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answers are fatal

CHANGEinWAVES wrote:

he wants the dc reaper poster! :eek:

and board games!!!??? wtf!

what a dork. who would want board games? ? ? ? thats just embarrassing

CHANGEinWAVES

answers are fatal wrote:

what a dork. who would want board games? ? ? ? thats just embarrassing

OHHH don't pretend u hate him now! U and him shared in ur Dorkdom! All those vacations i was stuck with u 2 science GEEKS;)

CHANGEinWAVES

CHANGEinWAVES wrote:

So how is it he gets to have a girlfriend already!!??
I don't want him back or anything of that sort...just kinda jealous that he's not going thru this alone right now like I am. Augh!

i guess this explains the bite mark sized bruise on his arm.....GAG!

CHANGEinWAVES

Sooo I just had the most disturbing dream about sleeping with my soon to be ex and McDonalds breakfast sandwiches. Food in a dream not strange...sex in a dream not strange....the strange part was that he was my husband, had the same name same situation as it is now, even interacted with my family as my husband in my dream...BUT...he had the apperance of a guy I recently dated! :eek:
I can't wrap my brain around this one! Kinda is freakin me out! I guess its just a dream!

EvilMerlin

CHANGEinWAVES wrote:

Sooo I just had the most disturbing dream about sleeping with my soon to be ex and McDonalds breakfast sandwiches. Food in a dream not strange...sex in a dream not strange....the strange part was that he was my husband, had the same name same situation as it is now, even interacted with my family as my husband in my dream...BUT...he had the apperance of a guy I recently dated! :eek:
I can't wrap my brain around this one! Kinda is freakin me out! I guess its just a dream!

Only one question remains...how was the food involved? :eek:

CHANGEinWAVES

EvilMerlin wrote:

Only one question remains...how was the food involved? :eek:

Well food after sex can be a wonderful thing...and these breakfast sandwiches were the BEST ever! Actually now that I think of it that's the one thing that's out of character for the soon to be ex husband..he doesn't like Mcdonalds bfast sandwiches.hhhhmmmmmm! :rolleyes:lol

EvilMerlin

CHANGEinWAVES wrote:

Well food after sex can be a wonderful thing...and these breakfast sandwiches were the BEST ever! Actually now that I think of it that's the one thing that's out of character for the soon to be ex husband..he doesn't like Mcdonalds bfast sandwiches.hhhhmmmmmm! :rolleyes:lol

Your inner mind is totally effing with you right now!

CHANGEinWAVES

EvilMerlin wrote:

Your inner mind is totally effing with you right now!

Yes! Its saying..."U were screwed over by 2 guys...and YOU'RE HUNGRY;)"

EvilMerlin

CHANGEinWAVES wrote:

Yes! Its saying..."U were screwed over by 2 guys...and YOU'RE HUNGRY;)"

Eat the pain away!

Wait...no, don't do that. Bad advice...I apologize for that.

Good luck to you and what your new future holds you. I'm sure it will be far superior to anything you've ever thought you'd have.

CHANGEinWAVES

EvilMerlin wrote:

Eat the pain away!

Wait...no, don't do that. Bad advice...I apologize for that.

Good luck to you and what your new future holds you. I'm sure it will be far superior to anything you've ever thought you'd have.

As long as there is McDonalds bfast sanwiches in the future then I'm good!

EvilMerlin

CHANGEinWAVES wrote:

As long as there is McDonalds bfast sanwiches in the future then I'm good!

haha good then!

I'm a jack in the box man myself...mmmmmm....supreme croissants...mmmmm.

CHANGEinWAVES

EvilMerlin wrote:

haha good then!

I'm a jack in the box man myself...mmmmmm....supreme croissants...mmmmm.

We don't have jack in the box:(

EvilMerlin

CHANGEinWAVES wrote:

We don't have jack in the box:(

No person should have to live like that...

(even though I only eat there like once a month, if that...still the option is nice!)

