Online Stalking

MerkingBoy

don't lie or hide it, we all do it.

i like to look up ex-classmates and co-workers on the googles, myspaces, youtubes and other popular sites. it can be fun and exciting sometimes, but more often than not, it's usually bring sadness to my self.

sad part is when you find an old classmate love and find out she's married and have 2 kids. that makes me sad, i wish i could have not fucked up in my teens.

i have so much regrets and so much to repair for my future, if i have any. :(

GraySaturday

Don't live in regrets.. It's all about moving on.

What's meant to be will be, what's not, well it's not.


I don't "stalk" people online.. But my first serious boyfriend, whom I loved very much and gave me the gift of Pearl Jam, is the only boyfriend I'd care to hear about now a days, but I can't seem to locate him. I looked him up on facebook, but I don't think his profile is filled out, hope he's doing well. Not in a stalker way, like I wish I could find him to get a lock of his hair for my shrine, but more like he was awesome, he taught me a lot and he is someone I won't ever forget.

brain of c

why do i keep fucking up?

Lukin66

this thread is ironic

CHANGEinWAVES

Lukin66 wrote:

this thread is ironic

that's what i was thinking.

given2fly10

Lukin66 wrote:

this thread is ironic

dont ya think, its like rain on a wedding, its a free ride

MerkingBoy

GraySaturday wrote:

Don't live in regrets.. It's all about moving on.

What's meant to be will be, what's not, well it's not.


I don't "stalk" people online.. But my first serious boyfriend, whom I loved very much and gave me the gift of Pearl Jam, is the only boyfriend I'd care to hear about now a days, but I can't seem to locate him. I looked him up on facebook, but I don't think his profile is filled out, hope he's doing well. Not in a stalker way, like I wish I could find him to get a lock of his hair for my shrine, but more like he was awesome, he taught me a lot and he is someone I won't ever forget.

you have a shrine full o people's hair? creepy!

anyways, it's not that easy to move on then all of you're constantly asked and having to converse about your past. how do you not talk about yourself and just the other people? they think i'm a creep or weirdo when i refuse to open myself up.

GraySaturday

MerkingBoy wrote:

you have a shrine full o people's hair? creepy!

anyways, it's not that easy to move on then all of you're constantly asked and having to converse about your past. how do you not talk about yourself and just the other people? they think i'm a creep or weirdo when i refuse to open myself up.

Um, I said its not like I have a shrine :rolleyes:

Um.. also I'm not sure what exactly you're talking about. Just don't talk about your past ex's with people? Your original post is about you looking up people and getting all sad.. I guess don't look them up and try to reconnect?

MerkingBoy

GraySaturday wrote:

Um, I said its not like I have a shrine :rolleyes:

Um.. also I'm not sure what exactly you're talking about. Just don't talk about your past ex's with people? Your original post is about you looking up people and getting all sad.. I guess don't look them up and try to reconnect?

i have a very hard time reconnecting with my childhoodfriends. all have called and asked about me through my siblings and such but i refuse to get back to them. i can honestly say that i don't know why i do that.

it's like i'm trying to escape from my past yet the people are trying to reconnect with me,.

Jeanie

MerkingBoy wrote:

don't lie or hide it, we all do it.

i like to look up ex-classmates and co-workers on the googles, myspaces, youtubes and other popular sites. it can be fun and exciting sometimes, but more often than not, it's usually bring sadness to my self.

sad part is when you find an old classmate love and find out she's married and have 2 kids. that makes me sad, i wish i could have not fucked up in my teens.

i have so much regrets and so much to repair for my future, if i have any. :(

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xwamCGQU7_s

MerkingBoy

Jeanie wrote:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xwamCGQU7_s

thanks for the video. Ed didn't come to terms with himself til he was 38 or 39.

i'm much younger than that but i ain't no big shot rockstart like Ed neither so my hopes are much slimmer. i got more to overcomethan he did.

stylo17

MerkingBoy wrote:

don't lie or hide it, we all do it.

i like to look up ex-classmates and co-workers on the googles, myspaces, youtubes and other popular sites. it can be fun and exciting sometimes, but more often than not, it's usually bring sadness to my self.

sad part is when you find an old classmate love and find out she's married and have 2 kids. that makes me sad, i wish i could have not fucked up in my teens.

i have so much regrets and so much to repair for my future, if i have any. :(

I understand.

MerkingBoy

Lukin66 wrote:

this thread is ironic

CHANGEinWAVES wrote:

that's what i was thinking.

given2fly10 wrote:

dont ya think, its like rain on a wedding, its a free ride

i know the three of you are enjoying this on my expense, and i'm glad i helped.

CHANGEinWAVES

MerkingBoy wrote:

i know the three of you are enjoying this on my expense, and i'm glad i helped.

trust me I know what it feels like for some one to enjoy something at my expense.

MerkingBoy

CHANGEinWAVES wrote:

trust me I know what it feels like for some one to enjoy something at my expense.

I'm sorry again for that. I know two or three comments would have just been fine BUT i totally went overboard with it. And for it, I'm truly sorry.

CHANGEinWAVES

MerkingBoy wrote:

I'm sorry again for that. I know two or three comments would have just been fine BUT i totally went overboard with it. And for it, I'm truly sorry.

i appreciate the apology.

South of Seattle

MerkingBoy wrote:

don't lie or hide it, we all do it.

i like to look up ex-classmates and co-workers on the googles, myspaces, youtubes and other popular sites. it can be fun and exciting sometimes, but more often than not, it's usually bring sadness to my self.

sad part is when you find an old classmate love and find out she's married and have 2 kids. that makes me sad, i wish i could have not fucked up in my teens.

i have so much regrets and so much to repair for my future, if i have any. :(

I remember 8/23/03 just like it was yesterday. I can't believe that's when you joined. I live on two legs too, Just like you.

MerkingBoy

South of Seattle wrote:

I remember 8/23/03 just like it was yesterday. I can't believe that's when you joined. I live on two legs too, Just like you.

Great year for me to live life to the fullest, and carelessly I did. Not sure how I stayed alive 5 years later.

Jeanie

MerkingBoy wrote:

thanks for the video. Ed didn't come to terms with himself til he was 38 or 39.

i'm much younger than that but i ain't no big shot rockstart like Ed neither so my hopes are much slimmer. i got more to overcomethan he did.

Well regardless of who wins in the shitty life stakes or where you are in your life, the bottom line is you've only got one life to live. May as well make it as kick ass as you can no matter what utter bullshit gets thrown your way because there's one thing I know for sure, there will always be bullshit in life, it's only the depth that varies and how you learn to wade on through regardless. Or to quote Ed, nothing's changed but the surrounding bullshit that has grown

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D4n6LP_VReM

Or if you'd prefer this great quote that my Gran, a remarkable woman, was oft heard to say.

Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.
-- Reinhold Niebuhr

SENROCK

MerkingBoy wrote:

don't lie or hide it, we all do it.

HAHA! no. we DONT all do it.

lukin2006

MerkingBoy wrote:

don't lie or hide it, we all do it.

i like to look up ex-classmates and co-workers on the googles, myspaces, youtubes and other popular sites. it can be fun and exciting sometimes, but more often than not, it's usually bring sadness to my self.

sad part is when you find an old classmate love and find out she's married and have 2 kids. that makes me sad, i wish i could have not fucked up in my teens.

i have so much regrets and so much to repair for my future, if i have any. :(

I have made contact with old school mates and most have made contact back which was nice. The one person I was hoping would make contact never did, but no regrets, just move on and whats meant to be is meant to be, we all screw up, we're human. Good luck.