what the hell is going on?

deadnote

no its not funny
your so selfish i think?
if your gonna shoot
than shoot
well if im gonna do somethin bad
well there aint no stoppin you
on your way
down that lonely road
i wonder why
this world is ours
and its you and me here
for now
and if your gonna shoot
than im not worried about going
ive lived long enough
to say that i believe
and im not scared of dying
and i never will be scared
but your so selfish arent you?
whats it all about
you tryin to make me mean
or trying to arm me for
a day id rather avoid
so shoot me
itd just be better
im ready for heaven

deadnote

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deadnote

why do we teach being mean to harden a heart that might be soft
good god ive aged thirty years in the last six
whats it all for
i mean
im just ready to go
all these thoughts of dying and you dying its depth
its as deep a thought ive ever had
and driving is so stressful
and theres so many big trucks
and population growth
and the environment

so tie me down and turn your back to me
i wont ever give up on you in prayer
but i have to say that i pretty much hold onto a lot of hate
and i cant say that i hate you but youve just gone to far
time after time again and again the events of my life
they make no sense

and the responsibility i feel for my own behavior
i realize that for every action theres a re-action
and its you and me opposing each other
when there is love / hate is chosen

so give to me love or give me death

justam

deadnote wrote:

why do we teach being mean to harden a heart that might be soft
good god ive aged thirty years in the last six
whats it all for
i mean
im just ready to go
all these thoughts of dying and you dying its depth
its as deep a thought ive ever had
and driving is so stressful
and theres so many big trucks
and population growth
and the environment

so tie me down and turn your back to me
i wont ever give up on you in prayer
but i have to say that i pretty much hold onto a lot of hate
and i cant say that i hate you but youve just gone to far
time after time again and again the events of my life
they make no sense

and the responsibility i feel for my own behavior
i realize that for every action theres a re-action
and its you and me opposing each other
when there is love / hate is chosen

so give to me love or give me death

I hope love comes back to you.

Somedays just feel like a visit to hell don't they?

I know the days I feel attacked, I don't always respond well...but my heart always goes back to love.

deadnote

the speed of life
it changes everything
my temperature
my heart lost
searching for love
searching for unity
love is what

hell is being alone
after being together
hell is searching in the eyes of everyone
wondering who they really are
hell is being together
seperated

sometimes it feels like feeling is hell
opening what lies underneath
maybe a good thing
visions of your head down
walking away from me
it burns to regret words
it burns to be given acts
acts from hell

romybian

deadnote wrote:

sometimes it feels like feeling is hell

Cause visiting hell we learn to feel.