til I turned around and went home. I was extremely depressed and thought my family could do better than me (I won't go into details), and one night, just before I was ready to help my kids with their shower, I just lost it - bawled my eyes out. Well, needless to say, that freaked my kids out...long story short, I saw a psychiatrist, got some meds, and now I'm truly thankful to be alive!

    Sorry to dump that on y'all, but this kinda helped a bit...along with what Eddy said in his interview after writing Jeremy. So, if anyone has these feelings of being a failure, having an empty feeling in your gut, or whatever.... GET HELP IMMEDIATELY!!

    I'm glad it worked out for you. I'm sure your kids proved to be a huge wakeup call to get help.

    I hope you are doing much better now. :)
  • dbhdbh Posts: 156
    Yes, I am much better, thanks! :D Yeah, my kids really need me, and I wanna be the best dad I can be for them!

    Ya know, I never felt comfortable talking about this to anyone...but, there's just something about this forum that makes me feel alright. :)
    ~we were but stones...your life made us stars~
  • libragirllibragirl Posts: 4,632
    dbh wrote:
    I've actually considered driving my car off the Bay bridge, and I got close a couple of times but kept going til I turned around and went home. I was extremely depressed and thought my family could do better than me (I won't go into details), and one night, just before I was ready to help my kids with their shower, I just lost it - bawled my eyes out. Well, needless to say, that freaked my kids out...long story short, I saw a psychiatrist, got some meds, and now I'm truly thankful to be alive!

    Sorry to dump that on y'all, but this kinda helped a bit...along with what Eddy said in his interview after writing Jeremy. So, if anyone has these feelings of being a failure, having an empty feeling in your gut, or whatever.... GET HELP IMMEDIATELY!!




    wow...Im glad you better now. I have thought about going to psych..esp. lately..I have been dealing with some stuff. Im just afraid of taking drugs.
    These cuts are leaving creases. Trace the scars to fit the pieces, to tell the story, you don't need to say a word.
  • dbhdbh Posts: 156
    libragirl wrote:
    wow...Im glad you better now. I have thought about going to psych..esp. lately..I have been dealing with some stuff. Im just afraid of taking drugs.
    It's very cool to talk to someone, especially when it feels like there's no hope...as far as the drug part, you may not need any...just spilling your soul might be what you need. As for me, I think I have a bit of a chemical imbalance, so the meds are a life saver. :)
    ~we were but stones...your life made us stars~
  • KushikushunKushikushun Posts: 1,263
    dbh wrote:
    It's very cool to talk to someone, especially when it feels like there's no hope...as far as the drug part, you may not need any...just spilling your soul might be what you need. As for me, I think I have a bit of a chemical imbalance, so the meds are a life saver. :)


    So glad you are still here with us!! Same for you Jen! And anyone who is thinking of this, please don't!

    About the meds. You know, sometimes being depressed just means you are sick. It is a life-threatening disease!!! If you would have been diagnosed with cancer you would seek help and take the pills, bc you want to live. This is the same thing!
    I have asthma. Had it all my life. I take medicine for this every day! I hate taking medicine so much, but I have to. It helps me breath. So just go to the doctor, get help, get medicine, take the medicine and the therapy and breath .


    And you may have seen this one already, but maybe seeing this helps too :) :

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yR3-CKTZetM

    Take Care,
    Francisca.
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  • harmless_little_f***harmless_little_f*** Posts: 8,005
    libragirl wrote:
    Are you asking if anyone here has been suicidal? Well I have been depressed which led to suicidal thoughts. I have tried harming myself, but I guess suicide being a selfish act I am not quite selfish enough to follow through. I couldn't do that to my family.

    I'm not sure I like the broad-brush and judgmental statement that suicide is a 'selfish act' for those who choose it because they see it as their only option. On that token, so is self-harm a 'selfish act' and indeed, depression - because it causes us to isolate ourselves from people who love us. Be careful of pigeon-holing people as selfish. I'm not even saying you are, just that you have to be careful.
    'We're learning songs for baby Jesus' birthday. His mum and dad were Merry and Joseph. He had a bed made of clay and the three kings bought him Gold, Frankenstein and Merv as presents.'

    - the great Sir Leo Harrison
  • libragirllibragirl Posts: 4,632
    harmless_little_f*** wrote:
    I'm not sure I like the broad-brush and judgmental statement that suicide is a 'selfish act' for those who choose it because they see it as their only option. On that token, so is self-harm a 'selfish act' and indeed, depression - because it causes us to isolate ourselves from people who love us. Be careful of pigeon-holing people as selfish. I'm not even saying you are, just that you have to be careful.

    Well it's my opinion, sorry if you took offense. I am not trying to imply that self harming isn't selfish. Obviously if Im confiding that I get depressed and have suicidal thoughts Im not in the position to judge. I think that me thinking it's a selfish act is actually good, or I would be dead by now.
    These cuts are leaving creases. Trace the scars to fit the pieces, to tell the story, you don't need to say a word.
  • libragirllibragirl Posts: 4,632
    dbh wrote:
    It's very cool to talk to someone, especially when it feels like there's no hope...as far as the drug part, you may not need any...just spilling your soul might be what you need. As for me, I think I have a bit of a chemical imbalance, so the meds are a life saver. :)

    Oh yeah you are right about spilling your soul even if it's anonymously..but Im thinking twice about that. I have depression in my family..both my grandmothers suffered from it. One got help the other didn't. Eventually, I think I will seek help because sometime it really interferes with my life.
    These cuts are leaving creases. Trace the scars to fit the pieces, to tell the story, you don't need to say a word.
  • brainofmebrainofme Posts: 231
    skyeriverwinter wrote:
    ed has said "sometimes only love can prevent a suicide" do you think that can be enough? in the dark places can the light of love even shine?

