not what i was thinkin of

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i made an poetry
i walked around it
i was pleased
i raised my hands
and worshiped my god
together as one
its what i felt
i didnt have to rise up
i put on my worst face
and smiled
i loved myself
my poetry was enough

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now i remember
i lost the sound
i smelled the nature
i gave away her smile
so i could here her sing and play

and she smiles on
and im here alone
unfortunately
this kind of hurt
will never die

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she'd rather be the third wheel
than be my friend
but shes the want i want to see
when the light descends
for i was given something
i could never lose
in fact id try to run
because it is hard the truth

now if i could take a picture
maybe kiss her once
i could hold forever
what once define as love
as a reflexion of light
from the highest place
she'd know for certain
that our time wasnt
a waste

dont i cry tonight
dont i cry tonight
i still love me baby

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my tears i know not where
they originate from
they were old
i gave them all
to your garden
nothing was pressing
i was free
i just stuck out my tongue
the world opened up
those eyes draw me in
the doctor soon knows
that im jealous again
or was she with him
that im sick again
but im driving away
hitchin rides
with underage punks
who carry guns

hey hey hey
fuck the kkk

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hi im deadnotes uncle brock

to many pills for him today

so hes out and im

taken over for a awhile

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i found a nice bed
where i could rest
all the pieces
that dont fit
in my heart

its really nice to
feel like you
found love
or to become
one with love

and it gets scary
to hold you
with someone
then i get to feelin
that the eyes arent
the same color
or the shape
has me wanting
what gave me a few days

maybe i will find a way
where im not jealous
where im good enough
where i dont loose you

im gonna soak up the son
teell everyone to lighten up

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i woke up on thje sidewalk
the sun was shining down
i was so low
just waiting for the shoe
i couldnt move
or wiggle into some food
i was dead
wishing i had some hands
wwhen the time went by
and all my strength had died
i prayed to remain alive
free from the light
someones life
to watch over carrying me around
feeling free