suicidal?

skyeriverwinter

anyone ever deal with this problem????

in_hiding79

I haven't, but do you have anyone you could talk too, like family?

skyeriverwinter

i didn't say i had a problem... but if i did the answer would be no

Fifthelement

Hopefully the person would seek professional help - either through a help-line or their doctor. Good luck

in_hiding79

skyeriverwinter wrote:

i didn't say i had a problem... but if i did the answer would be no

Oh I see, I would suggest seeking professional help then!!

skyeriverwinter

ed has said "sometimes only love can prevent a suicide" do you think that can be enough? in the dark places can the light of love even shine?

libragirl

Are you asking if anyone here has been suicidal? Well I have been depressed which led to suicidal thoughts. I have tried harming myself, but I guess suicide being a selfish act I am not quite selfish enough to follow through. I couldn't do that to my family.

Im not sure if you are feeling suicidal but I am sorry, If you want to talk you can pm me.

dbh

I've actually considered driving my car off the Bay bridge, and I got close a couple of times but kept going til I turned around and went home. I was extremely depressed and thought my family could do better than me (I won't go into details), and one night, just before I was ready to help my kids with their shower, I just lost it - bawled my eyes out. Well, needless to say, that freaked my kids out...long story short, I saw a psychiatrist, got some meds, and now I'm truly thankful to be alive!

Sorry to dump that on y'all, but this kinda helped a bit...along with what Eddy said in his interview after writing Jeremy. So, if anyone has these feelings of being a failure, having an empty feeling in your gut, or whatever.... GET HELP IMMEDIATELY!!

pearljamjen

Yep. Last year I went through something that made me depressed and I was seriously considering suicide. I knew what the note would say and how I was going to do it. But then I kept thinking about my mom, and what it would it would do to her. I just could not put her through it. So the next day I started counselling. The thing that I went through will be with me forever, but I know I can't change what happened, so I just have to get through it one day at a time. It gets easier and easier though. And I'm soooooo glad I went and got the help that I needed.

dbh

pearljamjen wrote:

Yep. Last year I went through something that made me depressed and I was seriously considering suicide. I knew what the note would say and how I was going to do it. But then I kept thinking about my mom, and what it would it would do to her. I just could not put her through it. So the next day I started counselling. The thing that I went through will be with me forever, but I know I can't change what happened, so I just have to get through it one day at a time. It gets easier and easier though. And I'm soooooo glad I went and got the help that I needed.

That's awesome! Sometimes when bad things happen, we get stronger because of it...we fight back because we realize how powerful and precious life is, and that we will never be alone.

pearljamjen

dbh wrote:

That's awesome! Sometimes when bad things happen, we get stronger because of it...we fight back because we realize how powerful and precious life is, and that we will never be alone.

Exactly! I'm so thankful that I did fight back. It wasn't easy and the situation was the hardest thing I ever had to go through. I do feel so much stronger. And I'm lucky to have such a great support network around me. It is hard for me to reach out to people, but I'm so glad I did.

pearljamjen

dbh wrote:

I've actually considered driving my car off the Bay bridge, and I got close a couple of times but kept going til I turned around and went home. I was extremely depressed and thought my family could do better than me (I won't go into details), and one night, just before I was ready to help my kids with their shower, I just lost it - bawled my eyes out. Well, needless to say, that freaked my kids out...long story short, I saw a psychiatrist, got some meds, and now I'm truly thankful to be alive!

Sorry to dump that on y'all, but this kinda helped a bit...along with what Eddy said in his interview after writing Jeremy. So, if anyone has these feelings of being a failure, having an empty feeling in your gut, or whatever.... GET HELP IMMEDIATELY!!

I'm glad it worked out for you. I'm sure your kids proved to be a huge wakeup call to get help.

I hope you are doing much better now.

dbh

Yes, I am much better, thanks! Yeah, my kids really need me, and I wanna be the best dad I can be for them!

Ya know, I never felt comfortable talking about this to anyone...but, there's just something about this forum that makes me feel alright.

libragirl

dbh wrote:

I've actually considered driving my car off the Bay bridge, and I got close a couple of times but kept going til I turned around and went home. I was extremely depressed and thought my family could do better than me (I won't go into details), and one night, just before I was ready to help my kids with their shower, I just lost it - bawled my eyes out. Well, needless to say, that freaked my kids out...long story short, I saw a psychiatrist, got some meds, and now I'm truly thankful to be alive!

