feelings

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what do these words mean
how can i find them
the unknown
hands given
waiting on rain
waiting on snow
full of hope
but not enough understanding
teach me
to climb this mountain
without fear
without episodes
the quiet hell was given
it was so peaceful
but my hair
it stopped growing
my sleep raped me
i awoke with pain
but i survived it
and now i wait
for who
for you