I guess how I look at it is...well...now you know you deserve far better, you want better, will seek better and require it of any man that comes into your life. You might not have realized that/learned and accepted that about yourself had you just believed him and walked away. You might have just walked away with your tail between your legs....submissive to the next guy and perhaps repeat the mistakes. Know what I mean?
I give you props...you tried...it didn't work, for lots of reasons that only you are privy to the details, it didn't work.....and it's an eye-opener for you as person, a woman.
Let's hope I can take this with me! for me it's day by day...and today this is how I feel...pissed:mad: !!
"I'm not present, I'm a drug that makes you dream"
Let's hope I can take this with me! for me it's day by day...and today this is how I feel...pissed:mad: !!
all part of the process, my friend....all part of the process!
believe it or not, we don't "need" anything. that is only the spoiled brat in us trying to fill some temporary solution to an emptyness that does not exist.
I have eaten so much gold I crapped excellence - drtyfrnk29
Life is either a daring adventure or nothing at all!
after another cop out today on his part.... I'm getting frustrated (Beyond).
There are things to be divided and shit to be taken care of in order for either of us to move on...and he seems to be dragging his feet on it. I am slowly going thru things and taking what I need to my new place but there are plenty of things that the 2 of us should go thru (mainly 10 years of memories in the basement). At this point I feel like setting fire to them instead of going through them alone. This house needs to be rented in order for me to be able to afford cable and such at my new place but he seems ok to let this drag out as long as possible...i guess that's the resentment of me having my own place as he lives with his mom..... I don't know I'm just beyond frustrated today and needed to VENT!
"I'm not present, I'm a drug that makes you dream"
after another cop out today on his part.... I'm getting frustrated (Beyond).
There are things to be divided and shit to be taken care of in order for either of us to move on...and he seems to be dragging his feet on it. I am slowly going thru things and taking what I need to my new place but there are plenty of things that the 2 of us should go thru (mainly 10 years of memories in the basement). At this point I feel like setting fire to them instead of going through them alone. This house needs to be rented in order for me to be able to afford cable and such at my new place but he seems ok to let this drag out as long as possible...i guess that's the resentment of me having my own place as he lives with his mom..... I don't know I'm just beyond frustrated today and needed to VENT!
DON'T BURN IT. Why don't you just take a big dump* on his belongings instead. *i mean that literally as in crap, poop, ect...
Well after waiting for him to come around and go thru things with me....I decided to try to do some of it.....
it's friggin awful! I found a lot of things that brought back great memories...which is a good thing but then it makes you wonder how you can go from that to this. 10 years of things...high school grad gowns, his Pharmacy school lab coat (i remember going with him to buy it cause i was suspended from school that day), his pharm school grad gown (he graduated 3 days before we were married)....and just so many other things. I don't even know what to do with the boxes marked Wedding Stuff....I kinda think i might never go thru them:( What do you do with these things...the wedding stuff??
I guess I'll sell my wedding china on ebay, i have no need for it. Tomorrow night I think I'll go thru more shit...It has to be done some time and the longer I wait for him to help me with it the longer till it's done. I just want to put this mess behind me, cause that's what it's become....a mess.
* I had a dream he told me he reads all my posts on here....so if it's true....HELLO MARC:D
"I'm not present, I'm a drug that makes you dream"
Well after waiting for him to come around and go thru things with me....I decided to try to do some of it.....
it's friggin awful! I found a lot of things that brought back great memories...which is a good thing but then it makes you wonder how you can go from that to this. 10 years of things...high school grad gowns, his Pharmacy school lab coat (i remember going with him to buy it cause i was suspended from school that day), his pharm school grad gown (he graduated 3 days before we were married)....and just so many other things. I don't even know what to do with the boxes marked Wedding Stuff....I kinda think i might never go thru them:( What do you do with these things...the wedding stuff??
I guess I'll sell my wedding china on ebay, i have no need for it. Tomorrow night I think I'll go thru more shit...It has to be done some time and the longer I wait for him to help me with it the longer till it's done. I just want to put this mess behind me, cause that's what it's become....a mess.
* I had a dream he told me he reads all my posts on here....so if it's true....HELLO MARC:D
About what to do with the wedding stuff.... I avoid looking at it as much as possible, but will still keep it. It was part of what makes me who I am. It's about me now, even if she isn't around. I liken it to war memorabilia I suppose
'We're learning songs for baby Jesus' birthday. His mum and dad were Merry and Joseph. He had a bed made of clay and the three kings bought him Gold, Frankenstein and Merv as presents.'
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all part of the process, my friend....all part of the process!
I have eaten so much gold I crapped excellence - drtyfrnk29
Life is either a daring adventure or nothing at all!
thanks
There are things to be divided and shit to be taken care of in order for either of us to move on...and he seems to be dragging his feet on it. I am slowly going thru things and taking what I need to my new place but there are plenty of things that the 2 of us should go thru (mainly 10 years of memories in the basement). At this point I feel like setting fire to them instead of going through them alone. This house needs to be rented in order for me to be able to afford cable and such at my new place but he seems ok to let this drag out as long as possible...i guess that's the resentment of me having my own place as he lives with his mom..... I don't know I'm just beyond frustrated today and needed to VENT!
EV- 08/09,10/2008.06/08,09/2009
it's friggin awful! I found a lot of things that brought back great memories...which is a good thing but then it makes you wonder how you can go from that to this. 10 years of things...high school grad gowns, his Pharmacy school lab coat (i remember going with him to buy it cause i was suspended from school that day), his pharm school grad gown (he graduated 3 days before we were married)....and just so many other things. I don't even know what to do with the boxes marked Wedding Stuff....I kinda think i might never go thru them:( What do you do with these things...the wedding stuff??
I guess I'll sell my wedding china on ebay, i have no need for it. Tomorrow night I think I'll go thru more shit...It has to be done some time and the longer I wait for him to help me with it the longer till it's done. I just want to put this mess behind me, cause that's what it's become....a mess.
* I had a dream he told me he reads all my posts on here....so if it's true....HELLO MARC:D
About what to do with the wedding stuff.... I avoid looking at it as much as possible, but will still keep it. It was part of what makes me who I am. It's about me now, even if she isn't around. I liken it to war memorabilia I suppose
- the great Sir Leo Harrison
when i look at the photos...it's almost as if I see 2 different people in them then I see now.