    ed also said that:
    "You kill yourself and you make a big old sacrifice and try to get your revenge. That all you're gonna end up with is a paragraph in a newspaper. In the end, it does nothing. Nothing changes. The world goes on and you're gone. The best revenge is to live on and prove yourself. (Talking about suicide)"

    i agree with that. and you never should loose your hope.
    "no matter how cold the winter, there's a springtime ahead".
    Vienna, Austria 2006
    Munich, Germany 2007
  • In My DreamsIn My Dreams Posts: 299
    I weaned myself off anti-depressants. Ironically they can lead to suicidal thoughts. Nasty, nasty shit.
    A real possibility I may meet you in my dreams ~ I go to sleep
  • libragirllibragirl Posts: 4,632
    In My Dreams wrote:
    I weaned myself off anti-depressants. Ironically they can lead to suicidal thoughts. Nasty, nasty shit.

    Well yeah that's why I wouldn't want to take them. I have enough on my own. I manage to snap myself out of it though.
    These cuts are leaving creases. Trace the scars to fit the pieces, to tell the story, you don't need to say a word.
  • In My DreamsIn My Dreams Posts: 299
    libragirl wrote:
    Well yeah that's why I wouldn't want to take them. I have enough on my own. I manage to snap myself out of it though.
    They were actually perscribed to me as sleeping pills. After about a year I started acting crazy so I finally looked into it. Now I take melatonin, works just fine. I also found a new doctor. The one who prescribed the Trazodone instisted I take 2 every night, 1 was more than enough. I'm glad I got away from it all.
    A real possibility I may meet you in my dreams ~ I go to sleep
  • libragirllibragirl Posts: 4,632
    In My Dreams wrote:
    They were actually perscribed to me as sleeping pills. After about a year I started acting crazy so I finally looked into it. Now I take melatonin, works just fine. I also found a new doctor. The one who prescribed the Trazodone instisted I take 2 every night, 1 was more than enough. I'm glad I got away from it all.

    really..as sleeping pills? So were they like some kind of valium, sleeping pills do not work for at all. I tried self medicating with over the counter ones..to calm myself down at times so I can sleep and they actually make me more wired after making me intially drowsy.
    These cuts are leaving creases. Trace the scars to fit the pieces, to tell the story, you don't need to say a word.
  • In My DreamsIn My Dreams Posts: 299
    libragirl wrote:
    really..as sleeping pills? So were they like some kind of valium, sleeping pills do not work for at all. I tried self medicating with over the counter ones..to calm myself down at times so I can sleep and they actually make me more wired after making me intially drowsy.
    The trazadone would knock me on my ass. I've had insomnia all my life, finally got fed up and went to the doc. Because of the side effects, it's just not worth it.
    A real possibility I may meet you in my dreams ~ I go to sleep
  • Purple PuppyPurple Puppy Posts: 149
    Yes. I tried to kill myself a few months ago in New Smyrna, FL. My parents were annoying me so I went to a hotel, bought tons of Tylenol PM and Advil and swallowed. When I woke up I started puking and puking. I was choking on my own collapsed throat. I must have puked for hours. Fell asleep, when I woke up, I was on the bathroom floor, and I was petrified that I was in a mental hospital. I walked back home and convinced my parents I was puking from the fish I ate that night.
    Signed it, grind it.
    Corroding and foreboding.
  • RolandTD20KdrummerRolandTD20Kdrummer Posts: 13,066
    I've had a few thoughts of it. All of them were when I was out of shape and eating a shit diet.

    Become healthy/vibrant and suicide does not even enter the mind.
    Progress is not made by everyone joining some new fad,
    and reveling in it's loyalty. It's made by forming coalitions
    over specific principles, goals, and policies.

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  • pearljamjenpearljamjen Posts: 13,578
    RolandTD20Kdrummer wrote:
    I've had a few thoughts of it. All of them were when I was out of shape and eating a shit diet.

    Become healthy/vibrant and suicide does not even enter the mind.

    That's not necessarily true, though it does help your well-being. But if you are going through a difficult situation, than eating healthy won't prevent you from having those thoughts. If you've reached that point, then you've reached that point.
  • libragirllibragirl Posts: 4,632
    pearljamjen wrote:
    That's not necessarily true, though it does help your well-being. But if you are going through a difficult situation, than eating healthy won't prevent you from having those thoughts. If you've reached that point, then you've reached that point.

    yep.
    These cuts are leaving creases. Trace the scars to fit the pieces, to tell the story, you don't need to say a word.
  • Heineken HelenHeineken Helen Posts: 18,095
    In My Dreams wrote:
    Because of the side effects, it's just not worth it.
    people really need to be more careful about what they put into themselves... the pill made me suicidal once... it was a very very scary and confusing time. Finally I figured it out, came off it and a couple of weeks later I was fine. I take the odd painkiller now (very very odd... maybe every 2 or 3 months) but that's all. I'd be very wary of touching any medication :(
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  • Gremmie95Gremmie95 Posts: 749
    Purple Puppy wrote:
    Yes. I tried to kill myself a few months ago in New Smyrna, FL. My parents were annoying me so I went to a hotel, bought tons of Tylenol PM and Advil and swallowed. When I woke up I started puking and puking. I was choking on my own collapsed throat. I must have puked for hours. Fell asleep, when I woke up, I was on the bathroom floor, and I was petrified that I was in a mental hospital. I walked back home and convinced my parents I was puking from the fish I ate that night.

    Glad to see you made it through......
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