I think I need some help.

harmless_little_f***
harmless_little_f*** Posts: 8,005
edited March 2008 in All Encompassing Trip
My last few weeks have bashed me down further and further, until today for the second time this week I've wondered whether it'd be better to just end everything. I just need someone to tell me they know what I'm talking about. I almost phoned the Samaritans tonight but then I remembered I wasn't banned anymore.
'We're learning songs for baby Jesus' birthday. His mum and dad were Merry and Joseph. He had a bed made of clay and the three kings bought him Gold, Frankenstein and Merv as presents.'

- the great Sir Leo Harrison
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  • GreenTeaDisease
    GreenTeaDisease Posts: 3,359
    harmless_little_f*** wrote:
    My last few weeks have bashed me down further and further, until today for the second time this week I've wondered whether it'd be better to just end everything. I just need someone to tell me they know what I'm talking about.

    harmless no! I thought you were having so much fun with your new group of friends and all???
  • urbanhippie
    urbanhippie Posts: 3,007
    {{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}


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  • harmless_little_f***
    harmless_little_f*** Posts: 8,005
    GreenTeaDisease wrote:
    harmless no! I thought you were having so much fun with your new group of friends and all???

    My friends are cool. One of them is having a depressive episode. The other is hiding out in his room all the time. It's not their fault. It's work. My boss is a bully and repeatedly makes me feel as if I'm the chewing gum she just picked up on her shoes. Sometimes I feel like I want to make her know how she makes me feel.
    'We're learning songs for baby Jesus' birthday. His mum and dad were Merry and Joseph. He had a bed made of clay and the three kings bought him Gold, Frankenstein and Merv as presents.'

    - the great Sir Leo Harrison
  • Vedderlution_Baby
    Vedderlution_Baby Posts: 2,535
    harmless_little_f*** wrote:
    My last few weeks have bashed me down further and further, until today for the second time this week I've wondered whether it'd be better to just end everything. I just need someone to tell me they know what I'm talking about. I almost phoned the Samaritans tonight but then I remembered I wasn't banned anymore.


    Well, as of lately the pros of not waking up outweigh the cons. But I have to get up to see if your rocket chair is up yet. But yea, I think I get what you say.
  • GreenTeaDisease
    GreenTeaDisease Posts: 3,359
    harmless_little_f*** wrote:
    My friends are cool. One of them is having a depressive episode. The other is hiding out in his room all the time. It's not their fault. It's work. My boss is a bully and repeatedly makes me feel as if I'm the chewing gum she just picked up on her shoes. Sometimes I feel like I want to make her know how she makes me feel.

    ugh bad situation. I know how work problems feel, it can consume you. I just left the office for over 2 hours and nobody even noticed...
  • harmless_little_f***
    harmless_little_f*** Posts: 8,005
    Vedderlution_Baby! wrote:
    Well, as of lately the pros of not waking up outweigh the cons. But I have to get up to see if your rocket chair is up yet. But yea, I think I get what you say.

    Next week, my boss won't be around. If she came back from her holiday and neither was I anymore, she'd know what she made me feel like. It's a temptation. But I'm fighting it.
    'We're learning songs for baby Jesus' birthday. His mum and dad were Merry and Joseph. He had a bed made of clay and the three kings bought him Gold, Frankenstein and Merv as presents.'

    - the great Sir Leo Harrison
  • Vedderlution_Baby
    Vedderlution_Baby Posts: 2,535
    harmless_little_f*** wrote:
    Next week, my boss won't be around. If she came back from her holiday and neither was I anymore, she'd know what she made me feel like. It's a temptation. But I'm fighting it.


    I often think that those in the insane asylums got it the easiest. They don't have to deal with people. No relationships...not having to worry about how someone is feeling...or doing this so that will happen...they always know where their jacket is...
  • AnnaMelinda
    AnnaMelinda Posts: 331
    harmless_little_f*** wrote:
    Sometimes I feel like I want to make her know how she makes me feel.

