the wait..

heartshine

we're okay..
cause we're alive..
she don't know any better...here or there..now and gone..
just sleeps..
the waves keep bashing me into the rocks..
this set carries of shards of sunken sadness..
stab at my heart..anxiety in my guts..denial..bloodshot..
blank stares..no answers..

want to trust in nature..
fucking rip off..
fucking pain...

there's no soup that can melt this sick away...
there's no tincture to soothe her body well again..
her brother and sisters have to say goodbye..
those machines that help her sleep alive..will also take her away..

the seconds tick by..
we're too far away..
waiting for phone calls..
we're all sick for her to stay..
how could mother nature let this baby lady go like this...

we soothe i suppose..with hope and trust ..
things meant to be...
just fooling ourselves..

it's a mess..we're a mess..
there's no answers..just pain..
and she's slipping away...

the difference in a day..
we wake up..we're okay..
prepare for the pain..

all we can do is hold our sweet lums..
their preciousness..warm skins..soft kid love...sweet smells..
let it all go..fill up with their magic..
to be in every second with them..their lives..

we don't need the reminders..there's been enough
of those..time to face the pain again..
a pain i know all too well..
just every time..you'd think it would be more bearable..
it's worse..
how do we move through this kind of darkness..hoping
it just fades slowly over time..
don't want her to fade..
she deserves this life..

"that's one more kid..that will never go to school..never get to fall in LOVE
never get to be cool.."

reeferchief

Nice and sad at the same time.
Peace be with you and your loved ones.

eulusso

very sad, be brave my father used to tell me.

change came in one day
faster than a blink of an eye
longer than a long winter
E.