Sorry to dump that on y'all, but this kinda helped a bit...along with what Eddy said in his interview after writing Jeremy. So, if anyone has these feelings of being a failure, having an empty feeling in your gut, or whatever.... GET HELP IMMEDIATELY!!

wow...Im glad you better now. I have thought about going to psych..esp. lately..I have been dealing with some stuff. Im just afraid of taking drugs.

dbh

libragirl wrote:

wow...Im glad you better now. I have thought about going to psych..esp. lately..I have been dealing with some stuff. Im just afraid of taking drugs.

It's very cool to talk to someone, especially when it feels like there's no hope...as far as the drug part, you may not need any...just spilling your soul might be what you need. As for me, I think I have a bit of a chemical imbalance, so the meds are a life saver.

Kushikushun

dbh wrote:

It's very cool to talk to someone, especially when it feels like there's no hope...as far as the drug part, you may not need any...just spilling your soul might be what you need. As for me, I think I have a bit of a chemical imbalance, so the meds are a life saver.

So glad you are still here with us!! Same for you Jen! And anyone who is thinking of this, please don't!

About the meds. You know, sometimes being depressed just means you are sick. It is a life-threatening disease!!! If you would have been diagnosed with cancer you would seek help and take the pills, bc you want to live. This is the same thing!
I have asthma. Had it all my life. I take medicine for this every day! I hate taking medicine so much, but I have to. It helps me breath. So just go to the doctor, get help, get medicine, take the medicine and the therapy and breath .


And you may have seen this one already, but maybe seeing this helps too :

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yR3-CKTZetM

Take Care,
Francisca.

harmless_little_f***

libragirl wrote:

Are you asking if anyone here has been suicidal? Well I have been depressed which led to suicidal thoughts. I have tried harming myself, but I guess suicide being a selfish act I am not quite selfish enough to follow through. I couldn't do that to my family.

I'm not sure I like the broad-brush and judgmental statement that suicide is a 'selfish act' for those who choose it because they see it as their only option. On that token, so is self-harm a 'selfish act' and indeed, depression - because it causes us to isolate ourselves from people who love us. Be careful of pigeon-holing people as selfish. I'm not even saying you are, just that you have to be careful.

libragirl

harmless_little_f*** wrote:

I'm not sure I like the broad-brush and judgmental statement that suicide is a 'selfish act' for those who choose it because they see it as their only option. On that token, so is self-harm a 'selfish act' and indeed, depression - because it causes us to isolate ourselves from people who love us. Be careful of pigeon-holing people as selfish. I'm not even saying you are, just that you have to be careful.

Well it's my opinion, sorry if you took offense. I am not trying to imply that self harming isn't selfish. Obviously if Im confiding that I get depressed and have suicidal thoughts Im not in the position to judge. I think that me thinking it's a selfish act is actually good, or I would be dead by now.

libragirl

dbh wrote:

It's very cool to talk to someone, especially when it feels like there's no hope...as far as the drug part, you may not need any...just spilling your soul might be what you need. As for me, I think I have a bit of a chemical imbalance, so the meds are a life saver.

Oh yeah you are right about spilling your soul even if it's anonymously..but Im thinking twice about that. I have depression in my family..both my grandmothers suffered from it. One got help the other didn't. Eventually, I think I will seek help because sometime it really interferes with my life.

brainofme

skyeriverwinter wrote:

ed has said "sometimes only love can prevent a suicide" do you think that can be enough? in the dark places can the light of love even shine?

ed also said that:
"You kill yourself and you make a big old sacrifice and try to get your revenge. That all you're gonna end up with is a paragraph in a newspaper. In the end, it does nothing. Nothing changes. The world goes on and you're gone. The best revenge is to live on and prove yourself. (Talking about suicide)"

i agree with that. and you never should loose your hope.
"no matter how cold the winter, there's a springtime ahead".

In My Dreams

I weaned myself off anti-depressants. Ironically they can lead to suicidal thoughts. Nasty, nasty shit.