    Good Luck. Try to be positive. It does always get better, yes?
    sometimes life don't leave you alone
  • norm
    norm Posts: 31,146
    harmless_little_f*** wrote:
    Next week, my boss won't be around. If she came back from her holiday and neither was I anymore, she'd know what she made me feel like. It's a temptation. But I'm fighting it.


    it's not worth it mark and i think you know this.....if she is really is a asshole then she probably wouldn't care much if you were gone....
  • Indian Summer
    Indian Summer Posts: 2,296
    Just quit if this job if its that bad.
    "It's all happening"
  • Cropduster84
    Cropduster84 Posts: 1,283
    harmless_little_f*** wrote:
    Next week, my boss won't be around. If she came back from her holiday and neither was I anymore, she'd know what she made me feel like. It's a temptation. But I'm fighting it.


    That really sucks, and thats a major understatent.


    Last November I went through a similar thing - of wanting to end it all. I wouldnt leave the house or eat/wash for days. It got pretty bad.

    But something made me snap out of that and its hard to explain on here.

    Samaritans helped me too by the way and I got on a good counselling program.....

    If you need anything PM me.....if not I really hope you're ok..........
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  • failedpersephone
    failedpersephone Posts: 3,424
    Harmless...I don't know what to say!

    :(


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  • Phantom Pain
    Phantom Pain Posts: 9,876
    I hope there is more to the story then some asshole boss ?

    I would never let anyone especially a boss affect me that much

    Tell her how you feel or quit the job, maybe she needs to be put in her place !
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  • harmless_little_f***
    harmless_little_f*** Posts: 8,005
    Phantom Pain wrote:
    I hope there is more to the story then some asshole boss ?

    I would never let anyone especially a boss affect me that much

    Tell her how you feel or quit the job, maybe she needs to be put in her place !

    There's a huge amount more than the boss.

    I won't quit because I love the fucking job. :) There's more at stake than her. I don't give a shit about her. But I give a lot of shits about my homeless clients. The fact that she has to be my manager just repeatedly breaks me. Why the fuck couldn't I get a different manager? Anyone else would've been fine.
    'We're learning songs for baby Jesus' birthday. His mum and dad were Merry and Joseph. He had a bed made of clay and the three kings bought him Gold, Frankenstein and Merv as presents.'

    - the great Sir Leo Harrison
  • Steve Dunne
    Steve Dunne Posts: 4,965
    OK Mark - here it comes...

    SNAP OUT OF IT!!!! :D

    Sorry, ya know I had to throw that in there...

    Get out for some pints...and have a few for me!
    I love to turn you on
  • Indian Summer
    Indian Summer Posts: 2,296
    First you say:
    harmless_little_f*** wrote:
    It's not their fault. It's work.



    Then you say:
    harmless_little_f*** wrote:
    There's a huge amount more than the boss.

    I won't quit because I love the fucking job. :) There's more at stake than her.


    So what's the deal?
    "It's all happening"
  • halszka123
    halszka123 Posts: 1,109
    think this way: only U (U!) choose how U feel. Your job or your work (even your boss) has not bigger influence on You than 'Yourself. Sometimes U have to leave Your currently work to stay (be) yourself). It's not the end of life when U changing Your work. it's make your life more difficult but not worthless...
    Think" I am mine". It's so simple but so true, sometimes try to think about yourself. You worth it!
    And Your life worth it!
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  • harmless_little_f***
    harmless_little_f*** Posts: 8,005
    Indian Summer wrote:
    First you say:



    Then you say:




    So what's the deal?

    Really? You can't see how those statements can co-exist? Well then there's no point in me trying to explain it.
    'We're learning songs for baby Jesus' birthday. His mum and dad were Merry and Joseph. He had a bed made of clay and the three kings bought him Gold, Frankenstein and Merv as presents.'

    - the great Sir Leo Harrison
  • halszka123
    halszka123 Posts: 1,109
    BTW. i have good boss, i earn not bad money, but i feel i don't develope.
    I feel like a shit.
    For a few months I will have to change my work -even i earn good money. I know i don't develope. it makes me angry. i don't want to earned much money, i want to be good in my job! it's not only about me!
    If i quit for my plans i will lose myself.
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  • Lizard
    Lizard So Cal Posts: 12,091
    Harmless---hope things get better for you.
    and for heaven's sake don't do anything rash!!!

    :)
    So I'll just lie down and wait for the dream
    Where I'm not ugly and you're lookin' at me

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