Youth

writersu

Youth struts by...blatently proud
Inwardly a mess
Defiantly fucked up---
Internally, yet smiles
And says,"Hi" to spread good cheer.

Youth goes on in circles
And in pain and confusion
Yet still can laugh
And find a place
To fall apart as one.

At one point I could endure
So deep and yet believe
It all would mend
And go away into a place
Too deep and dark to ever return to.

The faces I had looked upon
And those who judged me wrong
(although they ran with me)
Never really knew
Just who I was.

Was able to at least externally
Shrug off the bad aura
That they cast upon me
In their superior
Unknowing way.

No longer can I just ignore
Although I should be quite thick
And quite use to adverse
Reactions in my honour
I don't request.

I am no longer youth
Nor do I think I stand forever
And I shrink down, not stand
To all of my defiant
Frightening nightmares.

In dreams I fly so far so free
So unhibited in spirit
So comfortable with who I am
Not who I'll never be
Too many chains now hold me down.

And all the while youth struts by
Its walked right by me--who was she?
Is she who I once was--has she
Become who I was suppose to
Or did I take a wrong turn?

My heart, my eyes show time gone by
My amnesia serves me well
Forget all that I felt and see
That we all arrive to that place
Where no ones looking anymore...

chadwick

Spectacular.

writersu

thanks...........truly.