A Second Adolescence
musicismylife78
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Feels like I am going through one.
I am 24 and as many know, I graduated college, and just felt like I had a breakdown and a quarter life crisis. I am trying to find myself.
But all the old teen feelings of angst, insecurity, doubt, not knowing who I am, trying to belong and fit in, trying to be part of a community or group and feeling alienated are primary in my feelings right now.
But I also feel like I am coming out of my shell. I was and always have been a good kid, I am still at 24 a straight edger. And am not about to go and drink and do drugs, but I almost feel like I needed to spice up my life.
I cut my long hair, I got a job, I was always shy, and now volunteer at a local music venue several times a week, and my job at a grocery stores requires me to be social as well. I feel this second lease on life. I feel as full of life as I ever, but still feel the same way i did in terms of the feelings outlined in the above paragraph. I was always a picky eater but have branched out and am frequently trying foods, something I wouldnt ever have done before. I am reading and watching shows that i wouldnt have in the past. I feel like I am putting myself out there more. Its all new.
I feel part of a movement and scene (indie rock) and identify with many bands for the first time since grunge, and I feel alive and awake. But as lost and confused as ever.
How is this possible? Am I really have a second adolescence? How does one like me go about it, as I want to remain a straightedger, and feel like my first adolescence wasnt all that exciting?
I am 24 and as many know, I graduated college, and just felt like I had a breakdown and a quarter life crisis. I am trying to find myself.
But all the old teen feelings of angst, insecurity, doubt, not knowing who I am, trying to belong and fit in, trying to be part of a community or group and feeling alienated are primary in my feelings right now.
But I also feel like I am coming out of my shell. I was and always have been a good kid, I am still at 24 a straight edger. And am not about to go and drink and do drugs, but I almost feel like I needed to spice up my life.
I cut my long hair, I got a job, I was always shy, and now volunteer at a local music venue several times a week, and my job at a grocery stores requires me to be social as well. I feel this second lease on life. I feel as full of life as I ever, but still feel the same way i did in terms of the feelings outlined in the above paragraph. I was always a picky eater but have branched out and am frequently trying foods, something I wouldnt ever have done before. I am reading and watching shows that i wouldnt have in the past. I feel like I am putting myself out there more. Its all new.
I feel part of a movement and scene (indie rock) and identify with many bands for the first time since grunge, and I feel alive and awake. But as lost and confused as ever.
How is this possible? Am I really have a second adolescence? How does one like me go about it, as I want to remain a straightedger, and feel like my first adolescence wasnt all that exciting?
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