Thursday night and anger fills me now

CHANGEinWAVES

You tell me don’t be sorry it’s a problem I always have
You call me co-dependant and walk right out the door
The thoughts you leave on my heart are never uplifting
Tomorrow, today and even yesterday never are the truth
What the fuck is going on, you’re here and you’re there
Stop tugging at my strings and let me see for myself
Your constant advice of who I should be is starting to get to me
I am not the addict I did not make the choice
You are the one who left me here and I don’t make you chose
The drugs were an escape I understand that
But it was not me you escaped, it was a full reality
I’m angry now after tonight and I wish you could see me
Fuming here and letting it go as my lungs scream out for you
Finally I feel anger towards your prestigious advise
The way you looked down on me as you walked away
I cried and you looked away and it angered me inside
Telling me to leave you alone and not to make u guilty
The guilt arose and drifted fast and this time it wasn’t there
You looked onward and smirked as I cried; you made it all a joke
I am not what you were and there’s no reason to treat me so
Discarding me like you did and wanting me to change
You said I don’t answer to you but yet you hold me captive
Every call reveals a new disaster you have hidden from me
What am I to do right now and how do I trust your words
Is your tongue twisted with lies or are you honest now
What should I believe and how do I trust
Desensitize yourself from me I can see it
Pretend I don’t exist until you need a reaction
These are the things you do and I know it
I can read your game and see your falsities
You are not who I thought or what you once were
Disregard my life I gave and offer me something fresh
Pushing me out the door and knowing I’ll be there
Can I growl and scream at you can I make you listen
Or have I given up my chance and let it slip away
Do I need to hold it in and let you off easy

catefrances

do not hold it all in. say what you need to say and dont let anyone get in the way, least of all him. he doesnt want to listen thats his problem not yours. fuck him. self absorbed cocksucker.

CHANGEinWAVES

catefrances wrote:

self absorbed cocksucker.

that about sums it up right now!
i think i held it in too long and he doesn't want to hear it now...i may have missed my chance:(

catefrances

CHANGEinWAVES wrote:

that about sums it up right now!
i think i held it in too long and he doesn't want to hear it now...i may have missed my chance:(

say it anyway. it needs to be out, give it life... otherwise tis just gonna fester and eat you up inside.

catefrances

p.s. just cause he doesnt want to hear it, doesnt mean he doesnt need to hear it.

CHANGEinWAVES

catefrances wrote:

p.s. just cause he doesnt want to hear it, doesnt mean he doesnt need to hear it.

that's a really good point.
so much has gone on and i've put my feelings on the side to allow for understanding...i think this maybe something i have to change.

bluejourneyman

Like a mentor once told me," It's a good chance to grow-don't fuck it up!"
Let the bastered have it-both barrels. Choose not to be the victim. . .

the wolf

i've been telling you for months now to let him have it.

i've said it b4, this is his fuck up, not yours. you should not be the one draggig this cross around on your back.

vows were broken, and not by you. FUCK HIM.

CHANGEinWAVES

the wolf wrote:

i've been telling you for months now to let him have it.

i've said it b4, this is his fuck up, not yours. you should not be the one draggig this cross around on your back.

vows were broken, and not by you. FUCK HIM.

bluejourneyman wrote:

Like a mentor once told me," It's a good chance to grow-don't fuck it up!"
Let the bastered have it-both barrels. Choose not to be the victim. . .

you are both right...thanks for firing me up!