CHANGEinWAVES

Ok so a lot has been going thru my mind about this, this weekend considering I will be served with divorce papers this coming week. Mostly I'm mad at myself! I think back to when he first told me, when he said.. "I don't love you, and I haven't for a long time"...my reaction was that he was wrong and just had to get past something, that maybe he was going thru a crisis of sorts. I wanted to MAKE him love me again...this is what angers me about myself. I should of had more self respect and said to him that if he didn't love me then it's over cause I DESERVE someone who will love me like I love them. I shouldn't of been exhausting myself to make something out of nothing. I guess where I'm going with this is, why do we forfeit ourselves for what we think we need? If I could of just accepted the fact that he didn't love me then and not wasted so much of myself feeling like I could convince him otherwise I might be in a better place now, that's why I'm so pissed at myself!

Nothingman54

CHANGEinWAVES wrote:

The 'husband' and I are starting and sending out the divorce paperwork tomorrow....I'm sad,nervous and excited at the same time!

**yes I realize I spelled beginning wrong:(

Congrats

Nothingman54

CHANGEinWAVES wrote:

Ok so a lot has been going thru my mind about this, this weekend considering I will be served with divorce papers this coming week. Mostly I'm mad at myself! I think back to when he first told me, when he said.. "I don't love you, and I haven't for a long time"...my reaction was that he was wrong and just had to get past something, that maybe he was going thru a crisis of sorts. I wanted to MAKE him love me again...this is what angers me about myself. I should of had more self respect and said to him that if he didn't love me then it's over cause I DESERVE someone who will love me like I love them. I shouldn't of been exhausting myself to make something out of nothing. I guess where I'm going with this is, why do we forfeit ourselves for what we think we need? If I could of just accepted the fact that he didn't love me then and not wasted so much of myself feeling like I could convince him otherwise I might be in a better place now, that's why I'm so pissed at myself!

I think most people would do the same thing. Trying to make the person love you. What do you do when your spouse is mad at you? You try to make them happy, try to change thier mind. Its human nature.

CHANGEinWAVES

Nothingman54 wrote:

I think most people would do the same thing. Trying to make the person love you. What do you do when your spouse is mad at you? You try to make them happy, try to change thier mind. Its human nature.

I guess you're right...it's just at this point when I look back I would of been much better off if I would of taken what he said as what was instead of being in denial and constantly trying to convince him he could love me.

Whizbang

CHANGEinWAVES wrote:

I guess you're right...it's just at this point when I look back I would of been much better off if I would of taken what he said as what was instead of being in denial and constantly trying to convince him he could love me.

Nah....you made a choice, regardless of whether it was right or wrong, you made it. Had you not gone that route, you may have not discovered this "flaw" in yourself (I used that loosely as who am I to say that is a flaw of yours) until later. Learn from it and move on but regret it? Nope, regret would have been walking away only to find out too late he really wanted you to try hard for him. Regret things you don't do....not what you've done.

CHANGEinWAVES

Whizbang wrote:

Nah....you made a choice, regardless of whether it was right or wrong, you made it. Had you not gone that route, you may have not discovered this "flaw" in yourself (I used that loosely as who am I to say that is a flaw of yours) until later. Learn from it and move on but regret it? Nope, regret would have been walking away only to find out too late he really wanted you to try hard for him. Regret things you don't do....not what you've done.

I guess regret was a harsh term...but I am angry with myself for not standing up for myself and feeling like I deserve better. All that I sacrificed of myself during those beginning months, I feel like a fool. I gave all I could of myself to try and make him see he loved me, instead of being confident enough that if he didn't love me for what I was at that moment then I should find someone who does. I guess its an internal struggle right now.

Whizbang

CHANGEinWAVES wrote:

I guess regret was a harsh term...but I am angry with myself for not standing up for myself and feeling like I deserve better. All that I sacrificed of myself during those beginning months, I feel like a fool. I gave all I could of myself to try and make him see he loved me, instead of being confident enough that if he didn't love me for what I was at that moment then I should find someone who does. I guess its an internal struggle right now.

I may have sounded harsh...damn written word!

I guess how I look at it is...well...now you know you deserve far better, you want better, will seek better and require it of any man that comes into your life. You might not have realized that/learned and accepted that about yourself had you just believed him and walked away. You might have just walked away with your tail between your legs....submissive to the next guy and perhaps repeat the mistakes. Know what I mean?

I give you props...you tried...it didn't work, for lots of reasons that only you are privy to the details, it didn't work.....and it's an eye-opener for you as person, a woman.